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Hard To Say I'm Sorry

Author: orionequine
last update Last Updated: 2022-06-22 11:39:36

Oliver

She ran.

And to be honest, I didn’t know why.

My name on Lya’s lips echoed through my head all the way to the training grounds. I let Adair take over for the run there. I needed the release. I wracked my head to figure out where I went wrong. Was she not as into it as I thought? Did I push too far? Why couldn’t I just kiss her and then wish her goodnight?

Adair offered no words of support or encouragement in regards to Lya. He was smug and so certain he had Tala on his side, he could hardly be bothered with the human half of our mate.

We crashed into the field of the training grounds, interrupting the 1st year recruits morning session. I shifted quickly, grabbed a pair of shorts from the stash of spare clothes kept on the field and marched over to the head of the field. Cody was in a nonverbal pissing or eye-fucking contest with Elise - I couldn’t tell which - and didn’t even bother looking my way until I cleared my throat.

“Yes, Alpha?” he grumbled when he finally turn
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