Killian's POVAfter Paula left my room to hers, I kept thinking about what she said. She wanted me to do some things for her, she wanted me to choose her over Esmeralda.It was impossible.I couldn't make that choice, I couldn't choose between the two of them because I loved Esmeralda but Paula was pregnant with my child. It was a hard choice and I couldn't do what she wanted.I lay in bed all through the night thinking about what Paula had said. I couldn't sleep, I couldn't even try to get myself to focus on other matters like the issue with Mikel and the snitch in my company.I was thinking of Esmeralda, of Paula.A knock came from my door. I thought it could be Esmeralda so I opened the door.It was Paula and she was in tears."I just had a terrible dream, I dreamt that you left me, that you abandoned us and I can't sleep". She wrapped her hands around me in that instant and I carried her into my room."Please Killian," she said to me, "send her away Killian, please send her away"
Killian's POVI stood there focusing my attention on them, I was ready for anything they were to say or any slightest reaction from them.Esmeralda had been right to be worried about them. From the last time I saw the woman, something had changed with her, she wasn't as attractive as she once was and her eyes held fear. She was scared of something and I needed to know what.I remembered the day I had first met her at school when she was told that Esmeralda and her daughter had been in some kind of a fight.She had looked at Esmeralda like she wasn't the one who took care of the child for years. It was as if she didn't even care about her and that all these years they spent together were all for nothing sake.This woman wasn't a good mother. She would have listened to Esmeralda, helped her or found someone to tell her what was going on with her child but she didn't. Instead, the first thing she did was to send Esmeralda out of her house, cutting off all ties with the girl.What if Esm
Hearing that from her made me very happy, but of course, I couldn't twirl and dance over the piece of news. I turned my head away from her and glanced at izan who was on his knees looking at me. From where I stood, he looked like a lost puppy who was pitiful and abandoned. I knew I could help him but I didn't want to involve myself without Esmeralda's knowledge. It made me begin to wonder where exactly he must've gotten bit. I wondered if it was done by Mikel or not, or if there was another scumbag in town trying to build a pack by biting innocent teenagers like Izan. The woman looked a bit calmer, her franticness from before had dissolved greatly and she looked better now. Her husband made his way over to where we all stood. He had a frown on his face on seeing me but as he entered the room and saw that Izan was better and that his wife was hugging and smothering Izan whilst crying, his frown softened and he also went ahead and pulled them into one big hug. Looking at the
Esmeralda's POV.To say I was shocked to see my mother was an understatement. I never expected her to come here directly, and although I had told Killian to meet with her I never expected her to come to school to see me. My heart skipped a beat. She looked slimmer than before, which hurt my feelings. I was worried for her. I loved her. I didn't want anything to happen to her, especially crying. it hurts me to see the tears in her eyes and made me cry as well. My knees were locked in. I could not move my feet, I was trapped. I had so much going on in my head. I wanted to ask her why she abandoned me. I wanted to ask her why she chose not to help me. I wanted to ask her a lot of things but I also wanted to know how Izan was feeling. However, the way she wailed made all those questions come to halt. I didn't care anymore about why she did what she did and why she treated me like that. All that mattered was how I wanted to erase those tears from my eyes. it could be because I loved he
Killian's POV I didn't understand why Esmeralda was being so stubborn about this. Anytime I say something, she always has a counter thing to say. It was annoying. To be honest, she never listened to me, she always wanted to do her own thing. it was very very unbecoming of her. I have a reason for telling her that she needed a bodyguard, but she would never listen to me. She always thought she knew better. Maybe it's because there was a time I made her feel like that, but I can't remember because all I remember was that I was mean to her. she is an exemplary child, a good girl but she is too fucking stubborn and she would never listen to me. Esmeralda was good for other things, she had her good sides but her shortcomings sometimes seemed so overwhelming that I can hardly keep up with her. and when I yelled at her, it wasn't what I intended to do. I mean I had hurt her and I never intended to hurt her feelings. I knew those things that I said and how I said them were not appreci
Esmeralda's POV I kept to myself throughout the drive back home, I had nothing to say to Killian and it seemed like he had nothing to say to me either. We had dropped my mum at her house, my brother Izan was nothing like how I imagined him to be when she had told me that Izan was like me, that he was behaving the way I did. I was expecting him to have claws or fangs but he looked like a normal teenager, I didn't see a hint of the werewolf in him. I didn't know what had happened before and nobody told me anything. I didn't even want to ask Killian even though he was sitting right beside me, nevertheless, I was happy that Izan was not in any way in danger, that he was not a particular menace to the society. I was happy that he was well but of course I didn't want anybody to see that I was happy. It was still hard for me to even figure out what to do about the fact that my mother had risked everything just to make sure he was okay. But she didn't do that for me, my head was still
Esmeralda's POV I couldn't breathe. I couldn't think of anything. I didn't know why Killian would say something like that. It was getting very hard for me to keep my head focused and my eyes were heavy. I couldn't understand why Killian would even say something like that, no matter how much I try to think but I just couldn't. My head was too heavy, my heart was aching so bad and it felt like my world was coming to an end. Everything is getting quite hard for me, my legs are getting very weak and I can't think, I can't act, I can't do anything. I was stuck. The only thing I felt like doing was falling down. I'm just staying there. I didn't feel like standing up again. I didn't feel like moving and I didn't feel like talking. I didn't feel like anything. I was tired, no matter how many times Killian showed me that I could not trust him, every time it was always a blow straight to my heart and it was always something I couldn't even take, something I could not even understand, just lik
Killian's POV Paula wrapped me in a hug after I said those words to her. I was honest at a bare minimum, she did matter to me, I cared about her but I also cared about Esmeralda. I knew what I was doing was wrong, but I couldn't help it, I can't just wake up in the morning and not love Esmeralda. it was impossible and although I didn't show her, although I didn't prove it to her and made sure to choose Paula over her time and again, it didn't mean I didn't care about her. I did. But what could I do? I have a responsibility to Paula, especially now that she is pregnant. Before, it used to be just that I respected her, I felt guilty. Because she had left her mate for me, but it wasn't the case anymore, now I was obligated to care for her, now it was more than just me, it was more than the guilt I felt, more than the respect I have for her. Now there was a child involved, I couldn't just leave her no matter how much I wanted to. I couldn't. And most times, I tried to console myself, say
Esmeralda's POV.I had told Killian that I wanted to ride in a convertible and the man went ahead and got the deal done.About twenty minutes after I told him what I wanted, I saw myself in a red convertible, sitting in the passenger seat. The hood of the car was tucked in the back and my hair was caught in the wind and I was laughing hard.After what happened in the hotel room, we both got dressed up. Well, I got dressed up while he watched and when I finished, we went to a boutique to get him some clothes and that was when I told him that I wanted to ride in a convertible.I was caught off guard when we walked out of the boutique and a red convertible was waiting for us and not just that, there were four wrapped up weeds waiting for us in the glove box.He offered them to me along with a lighter.When he gave them to me, I was surprised. He really was listening to me and he really had the contacts for everything and everyone.The minute I took them, I laughed so hard because I found
Camille's POVI had been worried sick ever since Killian brought home my son. He was not healing but he was alive and what was more excruciating for me was that he was in pain.I had never known a time in my life that I had been through such a thing before. I had never seen someone else undergoing this ordeal. It was all too sudden and new to me that I didn't know how to feel, nor what to do.The only emotion I could recognize when I thought things through was worry. I was undeniably worried about my son. I was so worried that I started to doubt if it was a good idea to bring him back. Killian had claimed that he was treating him and from how confident he sounded, he seemed like he knew exactly what he was doing and what was going on.I didn't. The person who even talked me into doing this was nowhere to be seen. I couldn't guess what Paula got from this game of hers. Paula had called me one evening and told me about where Mikel was and how he was fairing. I couldn't have guessed t
Killian's POVI laughed as I watched her laugh. Esmeralda had such a beautiful laugh.Coming to Berlin was impromptu, I was just in a hurry to show her that she was wrong to think life was so simple, that with me, this was the least of things that she would enjoy.Everything was perfect. The night was perfect, when I walked out of the bathroom, when I saw her naked on the bed, she was perfect.On her knees, doing a bad job at sucking me off, she was perfect.Everything felt like a dream, that for once, I get to be happy, I get to accept Esmeralda.What I couldn't stop thinking about was when she said those words to me.When she told me that she loved me. I had been busy staring through the window, looking at the city and how amazing it looked. I was happy that I brought her with me. Berlin was a beautiful place and it was one of my favorite cities and being here with her was perfect.I could've taken her to Paris but I wanted to go to my favorite places with her. I wanted to leave a
Esmeralda's POV I was suddenly overtaken by a sense of panic. I feared what it meant. I had never given it much thought before, I had never wondered what would become of my life since I developed these feelings for Killian. I had never worried much about anything. But now, the thought has succeeded in creeping into me, making my hands shake and my whole body spasm. I was standing in the middle of the room, Killian had excused himself, he wanted to make a call, probably had to do with the surprise that he was planning for the evening. I was left alone with my thoughts. I had never hated being alone, I had never hated being the one left in a whole. I didn't care about the loneliness, I didn't fear my thoughts because I always felt that they were just thoughts and there was nothing more to it. But here I was, overpowered by my thoughts. I kept thinking of what would happen to our lives, I kept thinking about how the trajectory of our lives have been altered. Killian has never men
Esmeralda's POVI bit my lip and realized that those words were dominating and as such, I was expected to be submissive.Killian was punishing me for whatever I might have done. He did mention that he was going to punish me but my brain has forgotten what I could've done because I was more focused on his finger that is buried inside me turning in circles, thrusting in and out in a slow motion.He dropped my leg that he had been holding, then he removed his finger from inside of me. I was disappointed because it wasn't what I wanted but then he took my hands and pulled it thereby lifting my upper body from the bed."You're not a pillow princess so don't act like one". He scolded."What do you want me to do?" I asked him.He guided my hand and placed it on his very hard and big erection. "Work for this".I bit my lip again. My finger grazed over the cap and the precum was waiting for me to feel its thickness.He pulled me closer to himself from my waist and buried his head into my ches
Esmeralda's POVI considered myself already kind of used to the kind of words Killian said and how he acted when he said those words but there was something different at the moment, maybe it was because we weren't in the same country anymore or because he and I had somehow become a couple.When he said those words I started to anticipate the second when we would go back to the hotel and he would take the dress off me. It became what I was ready for. Whatever he had planned for me even though I didn't know what it was at the moment, I lost interest in it. All I wanted for us to do was make our way into our hotel room and he would be pulling the dress off me.I looked around and found out that during the time I was spending standing in a spot trying to fathom just how weirdly those words affected me, Killian was already in the bathroom taking his bath so there was no one but me left to open the door for the person who was knocking.I was skeptical at first because I didn't want to open
Esmeralda's POVI ran my hand over my chest, giving him the sluttiest eyes I could muster."Oh Daddy"Killian almost lost it. He laughed so hard that he suddenly began to cough and meanwhile, k was wheezing beside him, about to lose my mind.We must've been such a pain in the ass of the driver because the second he stopped the car, he was outside holding the door open for me.I alighted the car with a warmth in my heart. I was happy. It was already nightfall and the wind was cold and the lights illuminated the city. It was wonderful. It looked wonderful.Suddenly, some fingers interlocked with mine accompanied by the smell of apples. It was perfect.He was perfect."We should get dinner"."Okay, but I'm still gonna smoke some weed or try molly"."Esmeralda, I don't have the contacts of people that sell".I frowned, "I thought you have the contacts of everyone?"He looked utterly confused, he took his hands back from mine and crossed them as he stared at me."Esmeralda, what could've
Esmeralda's POVStepping on the private jet, I had thought I would surely be so excited that I wouldn't sleep or even try to zone out.I wanted to see through the windows and guess alphabetically where we were going since Killian refused to let me know. Even though he didn't say the exact words, I knew he wanted it to be a surprise. I had a hunch that it would be Paris and if it really was Paris I certainly would be a bit disappointed.Paris was a beautiful city and known as the city of love but it was cliché. Every woman wanted to go to Paris, people went to Paris for honeymoons and all that and it was the spot for romance. I didn't want that. Sure I would love to see Paris one day but not because of a special event or maybe I was invited for a wedding there. If it wasn't the case, the case then I don't think I'd ever want to go there.It just didn't feel magical for me.Killian had no idea about all this. He was busy sipping wine and working on his laptop leaving me to myself. I wa
Esmeralda's POV.The last class of the day was literature. It wasn't a boring class. I loved the fiction and we were about indulging in the magic that Sylvia Path was.We were going to read one of her books and so we woukd be able to read the pieces of herself she left in the world.I had talked to the counselor about the major that was on my mind, she thought psychology was good for me since I had a passion to understand humans and the way they acted.The only issue became the college of my choice. She showed me a list of really good colleges in the country but I tokd her that I already knew where I wanted to go.She didn't seem disappointed to hear that I wanted to go the the states college. She thought it was a good choice and I was going to get accepted.Lucky me, it wasn't a long drive from Killian's house and so it was perfect. I get to continue living with Killian while I go to college.I had no desire to experience this or that, to meet new people or to have the full college e