Felix, who had been following behind me and whom I had deliberately ignored, was unable to stand motionless much longer. That was why he finally spoke up. It was a pity that his goal was to shatter my heart rather than educate me. I was unable to dodge his hurtful words.It would've been fine if he hadn't said anything. I could then act as though he never existed. Once I went into the apartment, he would leave and go on his own way. We wouldn't need to get involved with each other.But he insisted on speaking and even spoke in a tone that sounded like he was mocking me. It triggered my rebellious streak, making me want to lash out at him with the foulest insults imaginable. I wanted to make him feel what I was going through.Unfortunately, I never learned any curse words from my parents. Since I never had the chance to acquire such an ability, I couldn't vent my bitterness and anger well."Are you jealous? Rather than spreading rumors behind people's backs, you ought to work on i
I wanted to ask but was afraid. I was such a coward.Feeling like this made me so uneasy.I was having a severe mental struggle. Even so, I forced myself to ignore the pressing need to ask Colin what had happened even though I knew it would drive me to tears.I didn't have the right to do that because he didn't grant it to me.As for why I was feeling this grief that I couldn't get rid of despite my best attempts, I didn't ponder too much about it. Perhaps I had become very possessive of Colin as he had taken such great care of me in the past.When he asked for my answer to his confession, I said I would consider it. Perhaps consideration wasn't equivalent to a promise. He could do anything he pleased since he was a free man. It wasn't my place to meddle.Yes, it wasn't my place to meddle. So, should I still be considering giving things a go with Colin?Also, why was there an aching in my heart? It felt like my eyes were searing too, and it hurt so much. I felt like I was abou
Despite what Lilac might believe, I had nothing to do with Felix. Naturally, I was not worried about her causing me problems.If I had been more shameless, less self-respecting, and more unscrupulous, it was hard to say what the outcome would've been. Would Lilac have succeeded in getting together with Felix back then?Simply put, I had never given it any thought.Felix's persistent actions throughout the last several years, particularly in the last few months, gave me the impression that he liked to pursue the one he couldn't own.Lilac was naturally nervous after hearing my cool-headed remarks and realizing I had no intention of explaining.I didn't know her well enough, after all. I had no idea that her resentment and anger could cause me such severe pain and nearly ruin my life afterward."Luna, don't keep pretending to be innocent," Lilac said gloomily as the conversation came to an unhappy end. "You know best whether you're acting innocent. Don't blame me for being cruel
I strolled around for approximately an hour before returning to the apartment. I had nearly finished half of my cotton candy. I was finally happy, but then someone abruptly grabbed my wrist. As I was caught off guard, I staggered and nearly fell. Terrified, I rapidly regained my composure.It happened so suddenly that I instantly tried to break free. But my mind reacted faster than my body, and the unique scent made me immediately recognize who the other party was. Terrified and enraged, I couldn't help but curse, "Why are you pulling me? If you're sick in the head, go to a doctor! Don't get up to your crazy antics here!"Felix was carrying two guitars. He took a half-step back and stood still. His good-looking features were slightly stiff, and he wore a gloomy expression that showed his dissatisfaction.Frowning, he said, "I didn't expect you to be such an irresponsible person."I couldn't help but be angry.He was the one who was irresponsible! Did he not know this? Was I ir
"The Luna of my memory is not one to give up so easily. Why have you become so passive? It feels like I don't even recognize you anymore. Show the power you had when you competed with me for first place in high school! There's nothing you can't do." Felix smiled.He turned slightly and peered at a small patch of grass not far ahead as if he were gazing at something else through it.I smiled helplessly. "I've thought about it seriously. You and Lilac are a couple. It's normal for her to be possessive. "If I were to think about it from a different perspective, I wouldn't want my boyfriend to be too close to other women too. She's defending her right. "Her approach may be incorrect, but her reason isn't wrong. I can understand it. So, we still need to maintain a certain distance. That'll be beneficial for both of us."Felix, regardless of the reason, she's the woman you chose to be with. You've been together for several years now. Everyone knows you two are a couple. You promised h
In my opinion, performing together was a bad idea that would bring about negative consequences. If we continued to let this mistake grow, it would just snowball into something bigger.However, after deciding to perform together, I really did put a lot of effort into it. I sincerely hoped the performance would be a success.Should I give up or persevere and achieve the perfect result?The two sides fought hard in my mind, and it was almost like there was a scale to help me weigh things out. But the weight on both sides was identical, and there was no winner.Sometimes, I felt like an elderly woman with a backward ideology. I kept restraining and managing myself with moral values. In the eyes of others, my constraints were simply self-imposed. In other words, I was the kind of person who sought out trouble when everything was fine and made things difficult for myself.So, when I was shackled by my own morals, I needed an appropriate reason to help myself make a decision. In truth
I believed he genuinely wanted to give me the guitar and didn't care about the money. I appreciated his kindness, but I couldn't accept it without reason.This was my bottom line, and I had to insist on it."I must give you the money. If you won't take it, I..."If he wouldn't take it, I wouldn't accept the guitar and wouldn't attend tomorrow's performance. But I couldn't finish telling him the last part.It wasn't that I lacked a conscience or was ungrateful. It was not that I wanted Felix's gift to become a tool I could use to threaten him either, especially since he gave the guitar to me with good intentions.He understood my stubbornness and pinched his forehead. Raising his eyebrows helplessly, he sighed. "You're always so stubborn. Do you have to be like this?""Yes." I gazed at him, insisting on my opinion.He looked at me deeply. The hushed argument lasted two minutes before he backed down and agreed to let me pay for the guitar myself."Give me your bank account number
Felix was rarely strict. He wouldn't let me refuse.I knew he meant well, but I just couldn't accept it.I had been having so much contact with him lately that we frequently appeared together in front of everyone.Two people in my apartment had already asked if I had a boyfriend. It showed that Felix and I had captured the attention of others.If someone were to slander me one day, I was scared my name would be on the love confession wall for all the college's professors and students to see. I had a pure conscience and wasn't afraid of what others said. But since it was unnecessary, I should nip the matter in the bud.Besides, I had just finished talking to Lilac during the day and went out with Felix again at night. Although there was a reason for everything, I didn't believe I could properly justify it. In that case, what would others think?I looked at Felix. His expression was frigid, concealing a trace of gloom."Thank you, but I can go back by myself.""Luna..."His ex