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Chapter 12

Author: Ikstrordinari
last update Last Updated: 2022-09-27 05:47:29

Goddamn it!

I ran downstairs and pushed through the sea of sweaty bodies till I got outside. The fresh air did nothing to calm my racing heart. It didn't cool down the fire blazing inside me. I entered my car and slammed my hands on the steering wheel to let out my frustration. My shame. My anger.

A guy kissed me.

A guy touched me.

I was hard.

I came within 2 fucking minutes.

And worst of all...

I liked every bit of it.

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The rest of the week passed by in a flash with me partying hard along with my friends. To everyone, I seemed like the normal Aito. I seemed like I was having the time of my life but in reality, I wasn't. My mind was a fucking mess. I drowned myself in alcohol and slept with any girl that threw herself at me. I did it because I wanted to make sure I was fine. I wanted to make sure I hadn't turned into a disgusting fag. I wanted to wipe away any effect Ryu had on me.

Did it work? Absolutely not.

He attended every party I did and anytime I saw him, I would re
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