Chapter 15: Finally I admit.

Chapter 15: Finally I admit. 

When I read a text message coming from Rage I immediately found him. Sitting next to us with another woman, though their direction is a little bit far away from us. I sighed when Rage and I met with our eyes. He looks so pissed I don't know why, I look at Kevin who is now focusing on his food. 

I look at the woman who is with him. I can't see her face clearly because I only see her back from here. Rage noticed that I looked at the woman and he looked at her too then looked at me again. Ano 'to tinginan lang? 

I still managed to finish my food before turning to Kevin. I look at him and he just genuinely looks at me. 

"Are you done, Ganda?" Kevin asked, wiping his lips with a table napkin. 

"Tayo na!" I said without looking at him. Rage really knows how to get me into a bad mood. 

Kevin and I leave the restaurant. I look back where Rage and that woman are sitting but they are also gone. 

Kevin is now starting the engine of his motorcycle. I wait for him until he is done so we can leave. 

"Wait, Lexia?" Someone tapped my shoulder and said my name. I turn around to see who it is. 

"Hi. There!" It's Jen, sa sobrang gulat ko nayakap ko agad siya so siya ang kasama ni Rage. 

"We're just having dinner with some co-workers. I didn't know that you guys are now hanging out ha!" Jen gave me a teasing smile. 

"Ahm. Nagpasama lang ako sa kanya. Oo date na rin." Pag amin ko. 

"Ehem!" Kevin cough I know he did it on purpose. 

"So, you guys are now a couple?" Rage suddenly joins the conversation. He really looks like someone betrayed him. 

"No, we're just courting right now." I answered. 

"Dun din papunta yun Ganda!" Kevin said. He is now smiling, maybe enjoying what he is seeing right now. Duh, hindi ko siya tina-tanggi ngayon. 

"What if someone asks na ligawan ka rin are you going to allow having two men courting you, Miss?" Rage asks. What does he want now? We stare at each other then I look away. His gaze is really heavy. I don't know. 

"Syempre hindi papayag si Ganda. Diba Ganda!" Siniko naman ako ni Kevin pagkatapos niyang sabihin yun. Tinignan ko siya at muli kong sinulyapan si Rage. Ngayon ay malalim na tingin ni Rage kay Kevin. 

"Huwag kang desisyon at huwag ka nga makisabat hindi ikaw ang tinatanong ko." Madiin ang pagkakasabi ni Rage kay Kevin. Jen look at them dahil konti na lang para na silang magsuntukan. 

"Hey, guys. What's happening there." A woman approach to Rage and Jen. Wait pamilyar sa akin ang aura ng babaeng to. Di kaya siya ang nakita kong katabi ni Rage kanina. 

"Sorry I just talked to my manager. By the way, who are they?" She asked Rage. 

"This is Lexia my friend and this Kevin my friend's friend's. I mean he's friends with my other friend, not mine." Jen explained. That woman look at us and smile. Ganun ba talaga pag nakapalibot kina Rage at Jen bakit ang gaganda ng mga kasama nila parati. This woman is literally a goddess type and perfect figure, with her tower height porcelain skin and everything. 

"Oh hi. Everyone, I am Ivy. Rage screen partner, hoping we become real. Haha!"She jokes but I guess it's not that just a joke. 

"Don't be mad, I'm joking." She clarifies it to Rage because Rage is looking at her with a scary one. 

"Well I guess dito na lang muna tayo. See you guys next time. I have a photoshoot pa ei. Bye Ivy nice catch up. Rage see you, Lexia and Kevin ingat ha. Make sure that Lexia is alright. Bye everyone." Jen waves at us while she's leaving. Ivy holds Rage's arm but Rage pushes her. 

Kevin handed me his helmet at sumakay na ako sa motor niya. 

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It's now back to school. I am now sitting at the bench here in an open field and reading some notes that I wrote last time before the semester break. Just reviewing every lesson. 

I am also listening to some rap music this time. I sighed when I open my notes to Mr. No subject, hanggang ngayon may Math pa rin kami bakit? Urgh! 

I close my notebook and about to go to my class. Then I saw Rage walking in my direction. 

"There you are!" He said, nang makalapit siya. Kumunot naman ang noo ko sa kanya dahil sa bigla niyang pagdating. 

"Bakit ano meron?" Taka kong tanong. 

"So, it's true you're now going out with Kevin?" He asked. Yun ba ang iniisip niya gabi-gabi. Well natauhan ba siya? Duh, hindi naman kami ano. 

"Kung oo ano gagawin mo?" I shot back. Tinaasan ko siya ng kilay waepek ka na ngayon Rage. Cancel ka na sa'kin. 

"Why him?" He asked. Bakit nga ba siya? Napaisip ako sa tanong niya ah. Dahil ba hindi nag pi-first move si Rage kaya pumatol ako kay Kevin. Ei, halos wala nga akong maalala na bet din ako ni Rage ei. Shuta, bakit ganyan ang mga tanungan at mga iniisip ko. 

"Ahm. Kasi ano--kasi… ahm" I can't even say it. Baka nga talaga wala? I look at him and he seems so amuse to what is happening right now in front of him. Did he just amuse me that I am struggling to answer him? 

"At anong nakakatawa?" Iba na ang tono ng tanong ko. 

"Well, I think I know the answer." He said and turned around. I thought he was really leaving but he just stood in front of me. Nakatalikod siya sa akin kaya hindi ko alam kung anong meron sa tinitignan niya. 

Nag iingay na rin ang mga estudyante, medyo nasasanay na ako sa bigla-bigla nilang pagtili. Kasi nga may mga artista din ditong pumapasok. 

Tumabi ako sa kanya para makita kung anong ganap ang mayroon. 

"Congressman Suarez."

"Ang aga mangandidato ha."

"Oh M G! Gwapo pa rin no, kahit matanda na." 

Yan ang narinig ko sa mga nagkukumpulan dito. I look at Rage once again and he's just looking at his Father's side. I heard him sighed and walked away. Akala ko tuluyan na siyang makakalayo pero hindi. Sinalubong siya ng Tatay niya na may kasamang media. Doon siya nito kinausap na akala mo naman ay close talaga sila. 

Rage has no choice and rides along with his Dad. Kitang kita ko sa mata niya kung gaano siya nagagalit sa mga nangyayari. 

"So, Rage, are you going to support your Father's campaign in this coming election?" A reporter asked Rage. Lumapit na rin ako sa tabi ng ilang schoolmate kong nanonood din. 

"Actually I haven't thought of that yet, however I try." Rage answered without looking at his Father. 

"Stop pressuring my Son, besides I'm here to visit him. Not to ask him about the campaign thing!" Congressman Suarez also said. 

"By the way excuse us, everyone!" Rage and his Father left the media and went to an office together with our Dean. 

After that scene everyone started to go on their way to leave. 

I attended my major subjects. That's the only thing I did while in school. 

Wala daw inom ngayon sabi ni Ali kaya ang ending maaga akong matutulog. 

Tapos na akong mag facial at half bath nang biglang tinawag ako ni Mama. 

"Nak. May naghahanap sayo nasa sala na." Agad naman akong bumaba at pinuntahan yung naghahanap daw sa akin. 

Pagbaba ko bumungad sa akin si Rage. Bakit anong ginagawa niya rito? 

"Magandang Gabi po. Tita, Lexia." Bati niya sa amin. May dala siyang bulaklak at ilang mga gifts na nasa paper bag. 

"Anong ginagawa mo dito gabi na ah. Wala ka bang trabaho?" I already know that he is a goddamn celebrity, it's already sunk into my head that this man is on another level. 

"Ahm. Wala ei sa ngayon." He answered. 

"Umupo ka, hijo." Umupo rin naman siya pagkasabi ni Mama ng ganon. 

"Pasensya na po sa abala." Bakit para saan? 

"Nandito po ako para umakyat ng ligaw sa anak niyo. Mrs. Carmona" Halos ibuga ko na lahat ng hangin na nilanghap ko kanina nung narinig ko yan. Susko paano si Kevin ei nanliligaw din yun. Bakit kailangan nilang magsabay? 

"Jusko, hijo ay sigurado ka ba? Wala naman sa akin ang desisyon nasa unica hija ko. Tsaka hindi ba magagalit ang fans mo at ang Tatay mo." Si Mama ang sumasagot para sa akin. Nakalimutan ko nga pala na avid fan si Mama ng mga drama kaya madalas mas updated pa siya sa akin. 

"Okay lang naman po. Hihintayin ko po ang anak niyo." Sabi ni Rage at tinitigan ako. I look away, I don't know why but my heart knows how to beat fast when he's around. May karera ata ang mga nerves ko sa puso kaya ang bilis ng tibok. 

"Hijo kayo muna ang mag-usap ng anak ko. Lexia sa kwarto muna ako ha." Paalam ni Mama sa amin. 

Nang makaalis si Mama agad naman tumabi sa akin si Rage. Umusog ako ng konti sa kinauupuan naming sofa. 

"Para saan to?" I broke the silence.

"Isn't it obvious? I want to court you?" He said looking again at my eyes. Like why? He is never  vocal about liking me unlike Kevin. Noon pa lang bukambibig na niya na gusto niya ako. 

"Paano pag umayaw ako?" I asked. Well hindi naman ako aayaw tinatanong ko lang. Shuta, ano 'tong mga iniisip ko bakit? 

"Saying no to me is not allowed,  remember? Well I want to do this naghanap lang ako ng tyempo. Besides, you hate me first right?" After he said that we both laughed remembering what type of encounter we experienced to one another. 

"Lexia. I don't know but you make me think of you in a strange way. It feels like you trap me in your world." Rage said seriously I can feel genuine in his words. I sighed but I didn't answer. I don't know what to say. 

"Rage. Gusto mo ba ako?" I asked kasi ako oo gusto kita Rage. Finally I admit to myself.