I managed to attend school despite having slight fever. Toma actually insisted that I don't attend for today, but I can't afford to skip classes for too long. So in the end, Toma had no choice but to assist me.
Listening and taking down notes for each class were pretty easy, so I wasn't really that affected. Though I think my fever have already gone away. By the time that we were having our lunch break, Toma looking worried had to check my temperature. "…your fever is rising up!" He said.
"There's only three subjects more! And I have to attend those because I wasn't able to do so last time."
"But your fever is getting high, you'll be more sick."
"I don't feel sick, so it's no big deal."
"Don't be so stubborn now. You should go back to the dorm and take a rest-" when he tried to reach for my hand, I quickly stepped away and warned him. "Don't act like that, we're at school." I whispered.
I feel quite uncomfortable acting like this in public with To
Xia brought me to a place where there was very few people. I was a bit nervous, but I tell myself that there's no need to feel that way. I'm sure this will be nothing but closure, but I'm certain of another thing as well..."Uhm, about before… I'm really sorry." She said and faced down. "I was selfish, forcing you to date me and then suddenly leaving you. I'm really sorry for the things I've done.""…It's fine." I said, though I think the past me wouldn't have agreed on what I said."N-No, I don't think it's fine… I hurt you badly-"I cut her off before she could even tell me more. "Haven't I told you before? I only dated you to try you out."She seemed quite uneasy after hearing that, surely she'll start thinking that I am a real jerk talking like that. "T-Then it was never serious… y-you were never serious?""Yeah, so seriously, don't even bother."Hearing my response left a bitter smile on her face, but she shakes her head. "You know… I r
"This man is mine, sissy." Toma even had his finger pointing at Xia with a scary look on his face.I couldn't believe that he's carelessly telling that I'm his boyfriend infront of other people. Feeling embarassed by his bold action, I pulled him on his ear. "O-Ouuuch!" He cried out."What the hell Toma!?" I could imagine my face turning into a bright shade of red, and having Xia watch us made me feel more embarassed. "Waaaaah, please let go of my ear, it hurts!" He cried even more."You idiot! It was supposed to be a secret!" I told him."But I had to tell her off!-aw!""Stupid! Dummy! Idiot!…""Fufufu." I could hear Xia laughing quietly. Then I faced her immediately to talk to her about this matter. "Xia, if you can, please let this be a secret between the three of us." I begged.Her smile made her looked happy to know about this. "You shouldn't worry in the slightest! I promise not to tell this to other people.""Thank you for that.
After recovering from the fever, I was now faced with a pile of work that gives me headache. "Ugh, I don't know where to start." I said while looking at the papers scattered on the desk."Just do them tomorrow, deadlines are still quite far from now." It was easy for Toma to say something like that, he rarely cared for his grades because he's satisfied with low but passing grades."You're so carefree for a third year. I bet you'll struggle and find it difficult if you become a graduating student next school year. You should take your studies seriously." I told him."Meh." He was really uninterested with studying seriously.I was quite annoyed with him being serious at the game he's playing. Rather than wasting time like that, shouldn't he just waste his time for better things than that? I can't believe he's that kind of student.I snatched his phone away from him, causing him to be mad at me. "What the hell, Yuji!? Give it back.""Let's do our wor
"You should've just gone up to your bed." He squinted his eyes on me and put more pressure on sitting at my crotch. I could feel him getting harder, being turned on just by sitting on me.I could feel my face turning hot at the moment. The feeling of drowsiness left me and now my body was getting all excited as well like this pervert on top of me. "Y-You… damn you." I cursed at him.He laughed like a demon. "Clinging onto me like that, you should know better… we're both guys after all.""I just wanted to hug you!" I reasoned."That was more like of an invitation for me!" He said."You're so horny all the time, can't you learn how to control your damned urges!" Geez, I don't want to end up doing it with him all the time. Can't we both have peaceful nights together!?I was panicking at the back of my mind, but there was also a part of me that wanted to touch him too. Then out of nowhere, he just began to strip out of his clothes. "Are we seriously g
These days has been quite peaceful… all except the back pain from every night I had with Toma. It kinda embarass me how this back pain makes me feel like an old man, though I wonder where do Toma gets all his energy to do it everytime."It's crazy how time flies so fast now.""I know right? We're already a step close to graduation!""Hey Yuji, can I have atleast one dumpling?" I also wonder how the four of us became a 'group of friends'. We were all gathered together at the cafeteria, talking like a bunch of good buddies."Uhm, before that…" I squinted my eyes while taking a good look at Hino, Noru, and Tomakawa. "…what the hell are we gathered here for? And no Hino, I won't give you my dumpling.""Er, aren't we all friends? It should be a normal thing for all of us to be gathered
After classes, Toma pestered me about going on a date in an amusement park. I badly wanted to decline the idea since I wanted to rest for a while but he was very forceful and annoying."Geez, you're like an old man! What the hell do you exercise for if you can't keep up with me?""Huh?!" It was also my fault for letting him provoke me too easily.So now we ended up walking and looking for rides we'll be getting on. "Oh, Yuji! What about that rollercoaster? It looks cool!""No way!" The rollercoster looked threatening that people might die from that kind of rides. Its track is all twisted and shrewd, people who rides those are complete idiots.Toma suddenly grabs my hand and drags me away. "Waaah! What about that one? Think you can handle that?"
"You're really getting bolder, Yuji. I can't believe you'll talk that way with me." Toma chuckled."Well, I was just starting to get used to that way of talking with you. We're a couple now, aren't we?""Ah y-yeah, it's kind of embarassing though."I can feel my face heating up. "Ugh. Don't get me embarassed too.""You started it!""Whatever, let's just get done with our dinner." We got inside the restaurant we chose and ordered our food. Since his pockets were full, he was the one to treat both of us with a good dinner. "This is way better than the amusement park." I told him.Toma's cheeks puffed. "We're still gonna go for the amusement park when you get better.""You're so
"I guess I'll have to stay here until I recover." I told Toma.For some unknown reason, I got a high fever and had to stay home for today. "Yeah, just rest for today. I left your lunch on the table, just heat it in the microwave later.""Okay. Make sure to listen in class and take notes for me." Though I doubt he'll do a good job on that. Toma has always been a terrible student, I was always there to help him with school work."Hnnng, I'll do anything for you even if I can't stand boring stuff.""Great, have a good day!" I waved goodbye at him. And once he was out of the room, I felt a bit anxious with him out of sight. Maybe I'm scared of getting seperated from him just like he feels. I really have grown attach to him, huh?A smile crossed my face as I remember the first ti
By the time the man finally left, mom even gave me loads of money so I could stay away from her. It was then I decided to cut ties with her. I was done dealing with her… "It was a mistake to stay here. I'm leaving." I never should've come back. "W-Wait!" Before mom could stop me, I quickly got to my room and brought all my stuff with me. "Toma, please! Please hear me out!" "…IT'S TOO LATE FOR AN APOLOGY! Don't even think that I'll ever forgive you." I told her while I was running down the stairs. She just kept pulling my stuff to make it more difficult to leave. "No, Toma! I can't—" "Don't stop me!" I glared at her, "I don't want anything to do with you ever again."
Nobody ever knows about it.I kept that very dark secret of mine all to myself. I can't even bother myself to tell my mom about what happened to me, I know she won't give a shit about it. And so, everything that I ever experienced from that man was written down on a journal. That was the only way I could vent all the stress and anger I had.While she was still on a relationship with that man, I would always hide from him so he won't be able to lay a finger on me. But there were times that he would sneak in my room just to make me suffer for his disgusting pleasure. He would often leave with a threat so I wouldn't dare tell anyone about it.I was really scared… no one was ever there for me. But instead of letting myself suffer even more, I try to make myself distracted when I'm out of the house.Y
We moved into a new neighborhood when I was at the age of eight. That's when I met Yuji, the guy who became my best friend… the guy who I came to like. And the one who I fell for.He became the person who I would run to whenever I'm at my worst. Yuji would always welcome me at his house, both his parents treating me like I was a part of their family. I really loved his company, it lets me feel all the things I lacked on my own family."Tomakawa, don't your parents worry if you spend the night here without telling them?" Auntie asked.I shook my head and gave my brightest smile. "They won't. Mommy said it's okay if it's at my best friend's house." It was a lie, and I was not guilty one bit. I don't really want to go home that night."Hmm, alright then."A
When I was about five years old, I can remember how my parents would argue all the time. It eventually led to physical violence, and sometimes I get hurt as well. It was really scary for a child to experience something like that from his own parents.If I remember well, the one who's most at fault for all the arguments was mom. Dad would always come home late and drunk, then mom will start to complain. They argue, fight, and mess up the house."Stop telling me what to do, woman!""I told you a million times already, haven't I?! Stop getting yourself drunk whenever you go home!""Shut up and lock yourself in a room. Seeing your face ruins my mood!""Why, you!… you should be the one locking yourself in a room! You're a wretched mess!"&nb
Since I was kicked out of school, the only place I can stay at was at my mother's house. It sickens me to go back there but I have no other choice. "Hm. And what do you think you're doing here?" Mom asked. Just when I arrived, I didn't expect to see her outside the house to water the plants. Usually, she fools with every man she brings home most of the time. "I'll be here for a few days, I'll leave as soon as I find another place to stay at." "Heh, I heard you were kicked out of school." "None of your business." I just ignored her comments and got inside the house. Seeing this place only reminded me of the past I always wished to forget. Every room, every corner… it was all too disturbing for me. After opening the lock on my room, it was just like how
That was it.Everything is over.I no longer have anything to do with him. When I got back from the hospital, I learned that Yuji's father had storm at my place and took all of Yuji's belonging. They said he'll transfer his son onto another school because of me, though he had never mentioned to the faculty the reasons. But rumors seem to have already spread because of Yuu."How disgusting! The school should expel him.""Is it really that guy?!""I heard he was sexually assaulting his roommate, that's why the father of the victim took away his son.""That fag is a scum!"Many people kept whispering behind my back as I walk on the hallways. I couldn't care less about what they s
As the sun rises, Toma immediately went to the hospital for Yuji. He hopes to see him conscious when he arrives, though it was unfortunate that he found Yuji still sleeping. He also discovered something worse, his worries on Yuji has double.Toma quickly calls for help and as the doctor arrived, things were explained to him. "…we have seen this through our observation on the patient last night. These tiny red spots you see on his skin is called petechiea. It's a symptom for many diseases. We're currently testing from which disease it comes from.""How come I was not told about this!? I—" the doctor cuts him off before he could throw a fit."We have already informed his father sir. We thought you must have been informed through him."Toma was stunned to know that Yuji's father didn't told hi
"…Yuji." Toma muttered while he was sitting on a chair near Yuji's bed. When Yuji was admitted to the hospital, he stayed beside him the whole time after he settled things with Yuu at the police station. He also informed Yuji's dad about the situation because he needed extra hands on this.Toma can't keep his eyes off Yuji's broken hands. It pains him to see that it was wrapped in thick bandages because the doctor told him that every bone in his hands were broken into bits. This would mean that Yuji won't be able to use his hands anymore, he can imagine how devastated Yuji will be when he finds out about his hand.'That damn Yuu. I'll get him for this.' He suddenly wished he beaten up Yuu just as bad as how Yuji was beaten—no, he wanted to double the pain, because aside from Yuji he was also hurt to see the one he love like this.Th
Toma was greatly bothered when Yuji got to the campus earlier than him. It made him doubt that Yuji might have been troubled by something, and it annoyed the hell out of him that he can't figure what it was."Haa. I lost interest attending first class." He muttered.And so he spent most of his time laying on his bed, reminiscing about the cheerful times he had with Yuji. Now that Yuji's gone to school, he never felt this lonely before. He tries to find comfort in every memory he shared with Yuji.When he got bored of it, he decided to have lunch at his favorite restaurant. But on his way there, he encountered a familiar face, though he wasn't noticed by this other fellow. It was Yuu. One of his acquaintances, though he was mostly ignored by Yuu because he seemed more interested in Yuji."Wait…" b