It had been exactly a week in exile but it has been pure hell. Don't misunderstand Kyle he has been nothing but an absolute gentleman the entire time. But I couldn't stop myself from feeling guilty for the entire episode. I sure had crossed many lines and I knew I was too deep inside the enemy lines, now going back is impossible. Kyle had once again forced me to watch cable with him. I was too numb to the point that I had agreed when he asked me if it is OK to watch sports highlights. I didn't even blink when he said highlights. Tell me how many girls would put up with that?"Hey are you even here?", he asked me waving his palm in front of me."Unfortunately yes", I answered.He didn't seem too pleased with my joke. I just shrugged. I don't care what he thinks about me? I'm not here to impress him. It seems I have done far more damage actually. I should just keep working on my defenses against him. I won't let him commit anymore follies that end up destroying myself and everyone aroun
The stress was eating me alive. Why was nobody talking to me? Why was I always the one to be left behind. I can't take it, not anymore! I'm sick of this. I remembered the time I wasn't allowed in the hospital when my father was sick . If Dane wasn't there then I doubt they would let me to go to his funeral. I refused to be let down by the mistake of others. I won't stand silently while others make decisions. I'm going to react and they would then understand. I won't let anyone walk all over me like before. I sighed for the hundredth time. But I only make these life changing decisions in my head and never put it on action.My fingers hovered on the call button I had already dialled Charlie's number. If there is someone who is brave enough to defy my husband it is Charlie. But the only problem is that I wasn't brave enough to call her. But I better put on my bravado because once I do this there is no turning back. Before I could press dial I saw someone calling me. I pressed the accept
I don't know what to think of my fucked up life. Kyle was seeing someone? I had no clue. The truth was that I cheated on Dane while Kyle cheated on Paisley. I know they have just started dating but still it counts. I don't know what to do? This is so bad. I wanted to cry but I knew no one would feel sorry for me anymore. The consequences of my actions finally weighed in on me. I can't be alone anymore. I hated it the main reason that I cheated on Dane was because he let me go. I just couldn't handle that my husband doesn't want to be with me during difficult times. I know he had his own reasons. He wanted to convince cops to allow me protection but they are not giving it. They wanted to built a solid case against Enzo.If they started to do any action against him right now. He is going to suspect something is going on and may go into hiding at the first sign of trouble. I'm not afraid of some street criminal. He is nothing but a coward who is using his money and power to kill a woman
"Tell me something", I said to Charlie.She shook her head and made an action of handing me over a crown."Go on take it. It is now yours. You have beaten me so the title of queen of bad decision will now remain with you for the rest of your life", said Charlie."Charlie. Be serious", I begged her."Babe being serious is the last thing you want to do right now Babe. The only thing you can do is play it off everything as fun", said Charlie.."What? I don't understand", I told her."I'm telling you that you shouldn't act like the kiss meant anything. Tell Kyle it was supposed to be a joke", said Charlie."That is not True. He won't believe it. The kiss meant something. It was not supposed to be funny at all", I told her."Do you love Dane?", she asked me."How can you ask me that question? You know how much I loved Dane. I had married that guy just so that he wouldn't look ridiculous when I had a steady boyfriend", I told her."But you were pressurised", said Charlie."Yes. But it was n
I heard Charlie shuffling in the background. There wasn't much distance between the door and the living room. She might have heard his name. My throat had dried up. I wanted to speak but nothing came out."Your husband did a brilliant job of hiding you. But I always knew it won't take long to find you because he didn't take your best friend. Woman simply can't live without babbling to their girlfriends", he said it like a joke."Do you want to kill me?", I asked him dumbly. If he had forgotten about killing then I might have foolishly reminded him of that. But I want to die with the knowledge that I was killed by a gangster that couldn't handle a woman."I would have killed you the moment you opened the door if that was what I want, but your husband went great lengths to protect your life. So it would be a waste to kill you", he said.Was he really grown fond of me? I simply can't believe it. I know he has some ulterior move."Does your friend think she can kill me with a knife. I h
I know these people were very dangerous. They will kill me in a second if they knew that I was planning something. My first plan was to get out of these cuffs which wasn't working. They were incredibly tight. It cut deep when I tried to break them. I realised that I was very thin so there is a chance that I can loosen my arms from them. How ever that failed too because they were not the movie kind. These were real cuffs that was meant to keep people tied. If there was any chance that I can get out of these that would be by convincing others to do it."I need to go to washroom", I said."Hold it", said a gruff voice from outside the room."I can't please", I said as sweetly as humanly possible."Fine", he relented and opened the door. I got to know that he had the key with him because he did it so fast. He was my jailer so I better try to be friendly with him.He dragged me outside without an ounce of sympathy of gentleness. I knew that this guy was pretty hard core criminal. He took m
He tried to kill me and took my fucking wedding ring and I was powerless to stop him. I hate myself for trying to strike up a conversation with him. He was no better than his brother. I don't know how to survive in these kinds of situations and it shows. I'm always ending up withy ass kicked. I felt like a loser. My husband had survived in here. I couldn't do it. I wonder why? Because I was a good for nothing. The hopelessness ate me alive. I wished that I knew something that I could use but I have lived a sheltered life so it was hard for me to get my way around in a hostage situation.I say there on the floor. The cold was biting my skin. I had no ways for knowing what time it was? I only knew one thing if I made a small sound he would take out my tongue. He threatened me so coldly that to my shamelessness I have grown to be afraid of him.I heard another person talking to my Captor. He was very jovial and sounded nothing like he was earlier. He must be talking to his friend. The ne
I don't know meeting Kyle's friend was a good thing or not. I only know one thing this wait was fucking killing me. I can't spend my eternity waiting for help to pop up. I remembered my husband painfully. I don't know whether he missed me like I did? I only wanted to see him one last time if I die. But life never gives us what we wants. I was very much afraid that I'm going to be killed or worse I would end up in one of Enzo's brothels because I knew he owned several. My Captor is trying to coax me into giving him blow job for cigarettes, icecreams, chocolates the list is endless."Bitch if you are trying to remain faithful to your husband I assure you he is fucking one of the models or even your sister", he said after one day.After the way he physically attacked I stopped reacting to anything he says. He kind of took it in himself to draw a reaction from me. I know he is winning now because if there is someway he would get what he wanted that is to ensure that he speaks of my husban
Charlie hadn't said anything to Dane. If only she waited for him to talk. Charlie pretended to say the truth so that Heidi comes clean before Dane. She had done it but I knew she will pay the cost for it. Dane now knows everything. The Wedding won't happen now. I felt a little sorry for my sister after all she had lost Dane again."You didn't say the truth to me. I'm angry at you too", said Dane."I won't blame you. I should have told you about Enzo but I was afraid you won't take it seriously", I confessed."His people had shot me and you think I won't take it seriously? Ziva please be mature", said Dane."I'm sorry Dane", I said."You made us lose our precious three years of life. I missed my daughter's birth and her significant mile stones. It is not something that I can forgive", said Dane."You are right. I was a coward and everyone used that knowledge to influence me", I admitted."You are not a coward Ziva. I wish you were a little more selfish. You sacrificed us for my life. I
When I reached the venue I was immediately ushered into the groom's room. I went to see Dane working on the laptop. My daughter screamed and went to hug him. He took her and lifted above his shoulders. Who knew my serious daughter was a fun loving girl ?"I miss you daddy", she said."I miss you too bug", he said."Don't get married", she said bossily."Why?", he asked curiously."Because mommy cries", she said shocking me.He looked at me with a hint of smile. I was dumb struck."I wasn't", I said to him.She climbed down from her father and took her place next to me. I gave her a warning look."Don't lie", she said to me."I'm not lying", I said to her."You said that daddy", she was about to say everything but I put my hand on her mouth."That is enough", I warned her."There is still time confess your love or it will be too late", he said with a smirk."No. Our life is not a rom Com Dane. Everything is not black and white", I said to him."Fine your wish", he said.I took my daugh
I'm a stubborn creature where the need arises. I'm not going to backdown even if he says that he can't live without me. But I knew he won't say it. I had hurt him enough but still he says he can't marry Heidi. I can't go home till we reaches some sort of agreement."Dane. I'm not going back where it all started. I want an out", I said painfully. I had a fair idea on how much I was hurting him."Fine. I will get married but you have to be at the wedding. If you decide not to come at the last moment the wedding is off", said Dane."You can't say that. Please I won't go back not with Enzo there", I said to him."The wedding is going to happen here and tomorrow. Remember to be there else there is no wedding. I had booked a cab for you. It is not a good idea for me to join you", he said. I nodded my head. I was ready already.I have to be there at Dane's wedding to my sister. The fate couldn't be any more cruel. It hurt me like hell to adjust to the prospect that my husband is going to get
The thing about mistake is that we don't have a desire to undo it constantly but I didn't feel that way. Sleeping with Dane might be a bad choice on my part but I never regret a second that I spent with him. I would do it all over again if given another chance. But I shall remain silent. My thoughts never should come out of my head. It must stay there safe and silent. Even after I insulted Dane he being a gentleman had gone to fetch me fresh clothes. I stay there waiting for him to get the clothes. He must have ordered it through the hotel. But it still hadn't come. So he had gone there to check what happened to my dress. He might have fired somebody too if the hotel was his.I heard a knock and Dane came through. I stayed there very still. All my instincts said to go towards him. My emotions were over the top plus the amazing sex we had destroyed any small amount of self-control I used to have."Here is your dress", he said putting it on the bed."Can you give me some privacy?", I as
"I'm sorry for hurting you. I want us both to move on for the sake of Angel. You are also getting married to my sister. Let us end this please. What do you want in return for it?", I asked him."I want you to give me back every kiss I gave you. Then I will forget you and move on", he said."Fine. I have a condition too. I want you to give me back every kiss I gave you as well. So that we can settle the score", he said."Done", he said. I was the one who charged at him he bent down the kiss me. We kissed each other like there was no tomorrow. His tongue duelling with mine. I gasped when he bit my lips hard enough that it hurt. I bit him too drawing blood. He chuckled when he heard me growl. You better stop provoking me. I said in my mind.His hands cupping my boobs. I moaned when his hands tore my expensive dress. I didn't bother to put aside the tattered dress. It lied crumpled on the ground. I stood there in my undergarments. He removed a single boob from the constraints of my bra. H
"You can't let go of me right? You wanted to play me even after leaving me. I just played you back", he said with tight eyes."It wasn't any game Heidi loves you. She asked my help I gave it to her. I have no other interest in you", I said to him."Is that so? Then why are you on a date with me? How does it help your sister?", he asked me crossing his arms."I'm doing what I'm told. You said you will leave me alone after this date", I reminded him."I said and you listened. Things are that easy for you? Our life together didn't matter to you isn't that right? You couldn't endure a life with a handicap so you left me. But still you are here they are right what goes around comes around", he said."Why do you ask me to this date? Is it to torture me?", I asked him."No. I'm on this date to say you goodbye. You might have meddled with my life a lot. But after today you won't do anything like that ever again. I wanted to destroy you initially but then I realised that you are also mother of
"And what do you think?", I asked him."I know my feelings never died for you", he said thoughtfully."You are only saying this to punish me", I said."Why would I want to punish you?", he asked me."Because I left you three years ago", I said."It is correct that you left me. I don't think I can ever forgive you for that. But that doesn't mean that I had lost my feelings for you", he said."I think you want to bed me that is why you are talking about the feelings all of a sudden", I said."I would always want to bed you. I'm attracted to you physically and mentally. I will always want sex from you. Even when we are both a hundred years old", he said."I don't want you", I shot back at him."I realised that three long years ago. But that hadn't deterred me from wanting you like a Madan", said he."You shouldn't say such stupid things. I have used you in the past and disregarded you as it suited me", I lied to him."I got that. It still hurts. I thought you were in love with me", he sa
"You look beautiful", said Charlie carrying my daughter on her hip."Thanks", I murmured putting on the necklace.My open-sleeve dress had so many boob's that I was sure Dane would drool. I knew the game that I was playing is a dangerous one for both parties. It was like fighting with a sword that has no pommel. It can cut both."Is this some kind of a reminder for him? To have an idea of what he missed?", she asked me."I'm only getting ready for the date as he asked me to. That is all there it is. A single date where we will behave like it was the first time I'm seeing him walking", I said."You mean like while you were married to him", she said."Yes for a single date. But there won't be anything beyond that. He is going to get married soon to my sister. She had already told me that it is OK. Dane said that this date night is all he is asking in return for leaving me alone. I have nothing more to ask for from Dane and he will only get what he asked", I said."That is going to be to
I have decided to give him what he want. I know it will be a lie to confess that it is something that he only he wants. I want that too. A date that we missed three years ago. I couldn't help but imagine what would have happened if I hadn't met Enzo that day. I want to see him walk towards me for the first time again. He would have been romantic and flirty with me all night. We would have ended that night early each of us eager to go home. So that we could celebrate together at night.I was very nervous. Something inside my mind warned me from going through with Dane's idea. It is not only a worst idea but the after math of the said date would be incomprehensible. I won't be able to forget and move on while he ends this fantasy of date. I would be left with broken pieces of my heart.I called Charlie for clarity. I doubt she has anything new to supply. I already know consequences of my decision even though it doesn't make a difference to me.She picked on the first ring. She had alrea