CHAPTER 128

I slowly slouched down and sat on the floor leaning my head against the wall and closing my eyes. The yawning of sleep was a welcome relief for the tired enemas but sleep would not come. Not when I could not go a moment without thinking of her and seeing her face each and every time I shut my eyes.

Not when all the time spent not with her felt as if they lasted for an eternity.

I was breaking. It was something I could literally sense all over my body. This anguish, this regret… more than anything the longing for something that had never even existed for them… and it was just unbearable. At that, I didn’t know how much longer I could hold on until something interesting happened that caught my attention.

But I had to. I had to find her. For both our sakes.

The low glow of my desk lamp pulsated, sending restless silhouettes dancing across various papers strewn on top of my desk. Another night without sleep; another day without Varya. Days had gone since she had disappeared and every hint