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2020-12-13 18:13:55It happens accidentally, in a heartbeat, in a single flashing, throbbing moment.
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Silas stared at the girl.
He felt something odd inside of him. Something crawling inside of him pushing him to go towards the girl to get her close again. Which was odd because he knew girls were disgusting and were nothing but trouble. Eleanor had finished staring and was now close to the girl, caressing her face and asking her what was wrong and why she couldn’t remember anything that happened nor who she was.
When Eleanor got close, he felt it again, that pull. That pull that made him want to stand up and be the one that was caressing the dirt and grime off the girl’s face. It was weird and disgusting and infuriating and the shame just filled him up almost immediately. Girls were disgusting and nothing but troub
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