SebastianThat next day, I presumed I'd walk into work without a PA, readying myself for losing the enigma that was Cassidy.Honestly, I had no clue why I had been acting the way I had; my mother brought me up with more manners.She vied to teach me that women were worth their weight in gold, something my father never upheld, though they have been married for more than thirty years, so he must do something right.Cassidy humours me, sticking around for the remainder of the week as I ensure I'm on my best fucking behaviour as I vow not to put that look of desolation upon her features again.But that doesn't mean she doesn't make any excuse she can think of not to spend time with me.Gone is the willing PA vying for my attention, and in her place is a woman that keeps her fucking face down on the laptop that doesn't present the amount of work that she leads me to believe she's completing.I should be happy with the lack of attentiveness and the reprieve she's given me regarding her comp
SebastianCassidy isn't impressed that I turn up at her home address without prior permission as I take it upon myself to ensure she attends this dang fucking conference alongside me as my PA.Perhaps I should have accepted her warning, backed off and allowed her to remain stoic and at a far distance from myself, but then again, I always was one for self-sabotage, it seems.She's shocked as she opens the door to her tiny flat, where I stand on the doorstep under the small archway that shelters her door, much like my porch does."Sebast—, Mr King," she greets me with shock, her eyes bulging in her face as her eyes rove down my now jeans and jumper-adorned body.She told me that she wasn't coming, and she refused to entertain it, but this is part and parcel of her job description as my PA, and I'll be damned if I leave her at home. "Have you packed? We need to leave," I admit quickly, looking to the car I've kept running to keep it warm for her. It's raining, you see, chucking it down,
SebastianI want to say the journey down into London was anything but anxiety-inducing, but it seems we've lost the ability to talk as we both avoided each other gazes.The car was stifling hot despite me tinkering with the air temp multiple times, yet it was still raining, so I couldn't open the window for fear the inside of the car would get spoilt with the rain.Even so, it's not an hour later that I'm pulling up outside the Hilton, piquing her interest with how upmarket the hotel is that we're staying at, most likely. That's my summary, anyway.Her eyes have been alight with want for a while, drinking in the sights as I drive the scenic route into London.The sky rise buildings, the Thames, and all that's surrounding it like that giant wheel and the Houses of Parliament.I doubt she's ever been to London, not with how interested she truly is in her surroundings. Back to the hotel. It's upmarket and one of the most expensive places to stay around here. Trust me, it wasn't my first
Cassidy Dinner is a tense affair I couldn't care less to be taking part in, but here I am because Sebastian's father deemed it necessary that I play a part in his charade of making Sebastian move on from his wife... his deceased wife.And I'm guessing the lack of room for me is just another of his ruthless decisions. Why am I playing this game?Why am I taking part in the goings on with the King mens games where one man is lording his wads of cash and the other is none the wiser to the quite frankly upsetting behaviour of his father?Well, unfortunately, I'm just a chess piece in their game.One threatened to sack me and make me unemployable if I didn't follow his command. The other does things to me that no other man than my late husband could do. Yet, in the same instance, he's so cold that it upsets me.Of course, I get precisely why he's like that. I've been there myself; I'm still there. Deep in the mix of not knowing what to do with my life after losing Derek to no fault of
But what I don't relay is the fact I came down here with the promise of a job at King Enterprises. That my escape just so happened to be the worst mistake of my life.I didn't fit in; I knew that from the day I walked inside Mr King's office for my interview.All those around me were blonde, young and idiots. Yet he gave me the job with a secret smile, and I've been there just under two years as I quickly worked my arse through the ranks, always asking why I was different. I was naive to believe I was getting myself places. That perhaps he hired me because I wasn't his type, and he actually liked that.But then he thrust this weird arrangement with his son just a few weeks back. And he orchestrated the two girls, because they sure weren't women, to come onto Sebastian just last week."Perhaps you do now, but your accent isn't from around home," he points out, turning to Sebastian, who remains silent but grinning."I was born and raised in Yorkshire, a small town that offered nothing
Sebastian"You really fucking like her," Josh chuckles whilst watching me follow the girl that's walking away without a damned look back at the table we still sit at.She's leaving before discussing sleeping particulars, and for some reason, I find that not having her here at the table only makes me want to retire to the apartment we call our own for the next few days. "Don't know what the fuck you're talking about," I lie. Knowing full well this is more emotion than I've shown in three years or more years. "Seb, this is good... it's about fucking time.""Don't. Don't fucking say it, Josh.""I will. You've been living in this perpetual state of unknown for years now.""I have a wife," I tell him. Getting a look from the couple, particularly the woman at the next table over.I realise then how that must sound, and for a moment, I hate that I've made it seem like I want the girl who just left our table when I have a wife at home. But the reality is I don't have a wife at home. I haven
CassidyI presume Sebastian and Josh had decided to share the larger of the two rooms. Which is precisely as I intended, but that means I have to leave my room to go to the communal bathroom rather than having the pleasure of having everything I need in my room.Perhaps I should have been selfish and kept the larger room for myself. The bed was at least double the size of my small double at home, and the bathroom had a walk-in rain shower and a clawfoot tub that was calling to me.I freeze almost instantly as I leave the bedroom in my nightdress with my towel, makeup bag and clothing for the day. Josh is sitting on the sofa, a mug in one hand, facing me.It feels as if he's been waiting for me to wake, but that would be a ridiculous thought and far-fetched, considering we barely know one another."Good morning," he nods to me. Sipping the coffee as I stand stupefied on the spot, not knowing how to react or what to do. "Morning," I mumble back only when I find my voice and then go to
Sebastian "You set that up, didn't you?" I ask Josh almost as soon as the doors closed, and I appraise him sitting on the sofa with that smug look of triumph on his stupid face. "I didn't prevent it," he shrugs. "Josh..." "Seb?" He asks, standing from the sofa to follow along behind me as I enter our room with anguish that I didn't make a fucking move on the pretty brunette that's been plaguing my sleep all damn night. Pretty much every night since she stormed into my office actually. "You didn't sleep a wink, and you were hard all night," he points out, looking down at my crotch, making me blush so fucking hard that it should be illegal. This isn't a conversation we should be having. "Josh, that's inappropriate..." I state, grabbing boxers to dress, hating to think that he looked at me at all in that light because, in truth, I was hard all night. I need a fucking release, yet knowing that my body, god, fate, won't allow that. Yet even now, I choose to remember all th