"You don't have to worry Ziva. He doesn't know that you are here. I won't tell a soul", he said to me."You too worked for Enzo?", I asked him."Not directly. Though I did somethings to fund my addiction. I wasn't proud of it", he said to me."OK. It is good that you got out", I said."Yes. It was not easy to get out. But I wasn't an active member like my friend. I doubt he knows me at all", said he."I'm glad you could before you got into real trouble", I told him."Enough about Enzo. Let us do something to get your mind off things", said Kyle."OK. I want to learn photography", I told him."Now you are talking", he said with a smile.Half an hour later I sighed. There seems to be no end to the number of lenses he keeps supplying me with."You are making me clean all the lenses you ever had. This doesn't constitute in learning. This is you getting free labor", I told him."You have to study cleaning the lenses first that is the first step in learning the photography", he told me."Y
"You are lying", I said trying to keep my tears at bay."No. If I was lying then I would have said something else. How can someone lie about the Marital status of another person?", he asked with a huff."I don't know because you are jealous of us", I told him."Listen to me. I'm jealous of course but because I love you. But that doesn't mean that I would lie to you. He was married to a girl who studied in his school ", he told. "I still can't believe it", I said but my words were weak. "Trust me Ziva. I wouldn't lie . I knew Dane from school. He was my senior. I know he won't recognise me from school . I was a nobody hanging in the parking lot smoking weed", he said. "What was her name?", I asked him. "Amelia Sayers", he said. I covered my mouth in shock. I have heard that name before while he was talking to Jake. I only heard the first name. She and Jake had the same last name so that would mean that she was his sister. I now know for sure that Kyle wasn't lying. Why does i
Inside the bedroom there was no chair for us to sit and talk. I pointed him towards the bed. He sighed and sat down. I was amazed at how unfazed was I when Jake sat in my bed. Would I react the same way if it was Dane? I don't think so. My feelings for Dane would never let me relax at all."You haven't said anything and it is already five minutes", I reminded him..."Yes I know. I just needed some time. This is something that affects me too. Amelia was my sister. I can't speak about her randomly", he said tightly."How is she?", I asked him. I hoped that she is somewhere in the tropical far away from Dane sipping martini with a new husband and a handful of children. It would be less risky for me that way. "I will get to that. I need you to tell about Dane first. It is only right. I met Dane when I was in high-school. We had just landed in another high-school thanks to my mother's irritation at being tied down at one place. She and my father were very happy together. Me and my sister
I have been staring out of window for the past one hour. I didn't want to wake up from the bed. If I did I didn't have energy to do anything. I just sat on the bed looking out of the window warning myself to stop crying thinking about the man who betrayed me. He didn't reveal to me his reality that he was a father and a husband. He could have told me like the time he told me about his escorting or street fighting. I would have comforted him. But he didn't if he had ever considered me that I was his True wife he would have told me. But he never meant when he said he loved me. It was all lies and I hate him for leading me on like that.I heard a knock on the door. It was my Kyle. I saw a coffee mug on his hand."Give me a drink", I begged him."No. You are in no state to ask me a drink. You haven't even gone out of this room for heaven's sake and it had been a week. If I didn't bring you food what would you have done?", he questioned me."I don't know make it myself", I said with a wea
It had been exactly a week in exile but it has been pure hell. Don't misunderstand Kyle he has been nothing but an absolute gentleman the entire time. But I couldn't stop myself from feeling guilty for the entire episode. I sure had crossed many lines and I knew I was too deep inside the enemy lines, now going back is impossible. Kyle had once again forced me to watch cable with him. I was too numb to the point that I had agreed when he asked me if it is OK to watch sports highlights. I didn't even blink when he said highlights. Tell me how many girls would put up with that?"Hey are you even here?", he asked me waving his palm in front of me."Unfortunately yes", I answered.He didn't seem too pleased with my joke. I just shrugged. I don't care what he thinks about me? I'm not here to impress him. It seems I have done far more damage actually. I should just keep working on my defenses against him. I won't let him commit anymore follies that end up destroying myself and everyone aroun
The stress was eating me alive. Why was nobody talking to me? Why was I always the one to be left behind. I can't take it, not anymore! I'm sick of this. I remembered the time I wasn't allowed in the hospital when my father was sick . If Dane wasn't there then I doubt they would let me to go to his funeral. I refused to be let down by the mistake of others. I won't stand silently while others make decisions. I'm going to react and they would then understand. I won't let anyone walk all over me like before. I sighed for the hundredth time. But I only make these life changing decisions in my head and never put it on action.My fingers hovered on the call button I had already dialled Charlie's number. If there is someone who is brave enough to defy my husband it is Charlie. But the only problem is that I wasn't brave enough to call her. But I better put on my bravado because once I do this there is no turning back. Before I could press dial I saw someone calling me. I pressed the accept
I don't know what to think of my fucked up life. Kyle was seeing someone? I had no clue. The truth was that I cheated on Dane while Kyle cheated on Paisley. I know they have just started dating but still it counts. I don't know what to do? This is so bad. I wanted to cry but I knew no one would feel sorry for me anymore. The consequences of my actions finally weighed in on me. I can't be alone anymore. I hated it the main reason that I cheated on Dane was because he let me go. I just couldn't handle that my husband doesn't want to be with me during difficult times. I know he had his own reasons. He wanted to convince cops to allow me protection but they are not giving it. They wanted to built a solid case against Enzo.If they started to do any action against him right now. He is going to suspect something is going on and may go into hiding at the first sign of trouble. I'm not afraid of some street criminal. He is nothing but a coward who is using his money and power to kill a woman
"Tell me something", I said to Charlie.She shook her head and made an action of handing me over a crown."Go on take it. It is now yours. You have beaten me so the title of queen of bad decision will now remain with you for the rest of your life", said Charlie."Charlie. Be serious", I begged her."Babe being serious is the last thing you want to do right now Babe. The only thing you can do is play it off everything as fun", said Charlie.."What? I don't understand", I told her."I'm telling you that you shouldn't act like the kiss meant anything. Tell Kyle it was supposed to be a joke", said Charlie."That is not True. He won't believe it. The kiss meant something. It was not supposed to be funny at all", I told her."Do you love Dane?", she asked me."How can you ask me that question? You know how much I loved Dane. I had married that guy just so that he wouldn't look ridiculous when I had a steady boyfriend", I told her."But you were pressurised", said Charlie."Yes. But it was n
Charlie hadn't said anything to Dane. If only she waited for him to talk. Charlie pretended to say the truth so that Heidi comes clean before Dane. She had done it but I knew she will pay the cost for it. Dane now knows everything. The Wedding won't happen now. I felt a little sorry for my sister after all she had lost Dane again."You didn't say the truth to me. I'm angry at you too", said Dane."I won't blame you. I should have told you about Enzo but I was afraid you won't take it seriously", I confessed."His people had shot me and you think I won't take it seriously? Ziva please be mature", said Dane."I'm sorry Dane", I said."You made us lose our precious three years of life. I missed my daughter's birth and her significant mile stones. It is not something that I can forgive", said Dane."You are right. I was a coward and everyone used that knowledge to influence me", I admitted."You are not a coward Ziva. I wish you were a little more selfish. You sacrificed us for my life. I
When I reached the venue I was immediately ushered into the groom's room. I went to see Dane working on the laptop. My daughter screamed and went to hug him. He took her and lifted above his shoulders. Who knew my serious daughter was a fun loving girl ?"I miss you daddy", she said."I miss you too bug", he said."Don't get married", she said bossily."Why?", he asked curiously."Because mommy cries", she said shocking me.He looked at me with a hint of smile. I was dumb struck."I wasn't", I said to him.She climbed down from her father and took her place next to me. I gave her a warning look."Don't lie", she said to me."I'm not lying", I said to her."You said that daddy", she was about to say everything but I put my hand on her mouth."That is enough", I warned her."There is still time confess your love or it will be too late", he said with a smirk."No. Our life is not a rom Com Dane. Everything is not black and white", I said to him."Fine your wish", he said.I took my daugh
I'm a stubborn creature where the need arises. I'm not going to backdown even if he says that he can't live without me. But I knew he won't say it. I had hurt him enough but still he says he can't marry Heidi. I can't go home till we reaches some sort of agreement."Dane. I'm not going back where it all started. I want an out", I said painfully. I had a fair idea on how much I was hurting him."Fine. I will get married but you have to be at the wedding. If you decide not to come at the last moment the wedding is off", said Dane."You can't say that. Please I won't go back not with Enzo there", I said to him."The wedding is going to happen here and tomorrow. Remember to be there else there is no wedding. I had booked a cab for you. It is not a good idea for me to join you", he said. I nodded my head. I was ready already.I have to be there at Dane's wedding to my sister. The fate couldn't be any more cruel. It hurt me like hell to adjust to the prospect that my husband is going to get
The thing about mistake is that we don't have a desire to undo it constantly but I didn't feel that way. Sleeping with Dane might be a bad choice on my part but I never regret a second that I spent with him. I would do it all over again if given another chance. But I shall remain silent. My thoughts never should come out of my head. It must stay there safe and silent. Even after I insulted Dane he being a gentleman had gone to fetch me fresh clothes. I stay there waiting for him to get the clothes. He must have ordered it through the hotel. But it still hadn't come. So he had gone there to check what happened to my dress. He might have fired somebody too if the hotel was his.I heard a knock and Dane came through. I stayed there very still. All my instincts said to go towards him. My emotions were over the top plus the amazing sex we had destroyed any small amount of self-control I used to have."Here is your dress", he said putting it on the bed."Can you give me some privacy?", I as
"I'm sorry for hurting you. I want us both to move on for the sake of Angel. You are also getting married to my sister. Let us end this please. What do you want in return for it?", I asked him."I want you to give me back every kiss I gave you. Then I will forget you and move on", he said."Fine. I have a condition too. I want you to give me back every kiss I gave you as well. So that we can settle the score", he said."Done", he said. I was the one who charged at him he bent down the kiss me. We kissed each other like there was no tomorrow. His tongue duelling with mine. I gasped when he bit my lips hard enough that it hurt. I bit him too drawing blood. He chuckled when he heard me growl. You better stop provoking me. I said in my mind.His hands cupping my boobs. I moaned when his hands tore my expensive dress. I didn't bother to put aside the tattered dress. It lied crumpled on the ground. I stood there in my undergarments. He removed a single boob from the constraints of my bra. H
"You can't let go of me right? You wanted to play me even after leaving me. I just played you back", he said with tight eyes."It wasn't any game Heidi loves you. She asked my help I gave it to her. I have no other interest in you", I said to him."Is that so? Then why are you on a date with me? How does it help your sister?", he asked me crossing his arms."I'm doing what I'm told. You said you will leave me alone after this date", I reminded him."I said and you listened. Things are that easy for you? Our life together didn't matter to you isn't that right? You couldn't endure a life with a handicap so you left me. But still you are here they are right what goes around comes around", he said."Why do you ask me to this date? Is it to torture me?", I asked him."No. I'm on this date to say you goodbye. You might have meddled with my life a lot. But after today you won't do anything like that ever again. I wanted to destroy you initially but then I realised that you are also mother of
"And what do you think?", I asked him."I know my feelings never died for you", he said thoughtfully."You are only saying this to punish me", I said."Why would I want to punish you?", he asked me."Because I left you three years ago", I said."It is correct that you left me. I don't think I can ever forgive you for that. But that doesn't mean that I had lost my feelings for you", he said."I think you want to bed me that is why you are talking about the feelings all of a sudden", I said."I would always want to bed you. I'm attracted to you physically and mentally. I will always want sex from you. Even when we are both a hundred years old", he said."I don't want you", I shot back at him."I realised that three long years ago. But that hadn't deterred me from wanting you like a Madan", said he."You shouldn't say such stupid things. I have used you in the past and disregarded you as it suited me", I lied to him."I got that. It still hurts. I thought you were in love with me", he sa
"You look beautiful", said Charlie carrying my daughter on her hip."Thanks", I murmured putting on the necklace.My open-sleeve dress had so many boob's that I was sure Dane would drool. I knew the game that I was playing is a dangerous one for both parties. It was like fighting with a sword that has no pommel. It can cut both."Is this some kind of a reminder for him? To have an idea of what he missed?", she asked me."I'm only getting ready for the date as he asked me to. That is all there it is. A single date where we will behave like it was the first time I'm seeing him walking", I said."You mean like while you were married to him", she said."Yes for a single date. But there won't be anything beyond that. He is going to get married soon to my sister. She had already told me that it is OK. Dane said that this date night is all he is asking in return for leaving me alone. I have nothing more to ask for from Dane and he will only get what he asked", I said."That is going to be to
I have decided to give him what he want. I know it will be a lie to confess that it is something that he only he wants. I want that too. A date that we missed three years ago. I couldn't help but imagine what would have happened if I hadn't met Enzo that day. I want to see him walk towards me for the first time again. He would have been romantic and flirty with me all night. We would have ended that night early each of us eager to go home. So that we could celebrate together at night.I was very nervous. Something inside my mind warned me from going through with Dane's idea. It is not only a worst idea but the after math of the said date would be incomprehensible. I won't be able to forget and move on while he ends this fantasy of date. I would be left with broken pieces of my heart.I called Charlie for clarity. I doubt she has anything new to supply. I already know consequences of my decision even though it doesn't make a difference to me.She picked on the first ring. She had alrea