- KILLIAN - I shut the door of the anti room, when I hear voices coming from inside. I can tell two people are communicating but I know not physically. I walk to the living room. This is where I find Hazel sat in front of the tv, on a sofa, watching a show. The good thing is, the lights aren’t
“No, it’s fine.” I object nicely. If anything, it’s not my blood. “Please, allow me.” She’s staring at me with so much concern and in such a way that I can’t resist. “If you insist.” I say, giving in. Hazel kisses me on the cheek. “I’ll be right back, don’t leave.” She stands up. I already m
- HAZEL - I stretch. It’s morning. I have a lot of preparation to do in the library today so I’m heading there. One week with Killian was truly all I needed to feel alright. It’s amazing how much has changed since then. For one, I’ve not gotten a text from Asami. That alone is a big win. Maybe s
- HAZEL - Headphones are plugged over my head. I’m humming a tune as I listen to music. My old, but favourite; Morally grey, the refined version where the artist does a collab with another, a male, and dare I say every single lyrics in his part is the perfect definition of what Killian does to my
“Straight.” I say then avert my head back down. “Then let’s keep walking.” Her voice is raspy. “Feel comfortable with me, girl, huh?” I swallow. How do I feel comfortable with the one person who almost pushed me down a building and inflicted injuries not just on my body but on my mind as well?
- KILLIAN - It’s getting addicting. Being with her is getting addicting. And that kind of addiction is also very terrifying. The kind of terror I will die for. The kind of terror I yearn for even though I know it’ll be the death of me, because what’s the point of being alive if I don’t enjoy the p
- KILLIAN - I run after her. I’m not supposed to do so in broad daylight but I’m not about to let her experience anything alone again. Not when I’m here. My purpose of being here is to be here for her and only her. I want her to lean on me, and maybe, someday, I’ll be able to open up about myself
My jaw tightens. “If it’s for us, then you’d tell me so WE can sort it out together. That’s why I’m here, no?” The sound of a flushing toilet blares in the restroom causing me to blink perplexedly. The door blocking her away from me is pushed open abruptly. I let out a sigh of relief. Finally.
- HAZEL - Nothing seems interesting. Each day, I’m getting closer and closer to losing my mind yet I’m trying to get my act together. No one really talks about how overwhelming it is to have to hide a part of you you’d love to talk about so much. How miserable keeping to yourself actually is. It’
- KILLIAN - She’s avoiding me. It’s one thing to be understanding but it’s another to try to put up with it when I have so much going on. Hazel has not said a damn word to me for days. I’ve had no texts. No calls. Not even so much as a gaze from her and we literally are in the same school. I ca
“Well, time does things to someone.” I comment. I don’t want to talk about a painful past when I’m dealing with an even more difficult present right now because of her. I don’t know what she said to Hazel but it’s got Hazel acting in a way that bleeds my heart. It’s times like these that I hate bein
- KILLIAN - Rain. I stare at the wiper blades sliding back and forth over my windscreen, wiping the raindrops hitting the glass away to no avail. It keeps pouring. Heavily at that. The sound of the water hitting my car and every object in the environment, the ground included, eases my nerves. The
“What do you think about this? I call bull.” Kaiden asks, walking by my side. Boy, seeing him again this close makes me know how much I did not miss this blonde guy but I’m casual about it. It’s just so funny how the timing is. I took his woman from him and she dumped me the moment I met him again.
- KILLIAN - Seeing her leave because of me broke me. Seeing her walk away with the desperation to run after her being pungent but not able to destroyed me even more. It doesn’t make any sense. Just this morning and a few days ago, we made love. We were happy then all of a sudden she drops this
I avert my gaze to my phone. It’s two thirty pm. How long have I been in school? I lost track. I haven’t made any academic progress since I met Asami. “Sorry, just been overwhelmed with thoughts.” I sigh. “Want to talk about it?” Natasha chimes. My lips form a line. Not really. There’s not mu
- HAZEL - “Do you really mean that?” Killian reaches out to touch me. I shove his hand away, keeping my resolve. “Yes, I do. You disgust me, Killian. I’ve put it off long enough but I can’t anymore. Let’s break up and end this thing between us.” In his eyes, I could tell he didn’t want to bel
My jaw tightens. “If it’s for us, then you’d tell me so WE can sort it out together. That’s why I’m here, no?” The sound of a flushing toilet blares in the restroom causing me to blink perplexedly. The door blocking her away from me is pushed open abruptly. I let out a sigh of relief. Finally.