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Chapter Nine- Losing Control
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Risking It All Prologue- Forest Casey
"Just one more week, one more week and all my years of sacrifice would all be worth it." I say to myself, as I look at the pile of textbooks on the floor. I've been cramming for my finals for who knows how long, to a point where I cant anymore. So now, I'm lying on the sofa, staring at the ceiling.I am on the verge of completing my degree as an actuarial scientist. I always loved the idea of structure, control and assessing each outcome to make sure it is the most desirable. Making sure that choices were always well assessed. Throughout my schooling career my results were always in the top 3. Not because I was born smart but because I worked so hard to make sure they were what I wanted for myself. I planned every aspect in my life to becoming an actuary. My dad always said dynamite comes in small packages, so I planned on being that dynamite.I hear screaming and laughing coming from outside my on campus apartment block. I get up and peep through the window. It looks like a
Risking It All Chapter Two- The Burn
Forest:"I think they should be waiting for us in the pizza parlor." Mel says to us, basically jolting to get their sooner."Whose they." I ask, regretting that I caved in once again and joined.The place was packed. Full of hormonal young adults looking for the next best thing. Sometimes I feel like I'm years ahead of what I should be, but this, doesn't do it for me. I'm not the conquest after conquest type. I'm a romantic.I can feel the eyes falling on my two friends, wondering when would be the right time to come up and take a shot. I also feel the sympathy they feel for them because I'm once again, dragging along."Just these billionaire twins we met at a weekend away. They are crazy hot, fun and really down to earth. You will love them I swear. They bringing along the rest of their gang."Hearing Lara describe someone as gorgeous really zings my ears.She's never been superficial enough to comment on one's looks, but rather personality hit it f
Risking It All Chapter Three- Immediately Imprinted
Forest:Why the hell am I burning up like this?Is it a heart attack or maybe even a stroke. I've never heard of a twenty year old experiencing a heart attack before but I'm sure it's not impossible.Wait, it doesn't feel like there's any pain but I've never felt this burn sensation before.Like my heart is under attack and it stands no chance.Like I actually enjoy whatever this is.I gaze up and I completely forgot that there's this stranger staring holes into my eyes.Oh crap, there it is again.It's him. I think. He is causing this sensation.I try to look away as fast as I can but his gaze holds mine. I try to look away because I feel like he is busy breaking past the layers I so love to build up around myself, just by a simple gaze.But I can't and the burn stays there.I forgive myself for feeling this way almost instantly because holy crap, this man is dreamy and absolutely smoldering. Completely different in many ways from hi
Risking It All Chapter Four- Cosmic Call
Forest:When I got back to my apartment on campus, I was still feeling rather lively. Mel and Lara promised me a good time and like always, they delivered on their promise.Although I have spent most of my time in my head, trying to wrap around James Swanson and the effect he had on me. Why was it so important for him to protect me, or is he just that kind of man who feels protective over any woman.Maybe I'm reading way too much into the situation, he has a girlfriend and when I called him out on it. He didn't deny it or explain himself.I needed to unwind because I felt exhausted and I wanted to climb into my bed. I went to have a bath and once I climbed out, I got into my pj's and snuggled under the covers. This is where I'm most content.I checked my phone.Only as a reflex, not expecting any important messages. Then I see that there's one voice message and one text message.The voice message is from Mel. I figure it must be important, otherwise
Risking It All Chapter Five- Hide and Seek
Forest:When I wake up the next morning, the amount of butterflies I feel in my stomach is enough to make me want to hurl.In fact, after reading that message last night that's when they made their reappearance.So many questions ran through my mind. Did he mistake me for someone else. What does he want from me. Does he not know his out of my league. What about his girlfriend.Then I started questioning myself too.Why am I feeling this way? Why am I being submissive when it's clearly not who I am? Why am I allowing it when I know I'll probably just be used and dumped like yesterday's garbage? Why does he have this effect on me? Why am I treading on dangerous fields?The most important question I kept asking myself was why was I not backing away from this like I should. I couldn't. I felt trapped by my own desire. Desire to the unknown and making it known. Even though my head is telling me to run, it's like my heart is already handed over.The more though
Risking It All Chapter Six - Captivating Enigma
Forest:"Running away from me?" He says, again piercing his eyes through my soul.I feel bare naked."No." I protest in an attempt to gain control of myself. His lips turn into a smirk, as if he's humored by my attempt to lie."You know, this is the second time I had to rescue you. Are you always in trouble?" He asks me, lifting my chin up."I'm not a damsel in distress. This almost never happens to me." I say, trying not to get lost in his eyes."Almost never?" He smiles at me and I blush."That doesn't sound too convincing. I don't mind, I'll be your hero every chance I get if it means me getting this close to you." He says as he looks at my lips, then down my cleavage.He takes his hand off my hip and grabs me by the hand, pulling me to the middle of the dance floor. My need to protest quickly falls away as I'm being lead. He spins me out slowly, despite the upbeat music. He's taking me in from head to toe as he leads me back against his body.
Risking It All Chapter Seven- Running Away
James:After I learnt that Mel and Lara practically dragged Forest out of the club when I left, I felt defeated.I left the club and headed home, seeing that my sole purpose for being there has left. When I got home, I threw my keys on the table in the entrance hall and headed for the bar.I poured myself a shot of whiskey and threw it back, hoping that the whiskey will settle me. I threw my leather jacket on the couch behind me and placed my hand on my forehead, starting to devise a plan.I knew that I needed to start by Jarrod. So I wait for him on the stairs with another shot of whiskey, this time, savoring it.Jarrod only arrives at the estate after 2 hours which is still early for him, and I didn't mind. While I was waiting to figure out plan Forest, I had emails and memos to catch up on.I've emailed the lawyers the minute I found out about Wentworth's plans and I've asked them to keep it between us, and not my father just yet. I've also asked them
Risking It All Chapter Eight- Fair Trial
Lara:When we get home, I drop myself on the couch. Mel's busy pouring herself out a glass of wine and I signal her to bring me a glass as well, while I kick my shoes off.I throw my head back on the couch and put my feet on the coffee table.I look out at Forest running a damn marathon on the balcony, feeling terrible that she feels this way. Tonight we going to binge on pizza, ice cream and wine until she gets it out her system, I tell myself.I reach for my cellphone on the stand next to the couch to call for a pizza delivery. As I grab it, it starts to ring.Unknown number."Hello?" I wait for the person on the other end."It's James. Are you still up." He says.This guy has a damn nerve. I begin cursing the day we met."How do you know she's with us still." I ask, not remembering us mentioning our plans to anyone when we left."I'm not calling to see her just yet. I have her number. I want to speak to you and Mel."I jump up indi
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Risking It All Chapter Nine- Losing Control
Forest:When James leaves, Mel and Lara immediately start confessing about what had just transpired.They said that he came to get their blessing. That he really cares about me and that he quite possibly, is in love with me.They tell me that Ashley is just a business deal that went wrong and will be cleared up in a week. They urge me to give him a fighting chance and even though everything I heard is what I want to hear, I promise myself not to be naïve and fall completely out of control and head over heels.I will make him prove himself to me and not offer myself up to him on shackled by desire.I'm bothered by the fact that instead of confessing everything to me, he bargained with my friends like I'm a piece of land.After devouring the pizza and the bottle of wine, we crawl into bed. Lara is passed out on the couch and Mel crawls in next to me, snoring almost immediately.Normally her snoring keeps me up but after tonight, the treadmill, the pizz
Risking It All Chapter Eight- Fair Trial
Lara:When we get home, I drop myself on the couch. Mel's busy pouring herself out a glass of wine and I signal her to bring me a glass as well, while I kick my shoes off.I throw my head back on the couch and put my feet on the coffee table.I look out at Forest running a damn marathon on the balcony, feeling terrible that she feels this way. Tonight we going to binge on pizza, ice cream and wine until she gets it out her system, I tell myself.I reach for my cellphone on the stand next to the couch to call for a pizza delivery. As I grab it, it starts to ring.Unknown number."Hello?" I wait for the person on the other end."It's James. Are you still up." He says.This guy has a damn nerve. I begin cursing the day we met."How do you know she's with us still." I ask, not remembering us mentioning our plans to anyone when we left."I'm not calling to see her just yet. I have her number. I want to speak to you and Mel."I jump up indi
Risking It All Chapter Seven- Running Away
James:After I learnt that Mel and Lara practically dragged Forest out of the club when I left, I felt defeated.I left the club and headed home, seeing that my sole purpose for being there has left. When I got home, I threw my keys on the table in the entrance hall and headed for the bar.I poured myself a shot of whiskey and threw it back, hoping that the whiskey will settle me. I threw my leather jacket on the couch behind me and placed my hand on my forehead, starting to devise a plan.I knew that I needed to start by Jarrod. So I wait for him on the stairs with another shot of whiskey, this time, savoring it.Jarrod only arrives at the estate after 2 hours which is still early for him, and I didn't mind. While I was waiting to figure out plan Forest, I had emails and memos to catch up on.I've emailed the lawyers the minute I found out about Wentworth's plans and I've asked them to keep it between us, and not my father just yet. I've also asked them
Risking It All Chapter Six - Captivating Enigma
Forest:"Running away from me?" He says, again piercing his eyes through my soul.I feel bare naked."No." I protest in an attempt to gain control of myself. His lips turn into a smirk, as if he's humored by my attempt to lie."You know, this is the second time I had to rescue you. Are you always in trouble?" He asks me, lifting my chin up."I'm not a damsel in distress. This almost never happens to me." I say, trying not to get lost in his eyes."Almost never?" He smiles at me and I blush."That doesn't sound too convincing. I don't mind, I'll be your hero every chance I get if it means me getting this close to you." He says as he looks at my lips, then down my cleavage.He takes his hand off my hip and grabs me by the hand, pulling me to the middle of the dance floor. My need to protest quickly falls away as I'm being lead. He spins me out slowly, despite the upbeat music. He's taking me in from head to toe as he leads me back against his body.
Risking It All Chapter Five- Hide and Seek
Forest:When I wake up the next morning, the amount of butterflies I feel in my stomach is enough to make me want to hurl.In fact, after reading that message last night that's when they made their reappearance.So many questions ran through my mind. Did he mistake me for someone else. What does he want from me. Does he not know his out of my league. What about his girlfriend.Then I started questioning myself too.Why am I feeling this way? Why am I being submissive when it's clearly not who I am? Why am I allowing it when I know I'll probably just be used and dumped like yesterday's garbage? Why does he have this effect on me? Why am I treading on dangerous fields?The most important question I kept asking myself was why was I not backing away from this like I should. I couldn't. I felt trapped by my own desire. Desire to the unknown and making it known. Even though my head is telling me to run, it's like my heart is already handed over.The more though
Risking It All Chapter Four- Cosmic Call
Forest:When I got back to my apartment on campus, I was still feeling rather lively. Mel and Lara promised me a good time and like always, they delivered on their promise.Although I have spent most of my time in my head, trying to wrap around James Swanson and the effect he had on me. Why was it so important for him to protect me, or is he just that kind of man who feels protective over any woman.Maybe I'm reading way too much into the situation, he has a girlfriend and when I called him out on it. He didn't deny it or explain himself.I needed to unwind because I felt exhausted and I wanted to climb into my bed. I went to have a bath and once I climbed out, I got into my pj's and snuggled under the covers. This is where I'm most content.I checked my phone.Only as a reflex, not expecting any important messages. Then I see that there's one voice message and one text message.The voice message is from Mel. I figure it must be important, otherwise
Risking It All Chapter Three- Immediately Imprinted
Forest:Why the hell am I burning up like this?Is it a heart attack or maybe even a stroke. I've never heard of a twenty year old experiencing a heart attack before but I'm sure it's not impossible.Wait, it doesn't feel like there's any pain but I've never felt this burn sensation before.Like my heart is under attack and it stands no chance.Like I actually enjoy whatever this is.I gaze up and I completely forgot that there's this stranger staring holes into my eyes.Oh crap, there it is again.It's him. I think. He is causing this sensation.I try to look away as fast as I can but his gaze holds mine. I try to look away because I feel like he is busy breaking past the layers I so love to build up around myself, just by a simple gaze.But I can't and the burn stays there.I forgive myself for feeling this way almost instantly because holy crap, this man is dreamy and absolutely smoldering. Completely different in many ways from hi
Risking It All Chapter Two- The Burn
Forest:"I think they should be waiting for us in the pizza parlor." Mel says to us, basically jolting to get their sooner."Whose they." I ask, regretting that I caved in once again and joined.The place was packed. Full of hormonal young adults looking for the next best thing. Sometimes I feel like I'm years ahead of what I should be, but this, doesn't do it for me. I'm not the conquest after conquest type. I'm a romantic.I can feel the eyes falling on my two friends, wondering when would be the right time to come up and take a shot. I also feel the sympathy they feel for them because I'm once again, dragging along."Just these billionaire twins we met at a weekend away. They are crazy hot, fun and really down to earth. You will love them I swear. They bringing along the rest of their gang."Hearing Lara describe someone as gorgeous really zings my ears.She's never been superficial enough to comment on one's looks, but rather personality hit it f
Risking It All Prologue- Forest Casey
"Just one more week, one more week and all my years of sacrifice would all be worth it." I say to myself, as I look at the pile of textbooks on the floor. I've been cramming for my finals for who knows how long, to a point where I cant anymore. So now, I'm lying on the sofa, staring at the ceiling.I am on the verge of completing my degree as an actuarial scientist. I always loved the idea of structure, control and assessing each outcome to make sure it is the most desirable. Making sure that choices were always well assessed. Throughout my schooling career my results were always in the top 3. Not because I was born smart but because I worked so hard to make sure they were what I wanted for myself. I planned every aspect in my life to becoming an actuary. My dad always said dynamite comes in small packages, so I planned on being that dynamite.I hear screaming and laughing coming from outside my on campus apartment block. I get up and peep through the window. It looks like a
