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2024-10-29 19:42:56Some of the greatest battles will be fought within the silent chambers of your own soul.
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One of the lessons that we were taught when we were studying psychology back in the academe was about classical conditioning. Classical conditioning happens when you learn to do something unconsciously. Actions that you do unconsciously often come with a specific thing that comes with it. In example, you learned to study, because you knew that your professor would give you candy or stamp a star on your hand. In time, you would study because you wanted to have the same feeling you had when a professor stamped your hand. The giddiness you feel will seem weird when you give a great answer, and nothing happens after.
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