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2024-10-29 19:42:56Memories are dangerous things. You turn them over and over until you know every touch and corner, but still, you'll find an edge to cut you.
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Amara knew something was different that day.
She couldn’t quite put her finger on it, however, she felt like something was amiss. It had started when Lady Vita told her that she had to prepare for the future Alpha’s birthday. That he, who was supposedly her friend, would not like it if she didn’t come prepped and pretty. It was weird, since try as she might, she couldn’t remember an instance where she had met the future Alpha. If they were truly as close as Lady Vita proclaimed they were, why would she forget about it?
She doubts the future Alpha was someone you could forget. Deep in thought as she was dressing herself up, she almost flinched when she noticed Eleanor peeking her head through the doorway of their dorm. She felt disappointed with herself. She shouldn’t have been
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