Sometime after 1:00 AM, Natalie ran out of sleep, but she stayed in bed, obsessing over the water patch on her ceiling. The incident happened months ago, but she had a sudden urge to walk up the cold flight of stairs, bang hard on Lizbet's door and confront her about the mess she made when she left her bathwater running.Over the past twenty-four hours, Natalie had slowly realised there were many things she wasn't over, things she may never get over, and the stain on the ceiling was one of them.She never got an apology from the old lady or the building manager.Natalie spent a long time thinking about apologies—all the ones she owed people, the ones she never got, and the ones she'd probably never get.Casey, her ex, was high on the list of people she owed an apology to. Looking back, she could have handled their breakup better. She could have eased him into it.But she owed Amber the biggest apology of all for leaving her alone to deal with Jamie.Leaving Sparrow Beach had broken Nat
On her way to work, it occurred to Natalie she could drop in at the pharmacy three blocks from the office and get a refill of her meds.She couldn't imagine getting through the day without her little helpers.At some point, between leaving Safe Haven and catching the 6:45 AM bus to the Business District, she'd realised they were not only amazing for bruised ribs but worked wonders for broken hearts too.After popping a few, Natalie had found herself floating on cloud nine, and nothing could touch her up there.She desperately wanted to hang on to that feeling, especially now that the latest dose was starting to wear off, and the dull ache in her chest was quickly turning into a sharp pain with every breath she took.She got off at her usual stop a block away from Chassis—because the bus didn't travel down Main street—and checked the time on her phone.She was already fifteen minutes late and had missed the first part of the team's daily catch-up session. Surely another ten minutes woul
Her arms outstretched, and her face turned to the sky, Natalie screamed, her mournful howls carried by the gentle wind echoing endlessly.Emily joined her, and they alternated for a while, only stopping when the events company showed up to start setting up for the Inner Circle.Natalie ignored the activity around her, refusing to move away from the ledge. She'd read about scream therapy but had secretly thought it was just another fad. The magazine article had proven her wrong.She wasn't entirely okay, of course, but she didn't feel as unhinged as she had earlier."We're not allowed to be here. We should go," Emily reminded her, shooting cautious glances in her direction.Two years ago, Zahid, one of the office support guys, ran up here and tried to jump off the building after receiving his annual bonus and increase letter following a less-than-ideal performance appraisal. HR had since forbidden everyone from accessing the rooftop for any reason other than Inner Circles.It was way be
When 2:00 PM rolled around, Natalie watched with envy as her colleagues scrambled to the rooftop. She would have loved nothing more than to follow the herd and numb herself with music and free booze. But rushing off to the Inner Circle before it started would screw her over even more. The backlog of reports and proposals that had crept up overnight was one of the many reasons she never played hooky from work."Come on, Nat, we're missing out on all the fun. There won't be anything left to drink at the rate you're going!" Emily crossed her long legs and pouted in her seat."What happened to you never drinking again?" Natalie asked, arching an eyebrow, reminding her of the promise she made Friday night when she'd puked her guts out on the side of the road."Me? Why would I speak such untruths? I must have been wasted!" Emily snorted and tried yet again to convince her to ditch her work."Okay, okay!" Natalie said just to hush her up. "Let me finish this first. I only have a few more slid
Maybe it was the meds, the free-flowing booze, or sheer exhaustion from the weekend, but the more time Natalie spent on Emily's doppelganger idea, the less absurd it sounded.She could pull it off. She just had to make sure she never ran into the man, which should be easy enough. She was at the bottom of the company's food chain, and Levi was right at the top. There was zero chance they'd ever run into each other. The execs hardly ever came to the lower floors, anyway.Come to think of it, besides her direct manager, Norah, Natalie hadn't met any other senior executives."I still don't see what the fuss is. He's a low six for me." Emily's lips curled with distaste as she glared at their boss. But she instantly perked up when their waiter finally emerged with their long-awaited cocktails.In a different life, Levi would have been a high nine for me, Natalie thought as she took a hesitant sip from her Mason jar. The intoxicating smell of rum went straight to her head as the smooth liquid
Noelle had vanished by the time Levi made it to the other side, and he stared at the place he was certain she'd occupied just moments before.He knew he had not imagined her. Her light floral scent, the same one he'd fallen in love with on the balcony and when he'd held her in the car, still lingered in the air.He looked around him, scanning the place for any hint of her. A surge of relief rocked his body when he found her inside the building, hovering near the elevators.He quickened his pace, frantically pushing through the crowd. He couldn't let her get away again. Not when he'd just found her."Levi, how was your sabbatical?" Someone stopped his progress yet again, momentarily blocking his view of Noelle."It was fine!" Levi growled and pushed them aside. He had one goal in mind. If he allowed himself to be distracted again, Noelle would disappear again.He made it inside the building just as the lift doors slid shut."Fuck!" he cursed as he watched the elevator race to the ground
The hand-me-down microwave had finally given up.It was already in a pretty sorry state when Natalie inherited it from her landlord. But there was a very real chance it could have been one of the many casualties of her meltdown when she went on a warpath and trashed her place.It was hard to believe it was just yesterday. It felt like a lifetime ago.Natalie didn't remember touching it, though. No way she would have had the strength to pick it up. But then again, she was high on meds, rage and adrenaline, so anything was possible. Hell, she ran down nine flights of stairs without pausing to think what it would do to her already battered body.And now, as she watched Emily pour two glasses of red wine, she wished she'd listened to her when she warned her against taking the stairs. Her midsection was on fire. The blinding pain was unlike anything she had ever felt before. If she was dying, she wished it would happen quickly."Nat? Are you okay?" Emily asked as she looked up from the kitc
Alone in her cramped living room, Natalie pulled the blanket closer, curled herself into a small ball and absently watched the show, her mind racing over her chat with Emily.If her friend had made 15K just by allowing a client to suck her toes, then maybe Dreams was her lifeline, after all, and the only way out of her financial hole. Depending on what she did, she could raise all the money she needed for Jamie within six months, and then she'd get out.But what would she have to do?How far was she willing to go?How much was she willing to give up for Jamie to have a fighting chance?Would she take another beating?Worse, what if she vanished like Paul's previous companions?No. Natalie mentally shook herself. She couldn't—shouldn't—go there. She'd just had a very real, hair-raising incident with the man and was very lucky to have come out of it with her life still intact.Besides, she argued, Amber would never forgive her. Jamie, too, would never be okay with taking money she'd made
"Something's different," Natalie murmured as she flicked her gaze through the room.Levi gave her a back hug and kissed the top of her head. "I installed shutters.""Why?""This is our second home, Nat, and I wanted you to feel safe and comfortable.""Thank you," she turned around and hugged him, resting her head on his chest. "The windows don't look as scary and frightening as they did when I first stayed over.""That was the plan. To make them look less frightening." He tapped her nose and asked, "are you hungry?""For something else.""I was hoping you'd say that!" he replied and promptly threw her over his shoulder like a sack of potatoes as he carried her to their bedroom."You sexy brute!" Natalie scolded him. "Put me down. The housekeepers will see us!"But he paid her no mind and only set her down once they were in their room."Say it again," he commanded as he moved over her on the bed and nibbled her lower lip. "Tell me all the filthy things you want me to do to you."Natalie
Natalie had to blink a few times at the picturesque scene before her. It was hard to believe this place, decorated splendidly in ivory and silver motifs, was the same town hall used by Sparrow Beach's residence association to host their weekly meetings."This is amazing," she whispered as she swept her gaze through the room, at all the tiny details, the little things she would never have thought of if she was left to her own devices. Cynthia and the wedding planners had done an incredible job transforming it into a venue fit for a grand wedding reception. Natalie couldn't pry her eyes away from string fairy lights draping the ceiling. But the smell of white lilies permeating the room transported her back to her balcony at The Empress the night Levi proposed to her, and she turned him down. It felt like a lifetime ago, and as she gave him a sidelong glance and caught him looking at her, she couldn't help but be glad he never gave up on her, and she had the sense to say yes on his sixth
At the altar, Seth and Mark seemed to be way more nervous than Levi."Are you sure about this?" Mark asked for the hundredth time, and Levi gritted his teeth for the hundredth time."How many times should I tell you? I love Nat, and I want to spend the rest of my life with her.""Well, I'm just saying marriage is forever, you know." Mark dabbed his forehead with his handkerchief."Why are you sweating? It's not even your wedding," Seth said as he pulled out his own handkerchief and patted his face."Can I have some water?" Liam asked. "God, I need some water. What did that crazy Russian do to me last night?""You fell for his dare again," Mark tried to fill in the blanks for him. "He made you a Russian fuck bomb—that's what he called it. Still don't know what was in it. But you were a goner after you drank that shit, and we had to help Eden carry you back to your room at the B&B.""No wonder she's mad as fuck at me," Liam whispered. "Is she looking at me right now? Guys, I can feel he
The weatherman had predicted strong winds and heavy rain. But Natalie's big day dawned bright and sunny. The sky was as blue as the ocean behind her house, with no cloud in sight. Amber and Colleen thought it was a good omen, and Emily, not a believer of anything really, agreed with them."You are the most beautiful bride I've ever seen," Amber said for what felt like the hundredth time since Natalie had stepped into her wedding dress.They were in one of the smaller administration rooms on the chapel's grounds, and the stylists had turned it into a makeshift dressing room."What are you talking about? I'm the only bride you've ever seen!" Natalie teased, but she really was overwhelmed by all the love her sister and friends had shown her, and she was trying so hard not to cry and ruin her makeup."Just accept the compliment already," Colleen scolded her as she fussed over the hem of Natalie's dress."Yeah, Nat, you need to learn to work on accepting compliments graciously," Emily agre
"Is everything okay with you two?" Colleen approached him. "I'm sensing a weird vibe. Are you guys getting cold feet?""I don't know about Nat, but I'm not," Levi replied and pushed his hands in his pockets. "How was she today? I don't know…These last two weeks, she's been so calm.""And how is that a bad thing?""Because I know Nat. A wedding is a huge, life-altering event, and she doesn't do life-altering events well. Her knee-jerk reaction is to run. I'm just scared that—Never mind.""No," Colleen refused to let him leave her with half the info. "You're scared of what?""She's too calm, Leeny. The last time she was this way was when she threw you the welcome party. The very next day, she made a run for it without telling me about the twins.""That was months ago!" Colleen reminded him. "You're overthinking this. I've seen the way Nat looks at you. She's crazy about you and your babies. She won't leave you in the lurch! Besides, where would she run to? This is her home town."Right,
Julian and Andrei took it upon themselves to throw Levi the biggest and craziest bachelor party Sparrow Beach had ever seen.And Levi was only happy to blame Mark for everything."What did I do? I followed your 'no bachelor party' rule to the T." His best friend held up his hands as they watched Liam, Jaxon and Matthew try to outdrink each other over a beer pong game."That's exactly why it's your fault. You didn't enforce the rule hard enough," Levi replied, his attention stolen away briefly by Julian and Andrei sipping champagne from the navel of one of the three models-slash-strippers they'd flown in for the occasion.The said model was laid out on the pool table, her half-naked body out on display for everyone to see, and Levi wondered just how Joe had allowed this debauchery to carry on at his family-friendly establishment."Seriously, Mark, as my best man, how do you think Natalie will feel about all this crap?"Ten—maybe even two years ago—this was totally his scene. But now, a
In theory, the idea of having twins had sounded fun and appealing. But the reality was far from it, as Natalie and Levi soon learned over the next few weeks.Indeed, it was double the blessing, double the fun, and double the joy. But it was also double the work, and it didn't help that the first week after they brought them home, Juno and Mars decided to go on different sleep schedules.If she and Levi didn't have a strong support system to rely on, Natalie knew they would have lost their minds in those first few weeks.Mrs Ackerman semi-moved in with them, splitting her time between the Blue Mountains and Green Point. It was nice having her around; she was a pro at the never-ending laundry of tiny-sized human clothes and the general upkeep of the house.Levi suggested hiring a nanny full time, but Natalie wasn't sold on the idea. She wanted to be hands-on and involved in the twins' upbringing."Love, it's not working," he said after one particularly difficult night. They were running
Natalie received a clean bill of health five days after the twins' arrival, and two days later, they were all finally allowed to leave the hospital.After months of being cooped up in bed and eating terrible hospital food, she couldn't get home fast enough.She couldn't stop raving about all the stuff she'd do when they got home, like taking an actual shower and sleeping in her own bed—all the things she used to take for granted before her bed rest.Zachary and Carlos picked them up, and they spent a few minutes gazing at the twins in their double infant stroller, trying to decide who they resembled the most."I really can't tell who they look like," Carlos admitted at last."Neither can we," Levi said with a smile as he covered the twins with a light blanket and turned to Natalie. "Ready to go?"She took one last look around the ward, ensuring they had all their stuff. Satisfied everything was packed away, she nodded. "Yep, let's go home."She hooked her arm around Levi's, and he pus
Levi called his assistant on his way back to the hospital and cancelled all his meetings for the week."Sir," Angela said before they could hang up. "We are all thinking of you. Norah and Natalie's team are beside themselves with worry. But she's a fighter. She'll be out of the hospital in no time.""Thank you," he smiled into the phone, praying with all his heart she was right. He'd lose his mind if anything had to happen to Natalie and their twins. They'd come too far for him to lose her now, especially after everything they'd been through.After he hung up from Angela, he called Amber. She was hysterical, and it took him a long time to calm her down and assure her Natalie, and their babies were fine, and there was no need for them to drive down to Rock Union.He was immensely relieved when he found Natalie sitting up, chatting with his folks and her bestie.Now that he was back, his parents and Emily excused themselves, promising to return later to relieve him."See, I told you I'l