IAN POV
"Need any help," Colt asks, and I look at him with a go-to-hell look.
He raises his hands and makes a sorry-I-asked face. My annoyance at feeling weak erases any guilt I have at being rude. I am so tired of not being able to do things on my own. I feel like a burden. I have to be helped when I do anything. Mom and dad keep trying to be positive by telling me I will get the hang of doing tasks from a chair soon, but that makes me even angrier. I don't want to live my life from a chair; I want to run, I want to walk, and I want to play football.
I manage to maneuver my body into the passenger seat of Colt's minivan, and he folds my chair silently. For which I am thankful. I don't need to let my jealous rage out on my brother. Seeing him makes me think about playing ball...which makes me think about how he gave it up for Jan...which makes me burn with jealousy. He threw away my dream.....my dream that remains a dream now.
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CHLOE POV (one week later)"So, did you ever speak to your friends' families," I ask as Ian stares down at his ankle for focus?"I wrote them both a letter while I was in the hospital. I told them every detail I could remember of the entire night, and then I told them how sorry I am. I don't know if they read them. Caleb's dad isn't........well he isn't a very good guy. Real quick to anger....it was probably a good thing I couldn't attend their funerals," he answers bitterly before giving up on his exercise and leaning his head back."Well, I'm sure they appreciated the thought. Even if they are angry. You probably answered all their questions by going into detail," I state as I grab his foot to reposition him.Ian locks his eyes to mine, and irritation flashes in their depths. I brace myself expectantly. Ian has not been shy with his words through any of our sessions. In fact, the more comfortable he gets around me, the harsher hi
IAN POV"Why am I picking you up early??? And why do you look pissed," Colt finally grumbles after picking me up from the appointment I ran from. Well wheeled away from."My therapist had the brilliant idea that I should be placed on medication," I snap, and he gives me a stern look. "And you feel like you don't need medication," Colt asks, and my rage explodes. I yell out and punch my immobile leg with as much strength as I can. Colt's face becomes a mask of shock before he pulls over his new dad-mobile. "WHAT THE HELL IAN? YOU JUST HIT YOURSELF," Colt shouts, and I almost smile but my anger won't let me. Finally, someone isn't babying me. Finally, someone is yelling back and treating me like I'm not made of glass. "YOU AGREE WITH HER; YOU THINK I NEED MEDICATION? YOU THINK I CAN'T MAN UP AND OWN MY MISTAKES? I'M NOT JUST YOUR BABY BROTHER ANYM
CHLOE POV I place the six on the seven in my solitary game before sighing. I have zero hope that Ian will show up today for his appointment. He was a no-show yesterday, but he did call. The receptionist didn't take down his reason, so I'm not sure, but my money is on he didn't want to come. For the past three days, I've done nothing but obsess over what I'm going to say to him if I ever see him again. But even after three days, I've got nothing. Nothing new anyway... "Chloe," my intercom sounds, and I press talk to answer. "Yes,""Your 11:30 appointment is here.""Umm. Okay, thank you," I fumble out as my nerves skyrocket. Ian is here, and I feel like I showed up to school naked. My palms are sweating, and my stomach is in knots as I leave my office to head to the front. I've never been good with confrontation, and since he left so angry last time..... "Good mor
IAN POV "That's great Ian," Trinity praises me as I flex and point my feet. I try to keep the annoyance off of my face, but it's difficult. She sounds as if she is praising her new puppy, who just learned to sit...and her voice is like nails on a chalkboard. My eyes dart across the room, and a grin tugs at my lips as I watch Chloe assist an older man who just had his knee replaced. She is so patient and tender, but her voice doesn't sound like the others. She isn't speaking in a higher tone or acting as if every small movement is a huge accomplishment. She is treating him like a man. "Hey, big guy, focus," Trinity says from right beside me before squeezing my bicep. I slightly jerk but she just grins. "Wow, you are toned," she practically purrs, and the hairs on my neck stand up. For some reason, this girl reminds me of every single footba
CHLOE POV "Hey Chloe, can I speak with you," Ian's voice calls from behind me before I can escape into my office. I really haven't had a chance to calm down from what transpired earlier, and I am still embarrassed over how jealous I got when Ian's body reacted to Trinity. So I really don't want to talk to anyone... Especially him. "Ian, I would really like some alone time," I respond over my shoulder, not realizing how close he had gotten to me. Ian grabs my hand, and I freeze. His eyes look almost panicked as they stare at me. Need and fear glow within their depths. "Chloe, everything that chick said was a lie. She was bitter. Rejected people say hurtful things....please...just can we forget about today. I..really....you know I didn't......I don't like her. My body...Chloe," Ian stumbles out, and his neck turns scarlet. I let my gaze fall to our hands, and I squee
IAN POV I've never felt so vulnerable before, and that is coming from a man who has been pulled from a burning vehicle before. "Mom, I need to ask you a favor," I say while leaning back and staring at my poor mom. She has dealt with every mood swing and every accident. She is one amazing woman, and I owe her so much. I even considering bashing Dylan's head in once for my mother. I was an angry young kid at the time, so the thought quickly left my head, but the fact that he hurt her had me wanting to be violent. "Sure, Honey," Mom replies before putting her fork down and giving me her attention. Dad looks at me quizzically, but I ignore him. I already feel as if I am half a man. I don't need Mr. Perfect husband stepping in... "I need you to drive me to pick up a date tomorrow. I am a little self-conscious about eating out, so I suggested our date being here......I....you know I
CHLOE POV "Chloe Elizabeth Shaw, I forbid you from seeing that boy," my mother orders through the phone in a nasty voice I have heard many times before. "Excuse me," I ask as my smug smile falls from my face. "I forbid you from tainting our name even further by dating that boy. He is just like his bed-jumping brother, and I will not have it. I am sick of biting my tongue. I had to listen to you defend him at lunch when you were speaking to your father, and I am done. He is a murderer. He crashed that car and killed those innocent boys just like you did," my mother barks out, and a piece of my heart snaps off. My ears start ringing, and my heart sinks as the realization that "BOTH" my parents blame me for something beyond my control. Bile rises in my throat as I fight back the need to vomit. Pain and anger punch through me as my mother continues to ramble on about my failures as a Shaw. As the ringi
ALASTAIR POV ( CHLOE'S DAD) "ALASTAIR, GET DOWN HERE," Gayle screeches, and I groan externally. I throw down my golfing magazine and push my burly frame from my chair. Every year it seems as if this colossal house shrinks. The halls used to be filled with my children's laughs, but now all that echoes through the empty halls is her screams. I miss my children so much. I've never been the most emotional guy. I've never really learned how to hug and express my love, but I came from a home filled with nannies. Love and sharing love is as foreign to me as being broke. At least I won that battle with my demon-incarnated wife when she suggested it. No Nannies."What is the matter now," I mumble as I make my way into the kitchen. The one room in the entire house that we speak to each other in. I've had a separate room for years. Because while my upbringing frowns upon divorce, I st