PATRICIA’S POV I really hate goodbyes. People who left I considered as one of heartbreaking moment in someone’s life. When someone leaves your life...the pain is different. You feel like you can't be made up again but you have to trust. One of the things I've learned in life is that you always have to be prepared. Because not all the people you are used to being by your side will be with you forever. That is probably how my family feels right now. “Patricia, take care of yourself. I will miss you…” I bit my lip when I heard mommy’s trembling voice. Bumuga ako ng hangin at binitawan ang mga bagahe ko. Nilapitan ko si mommy at niyakap siya. We are here at the airport because I am leaving now. My family is complete and also my friends, Jess and Tyrone. Umabsent pa nga si Jess ngayon sa school para lang maihatid ako. “Gosh, stop crying, mom…” I caressed her back when I felt her crying. “I thought you won’t cry?” “I-I just can’t help it,” she removed from the embrace and wiping he
PATRICIA’S POV Naging mahirap sa’kin ang mga unang linggo at buwan. Ako lang mag isa, walang makausap at nag-aasikaso. I can cook so I’m the one who cooks for myself. Naging hobby ko na rin ang mag linis ng bahay kaya ibang iba na ito sa itsura noong una kong matirahan. I was currently making coffee and sitting on the high chair when I heard a few knocks on the door. I frowned when I saw Beatrice holding a box. “Beatrice? What do you need?” “I have something for you!” I let her in, she placed the box in the table. “May nakalkal lang kami roon sa bahay. Alam kong mahilig ka rito kaya sayo na lang!” My eyes lit up when she took some art materials out of the box. Different types of brushes, color paints and hard papers. “Wow, ang dami naman!” I said in amazement. “Saan ito galing?” “Kay kuya Josh ang mga yan pero no’ng mag proceed na siya sa law school, hindi na niya nagamit,” inilahad niya ito sa’kin. “You like paintings, right?” Alanganin ako’ng tumango. “Noon, Beatrice. I jus
CALLUM’S POV “You’re different now, huh. You look…in love” Napangiti ako habang umiiling. Hindi ko pinansin si Austine at nag patuloy ako sa pag pirma sa bagong project na gagawin namin. “Hindi ka pa nasanay kuya Austine,” segunda ng kapatid kong si Ramon na hindi ko alam kung bakit narito. “Simula no’ng mag buntis si Patricia, mas lalo siya’ng sumipag sa trabaho…” Kumunot ang noo ko. “Stop calling her just like that. Call her ‘ate’, Ram” saway ko sa kapatid. “What’s wrong with that?” his lips lifted. “You’re 4 years older than her and she’s 1 year older than me…” he said teasingly. “I don’t care! Tawagin mo siya’ng ate!” “Oh…” umawang ang labi niya. “You’re a jealous pet!” He and Austine laughed so I got annoyed. Maya-maya pa ay may tumawag kay Ramon kaya nag paalam na rin siya’ng aalis. Si Austine ay nanatili parin sa office ko. He’s watching me like an idiot. “Wag mo naman masyadong galingan sa trabaho, bro! I noticed these past few days you’ve been so tutok sa trabaho,”
CALLUM’S POV “I don’t want to see you! I despise you! You killed my child…” Hearing those hurtful words from her is like double pain that broke my heart into pieces. Seeing her so broke, wreck and continuously crying makes my whole body trembled. Accusing me as a cheater and the one who killed our child feels like a heavy thing that I can’t swallowed. Why did we end up like this? “Callum…it’s better if you’ll just go home” Pakiusap ni Mrs. Clemente pag labas niya ng room. I could still hear Patricia’s shout here even though she’s not seeing me anymore. I looked up at Patricia’s mom but she can’t look at me straightly. Tanging lungkot at awa para sa anak ang nakikita ko sa mata niya. “She’s hysterical. She keeps shouting your name” her voice is pleading. “Please, don’t make this thing hard for her. I can’t stand seeing her like that. It also hurts me,” Napayuko ako at bahagyang napalunok. Naramdaman ko ang pag hawak ni mommy sa balikat ko, kanina ko pa siya kasama rito pero kah
CALLUM’S POV “Akala ko ba hindi ka na iinom?” I looked at Austine with my drunk eyes. He’s here in my office again. “Well, I changed my mind…” I uttered and take another shot of whiskey. “Leave me alone,” He gasped. “Look at you. You’re being irresponsible now. Drinking inside your office with your paper works around? Really?” Nilingon ko ang kabuuan ng office ko. Nag kalat ang mga papeles sa isa kong table at sahig, sa couch naman ay ang dalawa kong coat na noong isang araw ko pa isinuot. Dalawang araw na ako’ng hindi umuuwi sa bahay namin ni Patricia. Ayaw kong umuwi dahil hindi ko lang naman siya madadatnan roon. I felt so incomplete without her. “It’s been months since she left you yet you’re still acting like that. Move forward, Callum. Just accept her decision-“ “I fucking can’t!” galit kong sigaw. “Hindi ko matanggap na iniwan niya ako! I love her, only her! I want to build a family with her yet I’m the one who destroyed with that chance!” Nabasag ang shot glass nang i
PATRICIA'S POV “Doctor, Clemente?” Itinigil ko ang ginagawa at lumingon. I automatically smiled at the cute nurse peeking through my office door. “Yes, Nurse Shane?” I said in a friendly voice. She entered and slowly walk towards me. “I heard from Doctor Sauler that you are leaving? You’re not going to work now?” she asked in a low voice. “Uh, y-yes…” I said awkwardly. Ngayon na ang huling araw ko rito sa ospital at siguradong nag announce na si Doc Sauler tungkol dito. Ang alam ko ay nakahanap na rin siya ng kapalit ko. After seven years of staying here, I finally decided to finally go home, returned to the Philippines. “Actually, I submitted my resignation letter last week. I'll just grab my other stuff now. It’s already my flight later” “I will miss you, doc…” she said in a sad voice and offered her hand with a blue plastic. “It’s for you. My appreciation gift for guiding me here since you were leaving already…” Parang piniga ang puso at nakangiting tinanggap ang regalo n
PATRICIA’S POV “Congratulations to your new clinic!” Jess’s voice echoed throughout the clinic who was just at the entrance. Tyrone was with her holding a flower. “Lessen your voice,” saway ko. Mabuti at kakaalis lang ng huli kong pasyente. I stand up and stretch a bit. Marami ako’ng bagong pasyente kanina at ngayong hapon lang ako natapos. “For you, Pat. Congrats for the new success,” Tyrone handed me the flowers. Umismid ako. “Salamat pero…kahapon pa ang opening nitong clinic ko,” Natigilan silang dalawa. They weren’t here at the opening yesterday. Kahit sa celebration ay hindi sila pumunta. “Uh, ano kasi…” Jess look hesitated. “We picked up someone at the airport yesterday so we couldn't go,” “So, that person might be so important than my opening yesterday,” I said in a jealous tone but I’m not really, I just want to teased them. Lumapit ako sa table ko at inilapag ang flowers. Hinubad ko ang puting coat at isinabit sa swivel chair. I’m now wearing gray shirt and jeans.
PATRICIA’S POV “Nurse Aubrey? Pasensya ka na talaga, ha? Medyo masama ang pakiramdam ko kahapon, ikaw lang tuloy mag isa rito,” Isang matamis na ngiti lang ang sagot ng assistant nurse ko. I was not able to work yesterday because of my tummy. Mula noong kumain kami sa labas at nag bar nila Jess ay nagsusuka na ako. “Ayos lang, doc. Puro check-up lang naman po ang ginawa ko kahapon. Okay na po ba kayo?” Ngumiti ako. “I’m already fine,” Good thing she didn’t get mad. Since I came in earlier, I've only been saying sorry to her. At kapag naaalala ko kung sino ang nag hatid sa’kin sa bahay noong nag lasing ako ay parang gusto ko na mag kulong sa kwarto. Hindi ko ‘yon makalimutan hanggang ngayon. Mabuti at hindi nalaman nila mommy dahil katulong ang nakaabot sa’min. Nagtataka rin ako kung bakit wala ako masyadong maalala no’ng gabing ‘yon. Dahil ba sa sobrang lasing ako? Ang naalala ko lang ay pinainom ako ng gamot ni mommy. Si Jaime, marami ako’ng natanggap na messages galing sa kan
CALLUM’S POV “How’s life of being a married man again?” I sip to my coffee before looking at Austine in front of me. “I can’t explain the feeling, Austine…” I answered. “Still reminiscing how we started,” It’s been what? A year now, since Patricia and I got married. Our relationship flowed so well. I’m still managing the company while Patricia is on her clinic. Ngayon, nagulat ako sa biglaang pag bisita ni Austine at kapatid kong si Ram sa’kin. Narito kami sa garden. Patricia was not at home, she was just going out to buy something. Austine is sharing some of his and Jess misunderstanding. “She’s asking for a break up?” I asked in surprise. “Why?” Lumihis ng tingin si Austine. “She wants to settle down already and you know I’m still not ready…” Natahimik kami Ram. Kaibigan ko siya at mahalaga si Jess kay Pat, hindi magandang mag hiwalay sila. “Bakit ba hindi ka pa ready?” ani Ram. “You two not getting younger anymore. Syempre, naiinggit ‘yon at naiisip na magpakasal-“ “Ayaw
CALLUM’S POV“Finally, you got her again. We’re happy for you,”I smiled at Austine, who were my best man again beside me while we were waiting for the big and elegant door to open. I roamed my eyes around and can’t help but to smile seeing our families together.“Thank you, bro…” bumuga ako ng hangin at pinagdaop ang palad. “Kinakabahan ako,”Natawa si Austine. “Ngayon ka pa ba kakabahan? Totoo na ang nararamdaman niyo ngayon. Unlike on the first wedding, you two look so stiffed,”Yeah, I remember that. How the beautiful Patricia glared at me while we’re exchanging vows. How we pretend that we love each other but today? There’s no pretending anymore.Today is our wedding day. Today will be one of the best day of my life for sure.“Dalawang beses na kayo ikakasal,” biglang sabi ni Austine. “Ngayon, naiinggit na si Jess. Sana walang pangatlo, ha”“Why don’t you marry her, then?” I asked confused.I frowned when I saw a hesitation in his face. “Alam mo naman na hindi pa ako ready. My bu
CALLUM’S POV“Callum, I swear, this is a silly idea!”Hindi ko pinansin si Austine na nakasimangot sa tabi ko. Nandito kami ngayon sa parking malapit lang sa clinic ni Patricia.“Come on, go outside. Do it!” pag pilit ko kay Austine na lumabas ng sasakyan ko.I pointed to him Patricia’s car just in front of us.“Damn, bakit ba kasi ako sumama sayo!” he gasped dramatically. “I can’t believe you come up with this corny idea-““Just shut up and do my favor,”I pushed him until he opened the door irritatingly.“Sa lahat ng humihingi ng pabor, ikaw ang makapal ang mukha!” usal niya. “Fuck, I don’t know you anymore. Ganito ka pala ka-corny pagdating sa pag-ibig. You’re whipped!”Natawa ako dahil nakasimangot siya’ng lumapit sa sasakyan ni Patricia. Tumingin muna siya sa paligid bago binutas ang gulong ng sasakyan. I smiled secretly. Perfect!Austine is still frowning when he returns.“Damn, I’m done! Wag mo na ulit ako idadawit sa ganitong bagay!”I tapped his shoulder before he left me her
CALLUM’S POV“Callum, I’m really sorry. I didn’t want to make that happen…”Umalingawngaw ang pag iyak ni Zara habang nakayuko sa harap ko. I didn’t expect her to be my visitor this morning.“Patricia’s right, I was too desperate. To get you, to snatch you from her,” she continuously sobbed. “The loss of your child makes me so guilty to what I did. I can't sleep at the thought of you both grieving,”Nag tiim bagang ako habang pinanonood siya.“What will I do with your sorry if she leaves? She left me and you can’t do anything about it,” malamig kong sabi.I saw her shoulder shaking. Hindi ako naaawa sa kanya.“Why are you here, anyway?” I asked harshly. “I don’t want to see you! I fucking hate you, Zara!”“I’m here to apologize, C-Callum-““I don’t need that,”In the middle of crying, she took something from her bag. She’s trembling and handed it to me, I didn't accept it so she just put it on the table.It was the supposed evidence against the Mr. Laurier. The recordings and some pic
PATRICIA’S POV“Doc, ano po ang update kay Miss Bella? Banned na po siya rito di ‘ba?I nodded to Nurse Aubrey as I studied my patient's urine test results this morning.“Yeah, I’m sorry about last week. Nakita niyo pa,”Hindi ko masyadong iniisip si Bella dahil sabi ni Callum, si Mrs. Velasquez mismo ang kumausap dito para tigilan na kami.So far, my interactions with Callum was good. Last week, we go out for a dinner. He still gives me flowers, we even visited Agatha. What we’re doing are so far to what I was thinking before. Akala ko...hindi na ‘yon mauulit. Akala ko mananatili na lang kaming iwas sa isa’t isa.“Ayos lang, doc. Mukhang okay na kayo ng asawa niyo,”I smiled with her term. Hindi na ako sanay na kilalanin si Callum bilang asawa dahil ilang taon kaming nagkahiwalay. Pero ngayon, pinararamdam niya sa’kin lahat ng bagay na hindi ko naranasan dahil lumayo ako.He also went to our house and talked to my parents.He asked permission to pursue me again. Knowing my parents ar
PATRICIA’S POVSeven years ago, I told myself to focus on my career, becoming a doctor. I thought it would be my priority through the years but when I came back here, a lot had changed.I can't understand myself anymore. I thought...I'll never feel anything for Callum. I just fooled myself.Ngayon, parang tanga ako’ng naghihintay ng pag punta niya rito sa clinic ko! I keep looking outside my office.“Patricia, stop it!” I whispered to myself.Pinilit kong mag focus sa trabaho. Ayaw kong maapektuhan ito ng mga iniisip ko. But minutes just passed, I just found myself staring at my phone and waiting for his reply, damn it!“Ano bang nangyayari sa’kin…” naguguluhan kong bulong.Tumayo ako at lumabas sa office.Natagpuan ko sila Nurse Aubrey na abala sa pag inject sa mga babies na kararating lang. Lihim pa ako’ng napasulyap sa labas ng clinic pero malinis doon.Bumuntong hininga ako bago nag asikaso sa ibang pasyente. Nakalimutan ko saglit ang iniisip. Natuwa ako sa mga batang paslit na pi
PATRICIA’S POV Hindi ko alam kung ano ang dapat kong gawin at unang isipin. Kung ang tungkol ba sa trabaho ko o ang mga bagay na ginagawa ni Callum ngayon. Pagkatapos niya’ng sabihin sa’kin ang chance na gusto niya, palagi na siya’ng dumadalaw sa clinic ko. Halos araw-araw. Sending me flowers and foods sometimes. But what gave me a strange feeling was the things he showed me. Pakiramdam ko, malapit na ako’ng mabaliw sa ginagawa niya. “Doc, may flowers po ulit para sa inyo!” Nakangiting tumakbo palapit sa’kin si Nurse Aubrey habang hawak ang isang boquet ng roses. Bumuntong hininga ako bago ito kinuha. “Grabe, absent nga siya ngayon pero may flowers parin!” kinikilig niya’ng usal. Napailing ako bago binuklat ang note sa flowers. To my doktora: I can’t see you now because of a sudden meeting but expect me tomorrow. My face flushed after reading that. What’s with the flowers though? Hindi ko na nga alam kung saan ko pa ilalagay ang mga bulaklak na ibinibigay niya sa’kin. Ang iba
PATRICIA’S POV My day didn’t go so well. Pumasok ako sa trabahong wala sa mood. Apektado parin ako sa nangyari samin kahapon ni Bella. I didn’t expect that to happen that way. I was so shocked. Bukod kay Zara noon, isa rin siya sa taong nagsabi sa’kin ng mga ganoong salita. Why do I feel that I’m the antagonist here? Kaya nga ako umalis dahil nasaktan ako, sinaktan nila ako. Pakiramdam ko ako lang ang sagabal sa kanila pero heto na naman. It's like I'm the reason between them again. Is Bella another version of Zara Banner? But some point, I realized something from what Bella said. Tama nga siguro siya na dapat hindi na ako bumalik, na ako lang ang gumugulo sa kanila but that’s not my intention. Should I gave her the satisfaction that she want? Para matapos na. Para hindi na ako masali sa kung ano’ng gulo tungkol kay Callum. Should I talk to him for our annulment? For them to be happy? I would gladly cooperate though. “Doktora…may bisita po kayo” I stopped writing the necessary
PATRICIA’S POV “I’m here for Doctor Jaime. Tell him it’s Doctor Clemente…”Ngumiti ako sa nurse bago siya may tinawagan. I'm here at Alvarez hospital owned by Jaime's family. Jaime message me to come here to talk about my concern. It’s really big here. Alam ko’y magagaling din ang mga doktor dito. It’s about my patient. Maliit lang ang clinic ko at kailangan ng malaking doktor na hahawak sa kanya. Naalaa ko si Jaime dahil sa ospital nila. “Akyat na lang po kayo roon sa office ni doc. Hintayin niyo na lang po siya roon dahil nasa emergency room pa…” saad ng nurse. “Thank you,” Ngumiti siya at hinagod ako mula ulo hanggang paa. Nagtataka ako’ng tumalikod sa kanya papunta sa elevator. May mali ba sa suot ko? I’m just wearing an off shoulder dress. Nakalugay lang din ang buhok ko.Hindi ko na lang ‘yon pinansin at pumunta na sa 5th floor. Nang makarating ako roon ay wala masyadong tao. Ilang nurses lang. Hinanap ko lang ang office ni Jaime at kumatok muna ako bago pumasok. Walang t