Four

Sadie’s POV,

“I think you’re special.” He said as he reached out and touched my hand. I looked into his eyes, but I couldn’t read anything. The only thing I could see in Jacobs’s eyes was sadness. I know I was wrong for this and I should have just pushed him away. I leaned in and laid my head on his shoulder. I took a deep breath and closed my eyes. I felt him kiss the top of my head. I didn’t feel anything negative towards him or from him, but I felt a sense of calmness. I haven’t felt that from anyone near me in a very long time. I looked down and saw blood on his wrist.

“Come inside with me and let me clean you up,” I said and he nodded at me. My parents were not home and we were alone. I had Jacob sit on the toilet so I could clean the nasty cut he gave himself before I showed up. “Jacob, I know this is not my place and that you and I have only just met, but please don’t hurt yourself anymore. It’s not worth it. Whatever is going on in your life is not worth your life. Your seventeen years old, you don’t have to face it much longer.” He just looked at me and I heard him sigh.

“I don’t want to die, but sometimes I feel like I do.”

“Do you want to tell me why?” I asked softly. He watched me for a moment.

“It’s my father.” He started to say. “You know what I don’t want to bother you with my problems.”

“Jacob, you’re not bothering me at all, talk to me.” I looked away and continued to clean his cut. Hoping that if I made him feel like the world wasn’t watching that maybe he would talk even if it was just a little.

“I have to be this robot. I have to be the perfect son at all times, with no exceptions to the rule. I must be Jacob, the golden boy. If I fuck up in any way, I will pay for it.” He said and then he stopped talking. I looked up at him and he looked away. I cocked my head at him and then closed my eyes as flashes of someone hitting Jacob came into my head. I tried to push them away, but I couldn’t. I was forced to see him laying on the ground holding his face as someone’s foot crashed into Jacobs’s side. He just laid there and took it. I felt the tears sting my eyes as I felt his hand touch my face. “Sadie? Are you okay?” I could hear Jacob asking me. I also felt anger start to build inside of me. Without opening my eyes I said.

“Jacob you should go.”

“What? Why?” I knew I needed him to get out before I lost it, but as luck would have it, I lost it. I heard it before I saw it. Everything sitting on the bathroom counter went flying and Jacob stood up and backed away. I opened my eyes and looked around the bathroom.

“I’m sorry,” I said and walked out of the bathroom. I took a seat on my bed. I waited as Jacob took his time to come out.

“Sadie, what was that?” He asked me. I took a deep breath trying to come up with a lie. I didn’t want him to look at me the same way everyone has.

“What do you mean?” I said. It was the best thing I could come up with. He just looked at me funny. Then he cocked his head at me. He didn’t say anything. He just walked over and sat down next to me.

“You can talk to me to Sadie.” He said softly. Yeah, and when I do you will think I’m a freak. You will treat me like I’m sick. Just like the rest of them. I said to myself. I turned to face him, let’s see if he will talk to me. He wants to know about me. So let’s see if he lets me in.

“Who hurts you?” I asked him.

“What?”

“Who did that to your face, Jacob?” I asked. He just looked at me. “Don’t lie to me. I saw him hit you. I saw him kick you.” Jacob stood up and looked at me.

“How Sadie, how did you see that?”

“You answer me first.” I knew he was scared to tell me, but so was I. I wanted to trust him more than I have ever wanted anyone to trust. If he wanted to know my secrets. I wanted to know his.

“My father.” He said and sat back down and looked at me. He was just completely honest with me. I took a deep breath. “I have never told a single soul. How did you know?” I got up off the bed and walked over to my desk. I had a little jar full of holographic confetti. I picked it up and went and sat on the floor in front of Jacob.

“Watch,” I said as I took a deep breath and closed my eyes. “Don’t be afraid of me, please,” I said and then I did it. With the flick of my eyes, the confetti started to float out of the jar. I opened my eyes as I kept my focus and made it float all around us. I then turned to look at the light switch and cut the lights off in the room. I then closed my eyes again as I made the candles in my room light. As I opened my eyes again. The room was full of sparkling lights from the candles bouncing off of the confetti. It was beautiful to see. I looked at Jacob as I did my best to hold onto my show. His eyes were alive and I was nervous.

“How are you doing this?”

“With my mind,” I said in a shaky voice.

“It’s beautiful Sadie.” I was taken back by his words. No one has ever said that to me. In fact, most people run from me or are scared of me.

“I can’t hold onto it too much longer. I said as I started to get tired really fast and then I lost it. All the confetti fell to the ground and we were sitting in the darkness. “I’m sorry, I don’t have full control.” I felt Jacob sit next to me on the floor.

“Is this why your parents make you go see a doctor?”

“Yes.” That was all I could say.

“Sadie, you have a beautiful gift. Don’t feel ashamed for who you are.” I took a deep breath at his words. The only problem was he didn’t know everything. He didn’t know that I could feel his pain or see him when he is not around. He didn’t know what happens when I get upset or angry. He didn’t know about the people I have hurt that no one can explain. He only knew very little about what I was capable of. Jacob saw this as beautiful, but to me, it was just the reason why I was a freak that no one could ever love. I was nothing more than a thorn in my family’s side. Someone who scares everyone that comes into her life. All though Jacob was still sitting next to me. He hadn’t moved away from me.

The candle that was sitting close to us was still lit and I could see his face. I reached out and touched it with the back of my hand. “You’re not scared of me?”

“Why would I be scared of you? I knew you were special and beautiful. I have no reason to be afraid.” He said softly as he touched my face. “Do it again.” He asked me. I closed my eyes and the radio turned on. I lifted a pillow and tossed it at him. He started to laugh and I had to smile. “This is amazing Sadie.” I just shook my head at him. As he tossed the pillow back at me.

“Oh, so you want to play? Remember I don’t play fair.” I said and he just smiled at me. I closed my eyes again and then flashed them open as the stuffed animals in my room started to float and then I made them dance to the music. Once I had them floating above Jacobs’s head I dropped them and they all came crashing down on top of him. I started laughing and so did he. He fell back laughing.

“Your right you don’t play fair.” I just giggled next to him. He tossed Mr. Cuddles at me and I caught him. We smailed at each other. Jacob sat up and moved closer to me. His face was only inches from mine. My heart rate increased as he moved his face closer to mine. I felt his thumb rest on my bottom lip. “Can I kiss you?” He asked softly.

“Yes,” I said and I then felt his soft lips touch mine. I had never been kissed before and I melted into him. Our lips danced together perfectly and I slowly wrapped my arms around him. I climbed into his lap and he held me while he kissed me. All of a sudden things started to burst into the room. The light bulbs burst all around us. I moved my face from his and apologized to him.

“That was you?” He asked and I nodded. He just smiled at me and before he could kiss me again. We heard my bedroom door fly open. Both mine and Jacob’s faces turned to see them. My mother and father just stood there looking at us with their mouths open. “Oh no,” I said and looked back at Jacob. “I’m so sorry,” I said.