Chapter 4

             Jason Pov

Once I get to Luke's pack, I pull into the driveway of their packhouse. I grab the folder off the dashboard, before getting out the car. 

"He's inside in his office, I'll show you the way." Luke's beta Ned tells me. I give him a nod and head inside, following him through their packhouse.

As I walk into the office, Luke looks over at me and smiles, standing up from behind the desk he's sitting at. 

"What's up bro, how have you been?" Luke says walking over, giving me one of those bro hugs. "I see you're into the rough look these days." He smirks, looking at my uncut hair.

I shake my head a little, letting out a low chuckle. "I've been good," I say, But honestly, I haven't been good, I've been far for good. For a year now, I've been obsessing with finding this guy to find out why he did this to Ashley, and I'm not going to stop until I do so. "What about you, how have you been?" I ask.

"Just been busy running the pack every since my father passed it down to me earlier this year." He walks back over, taking his seat back behind the desk as I take a seat in one of the chairs in front of the desk. 

"I was meaning to stop by your place, but I've been really busy. I didn't realize leading a pack was so time-consuming. This paperwork is a pain in the ass. I think my father left all this damn paperwork for me to do on purpose as a joke." He frowns, leaning back in the chair. 

Luke and I have been really good friends since high school. We went to a special high school for alpha males. In a school full of aggressive alpha males there were always fights. Luke and I always had each other backs. His fights became mines and my fights became his. Everyone knew if they fought one of us, they would have to fight us both.

"When do you plan on taking over as alpha?" He asks with a raised brow.

"I'm not." I shrug a little. "I'm not interested in leading a pack anymore. Brandon will become alpha." Becoming alpha was always something Luke and I talked about and looked forward to, but things are different for me now.

He gives me a small nod. "I know I can't begin to understand the way you must feel after losing Ashley, but I'm sure I'll feel the same way if I lost Haley." Luke don't look at me with pity, just understanding. "What's that?" He asks looking at the folder in my hand.

"It's all the information about Ashley's death. Whenever you get a chance I want you to take a look at it and see if you can find something I'm missing." I hand the folder over to him. He gives me a nod taking the folder out my hand.

I look over as the door open and watch as Luke's cousin Tiffany and another female walk into the room. "I need your car keys, Luke," Tiffany says walking over.

"Why can't you take your own car?" Luke asked with a slight frown.

"Something's wrong with it. You know, it would be very nice of you if you bought me a new one for my birthday next month." Tiffany smile innocently.

Luke goes into his pocket, grabbing his keys. "Where are you headed?" He asks, handing her his keys.

"We're heading into the city to do some shopping." She takes the key from Luke smiling. "Thanks." She says before making her way back towards the door.

"Bye Jason." The female gives me a smile, blushing slightly, before following Tiffany out the room. 

"Looks like Emma is digging your new rough look, maybe you should look into that." Luke smirk over at me.

"I'm not interested in her." I haven't been with anyone since Ashley died, and I'm not interested in being with anyone.

"You're my best friend, I know you almost as well as I know myself. I can see that you're tensed and angry. You don't have to be interested in her emotionally, just hang out and let her help you release some of your tension. She's yet to find her mate, so I'm sure she's really just interested in the sex also." Maybe he's right. Maybe it would help me to relax a bit.

"I'll think about it." I give him a nod, but I doubt if I'll sleep with her. I just haven't been into sex since it's not with Ashley.

I see Luke's eyes zone out into the distance for a second, letting me know he's mind linking with someone. "I'll also help you release some of this built-up anger." He stands up heading towards the door. I follow him out of the packhouse, heading towards the edge of the forest.

I look over to see some of Luke's guys, bringing over four guys in silver cuffs. "A couple of days ago a group of rogues attacked us. I got ten of them locked away for questioning. I was planning to kill them all next week, but I'll let you have the pleasure of helping me kill a few of them now." 

Luke's guys take the silver cuffs off the rogues. I feel my wolf push forward at the thought of spilling blood. I sized the rogues up. They're bulky, so they should put up a little bit of a fight. 

"I'm going to make you mutts a deal. If you can get off my land you're free to go and no one will come after you." The rogues looked at each other for a second as the rub the burns on their wrist from the silver cuffs, before shifting and quickly take off into the forest, heading for the border of Luke's land.

The second they take off into the forest my wolf start to fight to come out and chase down its prey. "You can stay here and let me take care of this," I tell Luke as I start to strip down, glaring into the forest at the rogues, quickly disappearing through the thick trees.

Luke let out a low chuckle. "And let you have all the fun? You wish." He starts to strip down, shifting into his huge brown and black wolf, taking off into the forest. I shift into my huge dirty grey wolf and take off into the forest behind Luke.

I head west, leaving Luke as he keeps straight. I move through the forest quickly, dodging the blurs of trees, following the scent of one of the rogues. My mouth starts to water with the need to taste blood. Maybe this is how those bloodsuckers feel. I never felt such a strong need for the taste of blood.

I let out a deep growl, seeing one of the rogues in the distance. I push my legs to go faster, quickly starting to close the distance. Once he realized he's not getting away, he stops and takes a fight stance. I crash into him at full speed, taking him to the ground. I start to sink my teeth into him, ripping away chunks of meat. He tries to fight back, but it's useless. I get to his neck, sinking my teeth into his throat. I let his blood fill my mouth, before ripping his throat out, satisfying my lust for blood.

I take off again through the forest, going after another rogue, following his scent. Once I finally get to him, I waste no time as I start to violently rip him apart. I continue to rip at him even after he's dead. 

"He's dead bro." I look over to see Luke standing there covered in blood, watching me. 

I shift back covered in blood, breathing heavily. I let out loud roar filled with pain and anger, dropping down to my hands and knees. "Why!?" I growl out, punching the ground. "Why did they fucking take her away from me!" I let out another roar, my eyes start to water with tears. All I want to know is why.

Luke kneels down next to me placing his hand on my shoulder. "It's okay Jason, let it out. I know people expect you to be strong just because you're an alpha, but us alphas have feelings too. We hurt just like anyone else. It's okay, you don't have to keep everything balled up inside." He gives my shoulder a squeeze as I roar out, punching the ground again.

I continue to roar out, punching the ground, releasing all the built-up anger and pain that I've been holding in all this time. Luke stays kneeled next to me, squeezing my shoulder, telling me it's okay. An alpha male never supposes to show weakness, especially not in front of another alpha male. If any other alpha male saw me now they would look at me as weak, but not Luke. Our friendship goes pass us being alphas. He's like a brother to me.

I take in slow deep breaths as my breathing starts to even back out. I slowly stand back to my feet, feeling a little better. I needed to release some of this anger that I have balled up inside. And instead of Luke showing me pity, he showed me support and understanding and I thank him for that.

"I have six more rogues locked away, so whenever you need to release some of your anger you know where to come." He gives my shoulder another squeeze, looking over at the ripped apart rogue. "You really fucked this guy up." He says letting out a low chuckle.

After hanging out with Luke for a while, I leave and head back to my place. 

Once I get to my condo building, I drive down to the parking garage and take the elevator up to my floor. I walk into my place to see the female sitting on the couch watching tv. I glance over at the clock to see that it's 11:02 pm.

I walk over placing my keys on the tray that's sitting on the table, before heading into the kitchen grabbing a bottle of the Remy Martin out the cupboard. 

I make my way back into the living room, taking a seat on the couch. I glance over at her sitting at the other end of the couch watching tv. She looks at me for a second, before looking back over at the tv, not saying anything. I twisting the cap off the bottle, looking at the bottle in my hand and let out a small sigh. 

I wish the effects of this lasted longer than what it does. My body burns off the effects of the liquor much faster than a human's body. I look over at the tv screen, taking a big gulp of the liquor, trying to numb away everything.