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2021-07-15 20:39:23"please come back and
tell me you regret leaving me,tell me you miss meand that it's been me all along."-all I wish for// R.R. (via sad girl 2017)
**************************************Ronin, my love! Not a single day have I not missed you...since the day you left me, the emptiness inside me so hollow and void.You were the light into my darkness...you were the sunshine of my life, spreading the warmth and brightness in my cold broken heart.
Oh! How have I missed you all these times....whenever down or upset just hearing your voice would make me happy and joyous.
You gave a meaning to my meaningless life....u filled the void inside my defeated beaten heart.
You became my reason to live and
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