VARYA’S POVThe darkness consumed me, it was stifling. I lost track of the day and night altogether as time turned into a torture of pain and fright. The torment had left my body aching from Tia’s brutalities.I felt like my skin had been sliced with knives and I was on the verge of going crazy because of her continuous insults and threats. Both physically and emotionally, I was hurt beyond recognition.Nonetheless, amid all this madness, I held onto that little glimmer of hope hanging by a thread.I had to survive. I needed to escape.Kylo’s face is the last thing on my mind, yet it's the first thing I see each time close my eyes. Deep down I knew he was both my lifeline and tormentor in this journey that had pushed me to the edge of lunacy once before even having attempted to break out from within.Our affair was underpinned by lies but during such moments when life seems unbearable; somehow I find myself going back to those days we spent together.His fingers grazed over mine as if
KYLO’S POVThe workplace felt eerily silent, deranged without its customary noises of background bothers. Once bustling with a lot of people and energy, my surroundings were now lifelessly tranquil.For several minutes I focused on my computer’s screen but absentmindedly flicking through those untested files piled up high on my table.There was nothing important anymore—the whole world no longer interested me—everything appeared so pointless before her very eyes even though she would have lived forever in dreams only if she never got tired.Varya.Her name would not go from my thoughts; it was like an eerie refrain that would not go away. I had mentally gone over every scenario and possibility of what might have happened to her, but nothing made sense. She had vanished without a trace, leaving an emptiness in her wake that swallowed everything.I hadn’t wanted to believe it at first, the idea that she could leave like that. In spite of all we had gone through together and all of the m
I slowly slouched down and sat on the floor leaning my head against the wall and closing my eyes. The yawning of sleep was a welcome relief for the tired enemas but sleep would not come. Not when I could not go a moment without thinking of her and seeing her face each and every time I shut my eyes.Not when all the time spent not with her felt as if they lasted for an eternity.I was breaking. It was something I could literally sense all over my body. This anguish, this regret… more than anything the longing for something that had never even existed for them… and it was just unbearable. At that, I didn’t know how much longer I could hold on until something interesting happened that caught my attention.But I had to. I had to find her. For both our sakes.The low glow of my desk lamp pulsated, sending restless silhouettes dancing across various papers strewn on top of my desk. Another night without sleep; another day without Varya. Days had gone since she had disappeared and every hint
The streets blurred together as I drove, my focus narrowing to one point: Theo. He was the key. I was certain of it. He might not have taken Varya himself, but he knew more than he was letting on. And I was going to find out what that was—no matter what it took.By the time I got to Theo’s building, I parked my car opposite across the road, my heart was beating fast. The lights were on in his apartment, he was home. I had to pause for a couple of moments, while the rage that was boiling inside me subsided a little.I had to make sure that my mind was not going to be swayed by my feelings. I had to keep my mind alert.Then, forcing myself to proceed, I climbed the stairs and reached the door of Theo’s flat, which seemed to me to be the heaviest in the world. Not thinking twice I knocked on the door when I finally got to his house.I knocked and heard the sound rebounding in the empty corridor. I sat there with my jaws tense, waiting to make my move, unmoved by the delay made by the oth
As I drove through the empty streets, my thoughts kept circling back to Theo and his wife, Tia. She’d always struck me as cold, and distant, someone who didn’t much care for Varya.And now, in the wake of Varya’s disappearance, I couldn’t help but wonder how much she knew. Was she complicit in whatever Theo was doing? Or was she just as much in the dark as I was?I needed to find a way to get closer to them, to dig deeper into their lives without tipping them off. If Theo thought I was backing off, maybe he would slip up. Maybe he would make a mistake that would finally lead me to Varya.But how long could I wait for that? How long could I stand by, hoping for a breakthrough, while Varya was out there, possibly suffering? Knowing that she was in danger sent chills down my spine. Motionless, I couldn’t bear it anymore. Something had to be done.Though it was late, I decided to drop by the office briefly. There were files I had to check again, and acquaintances I needed to contact again
Now there was nothing left but fear written all over her face, pain and despair, visualizing what she might be going through as I sat here paralyzed with frustration.All of a sudden I stood up with a bang while sending my chair flying across the room in an unintentional act of violence and began moving around the office like an electric current. It became unbearable to remain seated. I had to do something, anything.I pulled out my phone and dialed Amelia’s number before I could think twice about it. She answered groggily after a few rings.“Amelia, it’s me,” I said without preamble.“I need you to run another background check on Theo and Tia. This time, focus on any properties they might have that aren’t listed under their names. Shell companies, relatives, anything.”“Sir, it’s—” Amelia paused, likely checking the time.“It’s nearly four in the morning. Are you sure it can’t wait until—”“No,” I cut her off.“It can’t. I feel like we’re missing something. I’ve gone over everything
The continuous buzzing of my laptop was starting to irritate me, but I couldn’t help it. Not now. My office was pitch black apart from the bleak blue light from the screen as I viewed document after document.There was always something inside a file – a thread that might take me closer to Varya – but it all didn’t tie together coherently.I leaned back in my chair and rubbed my eyes. Theo and Tia had been cul-de-sacs; initially, everything pointed at them – they had both the cause and the fixation. Yet every lead that I followed came to a dead end without any success.Running in circles is why I hated it; it seemed that the truth lay just outside my reach. But if they weren’t responsible for Varya’s disappearance then who might they be?I still could not let go of an annoying voice within me.Something must have passed me by. Someone else who had reason to target her. Varya had been secretive about her past, careful about what she shared with me. Maybe she had enemies I didn’t know ab
I couldn’t help but laugh, despite the terror still coursing through my veins. “You think so?”She nodded his head sideways, his grin expanding but still limited as they were chatting on the verge of making a big decision.“When I am grown up… you will marry me, right?”I was taken aback by her sudden act of love. Perhaps she meant it too seriously that I felt obliged to say for her sake at least-“Yes, sure,” I whispered and brushed away a hair strand from her gorgeous face.“If you survive this then I shall marry you”.Once again she beamed, this time with increased power, and for some time it became just us two – two children caught in the middle of an agonizing dream who made unrealistic commitments they did not comprehend.Some moments later sound of sirens pierced through the silence; then I turned around to see some ambulances rushing towards us with sirens blaring out their deafening noise for everybody else to hear clearly nearby.As we continued watching, Eric came running o