I am so glad that Seth decided to meet me at the gym. I have to beat this frustration out of me. I am already taking my frustrations out on the weight machines but I need to throw some punches. That red headed vixen has got me all twisted up inside. I can’t figure out if I want to strangle her or make love to her. I was always supposed to be her first. I am sure she had her share of men pursuing her and that just makes me more angry. The need I have to possess her body is burning me up from the inside out. She was opening up to me today. I could see that fire in her eyes I had seen so many times when we were a couple. Those years may only be eight in real time, but I feel like an ocean of time is between us now. I am going to have to start all over again. What does that look like though? Maybe Seth can enlighten me. He is the biggest man whore I know but he may have some words of wisdom for me. “Holden, looks like you started without me. What’s going on my friend? You sounded pretty
I stayed home to help take care of my day for almost two weeks once he was released from the hospital. I did some work at home when I could because I was falling behind on my part of the project. There were some changes that needed to be made to the plans, before we broke ground for construction. Holden and Seth had been very understanding and I was thankful in so many ways. Another benefit was that I didn’t have to look at Amelia’s face every day. She had become more hostile towards me with some of her snide comments. Thankfully Mama hadn’t pressed me on answers in regard to what happened at the hospital with Holden. I have been kicking myself ever since for how I acted. I asked him to leave, but I really wanted him to stay. I liked how it felt to have his arm around my shoulders. He made me feel safe and like everything was going to be okay. That was how he made me feel when we were dating. Maybe it could work again, but I was so scared he would hurt me all over again. Once I wa
Being from a small town always has its advantages. So when Mayson called the police because of an incident with her car, the officer that got the call, notified me as he was on his way. Daniel Riffer and I have gone way back. I got him out of trouble a few times when we were in school together. I helped get his life together enough so he could go to the police academy. He came to town middle way through high school to live with his grandparents. His parents were abusive and were drug addicts. He was a good guy that had been dealt a bad hand. I decided that the best way to deal with this was to not rush in like an ass, by screaming and yelling. Mayson didn’t need to see how angry I was that not only had someone damaged her car, but that she did not listen to me about staying late. I should have been watching the office, but when I had gotten home I had fallen asleep on the sofa watching football. This was my fault for not keeping an eye on her. She will be mine again and I could have
I had been waiting until the weekend to talk to Mayson about what had happened to her car. Her car was still in the shop and she was driving her dad’s car. I am surprised he let her driver his classic mustang. I am sure she turned on that beautiful smile and he would do anything that his baby girl asked for. I have been on the receiving end of that smile many times and I would agree to anything that she would ask me to do. I had called Mrs. Cole that morning to see if I would be able to talk to Mayson alone. She had been doing her best since the hospital to not be alone in a room for me for more than two minutes. Whether she liked it or not, she was going to stay put and listen to what I had to say. If I had to lock her in her room and talked to her I would do that. I am a man on a mission. Mrs. Cole agreed that her and her husband would make themselves scarce and leave for a few hours. I had explained to her that there was a lot of things I wanted to clear up with Mayson. That gett
When I woke up this morning the sun seemed to be shining a little brighter. I am a hopeless romantic. I was always a reader of the happily ever after romance novels and that was what I always wanted for myself. That should have been my life eight years ago but evil stepped in and changed that. Evil will not win this time because I have the chance at happiness again. So many years wasted because of one persons lies and deception. I was not going to wait another minute without Holden. But first I needed to get up and go downstairs. Mama was still in need of answers. She deserved them. I feel like I deserted them when they needed me the most. I hope she will understand why I left. I worry I will no longer be Daddy’s baby girl because I know how much he missed me when I left. There is still a lot that I have to process about what happened that night. Now I have a new outlook but I am still going to take it slow with Holden. I cannot risk jumping headfirst and then getting hurt again.
I felt like I was on top of the world this morning. Mayson and I had spent the entire weekend together. There was so much that we needed to learn about each other. We were not those same teenagers anymore. We had lived quite a bit in the years apart. It is what made us who we are now. I was not looking forward to hearing about any of the past relationships Mayson has had. I did not want to even imagine another man’s hands on her body. Or another man buried inside of what is rightfully mine. When I make love to her for the first time, every other man before me will no longer exist. I have agreed to take it slow with Mayson. She does not want to rebuild what we had but use that as a foundation for something even better. I realize I am more in love with her today than I was when we were eighteen. I have dated quite a bit and was a man whore like Seth was in college. Amelia was a year behind us in school so Seth was a wild and free man when we went away to school. I followed that same p
Mayson is such a bitch. She has always had to ruin everything. I needed to get rid of her for good. It might be drastic, but at this point I am almost willing to do anything to get rid of her. I thought the slashed tires would scare her enough to stay out of the office. But of course, with my luck, she stays at the office more. I am so tired of hearing her voice and seeing her face around the office. I had to promise Seth to be nice to her, but it is getting harder and harder. This morning Seth and Holden came in later than usual. They both had these stupid grins on their faces when they walked in. It was like they had a secret to themselves. I didn’t like secrets. I was going to have to get the information out of Seth somehow. I am sure a quickie in the supply closet or a quick hand job at lunch time will loosen up his lips. He is so easy to manipulate with sex. If that didn’t work, I would get him drunk and he would definitely spill whatever he knows. “Amelia, honey, can you ord
I feel like there is no longer a weight on my shoulders. I have felt this heaviness ever since I came back to Chance. Now that Holden and I are starting over, I feel so much lighter. The fact that Holden never cheated on me was a huge relief. I had worried for years that it was my fault that Holden had turned to Amelia. Maybe because I had wanted to hold onto my virginity until we were married made him need to find someone to have sex with. When I was in college and tried dating, if I said no to having sex with them, they avoided me and never called again. So why wouldn’t Holden have felt the same way. Now, my next obstacle is letting him know that I am still a virgin. My concern is how he will react to the news. Will it be disappointment since I don’t have any experience. That is going to be an obstacle that I need to overcome. I will have to table that conversation for later with Holden. We have a time crunch this morning. The meeting with board and the Zoning Commissioner is a l