Evans
2:45 AM.
It's so dark in the bedroom that I can barely make out the body of the woman lying before me, spread out as I hold her ankles.
I can only see her by the light from the alarm clock on my nightstand, big, red numbers.
For two in the morning, she's being far too loud.
"Quiet," I remind her, sliding a hand under her ass to flip her onto her stomach. She moans as I do that, as if she didn't even hear me. I want to add her name to the reprimand, but to be honest, I don't even remember what she told me.
Kaitlyn? Catherine? Katie?
Something along those lines. It doesn't really matter. After all, this is the only night I'm planning on sharing with her.
I grit my teeth, positioning myself behind her. There's no sense in taking things slow, savoring the foreplay. She's already wet, and I've been hard for a while, craving the release of an orgasm. I'm not exactly trying for romance, here.
Of course, she starts to moan even more the second I'm inside her, so I remind her a second time, more forcefully, "Quiet."
That finally seems to turn the volume down.
Impatiently, I drive into her from behind, drawing myself closer and closer to orgasm. She mewls as I do, trying to stifle her screams of pleasure.
It doesn't take long before I feel her walls clench. She gasps as she comes on my cock, her fingers grasping at the bedsheets. I allow myself to follow her over the edge rather than continue.
I go still for a moment, my hands loosening on her hips. My shoulders relax, and I savor the looseness in my muscles, the lack of tension. In the aftermath of an orgasm, my mind goes temporarily blank—pure bliss, for a brief time.
When I can collect my focus, I pull out and secure the condom with my thumb and forefinger. I slide it off, then carry it across the large bedroom, toward the attached bathroom. My feet are cold on the marble floor as I dispose of it in the wastebasket.
I splash some water on my face, then wipe my eyes with the hem of the cotton t-shirt I'm still wearing. I blink blearily at my reflection, then turn away from the mirror.
When I come back into the bedroom, the woman in my bed is sprawled against the satin pillows, grinning at me. She looks sated, and there's something smug in her expression.
"Look at you," she murmurs, clearly trying to be seductive.
She gets up on her knees as I come closer to the bed, pressing herself against me. Her hands slide up my chest, her arms slinging around my neck.
"You wanted me so bad, you never even took your shirt off," she says in a breathy whisper.
I bite down on my sigh. I'll go ahead and let her think that, even if it's not the real reason. No sense in being overly cruel.
I sit on the edge of the bed, and the woman tucks herself next to me. I still can't remember her name, but that's fine—she's satisfied. I'm satisfied. We both got what we needed from each other, and we'll probably never see each other again, so that's all there is to it.
"Come on," she says, her tone coaxing. She clings to my shoulders, draping herself over my back. "That was amazing. You were amazing. So strong, so powerful. Don't you want to keep it going?" She presses her lips close to my ear. "I wouldn't be surprised if you could go all night, with stamina like that."
I let out a short breath through my nose. She's starting to grate on me already. In truth, all I really want is to sink into restful sleep—alone, if I can help it. I'm ready for her to go.
I reach up to remove her arms from around my shoulders, my touch gentle. I'm about to tell her that it's probably time for her to leave when I hear a sound from the hallway.
My head snaps up. I'm always alert to small sounds in the house, but never more so than when there's a strange woman in bed with me. I'm careful not to let Brandon see any of the women I bring over.
And since there's no one else in the entire house, that has to be him. He's out of bed. Probably needs a glass of water, or had a nightmare or something.
A few seconds later, I hear his shuffling footsteps outside the door. I jump out of bed, scooping up my pants from where they're lying in a heap on the floor. I stagger toward the door, throwing them on quickly.
"Stay there," I whisper to the woman in my bed, who stares at me, perplexed.
I meet Brandon at the door, angling it so that it blocks his view of my bed. "Hey, buddy," I say, squatting down to his eye level. "What's going on? It's real late."
"I'm thirsty," Brandon says tiredly, rubbing one eye.
"Thirsty, huh?" I scoop him up into my arms and start down the hallway, toward the kitchen. "Well, we'd better get you some water. Maybe we need to start putting an extra sippy cup by your bed. What do you think?"
Brandon nods. He seems like he's still half asleep, blinking in the hallway light. At five years old, Brandon is usually tired by seven and fast asleep by eight, so one in the morning is a little bit of a stretch for his endurance.
I set Brandon on the counter while I root around in the cupboard for a plastic cup—lots of plastic in this house, ever since Brandon moved in.. I pour him some water out of the tap in the fridge, then hand him the cup.
Watching him sip the water, his feet swinging on the counter as he wakes up a little, I can't help but smile. He's a good kid. The best.
As Brandon is finishing his water, I hear a little gasp from behind me. I look over my shoulder to see the woman I was with. She's wearing one of my shirts, which hangs off of her body, covering her up. She probably thinks that's supposed to be cute, or something, but it brings a scowl to my face.
She coos at Brandon, waving at him with her fingertips. "Oh, look at you! Aren't you sweet?"
Brandon stares at her, then tips his head to one side, like a confused puppy. Fury burns through me. I told her to stay upstairs. Can't she follow one simple instruction?
But I don't want to let Brandon see my anger, so I force a tight, reluctant smile onto my face.
"He was just heading back to bed," I say shortly. I pick Brandon back up, carrying him off toward his bedroom. He gawks at the woman over my shoulder, and I hear her laugh.
I pull Brandon's covers back as he gets settled, then tuck him in, pulling the blanket all the way up to his chin. He blinks at me, more awake now.
"Who was that woman?" he asks.
I restrain myself from clicking my tongue in annoyance, forcing another smile. "She's just a visitor," I say. "And she's about to go home. It's way too late for visitors."
I ruffle Brandon's hair, then stand, crossing his room to turn off the light. I watch him from the doorway as he starts to drift off to sleep, curling up on his pillow.
For a long time, I've felt like I'm doing a shitty job raising him. The other day, while playing poker with Declan and Reed, I voiced that concern for the hundredth time, and my friends managed to dig up a new piece of advice, which I've been turning over in my head ever since.
They told me that I've been doing the best I can do to raise Brandon since my sister's death, but that it might be time to find some help. Hire a nanny.
Maybe I do need to hire a nanny. Brandon's getting older. He needs more attention than I'm able to give him alone.
I close Brandon's door slowly, trying to make sure the hinges don't squeak and wake him. Out in the hallway, I sigh. Somewhere in this house, I have one more fire to put out tonight.
I'm not sure if she's still in the kitchen, but I head back to my bedroom regardless. Either she'll be there, in which case I can tell her to get out, or she won't, in which case I can forget about her and pass out. I'm tired, and Brandon wakes up early in the mornings.
But when I get back to the bedroom, she's there. Sitting on my bed, a huge grin on her face, perched on her knees like she's ready for round two.
My jaw tightens. "You can go now," I tell her coldly.
She blinks, the eagerness fading from her expression, to be replaced by surprise. "Wait—are you joking?"
"No." I point to the bedroom door. "I'm not."
"Are you mad that I came downstairs?" She pouts at me, sticking out her lower lip.
"It's time for you to go," I say, my tone icy. "Don't make me ask again."
All of the playfulness vanishes from her eyes. She whips my shirt off over her head, revealing her naked body once more as if unveiling a trump card.
I glare at her. I don't have the patience for this—not after what she just pulled, and not this late at night. "Come on. I'm serious."
She scowls and starts to grumble, climbing out of the bed and picking up her clothing from the floor one article at a time. She dresses herself, then seizes her purse off of the nightstand and marches to the door, sniffing at me in distaste.
I follow her out into the hall, then stand on the landing to make sure she actually leaves. Once she's gone, I head downstairs to lock the door.
Before I sleep, I take a quick shower to rinse the scent of her perfume from my body. I don't want to wake up with it lingering in my hair tomorrow.
Hookups like these are so much easier when the women know what to expect—which is nothing. Things only get awkward like this when they start to assume that they're in for anything more than a one-night stand.
It's almost two by the time I'm done in the shower, and I'm bone tired. But I still trudge down the hall before I collapse into my bed. I always make a point to check on Brandon while he's asleep whenever I get the chance, and I want to make sure that the woman's exit didn't wake him.
I open his door a crack, careful not to make a sound. He's still fast asleep, curled beneath his blanket, his blue teddy bear tucked under one arm.
The nerves in my jaw soften as I watch him, and my teeth unclench. It's late. Odds are, he won't remember this tomorrow—and even if he does, I can just tell him that she was a friend of mine who stayed over a little too late.
Closing the door, I turn away, back toward my own waiting, empty bed.
CarolinaOn Sunday afternoon, I head over to Noah's place, as we discussed over the phone. I take the subway and walk the last few blocks on foot. Hopefully, he'll let me take a load off once I arrive.When I reach the address Noah texted to me, I'm met with a huge, impressive-looking townhouse.It looks old—brick foundations, black, wrought-iron gate out front. The gate hangs open, so I let myself past it, staring up at the massive house in awe.There's a little garden out front, climbing tendrils of ivy reaching from the trellises onto the house's facade. They arch over the windows, tiny white flowers blooming on the vines.I whistle quietly as I approach the front door. I knew that Noah had been doing well for himself, but I didn't know it was this well.I knock, then wait a few seconds before Noah appears in the doorway, grinning. He tackles me with a bear-hug, squeezing the air out of me."It's been way too long," he proclaims, ruffling my hair affectionately. "You look good!""G
EvansI usher the last candidate, a slightly older woman with a stooped posture, into my home office, guiding her to the plush chair in front of my desk.I've spent the entire day interviewing nannies with little success, so my hopes aren't exactly high as I walk around my desk to begin this final interview.My assistant set up the appointments, but I insisted on conducting the interviews myself. I need to find someone good. There's no point in hiring a nanny just to regret the choice later. I'm already going out on a limb with the whole process, so I want to do it right the first time.As we sit down, I say, "So. Before I ask you about yourself, let me explain a little more about the position.""Absolutely," she says, her voice crisp. She holds her handbag in her lap, her ankles crossed and posture stiff."I mostly just need some general help raising Archer. I spend a lot of time working, and don't always have the time to devote to keeping an eye on him. I'd need help with his meals,
Carolina"It was just bad luck," Noah says, following me up the basement steps. "Nothing but cheap, dirty tricks and bad luck."I smile smugly, glancing at him over my shoulder. "Spoken like a sore loser.""Just you wait—next time, it's gonna be all me."I take my coat off the coat rack, and Noah follows me to the door to see me out. I turn to hug him as I leave, and say, "If you want that to be true, you'd better get some practice in, because let me tell you—you're never gonna beat me playing like that."Noah releases me, scoffing, and I stick my tongue out at him as I head down the front steps."See you later!"He waves. "I'll shoot you a text next time I have some free time.""You better," I reply.Noah returns to his house, closing the door behind himself, and I make my way through his charming front garden to the sidewalk.I start to head back to the nearest subway station, but before I can get far, I pause. There's a little boy crying on the sidewalk ahead of me.The guy standin
EvansShe's... interesting, this stranger who just stopped on the sidewalk to give Brandon a toy. She very effectively stopped his crying, that's for sure. And I'm grateful for that. I don't have enough understanding of kids to be able to reason with Brandon when he's distressed, and it hurts to see him so upset.Now that I have the chance to look her in the eye, I'm also a little taken aback by how attractive she is. She has delicate, soft features, and in the glinting rays of sunlight that creep through the clouds above, her brown eyes glow like honey. Her dark brown hair is pulled into a messy bun, flyaways poking out in all directions."What's your name?" I ask her."I'm Carol.""Evans." I hold out a hand to shake hers. Her handshake is surprisingly firm for someone who just did a fake voice for a plastic dinosaur. "Nice to meet you.""You, too," she says. "Do you live around here?"Sheepishly, I point to my house, directly next to us. We didn't get far on our walk before things w
EvansNow that Brandon is down for the night, I have some time to myself. I sit down in my office to get some work done, pouring myself a glass of scotch with a single, large cube of ice. I spend about an hour in there, drafting a few emails to send out the next morning, before I hear a knock at the door.That'll be either Declan or Reed—whichever of them has arrived first for poker night.I get up to open the door, taking the scotch with me. It's an expensive single-malt that I know Declan in particular would be eager to try.It's Reed at the door."Hey, man," I say, inviting him inside. "Come on in. Is Declan running late or something?""Not sure," Reed says with a shrug, hanging up his jacket on the coat rack by the door. "You know how things are with him lately—between his company and his girl, he's a busy guy. He'll probably be here soon."Declan is the CEO of Dynasty, a company that manufactures exercise equipment. Between his company's new marketing direction and his recent eng
CarolinaI get off work at eight on Thursdays, which is much better than the days when I'm expected to stay and close. Since I've got plans tonight, I do my best to get out of the restaurant as quickly as possible."You need anything else from me?" I ask my manager, who's calculating the tips in the point-of-sale system.She barely looks up at me. "No, you're good. Thanks for all your hard work."I'm out of there in the blink of an eye, before she—or anyone else—can change their mind. Sometimes, the guys on the line will stop me before I can get to the back door, asking me to help with their cleanup. Even though it's not my responsibility, I usually try to help them, but tonight, someone's waiting on me.I untie the little black apron from my waist as I walk down the street, wadding it into a ball and tucking it into my purse. Everything in there will probably smell like grilled food later tonight, but I tell myself I'll clean it out later. Smelling like food after a long shift is one
CarolinaWarm water pools around my calves as I luxuriate in my apartment's cramped bathtub, doing my best to relax after a mid-shift at the restaurant.Olivia was the one who suggested it. While we were at the bar the other night, she told me that I seemed stressed, and that I should try to unwind after work. So, on my way home from work today, I stopped at a boutique to pick up some bath bombs and incense.When I got home, I lit a couple of candles, turned the lights low, and made myself a cup of rose hip tea. Incense is technically not allowed in my apartment—nor are candles—but I decided to give myself a pass on my landlord's behalf. I ordered some takeout and turned the ringer off on my phone. I lean my head back against the rim of the tub, taking a deep breath and doing my best to relax.As always, it's difficult. The second my mind has a free moment, my thoughts drift to the same place they always do—to the future.I'm stuck in a dead-end job, and I don't see any signs of that
CarolinaAfter window shopping for a while with Olivia the next day, we say our goodbyes, and I head home. Back in my apartment, I lounge on the couch for a while, staring at Evans's business card. My fingertips trace the embossed letters. I can't help but wonder if this is all an elaborate prank; what if I call him and end up on some radio show?Eventually, I dig my phone out of my pocket, sigh, and type in the number on the card. It rings three times before Evans picks up."Evans Armstrong," he says. It's a short greeting, almost cold."Evans? Er—Mr. Armstrong? I mean... sorry, um, Mr. Armstrong." I kick myself for the clumsy opening. In my head, I've been calling him Evans, but there's something very official about the business card and the way he answered the phone that reminds me that this is a professional relationship."Yes?" I can practically picture his arched eyebrow. He sounds thoroughly unamused."This is Carol Winters. You came by my apartment a couple of days ago to offe
CarolinaFor a few seconds, I'm silent, in shock. Then the tears start, and I'm powerless to stop them. "Of course," I manage to choke out, a feeling of weightless elation filling my heart. I feel as though I might drift straight out of this Ferris wheel, up into the sky. "Of course I will."Evans smiles, pressing a kiss to my lips over Brandon's head."Yes!" Brandon shouts, delighted, and Evans and I break apart. I smile at Brandon through my happy tears."What's up, bud?""You're getting married to each other!" Brandon exclaims, beaming. "This is the best birthday ever!" Then he frowns abruptly, noticing my expression. "Why are you crying? Are you sad?""No," I assure him. "Sometimes, people cry when they're very, very happy."The Ferris wheel lurches back into motion, and I feel Evans's hand on my shoulder, his fingertips brushing my neck.As we near the ground, I peer down at the crowd, my eyes widening when I recognize a few familiar faces. "Wait—Evans, is that Olivia?""I invite
Carolina"Go easy on the cotton candy," I chide Brandon, whose lips are sticky and purple from the confection. "That stuff is gonna make you feel sick.""But it's my birthday!""I know," I say, "but you don't want to be sick on your birthday, do you? After all, you haven't ridden the roller coaster yet."He frowns, considering this, his gaze straying to the kiddie roller coaster across the fairway. Then he shrugs, conceding the point. "Okay," he says. "Everyone else can share the rest of mine."He hands the remaining candy floss over to one of his friends, Jazz, who eagerly tears off a chunk and passes it to the next child.I smile, stepping back to stand beside Evans. Brandon wanted to invite his entire class back to the amusement park for his birthday—a huge fling that would've been immensely difficult if it weren't for the presence of some of the other parents, extra watchful eyes on the kids."We should go on the roller coaster next," Brandon says, trying to cajole his friends. "W
EvansAfter I finish, Carolina is silent for so long that it terrifies me.I just unloaded my entire heart to her, but for the first time in my life, I'm not sure if I said the right thing. I'm not sure if there's anything else I should say, or if another word might only make things worse.I've always known how to handle myself in any situation, always prided myself on being able to manage whatever came my way. But as I gaze at Carolina, desperately wanting her to believe me, all of that confidence slips away.There are tears in the corners of her eyes. Did I just make her cry? Is she upset? Did I just fuck up again?I open my mouth, not sure what else is going to come out—probably a babbling mess of nonsense, to be honest—but before I can stammer a single word, Carolina leans up to kiss me.We stay there for a few moments, locked in a deep kiss. All I can think about is how soft her lips are against mine, the scent of her floral shampoo that I sought in the sheets of my empty bed for
CarolinaIt's a long drive, all the way from Evans's place up to the Bronx. With each passing minute, I grow more confused, until finally, Evans pulls into a tree-lined asphalt drive, dappled with sunlight.I don't know what destination I was expecting, but whatever it was, it wasn't this. We're at Woodlawn Cemetery.Evans drives slowly through the wrought iron gates, then up the winding access road, in silence. I turn to him, frowning."Evans—""Almost there," he says.He stops the car beneath the sweeping branches of a massive maple, then steps out, gesturing for me to do the same. I hesitate for a few moments, watching as he crosses the street and approaches a simple, granite headstone.Finally, my curiosity gets the better of me. I climb out of the car and approach him. He turns to face me."I wanted to take you to meet my sister," he says. He's smiling, but there's something sad in the depths of his eyes. "I thought that the most important ladies in my life should get the chance
CarolinaOutside of Evans's ceiling-high windows, there's a flawless view of the winding branches of the oak tree in the backyard. I wake to the sound of a bird, sitting on the branch, chirping a morning tune.I'm nestled into Evans's arms, and that feels... good. Warm. Right. He's still asleep; the bird hasn't woken him. I spend a few seconds dwelling on the blissful feeling, the pleasant soreness in my muscles, as I watch the chickadee hop around on the branch and finally take flight.As soon as it vanishes out of sight, the reality of everything starts to sink in, and I bite my lip as a knot forms in my stomach.Shit. What did I just do?This was a huge mistake. The wound of our breakup was finally starting to heal over, enough that we could have a nice dinner without any awkwardness and with minimal hurt.And now, after this, I've definitely just reopened it, to its fullest extent.It's just going to get harder and harder every time I let myself have a taste. I can't let this cycl
CarolinaEvans trails his mouth over my neck and shoulders, teeth scraping my skin as I hook my legs around his waist, both of us desperate for the other."So fucking perfect." His voice is muffled against my skin, as if he can't bear to pull away long enough to speak. "You taste so good, Carolina. Every inch of you. I need you so goddamn badly."His hands move to the waistband of my pants, working the button and zipper down, and I rock from side to side a little, lifting my hips enough for him to slide them off. He takes my panties with them, and I hiss out a breath as the cool marble meets my bare skin."I need to be inside you," Evans groans, nearly ripping my pants off my legs as I desperately kick off my shoes. The heat between us is like an inferno, and I swear the rest of my clothes are about to burn to ash just from touching my skin. "Can I...?""Yes!" It's a breathless gasp, and I nod, reaching for his pants too.He's still wearing his shirt, and so am I, but I hardly even ca
CarolinaA rush of memories hits me as I walk down the second-floor hallway, especially as I walk past the room I lived in while I worked here. Unable to help my curiosity, I pause outside the door, leaning in to survey my old living space.It's almost empty. The bed is made, but it looks like it hasn't been touched since I was here. It's a little depressing, so I move on quickly.Brandon, in his room, has already put on his pajamas with lightning speed. He's crawling into bed as I enter."Story, story, story!" he chants, an eager grin on his face."Ah, ah," I say. "What are you forgetting?"Brandon frowns for a moment, unsure; then realization dawns on him. He climbs back out of bed and goes into the bathroom to brush his teeth. Only once he's back do I settle on the side of his bed, racking my brains for a story.Eventually, I spin a tale about our two betta fish meeting in a stream and becoming friends. Given what I know about betta fish, this is a pretty fanciful story—if Gill and
CarolinaWe all head up to the registers together, and once everything is paid for, I pause by the door awkwardly, glancing back at Brandon and Evans."Well, it was really nice to run into the two of you," I begin, expecting to ungracefully part ways."You should come have dinner with us!" Brandon bursts out loudly—he's having an energetic day.I cringe internally, glancing over at Evans. "Um, I don't know if that's a good idea, kiddo.""But it would be so fun!" Brandon cries.Evans nods, his eyes warm as he meets my gaze. His voice is sincere as he says, "Please. You should join us."Whatever I was expecting Evans to say, it wasn't that. I open my mouth to refuse, then close it, considering. It couldn't hurt to just go over for dinner. In fact, it might help with the heartache I've been feeling—a reminder that time moves on, or something."Okay, sure," I say hesitantly. "I didn't have anything to do this evening, anyway."Rather than taking the subway back to my place, I get into the
CarolinaThere are at least fifteen different brands of fish food at the pet store, which makes shopping for my still-unnamed betta fish way more difficult than it needs to be.It's a low maintenance creature, so I don't know what could possibly necessitate all of these different brands. One promises shinier scales, and the other claims to promote healthier fins. I shake my head, weighing one option in each hand.Finally, I decide to make the choice at random. If I picked wrong, my unnamed fish will just have to cope with subpar pellets.I toss the box into my shopping basket and continue down the aisle. I have to pick out a new filter for his little tank, then I'll be on my way.As I round the corner into the next aisle, I almost run straight into someone. I stumble back, startled, and drop my basket. The box of fish food slides across the floor."S-sorry," I stammer, my cheeks flushed with embarrassment."No worries," says a familiar voice.I freeze with my hand halfway to the fish