I honestly couldn't believe it. I know that whatever I feel for Lucius right now is way far from what I felt for Simon before. But am I really capable of loving someone like that again after such disastrous heartbreak? I thought I couldn't. I thought I wouldn't be able to. But why do I am starting to feel different whenever I'm with Lucius? What are these strange yet wonderful feelings? Why can't I stop myself every time he touches and kisses me?It's not because we have been sleeping together. It is not mainly because of our physical relationship. I don't know when it started or how, but I just realized one day that I feel that kind of weird feelings for him. I know it is the thing I should have avoided in the first place, but what can I do with what I am feeling for him? I don't think I can just get it away from me. I don't think I just can forget this feeling at once. I refuse to say that I love him… but thinking of about losing him… why does it hurts so bad? Why do I feel like I c
I really don't understand what's going on. What is the connection of Lucius and Alec? What is the thing that caused the drift between them? Because it feels like they have known each other for a long time and there was something that caused chaos between them. And why is Elizabeth even involved in this? And why do I feel like the way Alec looks at me, it feels like had seen me so many times before, that he is very familiar with my face, when the truth is, I've never seen him before. I have never met him."She is mine, Lucius. Hand her to me and I shall forgive you for your aggressiveness.""Forgive me? Did I even ask for your forgiveness? No, Alec. What shall you forgive me for?” Lucius said with a playful, dark smirk that screams all his confidence and dominance.I want to ask Lucius some questions, like what are they fighting with, but I figured that is a little out of the picture to do that now considering the rising tension in the air."And why are you even asking for the wife of
"Your mate? Do you even hear yourself, Rellis? Let me remind you that you dumped her because you told her you have found your real mate. She almost died in the hands of Benedict and her whole family was murdered. Where are you during all those times? You were not there for her. I was. So, don't you fucking claim my wife as your mate," Lucius snapped.I could not say anything out of anger. How dare he claim me as his fucking mate when he told me straight to my face that he was only mistaken and had found his real mate? He left me at a time I needed him the most! So, who give him the right to say that? He doesn't deserve that right! He will never deserve it!"Your mate? Did I hear you right, Simon? You are claiming her as your mate?" Alec butt in, his eyes narrowing to Simon, and there was obvious darkness playing in his dark amber orbs."Yes, Alec, she is my mate–"Lucius growled. "No one is your mate here, asshole. She is my wife.""She is my mate," Simon insisted and it was my turn t
"Why are you saying this to me now?” I asked Simon in confusion because I can’t seem to understand why he had to go to such extent just to prevent me from meeting Alec. If a person who has the ability to foresee the events in the future saw that time will come when me and Alec will meet, wasn’t it already a sign that it will happen no matter what measures we will take just to avoid it? It was already foreseen, meaning, fate has already decided and it could happen in different circumstances.“Because there is no point hiding the truth now that what I was scared of already happened,” Simon answered.“And you are out of the picture now. You can’t change the fact that Maddy has a new life. So even if you had presented yourself as her mate and wants to take the responsibility to keep her, do you think you still have the right to do that? You don’t, so better back off and let me do the job since I’m his husband,” Lucius said.“You don’t love her. You just want to use her against Alec becaus
Lucius held my hand tight. I pressed his palm back in response to his hold. Though, I got a weird feeling in my got when I saw Simon's stare on me. He didn't look angry. He looked forlorn… miserable and somehow regretful. I couldn't place all the emotions I could see in his eyes.I don't know what is this weird feeling I have. Am I guilty? But what would I be guilty for? He chose to leave me. Even if he did that for my sake, a lot of things happened. A lot of things changed. Am I to blame for my change of heart?Simon mouthed something. It was so obvious that I didn't need to think for a second what the word was. He said, "Run."For that certain moment, I want him to read what was on my mind. I want to talk to him through my mind. I wanted to tell him that I wouldn't do that. I will never leave Lucius for my sake. I can't do that. How can I leave someone who helped me at my darkest hours? I know Lucius did it for himself, alright. Because he knows he would benefit from me, but he stil
I don’t know if I should trust Simon’s words after he lied and after all the pain he has inflicted to me, but that look in his eyes… it was like he is showing all the truth, his everything. The gentle look in his eyes made me feel that I can trust him again, that when it comes to me, all he is concerned of is my safety.I don’t want to believe it so much because I don’t want to cling on false hopes, but can’t I hope that it is true? Ever since I turned to a dark-blooded werewolf and knew my parents were dead as well as Jaxon, I kept on wishing so bad, I prayed so hard to have the power to turn back time. Or at least make this reality a dream and that I would just wake up with my family all well and me back to my normal life as an ordinary teenage girl studying in the nearest town college. I want to have that life so bad even if it means I would have to sacrifice my feelings and whatever I have with Lucius. I would do everything just so I could have that. if there’s anything I could tr
"Maddy…" Roselle looked at me with a sweet smile on her beautiful face. Franklin did the same and I felt like I have seen my second parents in them. I never thought the day would come that I will meet them again after what happened to me and Simon. I really don't know what good I did for meeting such wonderful people as them.And the way they looked at me… it was as if they were never mad to me. Like they understand what I felt and all the actions I did."Roselle… Franklin…" I uttered their names in a low voice, almost a whisper."You look good, huh." Thomas smirked at me mockingly. "And durable." He nodded to himself then his gaze dropped at Simon. His eyebrow was raised as if he's saying something to Simon through his mind.The corners of Simon's lips rose and he subtly shook his head.Our little reunion was only interrupted by a growl. The sky darkened more and I saw Lucius's angry eyes directed to us. He looked so mad and unforgiving, I could feel like he won't give this up, that
Right the moment the chopper landed at the wide field at the back of Lucius's manor, I thought he would tell me below the belt words for going to Simon and hesitating if I should come back to him or not. But I was surprised when before I could speak, I felt Lucius's arms on me. He was hugging me tight, crouching, and with face buried on my neck."I really thought you would come back to him," he said with forlorn voice that moved me. "I'm sorry… I'm so sorry, Maddy. Forgive me, please."The way how he pleaded made me feel bad and at the same time… glad. I figured that I indeed loved him in that small span of time. I wasn't able to move on fully from Simon for I know that there is still a part of me that still love him, but in spite of that, I'm sure that there's also another part of me that loves Lucius. I don't know who weighs more, but I guess I still need to find out soon."I understand, Lucius. I kind of have an idea what you've been through now, and I understand that you too, want
Alec couldn’t speak in too much irritation and probably, anger. His eyes were so dark and it was almost red, like the color of evil itself. The color of blood and war. The color of death. Yes, red can symbolize love like that of a rose. But it could symbolize many things such as what I have mentioned already.I know what I am doing is a big risk, but I have to try regardless. I need to save the innocent lives of those people who chose to stand by my side. They don’t deserve death like that especially when Alec is the one serving it. He is evil. His soul—if ever he has one which I doubt—deserves to rot in hell all together with his evil subordinates, especially Vienna. If only I am given a chance, I will really kill her. With the anger I am feeling for her, I won’t miss it for sure. She is just lucky that I am not capable enough to do that especially with the given circumstance. Because if only I was capable enough and there is no Alec blocking my way, I would have surely done it, give
Back when I was young, my dream was simple. Stay out of troubles, earn a medical degree, make a good career, marry later on to my boyfriend at that time and have kids, maybe two or three. I envy those big families so I wanted to make my own. Maybe because I grew up in a broken family and I felt lonely. When Dad remarried to a woman who has a daughter same age as me, I thought I would finally have someone I can call as sister. I wanted a sibling. I wanted a normal happy family. But turns out that I would be kicked out in my own house because of her. Not that I was literally kicked out though since I left myself. But it is still the same for me because I knew I had no choice but to leave. It was getting worse every day and I don’t want Dad to worry about my issues. I went to Lynnwood, hoping I would calm down there and I also hoped that my stay in a new surrounding would bring good to me.However, looking back now, I can say that it brought me to something both good and bad. Staying in
One day is left and I can say that the two days had passed were the hardest two days of my life. Not because of the hard training I received from Henry, Jaxon and Thomas, but because it seemed that there was still tension between the three sides. And it is worth mentioning that Lucius almost broke Jaxon's jaw. They have been an ass to each other no matter how Landon tries to behave. Carter is on his best behavior, though, no one can contest that. But I noticed his bold glares at Landon sometimes whenever their opinions oppose each other. I appreciate how he is trying to behave even though it's obvious that he has been trying to be patient with Lucius this whole time."Ah. I hate the other men in your life. I fucking hate their guts," Lucius whispered to me one time. I just laughed and pulled him to a hidden corner to give him a short kiss."Thank you for being patient for me. I appreciate it," I said while my hands were on his nape."What else can I do? I love you and I will always, a
“Henry? Why Henry when you can train me yourself?” I asked Lucius because I really want him to train me himself. I know he is skilled enough to do that. He is powerful and very strong so I don’t understand now why he wants Henry to train me in heavier training when he already trained me in some basics before. I mean what is wrong with that? I am sure he is capable enough to teach me everything I need to learn. Not that it can guarantee that I will learn everything within three days because that is really impossible and I know that, but let's just say I am more comfortable around him than anyone else. Not that Henry makes me uncomfortable. He is a great man and a very loyal one, of course. But can’t I have my husband train me so we can have more time together? I mean who knows what will happen three days from now? No one knows what will happen—well, except those vampire/s who have the ability of precognition—but except them, no one knows.“It’s just, what we did in the past was only th
“Jaxon, listen. All happened too fast. Lucius was taking a bath in our room while I was outside and walking by the shore of the beach. We didn’t have any that Alec had actually planned to make a move that day, so we let our guards down. A member of the council showed up out of nowhere, she has the ability to make portals, so that was how she managed to kidnap me so quickly. Lucius figured it soon but he didn’t go to Alec’s manor because he knew that if he does, we will just be killed, so he made a plan. Apart from that, he was confident that Alec won’t harm me until the day of the ritual. I was confident too. Because we know that Alec needs me alive for the ritual and he wants my body to be at its best state when Elizabeth’s soul will take charge on it. He never harmed me, so please stop your banters and stop being mad. The important thing here is that I’m safe and Alec won’t be able to get me for his stupid plans anymore.”“How sure are you that he won’t be able to do it again? He di
“Jaxon is outside,” just when Mom said that, I smelled a werewolf’s scent, Jaxon’s scent.Lucius glanced at me with a darker expression. Of course he doesn’t like Jaxon. But then they are even because Jaxon feels the same. We just finished cooking pancakes and watching a football game while Mom throws question every now and then. I was a little uneasy about it though because I felt Mom has doubts on Lucius but the way I see it, Landon isn’t the least bit affected and is all polite to her. Well, maybe he’s trying to impress her. I would love that kind of effort given to my mother but as much as I want that, I also don’t want to put too much pressure on Lucius's shoulders. I don’t want him to feel that he has to force himself into doing something just for me. I don’t mind if he would show a little irritation or something, but he didn’t. or maybe he just really doesn’t mind.“I told him that you visited. He told me he is coming,” Mom went on.“When did you tell him? It’s just early in th
I still couldn’t believe it. I couldn’t believe it that all this time the Lucian I was reading about in Elizabeth’s diary was the one who took care of Lucius ever since he was a child, the man Elizabeth loved first and Alec killed him because of jealousy. I can’t help but feel a little guilty even though it wasn’t really something I did. I don’t know. It must be because no matter what I say, Elizabeth is still my great grandmother, someone tied to my bloodline, and most importantly, someone who looked exactly like me.“You shouldn’t feel guilty about it, Maddy. you have nothing to do with it so you shouldn’t feel the least bit guilty. Even I don’t blame Elizabeth for anything. It just happened that destiny chose to play with her. She found love with a human but ended up meeting her mate and she was powerless when it came to vampire bond. Trust me, a lot are slaves to that bond, and I’m so lucky that you were an exception. Because damn, I don’t think I can do it if you leave me for Sim
“While I was in Alec’s manor, I discovered something,” I said to Lucius while I was leaning on his chest after our heated lovemaking. It was when I had the time to talk about what happened in the manor. I never had the chance earlier because I was too busy dealing with how badly I missed Lucius and all I just wanted was for him to touch and kiss me. who can blame me anyway? We were just done with our second and the real wedding, and we were in the middle of our honeymoon but Alec ruined it all, imprisoned me at his goddamn manor and put me chained in a grand bed, disabling me from doing anything for the whole eleven days. Can you imagine how much pains I have went through within those days? One couldn’t imagine.“What did you discover?”“Elizabeth had a family.”“She had?”“Yes. She was adopted. But her adopted father did something that made her run away from home. You heard about different sects that dominated Great Britain in late 18th century? She was an heiress of an influential s
"Are you hungry?""Yes," I answered breathily."Alec didn't feed you?" he asked quietly, there was a dark edge on his voice."He did. I'm not thirsty for soul, though." I grinned and gave him a smooth peck on his lips.He tilted his head, giving me a good view of his protruding adams apple."What are you thirsty for, then?I rolled my eyes while grinning. It was so obvious in his mischievous look that he already knew. He just wants to play with me. And goddamn it, God knows how much I love to play with him in every way I could.He kissed the corner of my lips while I'm laughing. He then climbed his way to the stairs and the next thing I knew, we are already on his room. Our room, I mean. He told me, I remember, that whatever he owns, I own it too. And that I also own him. I don't want him to refer it that way actually. I told him he's a man of his own, that nobody owns him not even his wife, but he insisted that he is letting me own him, every piece of him.Yes, my husband is such a v