Chapter Four- "FINE"

The entire ride home Seth kept his hand upon my thigh, rubbing the pad of his thumb back and forth across my jean clad thigh. The odd squeeze as he flexed his fingers. The ride was quiet, and it was obvious to me that Seth was mad maybe even furious. I wanted to question his behaviour, but I didn’t want to add to whatever anger he was obviously feeling, so I did what I usually would do in this situation and stayed silent. Stefan made no attempt at conversation from the back seat, to which I was glad for considering the atmosphere that choked us in the car.

Seth pulled up outside my house and Stefan shot out of the car before I had even had a chance to unbuckle my seatbelt. "Later" He fired, without even thanking his brother for the ride, practically bolting through his front door. I turned my attention to Seth, he was quiet, and already looking at me with a tight jaw. I inwardly groaned, with his short temper and ridiculous behaviour from this morning I can only imagine the next few minutes where not going to be pretty.

"What's wrong?" I asked, needing an insight to what he was thinking. I felt like I had whiplash, His temper had been cool for some time, and now twice in one day he was fired up with agitation, only making the worry settle in my nerves.

"Are you fucking my brother?" He spat, his anger at the statement strong with his tone.

What? Was he crazy? When I asked what was wrong with him, I was expecting something along the lines of practice sucked, or some guy in the locker room stole my towel, But never had I seen this coming. Are you fucking my brother? He cannot be serious!

"What?" I scoffed, in utter confusion. Why would he even assume such a thing? Where in my encounters with Stefan today had it looked like we had been fornicating?

“ANSWER THE FUCKING QUESTION,” He blew up and I flinched at his sudden raised voice. He was livid.

"NO" I defended honestly, losing my own temper with his bizarre accusation. Does he really think I would cheat on him? With his own brother? Does he think that low of me? 

"Don't raise your voice to me Savanah, do you think I am stupid?” he spat his fury “did you think I couldn’t see you with him at practice? Do you think I'm blind?" He shot, his anger past boiling over.

"Don't be stupid Seth we were just talking" I defended yet again. I wasn’t lying, me and Stefan had never ever done such a thing nor had that thought ever crossed my mind.

“DON'T LIE TO ME!” he punched the steering wheel “I SEE THE WAY HE LOOKS AT YOU,” he roared, and I flinched as he repeated the action of hitting his steering wheel.

"I SAID NO, SETH" I yelled hoping if I yelled, he might finally hear me. I was hurt at his accusations and behaviour but most of all I was pissed, my own fury building and building quickly. This is totally ridiculous, I could literally say one word to a guy that was gay and he would still act the same way. He was talking about me and his brother for peets sake, I am not sticking around to listen to this crap any longer.

I swiftly climbed out of the car, reaching back in to grab my bag but I was too slow as Seth reached it before me. Enough is enough already, could he not just leave me be? Of course not, I mentally screamed as I watched him exit the car. I slammed the passenger door shut, not in the mood for one of his outbursts in the middle of the street. I was enjoying our time whilst his anger was dormant, why couldn’t that last longer?

“heyyy” I screamed as he grabbed my upper arms harshly, forcefully pushing me against his car. His grip tight and his rage in full force. He was angry, his eyes were burning so I turned my head to the side in an attempt to avoid him. I didn’t even want to give him the satisfaction of gaining my attention when he behaved like this.

"Look at me Savanah" He demanded through clenched teeth.

I took a deep breath, which nagging voice inside my head wanting to listen to his demand, but I refuse to let him treat me this way when I haven't done anything wrong. 

With a grip on my chin between his fingers and thumb, he forced our eyes together, forcing me to obey his command.

"I told you Seth, nothing is going on" I tried to defend, plea with him but he cut me short.

"I don't want him around you" He stated with a stern look that warned me to not disagree with him on this.

 

"He is my neighbour ho" I stupidly tried to reason but he cut me off yet again,

"I don't care! You are not to be around him alone, understood,” He ordered in finality. 

He sounds crazy right now, does he really believe I would stay away from Stefan because he had some crazy delusional thought about me cheating on him.

"DON'T ROLL YOUR EYES AT ME JUST DO AS YOUR TOLD" He blew up, I can't take this, being scolded and yelled at, God, I can’t stand it when he is like this.

"FINE" I unwillingly agreed, pushing at his shoulders to create enough space for me to pass by, I snatched my bag from his hands and headed straight for my front door. I have learnt from our past blow ups that it is best if I'm not around him you know, best to not feed the anger. 

"SAVANAH DONT WALK AWAY FROM ME" He yelled after me, his voice agonizingly loud but I ignored him making a quick dismissal of our screaming match with a slam off my door behind me. my hands shaking, palm down against the door as I willed myself to not cry.

A sense of relief washing over me at the sound of his car door slamming shut followed by the revving sound of his car speeding off. I can’t believe the accusations, How swiftly his mood has changed. I understand that he doesn't intend to get angry with me, he has anger issues and jealousy issues, I have known that about him for a while now, but it doesn’t make it any less hard to deal with. I absolutely despise when this side of Seth makes an appearance. 

I wiped the stray tears from my eyes “I fucking hate this” I let out my frustration as I pushed my way upstairs, throwing myself onto my bed in dire need of comfort. I have never cheated on him nor have I ever thought of doing such a thing. so why does he accuse me of such things? Hell, I'm still a virgin I haven't even gave my virginity to Seth. If I won’t give my virginity to him then why does he think I would give it to Stefan? Or any of the other boys he has accused me of doing in the past. I screamed into my pillow allowing the tears to fall, there was no point in keeping them in. what was the point in a relationship if this is how I end up at the end of the day?