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2022-01-28 09:52:18“Need you when I’m broken, when I’m fixed. Need you when I’m well and when I’m sick. Friends that I rely on don’t come through. They run like the river but not you.” —Zayn Malik.
Chapter Theme Song: ‘There You Are’ by Zayn Malik.
(^A/N: This song fits Blaze so much!! :)
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Harmony
“Stay away from me then!”
The words he uttered yesterday during his aggressive state have been plaguing my thoughts ever since. Did he mean them? Judging from the rage his eyes held, I am surer than not that he did.
To be honest, I was wrong. I should have never run ahead and judged him without seeking out the full story first, and now I just became like everyone else. I feel like I have failed both him and myself somehow.
While April showers, I get dressed in a knee-length jean skirt and a black long-sleeved top. I let my hair flo
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