SUSHMITA'S POV: I woke up and it's all white. Where am I? Is this heaven I'm seeing? no. I can't die. At Least, not now. "Miss, can you hear me?" said the manly worried voice that I heard. "This is Daniel, Miss, can you move your body?" Daniel asked again but I have something on my neck so I can't turn my face to see him. "Daniel…" I said softly because my throat is so dry. "I-is Rod-ney h-here?" I said as I tried to speak."No Miss, he flew back to the Philippines immediately when we received a call from Ms. Abbigael that Don Hernan is dead," Daniel explained and I was saddened by the bad news that he brought. I can't see him but I know that he was grieving and silently crying. I tried to move my hands and placed it on my belly. "H-how's my b-baby, Daniel?.." I asked and he burst into tears upon hearing what I just asked. "It's gone, Miss, the baby didn't make it," he said as he was crying beside me. My tears fell in an instant when I heard that. "What?! no. This isn't happ
SUSHMITA'S POV: 3 days later… Daniel took care of everything. My hospital bills, my medicines and especially, the fetus that died inside me, my baby. He was holding it now in a wooden box and handed it over to me. I took it and hugged it tightly as my tears ran down my cheeks again. Why does it have to be this way? Why is the world so cruel to me? I didn't do anything wrong. I love my family, I love my husband, and I love my unborn child with all of my heart. Of all people, why does it have to be me? What did I do wrong? Why do I need to suffer like this? I don't understand. It's too painful. My heart is breaking and shattered into pieces. "Let's go, Miss," I suddenly came back to my senses when Daniel approached me. He carried my luggage. We are about to go to the private plane that Rodney arranged for us so that we could catch Don Hernan's funeral. Daniel seated beside me so I lean my head on his shoulder. "I really need a shoulder right now," I said to him. "Feel fre
SUSHMITA'S POV: I cried a lot that night because of too much pain physically and mentally while Rodney was sleeping beside me. He was so drunk and tired and I couldn't go to sleep. I dipped myself into the warm water of the bathtub to take a bath. My tears kept rolling down my face and I couldn't stop it, I don't know why. I stared at the ceiling while dipping myself into the bathtub and I didn't know that I was falling asleep, my vision started to get blurry but I didn't care. I feel so lifeless and hopeless right now. I felt the water on my face as I sank myself deep into the bathtub. It felt like I was in the ocean as I pictured the beautiful island of El Nido, Palawan where I met Rod. I wish he didn't leave me that night, I wish he knows that I love him and I cannot forget about him.I came into my senses when Rodney pulled me up into the bathtub. "Hey, are you alright?! I'm here, it's fine, I'm here baby," he said while hugging me tight. He must've been thought that I was g
RODNEY'S POV: I can hear the noises and their screams as I open the underground cell that my father built when he was interrogating some low lives back then. The noises started to lessen when they noticed that I was walking with a gun in my right hand. They were all looking at me. The three men who were tied up were curious about the beast in front of them. I gave them a cold emotionless stare. "It's a nice gun you have here," I said as I kicked their guns that scattered on the floor. "Just kill us!" the first man said. "Just tell me who sent you and I set you free," I said calmly and the second man confessed. "Mr. Xiu, it was Victor! Victor Oycungco!" "Yes! This is Victor Oycungco's doing, Mr. Xiu, please spare our lives!" the third man said and kneel down and beg for his life. "We're being you!" the second man said but the first man was really furious and brave. "You heard them, set them free except this guy," I pointed my gun at the first man while my men had the second an
SUSHMITA'S POV: Days turned into weeks. The moment I buried my child was the death of me. I locked myself in our room everyday with a gloomy atmosphere. I understand Rodney now when he says he doest want the lights turned on. This is how it feels. Now I know. "Mita Honey, I'm just gonna go out for a meeting," Rodney said. "Okay, be safe," I said to him."Please don't lock yourself here, I know how much it hurts but please, don't do this to yourself," he said."What do you want me to do? pretend that this is nothing?! I just lost my child Rodney! I can't believe you!" I said and he took a deep breath. "I'm grieving too but don't let it take away your life, you're not eating properly, not sleeping, always crying. We lost our child, I won't gonna lose you too," he said. "Why is it so easy for you to say that?! Are you really grieving?!" I yelled at him."I am! I just don't let it get through my head! I don't want to argue with you about this so please, eat and sleep properly," he sa
RODNEY'S POV: I hugged Sushmita tight when I woke up the next morning. She was drunk all night. I still can see the empty alcohol bottles and a broken wine glass. She was still sleeping so I kissed her and immediately went downstairs. "Loreta?" I called Loreta who was sweeping the floor. "Yes, Sir?" she asked. "Leave that to the others and prepare a hang-over soup for Sushmita," I commanded her. "Right away, Sir," she said and had the maid next to her do the sweeping and headed directly to the kitchen. I also got hangover pills so that she could go with me for the rest of the day. I went back to our bedroom and she was already awake. "Mita Honey, how are you feeling?" I asked her. "My head hurts," she said. "Here, take this," I handed her the hangover pills and she drank it immediately. "You're not mad at me?" she asked. I didn't respond to her question and smiled at her instead. "I'm free today, what do you want to do?" I asked her. "Uhm, well, that's a curious question
SUSHMITA'S POV: As soon as we finished making love with each other Rodney handed me some documents. He was standing in front of me while holding a glass of Brandy in his hand and I'm just sitting on the bed while my naked body is covered by the comforter. "What's this?" I asked. "Open it," he commanded, so I obeyed him and opened it. I read everything, it's an annulment paper. I was confused. I thought he wanted to make it up with me but he wants us to separate instead. I burst into anger and deep sadness as my tears came rolling down my cheeks. I was shaking really bad. "What's wrong with you?! What is this?" I asked him but he's just emotionless. "Just sign it and leave," he simply said. "I don't understand, you treated me for a date and now you want us to separate, how is that?" I asked. "Because it's the only thing I can give you right now, and it's the first and last time that I will do it. I don't deserve you Sushmita, so I'm setting you free. You can forget everything n
RODNEY'S POV: I stood frozen on the terrace of my Suite watching how those rude Paparazzi giving Sushmita a hard time answering some questions. I can't help the tears rolling down my face as Sushmita left me with a broken heart. It's not true that I don't want her anymore. It's not true that I want her to be free. I just don't have a choice but to give her up and besides I know that she was hurting already but she's just enduring it everyday of her life and waiting patiently for me to return home. I can't hurt her anymore, so I let her go. I guess this will be the start of sleepless nights for me. "Look at that, man, you had a strong independent woman out there who knows how to handle her pain," Harold said as he saw the CCTV footage while Sushmita was breaking my Ferrari car with a bat. I put my palm on my face. I was at the Xiu Mansion now while having a meeting with Harold. "That was too expensive, now I don't know what to do. Should I buy a new one or just repair it, it will
SUSHMITA'S POV: I woke up having a headache but I was astonished to wake up in an unfamiliar room. “Where am I?” I asked myself but I was shocked when I saw a man wearing only his boxers. His brown eyes met my gaze and I can't help it, my heart is racing. I think I saw those eyes before. The way he stares at me, it's full of love and sincerity.“Oh, finally you're awake,” he said and smiled as he swung into the bed and sat in front of me. I can’t understand what I’m feeling. The man in front of me is so gorgeous and my heart is beating so fast but not because he is handsome and perfect but his brown eyes. Just like Rodney’s. “Who are you? Where am I?” I asked but I felt a sudden sharp pain on my head. “You got so drunk last night when we met and… yeah this happened, I’m Rodney by the way, Rodney Chen of the Chen Group of Companies,” he said and raised his hand to perform a handshake. Damn it, his name is Rodney too. “Uhm, Sushmita Xiu,” I said and took his hand. I can feel the
SUSHMITA'S POV: ONE YEAR LATER…“You're such a badass Mita! your baby is just one year old and you're here with me, clubbing!” Deborah shouted those words as we we're dancing in front of the dance floor while holding some drinks. We were at the Fusion Paradise Bar having some tequila shots. They said that the owner of this Bar is a successful young lady at my age. The music was too loud so no one heard her but me. “What’s the problem with that?! I just wanna ease the pain, my husband is dead. I can't bring him back so I'm just gonna dance the night away,” I replied as the thoughts of Rodney flowed through my mind. Our life together. Our hopes and dreams. Our ups and downs and our happiness. Our little Romita. I guess I’m so drunk tonight but I don't care. I just don't want to feel sad. My head is spinning and my vision starts to blur but I don't want to leave Debbie so I will just dance with her until we get tired. “Party, party!” Deborah shouted so I just smiled at her. ***D
SUSHMITA’S POV: “What about Rodney?” Lana asked but we got interrupted by the waiter. “Here's your frappe, enjoy,” the waiter said as he put my frappe on the table with a 2 ply of tissue on it and immediately left. “Damn it, for god's sake, that waiter is flirting with you,” Royce said as he threw a cold angry stare at the waiter. “Just let him and don't make a scene here, Royce,” I said. “Okay, let's continue, we don't have all the time in the world,” Lana said. “You're so serious, babe, all the time,” Royce said. “Can you just shut the fuck up?” Lana said and stared sharply at Royce. “You know that Rodney just died and–” I said but Lana cut me off. “Of course Dear, I know this is so difficult for all of us, it's really hard, I know that you're grieving so much and–” she said but I cut her off because she doesn't understand what I’m trying to say. “No, Lana,” “No?” she asked. “Well yeah, I'm grieving but… actually, I want revenge. Don't worry, I’m willing to pay a large a
SUSHMITA’S POV: When we got home, Daniel already stored the baby stuff that we got to the room beside mine. “Is there anything you need?” he asked. “I’m good now Daniel, thanks for your help. I really appreciate it, oh and yeah, take care of the watch please,” I said while holding my brush to comb my hair. “Yes, don’t worry, I will start to investigate when I’m done with some other errands,” he assured me. “Okay, goodnight Daniel, I mean Don Ezekiel Xiu,” I said and raised my eyebrows and he smiled. “Do you really have to do that?” he said and giggled. “What? You're now the mafia Don taking care of Rodney's business but I still like to call you Daniel,” “Just keep it that way Miss, goodnight and goodbye for now. If you need me, I’m just a call away,” he said and waved goodbye to me. As soon as he left, I grabbed the flash drive on my purse and inserted it on my laptop. There must be something in Rodney’s computer, I want to know everything about why they have to kill Rodney s
SUSHMITA’S POV:"Sweetheart, our baby is growing well and healthy, I wish you were here," I said in front of his grave as I felt my tears running down my cheeks. That familiar pain is still lingering on me. Daniel is just puzzled beside me, I don't know why. He is emotionless, he's not even crying. "Daniel, are you alright?" I asked. "Yeah, I'm fine, Miss," he replied. "My baby is due in a month, and I haven't bought some hospital stuff yet, can you help me this afternoon?" I asked him. "Oh, which reminds me, actually Miss, Boss prepared everything the night he died. He was so excited when he knew that he was going to be a father so he contacted a personal shopper and had them buy some stuff and hospital needs for you and your baby," Daniel explained."Oh my god, really?" I said, trying to control my emotions. It's both happiness and sadness. "And I will show it to you now, shall we?" he asked. I looked at Rodney's grave and felt the cold hard ground. "Thankyou, My Love, Goodb
SUSHMITA’S POV: I can’t sleep and keep on looking at the luxurious watch that Rodney gave to me so I opened my laptop and searched for it on the internet but I couldn't find anything. It is so authentic and unique that only a few have it so I called Daniel but he’s not answering his phone. I checked the watch for some clues but I couldn't find anything. I’m kinda frustrated searching for some answers. I wanna know what’s inside of this treasure I’m holding. I kept on dialing Daniel’s number and he answered it finally after dialing it twice. “Hello, what is it, Ms. Mita?” “Can you come over? I need to talk to you,” “I’m sorry but I can’t right now, maybe some other time,” “Daniel, this is urgent,” “What urgent? Are you gonna give birth now?” “No. not yet, but I need to discuss about something,” “Okay, look. I will accompany you as soon as I can but I’m sorry I can’t right now, bye,” I was about to talk but it turned into a deep sigh when the line broke. RODNEY’S POV: “Boss
SUSHMITA'S POV: I never thought that this would come in my life. Rodney is gone forever and I left wounded. The wound is so deep that it can crush my heart and soul. I held my belly to feel my baby kicking inside me. She was growing well. I didn't have the chance to tell his dad that she's a girl. I walked slowly inside of our bedroom. I can still smell his Salvador Dali perfume all over. I opened the automatic washing machine and saw all of his dirty clothes. He didn't have the time to do the laundry so he stuck all of it there. I ordered Loreta not to wash Rodney's belongings as soon as I got here because I want to be the best wife that he ever had and do all his laundry while he was away but I can't do it now. I smelled his white polo and t-shirt. It was him, I carried all of his dirty clothes and put it on our bed. As soon as I laid down, I smelled it again and closed my eyes, wishing that he would be here beside me. I can clearly see his face now, smiling at me. His big bro
SUSHMITA'S POV: Rodney was covering me the whole time when we were in the car because of the series of gunshots that kept on destroying our vehicle. "Cover your ears Honey, it's alright, I'm here," I did what Rodney said. We were almost at the Airport, and as soon as we got there Daniel already grabbed my luggage."Come on, Miss," Daniel said and gave me his hand so that I could grab it. "B-but Rodney," I said while looking at Rodney. "Go Honey, I'll be fine, I just need to finish this, all of this, remember what I tell you. I'm sorry, I love you so much. Take care of our baby," he said and kissed me quickly and then he helped me get out of the car. "I love you too, Rodney," I said."I know, now, go! before it's too late, there's no time," he said and Daniel pulled me closer to him and had me enter the Airport. We're suddenly on the plane now going back to the Philippines. I travelled with a heavy heart again, I just watched the skies and the clouds dancing in the atmosphere.
SUSHMITA'S POV: I watched the sunset through my glass window while having a cup of maternity milk. It's like the sunset in El Nido where I met Rodney that night. I miss him. I grabbed my cell phone and sent him an email. Dear Husband, I hope you're doing fine and still alive. As soon as you read this I'm packing my things to get ready to leave. My life is meaningless without you so I'm coming home. You are my safe haven and my peace in this chaotic world. We had this right love and perfect time so I will never waste this chance again to be with you. I'm sorry for all the things I've done. I know, I hurted you a lot. I hope you forgive me. I'm in New York now. Meet me at the Time Square. I have a surprise for you. Chat me. Love,Your WifeAs soon as I hit the sent button I immediately packed my things. I love Rodney and I can't do this without him. He should know that we're having a baby, maybe this child can stop him from doing all the mob work. This is my only hope to save my h