“How are you feeling?” Chester asked after I handed him the glass of water.Mabigat ang loob na umiling na lang ko at binigyan siya ng ngiti. After what happened earlier, he immediately took me home. I never passed out, pero parang mas lalo lang nakasama iyon dahil hindi nawala sa isip ko ang mga nangyari at nasabi ng Daddy.I feel like I’m about to explode anytime now. My mind’s so messed up, and the problems kept adding up. I don’t know if I could take more. I want to just rest. I want to just leave. I’m so tired of all the secrets and lies na ngayo’y sabay-sabay lumalabas at sinasabi sa akin. Why didn’t they have the urge to tell me the truth in the first place?They just want me to end up miserable, don’t they?“Paris, what’s going on in that little head of yours, hmm?” Chester asked as he stroked my hair and held my head near his chest. “Please tell me,” he said.I breathed so heavily and hugged him tightly. I badly want to cry ero parang tuluyan nang naubos ang luha ko at naman
“Chester,” Mister Del Fuego greeted me as I approached him. He was waiting outside for a long time now, but I don’t give a fuck. After what I Paris’ bodyguards reported to me, there’s no way I’d let him inside. After all, I was never on his side anyway. If only he wasn’t the father of the woman I love, I’d never get along with him and his antics.I breathed heavily and stood face to face with him, hindi gustong magpaligoy-ligoy pa. “She’s okay now,” I said, which made him sigh in relief. No matter how much he hides it, I know there’s a part of him that deeply cares for his daughter. Too much care that he almost wants to control her, never letting her out of his sight. “I’m going inside,” aniya subalit hindi ko iyon hinayaan.“But she doesn’t want to see you,” asik ko. “So I can’t let you, Sir.” I did my best to maintain my respect, but it’s fucking harder than it sounds. Lalo na ngayong pakiramdam ko’y magpupumilit pa siyang pumasok sa loob dahil halata ko iyon sa pagkunot ng kanya
“What the fuck happened?!” I could almost taste blood as I run downstairs, trying to fucking call everyone I know that should be around the accident.Fucking shit!After hearing from Chancellor’s bodyguard what happened, I didn’t fucking care at first. But hearing who she’s with during that fucking accident almost already made me want to kill someone, at isa doon ay si Chancellor. Why the hell is he with my wife?!“Check all the cameras in the restaurant and coordinate with the police. Gusto kong mahuli agad ang driver ng sasakyang iyon.”“Noted, Sir.” My men immediately left as my bodyguard escorted me to the damn hospital!Damn it, Paris. You’ll be the death of me. Why was she in that place in the first place? She should’ve been home! Bakit… bakit kasama niya si Chancellor? I can feel my heart pounding si much in anger, pero hindi naroon ang atensyon ko. There’s much worse than fucking jealousy. And when I heard the siren of the ambulance, I recognized that feeling already.When I
I couldn't sleep. Let alone rest at the thought of it. Hearing those words from him shattered my heart into million pieces. It feels like I was betrayed, fooled…But damn it, no matter how much it fucking hurts me, hindi ko magawang magalit sa kanya. Kahit hindi ko siya maintindihan, at sa kabila ng lahat ng paninira sa kanya, at sa pagtatago niya ng mga bagay sa akin… I still feel like he’s the only one I can trust.May parte pa rin sa akin na nagsasabing may dahilan siya kaya niya iyon nagawa. Na dapat pa rin akong magtiwala sa kanya.Those thoughts are choking me, parang hawak sa leeg at ipit ang dibdib. I don’t know anymore… Bakit hindi niya sinabi sa akin?I want to hear his explanations pero… hindi ako naniniwalang hindi niya kilala ang pamilya ko. If he knows us, I’m sure he knows something. I breathed heavily and immediately stood from the bed when I realized na wala itong patutunguhan. Wala akong patutunguhan kung puro lang ako ganito. What’s there to think about? Ni utak k
I woke up in the unfamiliar coldness of the bed. Hindi ako sanay. It felt like something was missing. More like someone. When I opened my eyes, I wasn't even surprised anymore when I saw her gone on the other side of the bed. Pero kahit hindi na ako nagulat, hindi ko pa rin napigilan ang kirot sa dibdib ko. She really hates me right now, doesn’t she?I sighed heavily and almost wanted to pull my hair out of fucking frustration. I should’ve expected this. I should’ve been ready for it.I took the white polo that was crumpled on the bedside table, wearing it without minding the lipstick stain on it. I tried looking around, eyeing if there were any traces of her or her whereabouts. But with her last night's clothes tidied up, and her most intimidating, yet addicting perfume filling up the room, I already knew she was somewhere.But where could she be? Will she meet someone?Hated to admit it, but that was the perfume she wore during our dates. Kaya mas lalo tuloy akong hindi napanatag ku
“To be with each other. To plan our future. To get married someday.”Nagpaulit-ulit iyon sa pandinig ko na parang sirang plaka. Unlike the usual days where I feel my head pounding, hindi ko matukoy kung bakit ngayon… puso ko ang kumikirot dahil sa pamilyar na pakiramdam. There were flashes coming before my eyes as I was in that particular scenario. It was as if it was real.No… it was real. It ain’t that clear pero nararamdaman kong totoo iyon!And it’s making me question everything. How is this possible? How is it possible for him to hide these from me all these years?!“Is this a joke?” I asked, trying to gaslight myself that this is not real. Na baka paraan niya lang ‘to para mapabalik ako sa kaniya. But more than half of me believes on what he’s saying!Dahil ako mismo, nararamdamang totoo iyon!Pero hindi ko maintindihan kung bakit kailangan, at paano niya kinayang itago?! This is not just a mere information… this is a huge part of my life!And the way his eyes glimmered with sad
I put the plane ticket going to Quebec back into my purse nang maisip na hindi ko naman planong pumunta roon. When I arrived at the airport earlier, I immediately bought a ticket to Quebec under my name and took a huge amount of money into my bank account.Knowing Chester and Daddy, their connections are enough to find me. Siguro nga, hindi pa ako nakakarating sa pupuntahan ko ay naroon na sila. Afterall, I don’t have any strings to pull anymore. Ni hindi ko nga alam kung may mapagkakatiwalaan pa ba ako. I don’t have any cover-ups to use anymore, so I have no other choice but to hide and deceive them as much as I can.“Dito na po, Ma’am.” Parang muli akong natauhan nang marinig ang sabi ng tricycle driver. Arriving at a hotel here in Lipa, Batangas, kaagad akong bumaba at nagbayad. Hindi ko alam kung anong sumagi sa isip ko at dito ako nagpunta. It just feels right and natural for me to come to Batangas. Siguro madalas ako rito noon?Isa pa, going somewhere near while they try to loo
“What are you doing here?” he stood in front of the door with a shocked face. The rain poured heavily, and I really couldn’t remember how I got there. Ang alam ko lang, ayaw ko nang umuwi. Ayaw ko na ulit umuwi.“I hate them. I hate them all!” umiiyak kong sambit. “I was just thinking about dad, hindi niya ba naiintindihan ‘yon?!”“Love…” he didn’t mind the storm and went outside to hug me. Sa kabila ng malakas na ulan at malamig na klima sa Tagaytay, he managed to get out of his rest house para lang yakapin ako sa gitna ng malakas na ulan.“Chance…” I cried. “Please let me stay here, Chance.”Bumuntong hininga siya bago ako niyakap nang mas mahigpit. “Oh, Paris. Come here.”He took my bag that has nothing else in it but a wallet and a phone. Marahan niya akong inakay papasok ng kanyang rest house. Somehow, this always felt like home. The first time he brought me here sure did give me comfort.“How did you manage to come here, hmm? It’s dangerous.”“I… I don’t know. I took a cab, and