Storm's POVWith my right hand covering my eyes, my body rested on the couch inside our hotel room. My breathing a little unstable, something I have been suffering lately after Cali and I had broken up. And of course, I knew why. Anxiety, it's starting to succumb within me. And none of my members noticed. At least for now. This isn't new to me anyway. Ever since I am someone who had suffered from depression and anxiety and has been vocal about it. And in my whole existence, the only times I pretended I was okay were the times when she's no longer mine. The first time, I thought it broke me. I thought I lost myself. The days were suffocating. Everything felt so dull and black. If not for the boys, my family, and our fans, I'm not even sure how I was able to survive each day without breaking down. But just when I thought the first time was the hardest, the second time hit me more like a load of truck. It's a fucking slap in the face, with a fucking hammer and a surfboard. It's ki
Cali's POVThere he is, in pure bliss, his face the very same when I last saw him, except that he seemed to have lost a lot of weight. And here he is, in front of me. Like nothing had happened. Like he didn't leave... Like he didn't stop caring...Like he didn't turn his back on me twice... Like he didn't act like he stopped loving me... Here he is, all in flesh. But that's more than enough for my knees to start shaking, my heart about to burst."Storm..."Just mentioning of his name made my insides churn. Even with all the pain, even after I cried for so many nights, even though it killed me a thousand times, I'd still welcome Storm back in my arms. My eyes locked with his, and I know, I always know he loves me. His eyes would always tell. And like the first time, I know he left because he needs to. I guess our love for each other isn't enough for both of us to stay together. Why is the world so fucking cruel? But then again, I fucking miss him so much. I had to close my e
Cali's POVTwo weeks, three? It took me that long to recover. Recover from the pain of being betrayed. I stopped spacing out, stopped crying myself to sleep. I stopped thinking that the world will stop if he wasn't with me. Relatively speaking, that was the shortest recovery span that I had with anything related to Storm. The last one took me forever. I can't say I'm finally okay but I can say that I'm at least able to pull myself together. And then fast forward, it's now more than a year after the whole fiasco inside our dorm, of us, suddenly learning that one of our members are secretly married for roughly two years, of finding out that Storm knew all that but he didn't bother telling me... Of him meeting my boss only for the end result to be bad as we both expected, of him telling me that we simply give in...Everything... I just felt like, everything just fell apart. I almost died when a car almost hit me after that time he went to our agency to talk to our boss. It took me
Cali's POVA long sigh escaped my lips. Seeing what Grey just did after they came back just confirmed my suspicion that the two may be had something going on. I watch as Seth carefully sat down beside Zanaya while the other still not uttering a word. Shrugging my shoulders, I put my attention back to my phone when I felt the vibration. From my peripheral vision, I can feel someone staring in my direction.Storm I gulped. It's been what? I can't even remember the last time we really talked. I nibbled my lower lip as I focus my attention back on my phone. Don't mind him, Cali.A small smile escaped my lips at what Donny had said. He was telling us a cute incident on their group's concert abroad. Me, Jino, and Donny had this group chat and we tend to message each other whenever there was something fun that had happened within our day. Jino would always tell us how Jackson was being clingy and jealous over us which we just laughed off. My body stiffened a little when Storm suddenly
Cali's POV"You're not being serious, are you? You're insane," I shake my head in utter disappointment and disgust. I look at him with disdain and I wanted to turn around and leave. But I can't. As much as I hate him right now, I can't simply turn my back and leave. Not when this is basically the first time we've talked in private after all that happened. "My God, you just can't fucking keep your mouth with you," I whispered, my hand brushing my long hair in frustration. And he was just there, staring at me with his arms crossed over his chest. Not a sign of remorse can be seen on his expression. In fact, I'd say he was proud of what he's done. "I told you that you're not allowed to entertain suitors. I was specific. Too specific Chu," his voice was stern and if this was a different occasion, I would have swoon over what he has done but no. Not this time. "You almost punched him! He was just telling me to take care. What is wrong with you?" I wanted to scream. We were at our dor
Cali's POV"Chu..." I turned my back the moment he called for my name. The loud beating of my heart tells me he's not in any sort of apparition nor a product of my imagination. He's really here, in flesh. A bitter smile escaped my lips. Chu, my ass. He really has the nerve to call me Chu at this point. After almost six months, here he was, standing in front of me, calling for my name like nothing ever happened. And I hate him. I hate how he treated me these past few months. The last time we saw each other, he told me to wait for him. He even made sure no other idols can get a hold of me. How selfish. Now, since Zanaya is about to give birth and the whole world has known of the two's marriage, I thought that it will be easier for us but that doesn't seem to be the case. For one, I think we have to be extra careful as we don't want fans to think SHADOW and WHISTLE are all entangled in a relationship. He was looking at me intently like he did nothing wrong. Like he didn't make th
Cali's POV"Why do we still have to act like these even with the guys?" I pouted. My arms crossed in front of my chest as I slowly raised an eyebrow towards his direction.He just came inside my room and the situation we are currently in is not something I like. It's been almost a year since Zanaya gave birth and we're all back in Korea. A lot had happened and we had to stay low for some time to let our management do the damage control. Seth had confirmed their marriage to the public and of course, the whole industry went nuts. The press conference happened, Seth almost left the thing but stayed for the boys - a lot. It wasn't rainbows and sunshine. Our only consolation was Baby Ashton bringing us so much joy and happiness. He's literally just a pill, a medicine that keeps us going. Storm and I, we literally act like we're not together with everyone. But there are moments that I feel like it's useless. Like that one time, Zanaya and Tokyo literally saw all the hickeys Storm left a
Cali's POV"You really are so stubborn, Cali," I laughed as I heard Max's voice over the phone. I went out to buy a few stuff and I didn't tell the girls about it nor have anyone to accompany me. Now Max realizes it probably after seeing my manager at the office. I almost forgot Max is recording and our individual managers stay at the office when we don't have a schedule. Tokyo had a photoshoot and Zanaya was probably already home after her tv show recording. The girls had been so busy and it was my time to get a rest after my schedule got so full the past week. And then I decided to be a daredevil and go out. I was simply wearing just a pair of denim shorts paired with a blue shirt that I tucked in, white sneakers, and a mask covering my face. A large spectacle was on my eyes and I didn't bother wearing a cap. After years of being an idol, I realized you attract even more attention when you wear pure black clothes. I mean, yeah, black clothes from top to bottom, a cap, and a
Cali's POV"Okay, this is so upsetting. Why are you able to go around like this when I was close to going crazy after I just gave birth to Ashton?" Zanaya scowled as we sat on the couch, on her hands were a bowl of nachos that we've been munching since she arrived. "We married two different men, Zanaya. They think and act the exact opposite like each other," I chuckled as Zanaya pouted. It's cute how she'd start whining about it."But it's unfair! You always have this time to chitchat with us not worrying that your baby will cry," I saw Storm shaking his head from afar. He was seated while he watches Ashton stare at our baby who was sleeping on the crib. Ashton was simply standing and staring at her in awe. He can hear our conversation as well as Seth. Storm takes care of our child. He likes to be hands-on and is always insisting that I take a rest. "Zanaya, our case was different. You kinda have a postpartum then which I don't. Plus, Storm may have gotten quite a few notes seeing
Cali’s POVI was literally lost about everything that was happening. Just then, the sound of Ashton's voice filled the room. "Aunt Chu!" my eyes turned towards Ashton the same moment their eyes snapped towards mine. Ashton stood up and walked towards me. "Aunt Chu, this yours?" he asked innocently and my eyes widened when he gave me a ring, a diamond one. Max and Tokyo's gasped filled the room while Zanaya was squealing. What the hell? Why were they acting like that? "Yah!" Storm's voice echoed the room and he looked so pissed off. Now, even Seth immediately kneeled beside the two. "I swear I just put it on top of the table. I didn't know Ashton will take the ring," he pleaded and my jaw almost dropped on the floor. So, this ring was Storm's?I saw how the girls were all acting giddy and excited. The place... The balloons and ribbons... The snowballs... The photos... Is this what I think it is? Slowly, my hands covered my lips as I started to shake. "Oh my God..." I whis
Cali’s POV"How long have you've been dating?""Storm! Do your members know about your relationship from the beginning?""What are your next plans?""California! What do you think about your fans' reaction? Now that all of WHISTLE is in a relationship, your fans are organizing a boycott! Are you going to disband?!""Storm! What can you say about the rumors that it was Cali who probably gave motive-”?The reporter wasn't even able to finish as Storm stopped midway after letting me in first, even covering my head for support. He faced the reporters particularly the last one who seemed taken aback at Storm's actions. He can be very intimidating. "First of all, it was me who made a move first," he started and all of the reporters kept their mouth shut. The power that he holds. "Second, when she first met me, I was merely Storm and she doesn't have the slightest idea that someone with a stage name of SHADOW’s Storm exists. And even so, Cali isn't the type of person who clings into some
Cali's POV"Cali, why are you here? You are supposed to be preparing for your press conference..." my boss asked and I bowed in greeting as I moved forward. He was sipping his coffee while reviewing a few documents he has in front of him. I can't remember how many times I've come here in this office, all because of my relationship with Storm. And every time I go out, it's either me crying or me being on my loneliest state.This specific office had never given me a good memory. The news about my debut anything good was all delivered on a conference hall downstairs. Sometimes, I dread coming in here. "Boss..." I started. There's this fifty percent chance that this talk wouldn't bring me any good like the past ones but I gotta try. "I know I've been pushing my luck a lot of times already but again, I want to ask for your permission," I started. He wasn't looking at me but that didn't stop me from speaking my thoughts. "I promise; I will work harder. I will make sure this relationshi
Storm's POV"I can't believe you're doing this," I turned around and saw Raze, struggling as he ties down the ribbons. I just passed him another set to finish. I was about to speak when we were startled after one balloon popped. "Yahhhh!!!" I glared at Sky and Grey who's playing. Seth was giving out a v-sign while grinning. To think that he's already married with a kid, he sure still acts a lot like Grey and Sky still. Well, he's almost of the same age after all. "Yah! Why do I have to do this when you're the boyfriend?" Raze snickered but continued tying the ribbons. "Right. I haven't slept since last night. Can't you like, get an organizer for this stuff or something?" Demo asked and I threw him my slippers. "You just woke up! So much for being my friend," I scowled and he laughed adorably. ", are you sure about this? I mean, this is something else. You're gonna have to live like how Seth and Zaya used to," Mono asked and I saw how all the boys focus where on me. My eyes shi
Cali's POV"What's happening? I thought everything was settled?" I paced back and forth as the girls try to pacify me. It hadn't been two weeks after Max and Sky revealed their relationship to the public and here we getting the biggest downfall on our careers after my relationship with Storm had been revealed. "Cali..." Zanaya was looking at me in worry while Tokyo and Max checks on the articles online. They were using Tokyo's laptop. It was there, on every social media platform, photos of me and Storm, from our dates when I was a trainee, those days when we got back together, and even those days when we already broke up. Everything was there and it scares me. I just woke up and everyone was in panic. I thought it has been taken cared of? Storm was not here and was still in their company. Our managers had gotten our phones because everybody has been contacting us. Fans are possessive. Imagine finding out Zanaya's marriage with Seth. That was more than enough to shake our career
Cali's POV"Cali..." the girls spread their arms and engulfing me in a hug. My lips quiver and I felt them brushing my hair and rubbing my back. It has been three days after the incident in which Storm had to leave the house after our managers decided it's best that we part ways after what happened. Everybody was frantic and I was so out of it that Storm had to call me every now and then to make sure everything was okay. His focus was all on me, how I was doing, if I've already eaten. He was so selfless I feel like I don't deserve him. Our boss didn't talk to me. I was never called to the seventh floor. Instead, a lot of meetings had happened and Storm told me they're trying to figure things out. What it is or their plans, I don't have any idea until we saw the articles on the internet about Sky and Max's relationship. Photos of their dates were shown. I was surprised to see multiple photos taken on multiple occasions too. So now I wonder if Boss had a lot of instances in which
Cali's POV"Sorry son, I know how much you suffered because of me," my father stated and it broke my heart to hear him say those words. I felt the air feeling like it was being taken out of my lungs. Why? Why did Storm suffer because of him? Did he do something to Storm? Curious, I stay glued hiding behind the wall. "It's all my fault and I will forever repent on my sins. If I didn't gamble, if that reporter didn't see you helping me, then BP Enterntainment wouldn't have to do something about it. You wouldn't have to sacrifice your love for her. You did a lot just so she can reach her dreams," my father added and I felt my world started crumbling in front of me. My knees weaken and it was as if my soul was being extracted from my body. What did I just hear? No. Storm didn't deliberately leave me a few years ago. He did it for me. Gambling is illegal in Korea and I can't believe my father actually even do that. "I'd do it again if I have to," my lips quiver at Storm's words.
Cali's POV"Are you sure this is a good idea?" I heard Storm's voice. My brows furrowed. He'd been acting so weird lately. It's been so long since he last went to our house and today is my father's birthday. We agreed that he'll drop by our house for dinner. Actually, I forced him into it. This was not the first time he'd visit our house but this will be the first time after I debut. Come to think of it, ever since we got back together, he never went to our house like he used to. Storm was close to my family. My Mom love him so much and my father adored him the same way. Even after we broke up then, I never heard my family saying anything bad about him. "We've talked about this Storm. It's my father's birthday," I told him in a stern voice. I felt his hand on mine tightening a little. Why is he so tense? He looked at me nervously. We were on the van together. "Did you tell them I'm coming?" he asked again and I raised an eyebrow at him. "It was meant to be a surprise? Or do yo