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Resisting The Alpha Cowboy The Window Of Vulnerability [1/2]
▄︻デ══━一 COLTON HAYES💥Today was one of those days where I wanted to find a hole and crawl into it and never come out for the rest of my life. By the time I made it home, the day had worn me down to the bone. The heat had been relentless, and between checking on the pack, making sure the new security measures were underway, and handling the usual farm work, I was just about done. My boots felt heavy against the floor as I stepped inside, my only real thought being a drink—something strong enough to settle the frustration simmering under my skin.The house was quiet at first. Peaceful. But the second I got closer to the kitchen, I realized I wasn’t alone.Vanessa’s voice.Raised.Arguing.I stopped just before turning the corner, pressing my palm against the wooden frame of the doorway. I didn’t mean to eavesdrop, but something about her tone made me pause. The sharpness of it. The way it cracked around the edges, not with anger, but something else.Frustration. Hurt.“I didn’t tell R
Terakhir Diperbarui : 2025-03-17Resisting The Alpha Cowboy The Window Of Vulnerability [2/2]
▄︻デ══━一 COLTON HAYES💥 That conversation had put me in a bad fucking mood for many reasons. Had vanessa’s brother been here in person he would have received a punch.I shouldn’t have been listening. I should have made my presence known earlier, but now, stepping forward felt like the only thing I could do.I moved into the kitchen, careful not to startle her. But Vanessa didn’t flinch when she saw me. Didn’t even seem surprised. She just looked at me, and in that moment, I could see it—how badly she was holding herself together. She seemed like the type to do that. To keep it all in and pretend she was okay when in reality she was shattered. She didn’t want the world to comfort her. She didn’t want to depend on anything. I felt like i was seeing her as an open book for the first time since I’d met her.Then, before I could say a word, she sighed. “Bust out whatever alcohol you’re hiding, i need a drink strong enough to knock me out.”Her voice was light, almost teasing, but I could
Terakhir Diperbarui : 2025-03-18Resisting The Alpha Cowboy The Smile That Haunts
▄︻デ══━一 COLTON HAYES💥 By the time I finished cooking, the house was dead silent except for the occasional crackle from the fireplace. I stepped back, taking a deep breath. The scent of roasted chicken, mashed potatoes, and buttered vegetables filled the air, but my appetite wasn’t exactly there. Not after today.Vanessa was still curled up on the chair where I’d left her, eyes open but distant, staring at the ceiling like she wasn’t really here.I rubbed the back of my neck, debating whether to let her be or push her to eat something. In the end, I chose the middle ground.“Come sit,” I said, my voice low. “I didn’t spend all this time cooking for you to ignore it.”She didn’t move at first. Just blinked, slow and tired, before sitting up and pushing the blanket off her lap. She still looked like she wanted to disappear, but she stood, stretching before making her way to the table without a word.I grabbed the plates and set them down, then rushed to the cellar to get some wine. I f
Terakhir Diperbarui : 2025-03-19Resisting The Alpha Cowboy Some Thoughts Are Different
★。＼｜／。★VANESSA DAVIS★。／｜＼。★Drinking wine helped me deal with the disaster that had happened. From discussing with Kyrie, to getting an unwanted phone call from my brother. Oh and how could i forget ashley’s disgusting admission. I’m so tired of relationships. While colton did the dishes and i settled into the couch with a glass of wine. I began working through the anger that was filling in my chest.At first i was sad, but now i was just angry. Angry at rachel, and most especially angry at ezra for handling this like a fucking bitch. She cheated, that’s a crappy thing to do. So get your closure, talk it out and divorce her, but he put the whole family in the middle of it. Then he’s got the nerve to think I’m responsible?Then as i recalled the conversation i felt sad again. My older brothers.... our relationship was fine. I know if lincoln had done something to upset ezra, ezra would forgive him in seconds. He wouldn’t even blame him. But me? I’m the troublemaker who needs to be r
Terakhir Diperbarui : 2025-03-20Resisting The Alpha Cowboy Getting To Know You More [1/3]
★。＼｜／。★VANESSA DAVIS★。／｜＼。★I shouldn’t be feeling this warm.I blame the wine. And Colton’s annoying ability to take up way too much space. I moved a little to make sure my cup of wine was resting on something. Colton also adjusted his position, changing from the up close look to something that wasn’t entirely better. We were sitting on the couch, facing each other. My wine glass rested on the table, nearly empty, while he had stretched an arm along the back of the couch, just behind my head. I wasn’t touching him, but it felt like I was. The warmth from his body made the tiny hairs on my arms stand up.Colton watched me, his golden eyes flickering under the dim light of the house.I tried to ignore it. Tried being the keyword.“You always look like you’re about to run,” he murmured.I scoffed, picking up my wine glass and taking a slow sip. “Maybe I am, maybe I’m not.”He shifted, his knee brushing against mine. My fingers tightened around the glass.“Where would you go?” the qu
Terakhir Diperbarui : 2025-03-21Resisting The Alpha Cowboy Getting To Know You More [2/3]
★。＼｜／。★VANESSA DAVIS★。／｜＼。★I was still reeling from colton’s answer to my last question. I was the... i surprised him. He’s mesmerized? I’ve been hit on before. Quite alot. I’ve heard every line in the book. Somehow when colton says something it sounds different. Is that just me? Am i wired in a weird way?My heart wasn’t beating normally anymore.I could still feel the ghost of his words in the space between us. The weight of them. The way he had looked at me, as though trying to cement his words into my brain.He’d said it so easily, like it wasn’t a big deal. Like he didn’t just drop a bomb in my chest.I sucked in a slow breath, trying to ignore the way my palms felt too warm.Colton leaned back slightly, his golden eyes still locked on mine. He wasn’t done.“My turn again,” he repeated, his voice smooth, calm—like he wasn’t watching me fall apart in real time.I kept my back straight, refusing to let him see how much that answer had shaken me.He tilted his head slightly, stud
Terakhir Diperbarui : 2025-03-22Resisting The Alpha Cowboy Getting To Know You More [3/3]
▄︻デ══━一 COLTON HAYES💥 The moment she walked away, the room felt colder.I sat there, staring at the empty space she left behind, the faint scent of wine and vanilla lingering in the air. Must be a shampoo or something. I should’ve expected it—Vanessa never stayed in one place for too long. She was always on the move, always running from something, even if she wouldn’t admit it. And yet, the way she talked about leaving to her brother… it hit me like a damn gut punch. I had been bringing over the wine, feeling so fucking happy for being there for her and then i get that. She’ll be gone in a month. I knew she would.Of course, she would.She wasn’t mine to keep. We weren’t linked in a mated bond. Hell, i think even if we were she would reject me. But the realization settled in my chest like a heavy weight, making it harder to breathe.I ran a hand down my face, exhaling sharply before dragging myself up from the couch. My limbs felt heavy, my head a mess. I wanted another drink, so
Terakhir Diperbarui : 2025-03-22Resisting The Alpha Cowboy Distance Or Not?
★。＼｜／。★VANESSA DAVIS★。／｜＼。★It had been three days.Three long days of quiet breakfasts, polite conversation, and Colton being… busy. I'm not unreasonable. I know why he's busy. I know why he's out right after breakfast, and back for dinner. He was around, sure, but not in the same way. No teasing glances. No pushing my buttons just to see how I’d react. Just a casual, distant version of himself that had left me feeling weirdly restless.It wasn’t like I wanted his attention. I wasn’t that girl. But after everything that had happened between us—the staring, the almost too-intimate questions, the kiss—I had expected something.Instead, I got short encounters. Breakfast, dinner, and then he was gone.And now, as I sat curled up on his couch, my laptop open on my lap, I found myself staring at the blank document where my next blog post was supposed to be. I should’ve been writing about something—anything—but all I could think about was how I had too much free time, too much quiet, and
Terakhir Diperbarui : 2025-03-23
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Resisting The Alpha Cowboy More Information
★。＼｜／。★VANESSA DAVIS★。／｜＼。★It was buried.Like someone had wanted it to be.I’d been combing through articles for hours, the motions mechanical now, almost numb. My mind was on autopilot—just picking through keywords, cross-referencing names, digging into obscure land deals that didn’t make sense, tracking down vague, half-mentioned connections between people who seemed irrelevant at first glance. The rabbit holes I’d gone down had been endless, some of them leading nowhere. But I couldn’t stop. I had to find something. Anything besides what I found about the drug dealer. Still, I wanted more details. My eyes were aching, and my fingers were numb from tapping the keys. I was running on nothing but cold coffee and the burning need to dig deeper. I had spent the better part of the morning and afternoon chasing down leads that now felt pointless. But then… I found it.It was another old article, buried under thousands of newer headlines, hidden like someone had intentionally tucked i
Resisting The Alpha Cowboy A Helping Hand [2/2]
▄︻デ══━一 COLTON HAYES💥 I stayed long enough to make sure they both ate. Ashley had come down minutes after I'd urged Samson to bathe and dress in something else. He didn't need my judgment and neither did she. Didn’t matter that it was just eggs, pancakes, and the last of the sausage from the freezer. I stood in that damn kitchen like a drill sergeant, arms folded, watching Samson poke at his plate like food was something foreign. Ashley sat across from him, silent, her eyes rimmed red but dry now. She wouldn’t meet my gaze. I didn’t ask her to.I didn’t ask them anything.I just waited, and eventually they started eating. Slowly. Quietly. But they ate.That was enough for now. They drank some juice and told me they'd be staying indoors for the day. Well, not Ashley. Catia was coming to take her to her place so she could be away from Samson.Once I was sure they wouldn’t go back to bed hungry, I stepped out and headed down the porch stairs. The air was already thick with humidity, t
Resisting The Alpha Cowboy A Helping Hand [1/2]
▄︻デ══━一 COLTON HAYES💥 The water ran hot over my shoulders, and for a while, I just stood there, letting it scald the edges of everything I didn’t want to think about. My hands braced against the tiled wall, breath slow, heavy. It didn’t do much to rinse away the ache in my chest—but it helped. Just a little.It was easy to smile around Vanessa, but away from her, my brain was starting to think again. I'd love to have my ability to think fucked out of me. When Vanessa and I have sex, I can only think about her. I do love just thinking about her. It's better than thinking about all the problems in my life. By the time I dried off, dressed, and placed my hat over damp curls, the morning had already fully settled in. Vanessa hadn’t moved from her spot in bed when I peeked into the room again—still buried in her research, sharp as ever, focused like she was stitching the world back together with a single thread. She didn’t even look up when I asked her if she'd need my truck to go into
Resisting The Alpha Cowboy Digging For More
★。＼｜／。★VANESSA DAVIS★。／｜＼。★I barely noticed the time passing.The world had narrowed down to my laptop screen, the dull hum of its fan, and the occasional click of my nails against the keys. Morning light had crept in slowly through the window, shifting from gray to gold while I chased paper trails and public records down digital rabbit holes. Every tab I opened spun into another, and another—property deeds, business filings, court case summaries, suspicious shell companies that seemed to tie back to a single name again and again.Alina.She was careful. Calculated. Her name was rarely listed, but the fingerprints were there—metaphorically speaking. I was stitching together something ugly. Bigger than what Colton had suspected. It wasn't just a bad deal gone personal. She was tied into something far-reaching. And worse—she was good at hiding in plain sight. I didn’t have the full picture yet, but I had the edges. And the more I found, the more certain I became: this was more than r
Resisting The Alpha Cowboy Bold Words [3/3]
★。＼｜／。★VANESSA DAVIS★。／｜＼。★I woke up warm.Not just in the way that meant the blankets were doing their job—but in the way that made my chest ache. Like a fire had settled there overnight. Slow, steady, and kind.Colton's arm was wrapped around me, his hand resting just below my ribs, his body curled into mine like he always belonged there. My cheek was pressed against the solid muscle of his chest, and I could hear his heartbeat—slow, even, completely at ease.It made me want to cry. In a good way. Maybe. This must be the good thing about having a partner. You're never truly alone. And if you want to be alone, you can. Take a moment to yourself. It works if you have someone who understands. Do I suddenly believe love strengthens and fixes everything? No. Heck, who knows if our relationship would stand the test of time. Who knows how this might end? In an affair? God I hope not. If Colton suddenly decides he's actually found his Mrs right, I'll kill them both. I nestled closer t
Resisting The Alpha Cowboy Bold Words [2/3]
▄︻デ══━一 COLTON HAYES💥 I must’ve misheard her. No way she just said—Vanessa narrowed her eyes like she could feel my doubt. “I’m in love with you,” she said again, firmer this time. “I am. And when you said you wanted more than casual... well, I want that too.”My heart damn near leapt out of my throat. My wolf—usually quiet and brooding—sank somewhere warm and content like he’d finally been fed after starving.She said she loves me.I stared at her, stunned into silence for maybe the first time in my entire life. Vanessa. The girl who ran from any emotional talk as if it were fire. Who flinched at the mentions of true love, side-eyed people talking about mates and marriage, ducked out of the room when things got too real—just said she loved me. Out loud. On purpose.And she hadn’t even looked away. She stood there, her chest rising and falling like she was bracing for something, arms crossed like she needed to hold herself together. But she was still standing, still meeting my eyes
Resisting The Alpha Cowboy Bold Words [1/3]
★。＼｜／。★VANESSA DAVIS★。／｜＼。★I could have gone to my bedroom to take this call, but I didn’t want to go that far.. I stopped in the hallway, just out of earshot. I’m not the type to run from my problems. Hell, I run right into danger, that’s just who I am. But I’m avoiding the main conversation with Colton. I want to have it. I want to talk about it. I want to say, yeah, I want more than casual with you, too. I want more, I love you. I don’t know how or when I fell for you, but it kind of just happened. However, I cannot throw my whole life away. Long distance won’t work for us.... i mean, fuck, why am i even thinking about this?I brought my eyes back to my phone.The number was unfamiliar, but I answered it anyway, partly because I needed a distraction and partly because a flicker of dread told me who it might be.“Hello?” I said cautiously.There was a pause. Then a shaky inhale.“Vanessa?” a voice I hadn’t heard in days, maybe weeks, not in person, not like this. But I knew it i
Resisting The Alpha Cowboy Can't Hide From It
▄︻デ══━一 COLTON HAYES💥 After a moment of watching the lake, each of us silently making a plan in our heads, we decided to return home.We didn’t say much on the walk back. Vanessa kept close, her steps quiet but fast to keep up with mine. The storm had left behind a world slick with mud and the chill of lingering rain. Trees dripped steadily, and the sky overhead was still a dull sheet of grey, hanging heavy like the grief inside me.By the time we stepped back into the house, I shrugged off my damp jacket and tossed it on a hook. Vanessa followed, tugging her sleeves down her wrists like she was trying to ground herself. The house was too quiet without the family. Too hollow. The air still smelled like breakfast and loss.“Coffee?” I offered, needing something to keep my hands busy.She nodded, and we moved into the kitchen. I prepped the machine in silence, only the gurgling hum of it filling the space between us.“I was thinking…” she said eventually, leaning on the counter, “we s
Resisting The Alpha Cowboy For Now
★。＼｜／。★VANESSA DAVIS★。／｜＼。★I arrived back at the farm—Colton’s house—just as the sky slipped further into gray.From the second I parked, I knew something was off. The driveway was clear. No voices floated from the porch. No creak of floorboards or clatter of kitchenware inside. It was empty.Too empty.I stepped out of the Jeep and onto the damp ground, the air thick with leftover moisture and the scent of wet wood. The storm had passed, but the rain hadn’t fully let go. It lingered in droplets that clung to the leaves and coated the windows like tears that didn’t know how to fall.Inside the house, the silence clawed at me.“Colton?” I called out, voice echoing just slightly. No response. My footsteps padded quietly over the wood floors as I walked from room to room, scanning for any sign of him.Nothing in the kitchen.Nothing in the living room, either of them.His phone wasn’t on the charger. His keys were gone.A slow panic started bubbling in my stomach.I checked the front p
