Ivan's POV
While I'm eating, Clair can't for the life of her stop talking. I don't know who told her that being this clingy when were are not even in a relationship is cute because it definitely isn't. She keeps touching me in inappropriate places and I normally wouldn't care but honestly I am debating reminding her that we're at freaking school and not a freaking night club. "Would you stop fucking touching me, Clair I'm trying to eat here" I say gritting my teeth. She immediately stops and her face reddens in embarrassment while others at the table snicker. I am eating my food when I look at Daniel eating opposite me and inhaling his own. We make eye contact and he sees the look of disgust on my face when we hear a commotion at the other end of the cafeteria. Both Dan and I look over at the commotion and see a girl I haven't seen around school before arguing with Ashley Ross I think her name is and Clair's sister on the ground. Looks like the new girl is defending Violet. I look over at Clair kind of expecting her to go to her little sister but she looks conflicted. Like she's unsure wether she should go stick up for her sister or not. Sadly, this isn't the first time this happened. Violet was bullied a lot last year too and Clair would always just do nothing. I will never get how she can just sit there and do nothing while her sister is in pain. However, it looks like Ashley is backing off and the new girl is sitting with Violet now. That's good. I look over at Clair again and see her continuing to eat her food and I shake my head in disappointment. Clair never fails to disappoint. If I saw my sister getting bullied I'd make the life of whoever bullied her a living hell. And I would not hesitate, I wouldn't look conflicted, I'd...protect her. But I can't do that, all I can do is hope that she's okay out there. Francisca's POV *after school* Violet already left a few minutes ago, I asked her for her number and she hesitantly gave it to me, she told me that having a friend is kind of new to her before she left, she asked to bear with her, but I honestly had no issue at all. I had no friends until Lori and Jenny, and I'm excited to get to know her better. Right now though I'm waiting for Matt to come pick me up while also kind of sort of hiding from my brothers and by hiding I mean leaning against the school wall and watching the doors for when my brothers get out. I am also kind of hoping to see dad come pick them up too. I'm "hiding" and then I see Ivan and Daniel getting out. I swear to god, I feel myself stop breathing. I quickly turn around so I now can only hear their voices. I hear Ivan sigh and say "why don't you wipe that grin of your face,Dan". Ivan says. "I'm just excited for dinner with dad today" I hear Dan say while chuckling. There is a pause and then Ivan speaks again. "Dad rarely eats dinner with us, I wouldn't get my hopes up". Ivan says. What is Ivan taking about? Why not? "Dad said he's trying to do better remember?" Dan says. "You don't actually believe that do you?" Ivan says. "Why wouldn't I?" Dan asks sounding upset. "Dad can't just suddenly decide to be a decent father,Dan"Ivan replies angrily. "It's stupid to think otherwise". He continues. There is a pause and then... "And why the hell not? He's been going through some stuff Ivan! We all have for years now! And now dad wants to make it better! He's willing to try and fix what's broken! So, yes I'm looking forward to seeing what he's going to do! I'm looking forward to possibly getting my dad back! To be somewhat a normal family!" I hear Ivan laugh at what Dan says, and my heart sinks. "You're really naive Dan, you really are, isn't that exactly the kind of attitude you had when mom and Francisca first left?" Ivan says. "Weren't you also this annoyingly positive? So sure that they'll be back? And how did that turn out for you huh?!" Ivan yells. Silence that is all I hear, then I see Dan heading away from Ivan, away from school grounds. "Dan come on!" I hear Ivan yell. "Dan!" He says again running after him. Soon enough they are both out of sight. That...was a lot. They aren't...happy, I mean of course they aren't they lost their mother and sister, they are obviously not okay with that. How could I have been so stupid? How could I think that they wouldn't care about me being gone? How could I question their love? I can't help but feel guilty for feeling all those feelings, I can't help but feel guilty for not going to them and telling them that I'm right here. But then I think of Matt and I-ugh I don't know what to do. I am snapped out of my thoughts when I hear Matt calling me from his car. I head to the car, Matt hugs me and starts asking me about my day. "Yeah it was great Matt, I made a friend" I say. "You did? That's great! You're new school year is starting of great!" He said looking excited. "Yeah..." I say. A sad look must be obvious in my face because Matt looks at me in concern and asks if I'm okay. "Yeah yeah I'm fine". I say but he looks totally unconvinced. "Did something happen?" He asks. And I actually debate wether or not I should tell him about my brothers attending the same school. Maybe....maybe I'll tell him eventually but now is not the right time. But when would be the right time? Dan's POV Ivan, dad and I are currently sitting at the dinning table eating. I knew we would eat with him today, I'm glad I proved Ivan wrong. I look over at Ivan and see him looking annoyed, I mentally roll my eyes. I decide to make conversation a little bit and said the first thing that came to mind. "Do you guys think Francisca had a sweet sixteen?" And then I realized what I just said. Both my dad and Ivan had this look on their faces that just said "you're a fucking idiot" and of course Ivan wasn't letting my idiocy go. "Are you fucking kidding me Dan!" Ivan said with a clenched jaw. Okay yeah I fucked up, I shouldn't have brought up Fran especially when tensions are running high, what I said was totally random and I shouldn't have said anything about her last birthday. "Ivan". My dad warned. Ivan just glared at him and was about to say something when I spoke up instead. "I'm sorry". I said " I shouldn't have said anything". "Yeah you shouldn't have" Ivan says glaring at me. Honestly Francisca is a sore topic for obvious reasons, I always find myself thinking about her and randomly bringing her up, it's always awkward after that. Nether dad or Ivan want to talk about her, it's like it's forbidden and I get why they don't want to, it hurts thinking about what happened, it hurts thinking about how she's not here right now. But I want to talk about her, all the time, I feel like talking would actually do some good, and you know what, since dad is changing things around here and being here more, I want to change some things too, I want us to be able to talk about Francisca freely, I want to even discuss the possibility of searching for her again. I know dad already searched heaven and earth for her when she first disappeared with mom and found nothing, but maybe we could try again. "But....I want to talk about Fran more". I say looking down at my plate. When I look up, I see Ivan still very much glaring at me and his jaw is clenched. I look over at dad and he has this look in his eye that makes me feel like he's thinking about what I'm saying and then his eyes soften when he looks at me. "So talk". Dad says and I'm surprised he agreed so quickly, dad never talked about Fran or mom or what happened after the search didn't work out, he just closed himself off completely and I saw the hope and confidence he had in the beginning when he started looking for them dim and disappear. "Really?" I ask, still not quite believing this. This is progress! Dad nods and Ivan scoffs. "You wanna talk fine let's talk!" Ivan yells. "Let's talk about how Francisca clearly could've reached out but apparently chose not to" Ivan continues. I see my dad stiffen, but I don't get where Ivan is getting at. "Francisca was ten years old when she left, ten!" He says. "She could've contacted us at any time in those years she's been away, maybe at first she couldn't do anything with mom controlling what she does online but you can't tell me that sixteen year old Francisca can't get on I*******m, find one of our accounts and dm one of us if she really wanted to". I thought he'd stop talking but he didn't he continued " a simple G****e search and she would find out where we are, where the company is, she has ways! She has ways to contact us! But we never heard anything from her, not even once!" Ivan's voice cracks at the end, it really seems like he's thought about that a lot. Ivan....well he kind of left me speechless here, but he's right, I actually never thought about that before, I have always been thinking about us finding her, not her finding us, could Francisca really not want to be found, not want to see us, did mom tell her something? I look over at dad and see a frown on his face, he looks quite saddened by what Ivan just said, but I think he knows he has a point too. "We don't know anything about Francisca's life or how it has been" dad says. "We don't know what your mother might have said to her, she could've told her that we didn't want her". "Bullshit!" Ivan cries. "Francisca isn't that stupid, she wouldn't believe we would abandon her, I don't buy it" "Sometimes son, when someone tells you something so many times no matter how absurde it may seem, you eventually begin to believe it". Dad says. "You really think mom would say that to her? Wouldn't that crush Francisca especially as a child?" I say. Dad shrugs and there is a sad look in his eyes "how else would she keep Francisca from asking questions" it wasn't a question, we kind of concluded that Francisca might be thinking the worst of us right now, which really upsets my stomach. Now I want to find her even more to clear things up. She can't believe that we don't want her, that we don't love her, because we do, more than anything we want her back.Francisca's POV It's been about two weeks since the new school year started, two weeks since I've seen my siblings in. Real. Life. Two weeks of seeing dad a couple of times from afar when he's dropping off Ivan and Dan, two weeks since Jenny and Lori last laughed at me when I told them that I was going to the same school as my brothers, two weeks of hiding the fact that I do go to school with my brothers from Matt, and on a lighter, more positive note, two weeks since I became friends with Violet. It's been kind of a slow process but I feel like we are getting closer and closer everyday! I noticed some things about her like she doesn't really like me touching her, she said she doesn't really like most people's touch in general, I also kind of noticed that she doesn't really understand my sarcasm lol such I'm not used to with Jenny and Lori but she has some pretty funny reactions to them haha. I kept actively avoiding my brothers at school of course, they seem to not have noticed me
Francisca’s POV She needs Clair? I was pretty sure that what Ashley said about Clair is the thing that triggered this panic attack, would bringing her really be a good idea? "Are you sure?" I ask "Yes.....please" Violet says. "Okay...okay I'll be right back okay, don't worry"I leave the bathroom quickly and head for the cafeteria hoping to find Clair at her usual spot....which is with my brothers...ugh the universe really doesn't like me. But I can't think about encountering my brothers right now, Violet needs me to bring her bitch of a sister to her so that's what I'm gonna do. I open the cafeteria doors and head for my brothers table only to not find neither Clair or Ivan, only Dan and their usual friends that I always see them with. "Um excuse me" I say. A couple of people stop their conversation to look at me and see what a random sophomore wants from them including Dan. I make eye contact with Dan and he looks at me confused and suddenly I'm not as confident as before.
Dan's POV *Flashback to 7 years ago* I'm playing video games in my room ignoring my maths homework that's sitting on my desk untouched when my door bursts open and Little 9 year old Francisca jumps on me and attacks me. She's on top of me and I groan when she says "Dan! Dan! Can you come play with me?" She asks. I get her off of me, "no can do sis, I'm in the middle of something" I bring my attention back to the tv screen and continue playing. "Come ooooon!" Francisca whines. "Please danny, you've been playing for hours and hooouuurrrss" ."Stop whining you baby, I don't want to play with you" I say "and calling me Danny isn't gonna work anymore" I continue narrowing my eyes at her. She pouts as I roll my eyes. I hate it when she calls me Danny, she always calls me that when she wants something like go play with her or if she wants the last chocolate chip cookie that I was about to eat. She calls me Danny and gives me those puppy dog eyes of hers and I just do whatever she w
Francisca's POV*gym class* Our gym teacher Mr Garrison is making us run laps and I feel like I'm dying. Violet is right behind me, We've stuck together ever since my first day at this school, and honestly I'm enjoying her company so much. I told Jenny and Lori all about her, and they said they are happy that I made a new friend so fast.Anyways I continue running until our gym teacher gives us a water break. I can't help but think about what happened in the cafeteria earlier. Why the heck did Dan approach us? Approach me? It was really weird, are they on to me or something? I mean if they knew who I was they would've said something right? Or maybe they're waiting for me to say something? Ugh I don't know I think I gotta stop overthinking this.Moments later Violet sits next to me, and drinks from her water. I debate asking her for advice on this whole situation. I really really want to talk to my brothers, to have an actual reunion. But then I think about Matt and feel so inc
Francisca's POV * Three years ago *I'm sitting alone at the dance, the father- daughter dance . I didn't want to come to this dance, I didn't want to think about how all these girls are with their fathers and I'm just missing mine. I hear about him. Almost every time I open my phone I search for his name, for my brothers name. I never have the courage to try and make contact though. Why? because I'm such a coward when it comes to this. I don't want to make mom mad, I fear to know if my father actually gave me up. But I guess because of those fears I'm where I am right now, alone in a father-daughter dance. I really really didn't want to come, but Jenny and Lori convinced me to, we've only been friends for two months and I don't want them to think I'm lame or something. They said that we'd be hanging out the whole time and we have, until it was time for the father - daughter dance. So here I am being miserable, just watching the fathers with their daughters. When suddenly I
Francisca's POV I wake up at the sound of Matt's voice telling me to wake up. I groan, "nooo Matt I don't wanna go to school". Matt chuckles "what are you 12?"I sit up and attempt to glare at him but I'm too tired to actually do it. Matt looks at me amused "come on" he says "breakfast is ready".I get out of bed and get ready. I head towards the kitchen and find Matt there. We begin eating and I think about if I should tell him about my brothers. I mean I am fond of Violet's idea, to just not tell Matt or dad about any of this, but is it the right thing to do? It's definitely the easiest thing. Even the easiest thing isn't that easy either ugh. I internally groan. "What's going on with you?" I hear Matt ask. "Hmm oh nothing, nothing is going on" I say too quickly. Matt narrows his eyes at me "are you sure? Because you have seemed a bit distracted in the last couple of days" he says. "Have I?" I ask nervously. "Yes, yes you have" he says "are you gonna tell me what's going
Dan's POV Ivan is currently in the principal's office along with William Bradly. The guy he had a fight with. I have no idea what happened, why Ivan beat him up so bad, why the fight started in the first place. I guess it's not exactly new behavior. He's gotten into fights before, both in and out of school.I was in my own thoughts when I see dad coming my way. We make eye contact and I stand up from my chair. "What happened?" Dad asks, he sounds totally pissed. "I don't know" I shrug. Dad nods and gives my shoulder a squeeze and heads inside. Once he does I notice Violet's friend to my right, a few feet away from me looking at the principle's door. What is she doing here? Just then a man and woman, who I presume are William's parents head inside too, not paying me any attention.I bring my attention back to Francisca and just stare at her. Seriously, why is she here? Did here friends send her to find out what happened or something? That's just annoying.Finally, she notice
Francisca's POVSitting in the car with Matt has never made me feel this nervous. I feel like i might throw up. What was that today!? Why did I devait from my own plan?! This is a complete and utter disaster! I couldn't find Dan again after our last god awful interaction, which means that he left school early with Ivan, which means that he probably told dad and Ivan about me. Ughhhhh can't one thing go right in my life!? "Are you okay?" Matt asks. "Mhm" I say as I look his way, he looks worried. I hate worrying him but I can't exactly tell him what's going on. I mean I have no idea what that conversation would even look like. "Are you sure?" He asks again, "i already told you Matt, I'm perfectly fine" I say and voice cracks at the end. Shit. "Riiiight" Matt says, "I don't buy it". I shake my head at him. "Francisca you know you can talk to me about anything right?" Matt says. I nod my head still internally freaking out about Dan telling my father and Ivan about me. "And no