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-----~[AMELIA]~-----

She's doing this on purpose. I just know it. She wants me to stay back for her. It is so visible on her face and I know that if I ignore it and just walk home, she is going to sulk and ignore me for weeks. 

I grit my teeth and facepalm myself within me. I really don't have a choice in this matter. Yeah I really don't. I just have to stay back for my baby. I smile and shake my head. 

"It's fine. I will stay for dinner Mum." I say to Mrs Mitchell and she beams ecstatically. The pure joy that explores  her face at my reply makes me wonder. The issue is not different with Lily as well. The happiness I can see blooming on her face is priceless. 

What the hell is it about me that is making these people just…. I don't know….. so much to want to keep me at all cost? I am so carried away by my happiness at their happiness that I find myself chuckling uncontrollably with my palms on my flushed cheeks, I didn't know how my head managed to tilt to the right and fall straight on those mesmerizing crystal blue irises peering at me intensely. 

Jeez....

 I immediately snap my gaze away and bat my eyelids nervously, without control, giggling uncontrollably.

 "That's great. I will go right away to prepare the table." Mrs Mitchell says and suddenly disappears from the sitting room as fast as lightning. I smile and I turn my attention to Lily when she suddenly gets up.

What the.... 

" I'll be right back. I want to show you what I crafted for my latest project. It's in my room. Let me just go and get it. " 

What the fuck......

 I immediately got up.

 " Why don't I follow...... "

 " No, there is no need. Just stay right back here and wait for me . I'll be back as soon as possible. "  She says as quickly as she can but before I can protest she is gone from my reach. I bite my lip and watch her departing figure sprinting up the staircase to their rooms and I scratch my neck. 

There goes.

I guess it can't be avoided no matter how hard I try. Definitely can't. The worst moment of my life has finally occurred once again and I am vibrating uncontrollably in my spot. 

I managed to comport myself and sit down back on the sofa I previously sat tangling my fingers together and toying with them nervously. 

Oh shit..... the fact that I am completely aware he is in the same room with me is wreaking havoc in my brain. My entire system is in a turmoil. I can barely breathe as I sit with my laps classed together, fingers entangled and lips pursed. 

After that long aching mind shattering silence, I hear him heave a deep sigh. Oh god please do not let him say anything. Just let him keep his mouth shut and relax in his position. do not let him try to infuse his attention into my life right now. I just...... 

"What's the matter Amelia?" His deep baritone voice jolts me out of my reverie and I flinch a little in my seat. 

I bite my lip and slowly tilt my head to the right to look at him. "Sir?" I ask giving him an Innocent questioning gaze and he chuckles.

 Damn that laughter. Why does every little gesture he makes render me stupid? 

Uuurgh.

I..... Can't fucking breathe. He shakes his head with his relentless crystal gaze piercing deep down into my soul creating an unstoppable imagination in my memory, plastering countless images of kissing those mesmerizing soft looking pink lips of his...... 

Crap!!!! What the fuck is your problem Amelia??!!!!! Why is this just such a hard thing to do? It is supposed to be as easy as it sounds? Ignore him. Just fucking ignore the god-damned feelings!!!! Why is it just so hard to take off my......... Shit. 

I snap my eyes away from his lips batting my eyelids with embarrassment and a flushed cheeks when I notice that he really caught me staring at him in that stupid inappropriate way.

 I chuckle nervously. Oh my goodness. What have I done? I really hope he doesn't think of it that way. What the hell is my problem? Why is my body trying so hard to betray me this way? I don't want any sort of problem that will create enmity between me and any of Lily's parents. 

I just.....  Shit. 

"You know you haven't answered my question yet." He says jolting me from my thoughts and I shut my eyes taking in a deep breath. 

You can do this Amelia. You can do this. Yes you can do this. It's not a very big deal. or you just need to try as much as possible not to make eye contact with this temptation of a man currently with you alone in the sitting room. 

I mean..... come on. I am really sick to the brain. He is not even doing anything. He is not seducing me, he's not casting me any seductive attention. He is just  on his own. But a silly little fragile hearted me is busy raging with waring emotions just by his presence alone. 

I took a deep breath. "Uh.... I am fine sir. All is well, nothing is wrong with me. "I say with a smile plastering my gaze determinedly on my laps.

 " I sincerely doubt that." He says and my chest feels like it's about to explode. I need to get out of here. I immediately stood up. 

"Uhmm....... I think I need to go check up on Lily." I say and he raises an eyebrow as I attempt to leave the room. 

"I am not done talking with you yet." He says and my heart thuds. Crap.

 I halt in my steps and bite my lip clenching my fists together. I immediately turn back and avoid his eyes staring at the ground.