It was the day of my appointment with Dr. Martin. You can imagine my shock when I opened my eyes to see Maria peering down at me with a strange look in her eyes. Okay, what the hell? I sat up in bed, holding a hand to my throbbing head. I felt like someone was ringing a bell and walking around my brain. “Maria? What are you doing here?” I asked her groggily.“You called for me, Signora,” she replied, confused.“I did? When?”“Just a few minutes ago. But when I got here, you were fast asleep.”I nodded. “Run my bath for me, please. I want the lavender scented bath salt. I'll be there in a bit,” I said, stretching.“Lavender? But signora, you hate the lavender. It makes your skin itchy,” Maria said with a frown, making me pause.“Mix in a little bit then,” I responded, standing up from the bed and walking towards the closet.I had gone to bed angry after my conversation with Luca last night, and he had left earlier this morning. I felt him kiss my forehead before leaving.*Flashback*
I was in the room one morning when I picked up my phone and turned it on. “Hey, I'm glad you finally called back. How are you feeling?” my brother's voice came through the speakers when the call connected.I sighed at the sound of his voice. It was like a breath of fresh air. “I’m alright,” I said. “How are you?”“Are you sure you're okay, Nazi?” Enzo asked again. “I'm alright. Yeah, I'm alright,” I said, sounding like I was convincing myself more than him.We spoke about nothing in particular for a little over thirty minutes before I took a deep breath midway through a conversation. “What’s up? Wanna tell me something?” Enzo asked, taking away every other doubt I had in me. “I'm pregnant,” I blurted out. The line went silent for over a minute. I couldn't even hear the sound of him breathing, and I had to check to see if the call was still connected.“Enzo. Please say something,” I pleaded, biting on my fingernails. “You….. congratulations,” he finally said.“Thank you,” I whis
I woke up to a hushed conversation. “No, I need you to check again,” the first voice demanded angrily. The voice sounded familiar, but I couldn't quite place my finger on it.“You've been right here, watching while I checked four times. There is nothing out of the ordinary,” another voice said. This one was softer, more feminine.“You weren’t…” a brief pause. “You can't tell me she's okay. Didn't you just see that? You weren't there before, but you can't ignore what you just saw,” the first voice said again, sounding more frustrated and scared than angry.“Calm down, Luca. You're starting to yell.”Luca. The first voice. It was Luca's.I opened my mouth to speak but I couldn't get any words to come out of it. I finally managed to force my eyes open after struggling, and I saw that I was still in my room.The brightness of the room caused by the sunlight from the wide open windows made me shut my eyes in pain.I groaned lowly, and the burning sensation in my eyes.“Nazlynn?” Luca call
Since Elena told me those words, I haven't been able to speak, and I also haven't slept a wink. Maybe it was the fear that I would try to harm myself again, but my lips seemed to have been glued shut. I couldn't speak, I could only get a small quantity of food down after a long time of trying. “Hey,” Luca greeted cheerily as he entered the room with a box full of my favourite chocolates.I waited to feel the excitement I would usually feel at the sight of that yellow label, but I couldn't. There was nothing.He's done this for the past two days when he comes back in the evenings. Two days. That's how long it had been since I found out I tried to harm myself in my semi asleep semi awake state.I smiled thankfully at him as he approached me. I closed my eyes as he leaned in closer to place a kiss on my forehead. Luca had avoided kissing me on the lips since that day. That day when I had drawn back from his attempt to kiss me. You would expect the repulsed look on my face to have thro
"Nazlynn," Luca said softly as he approached me. He touched my shoulder gently, and I forced myself not to flinch. "I think it's time we consider getting some help. We need to."The word 'help' echoed in my mind, mixing with Elena's voice; ‘You just tried to hurt yourself.’I felt something inside of me crack as I took a step away from him. “You mean I need to. I'm not going to see some shrink, Luca. I'm not crazy.”“No no no. Of course not. There are specialists, therapists who deal with... situations like this. During pregnancy, it's not uncommon for women to experience…”“Oh my god. I already told you that nothing is wrong with me!” I exclaimed, throwing my hands up in the air.“You can't keep pretending like nothing is wrong when something is clearly wrong. Why won't you talk to me about it?” Luca asked, sounding hurt.I scoffed. “It's just a damn nightmare. And it's probably because my husband is a fucking mafia Lord who put my life and that of my child in danger,” I snapped.He
In just a couple of days, everybody in the house could tell that something had changed inside of me.I was livelier, more bubbly, and smiling more during the day. Sure enough, I was able to sleep now, although the nightmares were still there, but only I knew about that.Nothing could possibly spoil the good mood I was in, not even Luca coming home at late hours of the night and barely talking to me most times. Or maybe I was the one who was barely talking to him. Who knows?All I knew was that I felt better, and it was all thanks to my friend Alice. Now that we were on a first name basis and no longer initials, I felt closer to her, more connected somehow. Alice and I spent most of the day texting. She was genuinely interested in knowing me. Not the same way Elena, Sabrina, and Jenna bless her soul were interested in me. Alice wanted to know me, not the girl who married their adopted brother but me, Nazlynn.She didn't continue our conversation by asking me what was wrong or trying
“Nazlynn. Are you sure about this? I mean, you don't even know this person,” Luca said, turning in his chair to face me.I made a sound of irritation at the back of my throat. “We talked about this for the past few days, and I even gave you enough time to do your research on her.”“Why are you bringing this up when I'm right at the entrance of the building?” I asked, gesturing out the window to the four storey building we were parked in front of.“I just. I don't feel comfortable with this. It would have been better if we just went with one of Dr. Martin's recommendations. Just to be on the safe side,” he said in an attempt to change my mind.Sighing, I took his hands in mine. I saw the surprise flash behind his eyes at the contact of our skin. That was the most contact I had initiated in quite some time. “You agreed to let me make this one choice on my own. Please don't change your mind now,” I said softly.“It's not that I…”“Please. Don't make me feel like I'm still a prisoner in
Another month went by. Luca and I had started acting more civil towards each other. He still respected my wishes and spent less time keeping a constant watch over me.Elena and Sabrina, on the other hand, just couldn't get the hint. I didn't want company, and I was not upset with anybody. I just wanted my space, but for some reason, that was hard for them to understand. Luca had asked me if they did something to upset me for the fifth time now, and every time he did, I just gave him my best death glare, and that shut him up instantly.My therapy sessions have been the only constant thing going on for me. Just the week before, Dr. Payne suggested we increase our sessions to 2 sessions weekly for the next month.I'll say the sessions have been going great so far. She mostly asked me questions about my life before I got married, and then now that I'm married. Of course, I didn't tell her how we got married. She only knew that we did I always avoided topics of my husband's work because
I agreed to meet up with Alice two days after she had sent that text. Coincidentally, we were in the same city, so it wouldn't be too much of a hassle. She said it was important we met up, and I was curious as to why.“I already fed her, but in case she gets whiny again, give her water in her bottle,” I said to Tracy, crouching down so I could give Hailey a big kiss.The only thing I hated more than being away from my baby was being away from my baby.“I'm going out,” I said to Luca when I saw him in the hallway. He was speaking to some of the members of our security team. He frowned, giving me a once over. “Where are you off to?” “I'm going to meet with someone,” I responded briefly, checking my reflection in the full-length mirror hanging on the wall. Luca dismissed the small gathering of men before turning his attention to me. “Who? You don't have any friends. You're not exactly the most social person,” Luca pointed out. I froze. He had a point. Considering everything that has
Luca walked towards me in a predatory type of way. “Hi princess,” he greeted Hailey before taking her off of me. I stilled as he passed by me, keeping my eyes on Enzo at the other side of the room, who looked half as uncomfortable as I did. “Judging by the fact we've been married for almost two years, you should know that I know you better than yourself,” I heard Luca say from behind me before hearing the door shut and then the sound of a luck turning.I whipped around and was shocked to see an empty space behind me. “What just happened?” I asked Enzo, who was just staring at me.“Your husband just locked us in,” he stated simply.“Yes, I can see that. But why?” I asked as my panic level started rising. Enzo hopped off the chair he was sitting on and started walking towards me. “I asked him how I could get you to talk to me. He said you have a thing for eavesdropping on his conversations, so we decided to see if it'll work. We left the door open a bit, sprinkled your name into the
You're really not going to talk to me at all?” I heard Enzo ask, making me sigh.I had come down the staircase the next morning only to almost bump into him at the bottom. I increased my pace so I could disappear from him as quickly as possible, but Enzo just wouldn't let me be.“I thought I made that clear enough, but apparently I didn't, seeing how you're currently trying to talk to me,” I replied with a fake smile.“Nazlynn,” he called out softly, taking a step in my direction.My eyes searched his. I could still see fragments of the little boy who had left for Atlanta years back, but I could also see something darker. The kind of darkness that you are bound to be exposed to while working with the mafia.I was one to talk, considering how I'm married to a mafia don who is the rival to my biological father who is also a mafia don.“I'm not ready for the conversation you're trying to have, Enzo. I would like to get through one day without reminding myself of how I failed you as a si
I was going to respond to the message Alice sent, but then I got distracted by something that Gabriel said, and I kind of zoned out from everything until we got to the house.I knew when Enzo arrived because half of the staff went into a frenzy, trying to prepare a room for the guest. I wonder what he would be referred to as someone who works for the boss or the boss’ wife's brother. Either way, he's getting a wonderful welcome party.Once I got home, I picked up a sleepy Hailey from her nursery and headed to my room. I wanted to take a nap, and I always slept better when I was smothering Hailey in my arms.Some hours later, a knock woke me up. I saw that my girl was already up before me and was staring at me with her eyes that were an exact copy of mine.I swung the door open with a scowl on my face, ready to have a go at the person who has just interrupted my sleep and possibly, Hailey’s. I was certainly not expecting to be met with Luca's expectant face.My face softened visibly.
“Enzo,” I breathed out without turning back.“I'm home, sis. Not at the best of times, but I'm home,” he said, taking steps closer to me.I pressed a hand to my lips to conceal the sob that was threatening to break out. Slowly, I turned back to see a face that I had not seen physically in about eight years. Enzo was right there, standing in front of me.“How did you….?” I said, making a beeline for him, but then I stopped. Memories of the events from the past few weeks came flooding back into my head at once.“Nazi, please, don't turn away from me. I just want to give my big sister a hug after all these days,” he said, his eyes searching mine for any form of forgiveness. I made sure he wouldn't see any.He took a step closer to me, but I held a hand up to stop him. “How did you know where to find me?” I asked.“I called the boss when I landed at the airport. He told me you had just left the house and were headed here. Turns out, the trip from the airport here takes less time than fro
“Thrilling isn't it? To have found out that everybody had been lying to you,” the message read.“Who are you?” I typed in a frenzy. “Why are you doing this?”“Just a concerned citizen who doesn't like getting lied to. Something I figured you and I have in common.”My nostrils flared. Whoever this was, the person clearly knew a whole lot about me, and I didn't know anything about them. “I want to know who you are. Do you want to meet up?” I asked, biting down on my fingernails.“Making friends is not a part of my job description, sweet pea.”I kissed my teeth in irritation. “What job description?”“You.”That one word chilled me to the bone. I swiped away from the chat and quickly blocked the number from calling or texting me before I could allow myself to give it an extra thought. And that was the end of that chapter for me. I completely closed my mind to everything the person had said to me.It's been almost three weeks since Luca and I had the biggest and most emotional argument t
It took me a few minutes of staring at the screen before I decided to turn off my phone and ignore it. I left Hailey under Tracy's care and headed for the gym without taking the bath that Maria had already prepared for me.Between the music blasting through my earphones and how fast the treadmill was, I was in my own world.The treadmill was on the highest speed it has ever been on. Somehow, it felt like I was running away from all my problems and for just that moment, I felt better. I felt hopeful like I could forgive Luca, forgive Enzo, forgive my mother, forgive Vincent, and lastly, forgive myself.I wasn't sure how long I was on the treadmill, running on a spot until Mathias appeared out of nowhere and turned down the speed of the treadmill.“Hey, hey, hey,” he said as I turned to glare at him. “Don't kill the messenger. I'm just here to check up on you.”“Why did you turn it down? I didn't ask for anyone's help,” I said with a scowl on my face as I took off my earphones that were
It had been two weeks since Luca dropped those bombs on me. Enzo had been blowing my phone up nonstop. A part of me was hoping and praying that Luca was lying about the whole Enzo thing, but barely twenty minutes after I asked him to leave me alone, Enzo started calling me.My brother wasn't playing football in Atlanta like I thought. Instead, he was a member of my husband's mafia. How much crazier can this get? At least it made sense now why Enzo did not mention anything about getting threatened by Luca's people or the time when they made me believe he was shot. It was all part of their ploy to get me to stay here and what better way to do so than to threaten my brother? I couldn't even speak to Elena or Sabrina. What would I say? How does a person even start a conversation like that with her friends?I had told Luca to give me space to process things and I clearly needed a lot of that space. He didn't agree too easily though.“You'll need to leave. This room, this wing, maybe even
“What do you mean Enzo?” I asked incredulously.I had stopped pacing and was now standing a few inches away from Luca, waiting to hear what he had to say. My heart was in my throat, choking me internally.“Nazlynn, I promise you, I was going to tell you everything soon. This is not how I planned for you to find out. This was certainly not a part of it,” he said, standing up so we could be on the same level. “I would appreciate it if you explained to me what you meant when you mentioned my brother. You don't know Enzo. You've never even met the guy. Hell, I haven't even seen the guy in years, so how are you speaking about me on the phone with someone you've never met?” I asked all in one breath.Luca is either the worst at starting an explanation or has plans on giving me a heart attack because his first statement threw me off balance so much that I could have crumpled to the ground if only it registered at first. “Enzo works for me, Nazlynn,” Luca said.I fixed my gaze on him. Then