SebastianThe ability to work doesn't come easily to me for the rest of the day. Instead, I find myself sitting back in the chair with my fingers upon my lips as I take that moment to remember the woman my father is thrusting upon me as of tomorrow morning. Those eyes were shrouded with thick black lashes, her glasses on the end of her nose.And I can only imagine what was beneath her pencil skirt and button-down shirt.I find I'm disgusted with myself when I open the top drawer, intent on bringing myself back down to reality. And I do; the picture frame with a photo of Beth, Melody and me before her diagnosis sprays ice-cold water over the strange fire desire to get to know this... Cassidy, more intimately.I find myself asking, why her?Why now, in this untimely manner, when evidently I'm in the middle of a vast fucking complaint that could mean the board decided against me stepping up?And why has my father decided to pray on my weakness, knowing I surround myself with blonde bimb
Grinning, I turn off the main road in the back streets that will lead me to my daughter, and before long, I'm pulling up within the car park, walking to the reception desk."Can I have Melody early, please?" I request to the old frail receptionist who has been here since I was a child."Of course, let me ring through for her, Sebastian."I wait, pumped with excitement, as she tells me her teacher will bring her straight out. And she does, depositing her with me as Melody grins bigger than she had this morning."Daddy?" She questions as I take her delicate little hand in mine as we walk out of the school side by side."How was your day?" I ask her."Good, is something wrong?""Why would there be anything wrong, baby?""You're early," she points out as I strap her into the car."I thought perhaps you might like some ice cream and to visit the soft play centre whilst I finish my last meeting with Uncle Josh.""Are you serious?" She asks, clasping her hands before her much as I might have
Sebastian"What made you clock off early?" He asks me once we've reviewed the essential documents as we sit at the table whilst Melody runs around with some friends she has made."Does there have to be a reason to spend time with my child?""No, but I know you, Seb..."I sigh, looking over my shoulder to ensure Melody isn't within earshot. I wouldn't want to encourage her to presume I might give in and find a woman she could call mummy."My dad thrust one of his PA's on me... she's—."Words die on my tongue as I remember Cassidy and her unnatural pull on me, ripping a manly grunt at the memory of who I now work with. I shake my head, turning once again to ensure Melody is not within earshot."You like her," he tells me with wide eyes and raised brows. His hand is halfway to his mouth as his cup suspends in the air before him before he smirks as if he's been waiting for my downward spiral. "No!" I immediately decline such a thing, but we both know I'm lying."You ran... is that becau
The lack of needed support from Josh has me tossing and turning all night, knowing I'm walking into the devil's den the moment I step foot into work today.I'm late again, gathering Melody and me into my car over thirty minutes late as I drag my feet, knowing once I go, I won't have a moment to myself until come five o'clock.And I can't leave work early two days in a row; after allI have afternoon meetings from twelve, and I cannot remotely meet up with these clients much as I did Josh yesterday.Even so, I'm strolling through the doors of work at eight-twenty, frowning as I clap eyes with Hannah and, unfortunately, Cassidy.She stands almost immediately, her face like thunder, as she marches herself to me as I move myself to the lift that'll take me up to my office on the fortieth floor."You're late. I believe your start time is seven-thirty..." she mutters in disbelief as we walk side by side into the empty lift."I have a daughter to tend to, feed, dress, drive to school. Beside
SebastianI scrape myself through that first day with Cassidy by the skin of my fucking teeth, and that night all I can think of is brown eyes, brown hair in a neat bun and her bent over my fucking work desk as that delectable pencil skirt rides her thick thighs. What the fuck was wrong with me? Why now? Why her?I'm so restless I find myself in my home gym, working out harder than I have for years in the hopes my fucking perpetual hard-on will subside.Did it? You ask.No, it fucking didn't... and did I do anything about it? I hear you ask.Well, I tried; I whacked one out in the shower, pleading the fifth that if god allowed me that small moment of pleasure, I would behave—that I would worship him for allowing me a reprieve in my orgasmic celibacy. But alas, he never let me the pleasure of finding release, much as he hadn't for the last four fucking years.Since that night I last took Beth, the night I lost her.I'm broken, I know that. I've known that since I decided to start dri
I get Melody to school late, but not as late as yesterday, and weirdly, the stars must have aligned to present me with no traffic between her school and work. Meaning I walk through the doors with only a five-minute tardiness to my name today.Cassidy's there, of course, sitting with Hannah as she stares at the doors waiting for—me. She stands immediately at my presence, looking down only briefly at the watch on her otherwise bare wrist. She's dressed in a dress today, something that I believe Melody owns, a pinafore; I do think it's called.It's black and hugs her curves... her breasts, those hips.Clinging its way down to her tight adorned legs that seem to last forever with the aid of those stilettos. She clears her throat, bringing me crashing down to reality. "You have the code, no? Why are you waiting for me down here again?" I ask angrily, my night's lack of sleep still making me cranky. Or is it the fact I was just caught checking her out?"That is not my office; I'm a temp
Sebastian After a further twenty minutes, we were stuck, and at some point, I realised the lights had gone up, and I knew we were in the home stretch to escaping out of here unscathed. Neither of us spoke after my revelation, but that only led to time to think over the horrors of how quickly I spilt my guts. And how quickly I allowed myself to touch the woman I was now seemingly fawning over. Roger was there, opening the lift with a specially designed crowbar on the twenty-first floor; I peeked outside. Looking with relief to find the offices empty as I allowed myself a moment of resignation that perhaps I really and honestly didn't want nor need Cassidy working alongside me. Self-preservation, I think sourly. I've never had to explain that Beth's dead to anyone at work before; after all, they've all worked here alongside me for long enough to know about that particular train wreck time in my life. But things are different under my father. His turnaround of staff is as if
"Seb, shall we take her to the treehouse?" She had asked me. "Mhmm," I agreed, knowing this would make her happy. But despite remembering the day from the photo, my mind does something confronting. One minute, I remember Beth and how happy I was to be basking in her attention, and the next, I remember holding Cassidy's cheek in the lift. Her dimple against my palm, her laugh making my inside squeeze as she laughs at me counting sheep. "Why are you counting sheep?" She asks me, confused, humour in her voice. My breath shudders through my chest, my confusion and unhappiness mixing with... hope. Fuck! It's been eight minutes; the clock enlightens me of that, and I know I must leave and enter the meeting waiting for me to begin. But I take a further two minutes to myself. She's perched outside on the desk that was my PA's, waiting for me as I open the door. I had hoped she would be entertaining my first client, but I realised with horror that Josh was my first meeting. "So you mus
Sebastian comes to stand beside me, and Tina lets go of my hand to pick up the little girl I've only seen in photos up until now.She's beautiful, looking just like Sebastian. Thick brown hair, gorgeous eyes, and a cheeky grin that she greets everyone with as if she knows she is an extraordinary girl. Which she is, don't get me wrong.Until she looks at me standing beside her father, and she frowns."What's your name?" She asks me, obviously not having recognised me, and she appraises her father-Sebastian. His hand is around my waist, holding tight as he usually does.I don't know why, but knowing she doesn't know who I am hurts just a little."I'm Cassidy," I tell her. Reaching my hand out to shake hers as if this were a business meeting. She takes my hand in her own and shakes it firmly before grinning so beautifully that I think my heart breaks at her beauty. "Melody," she tells me, then turns away and struggles down to the floor.Charlotte puts Jordan down, too, and the pair of t
CassidySebastian and I explore our relationship on the weekends as Melody spends time with her grandparents. It's been around four months now since that day he spanked me in his office, and I've enjoyed getting to know him on a deeper level.And the sex... yeah, I've never had sex like the sex Sebastian offers me.Some days, he'll love me like a typical boyfriend. On other days, he ensures I feel every single bit of pleasure he can rake through my body as I'm bound or held up against a wall like an object to be devoured.I hate to say it, but I prefer those times. The pleasure leaves me feeling complete and whole.He also showed me his caring side, and though I was upset that he paid off my mortgage in total, I saw that as him showing me he would care for me.I both hated and loved the way he ensured my housing safety. But things are about to change; Sebastian wants me to meet Melody, and I'm petrified.He made plans for today, Saturday. It's Josh's son's birthday, and Sebastian pl
"Without your agreement, there wouldn't be scenes; there would be no punishments or rewards. Without you... there would be no us," I murmur quietly, pushing her back on the bed where she falls, her legs instantly parting for me."Why do you like BDSM?" She asks."Many reasons. Pleasure, pain... control. Watching you coming undone beneath my fingers only for me to put you back together again.""How do I have control?" She asks."You give your body to me," I grin, lying between her legs, kissing along the inside of her thigh. "That pleases me to no end. But the pleasure I give you makes me needy; it makes me feel powerful.""And the punishments?""Did you like it when I spanked you in my office? Did you like receiving my pain in that way?" I chuckle."Mmm... yes, I did. Very much so.""I took that hurt out on your body, and we both climaxed for it," I smile, crawling up her body and catching her free hand."Why bind me?""Control, again, only to pleasure you. Us. The both of us. Do you
SebastianI hate to admit it, but I understand where Josh comes from. He feels betrayed by Cassidy, and he can't keep his opinions to himself for fear something would happen on his watch, and he hadn't said anything. I'm upset; of course I am. But I'm also honoured that he'd try to protect me.But I won't allow him to hurt the girl I'm most certainly irrevocably in love with.Christ, I don't know how I fell so hard and quickly, but... it's there dictating my life at every corner as she invades my senses, my decisions... my concentration. I search for Cassidy, catching her leaving the foyer and heading outside, so I follow in a hurry. Her hair flows behind her as I watch her bottom shake with that jiggle I love."Cassy..." I call her as she walks through the gardens full of trees and flowers that have bloomed bright and smell wonderful."It's okay, Sebastian.""It's not, I'm so sorry he's being such a dick...""I lied, and that must have hurt you. He's only being a good friend to you
"I'm sorry..." Josh notes, looking at me with troubled eyes as Sebastian makes him wither in his gaze. "I didn't mean to make it seem as if you didn't matter; I was just making it known that I don't thinkyou'll cope well with the paps that follow Sebastian's every move. And trust me, after four years of staying out of the public eye... they're hungry for a story. Any story, and I don't see your relationship being kept under wraps.""Just remember she's a person too," Sebastian growls unhappily, changing the dynamic of our interaction as he demands Josh act differently around me."It's okay," I soothe Sebastian despite agreeing with him that Josh hurt my feelings."It isn't. Besides, I love this shy girl..." he pointedly talks over to Josh as if those words aren't momentous. I still, again, not knowing what to do with those three little words that he hadn't muttered to me. And I think Josh and Charlotte know that, too. And for a long moment, I see the realisation hitting them smack b
CassidySeb closes the room door almost as soon as we pass over the threshold, dumping the bags in the little nook obviously placed for them and then he stalks towards me as if he's starved and needs to touch me. I'm up and wrapped around his waist, my ankles crossing over to keep me in place as I press myself to him in a moment of need.We kiss like we have been doing for weeks, our mouths open and our tongues exchanging saliva as he presses me against the wall of the bathroom."I want to try something new..." he tells me through kisses to my neck, pulling away as if he might be planning my demise by way of orgasms."What is it?" I sigh breathlessly, grinding my clit against him to find any friction possible."I want to tie you up..."And that has my anxiety jumping up a notch, and I'm grasping for any excuse not to lay on the bed and allow him to have his kinky way with me.I just can't be trapped... that scares me more than anything else we've tried together."We have afternoon te
Sebastian"It's so pretty here," Cassidy grins up to me as we sit on the moist grass atop a hill through my favourite wooded area, not a twenty-minute drive from my home.She's wearing a white silk blouse and suit pants that she shouldn't have worn for a place like this, but I never told her our destination, and I don't think she believed we would be sitting in the chilling night air watching the stars float in the sky above us.This is one of the most honoured places that Beth had shown me, and now I'm showing Cassidy on the night that I asked her to be mine.I've been procrastinating for an age, sitting here quietly as she looks out over the expanse of deep night sky."It's a special place for me.""Thank you so much for bringing me here then," she tells me despite me not elaborating on why I find this place special.It's been a week since she admitted about my father's involvement to make her help me get over Beth, and it's been an upsetting seven days having the knowledge she's mi
"No.""Then you see, I had to go about things a little... less favourably.""I like her, father. I really like her, but you're hanging over us like a looming fucking guillotine. I can't trust you with her now.""Nonsense, I've known the girl's family for years. Do you not remember the Drew's?" He asks me, walking to his bookshelves, where he pulls a photo album from one of the top shelves."No..." I murmur, but I'm looking back through my life now, wondering if I know Cassidy.He thrusts a book toward me, opened on a page of a young couple with a little girl standing in our yard at one of the dinner parties my mother used to throw.I don't recognise the little girl, but I do recognise the couple. I hadn't seen them that long ago... and it's now I realise that the woman on Cassidy's phone is the same as before me right now."They were at Beth's funeral," I murmur aloud when the memory surfaces. They were in my house, telling me how utterly sorry they were that Beth was gone. But Cassi
SebastianI had every intention of leaving Cassidy last night to head home, but she had other ideas, and so we found ourselves on her immaculate sofa that felt as if it had never been sat on.She was clinging to me as if her life depended on it, and we cuddled as I lay behind her, watching a show on Netflix she was obviously into.But that quiet time gave me time to think and overthink I did.I'd jumped that hurdle, was able to have sex without emotional feelings of guilt or upset, and I enjoyed every time we fucked. But I didn't bring condoms, and I know that was a huge mistake on my behalf. One that I wouldn't be repeating.I'd love another kid, but the thought of doing that now when I have the predicament of allowing my two worlds to collide already is something that scares me.I love my daughter, and though Melody is gagging to have someone like Cassidy to call mum, I know I need to protect her from the heartache of losing someone else.So, as I pressed my hand below Cassidy's tho