SebastianI want to say the journey down into London was anything but anxiety-inducing, but it seems we've lost the ability to talk as we both avoided each other gazes.The car was stifling hot despite me tinkering with the air temp multiple times, yet it was still raining, so I couldn't open the window for fear the inside of the car would get spoilt with the rain.Even so, it's not an hour later that I'm pulling up outside the Hilton, piquing her interest with how upmarket the hotel is that we're staying at, most likely. That's my summary, anyway.Her eyes have been alight with want for a while, drinking in the sights as I drive the scenic route into London.The sky rise buildings, the Thames, and all that's surrounding it like that giant wheel and the Houses of Parliament.I doubt she's ever been to London, not with how interested she truly is in her surroundings. Back to the hotel. It's upmarket and one of the most expensive places to stay around here. Trust me, it wasn't my first
Cassidy Dinner is a tense affair I couldn't care less to be taking part in, but here I am because Sebastian's father deemed it necessary that I play a part in his charade of making Sebastian move on from his wife... his deceased wife.And I'm guessing the lack of room for me is just another of his ruthless decisions. Why am I playing this game?Why am I taking part in the goings on with the King mens games where one man is lording his wads of cash and the other is none the wiser to the quite frankly upsetting behaviour of his father?Well, unfortunately, I'm just a chess piece in their game.One threatened to sack me and make me unemployable if I didn't follow his command. The other does things to me that no other man than my late husband could do. Yet, in the same instance, he's so cold that it upsets me.Of course, I get precisely why he's like that. I've been there myself; I'm still there. Deep in the mix of not knowing what to do with my life after losing Derek to no fault of
But what I don't relay is the fact I came down here with the promise of a job at King Enterprises. That my escape just so happened to be the worst mistake of my life.I didn't fit in; I knew that from the day I walked inside Mr King's office for my interview.All those around me were blonde, young and idiots. Yet he gave me the job with a secret smile, and I've been there just under two years as I quickly worked my arse through the ranks, always asking why I was different. I was naive to believe I was getting myself places. That perhaps he hired me because I wasn't his type, and he actually liked that.But then he thrust this weird arrangement with his son just a few weeks back. And he orchestrated the two girls, because they sure weren't women, to come onto Sebastian just last week."Perhaps you do now, but your accent isn't from around home," he points out, turning to Sebastian, who remains silent but grinning."I was born and raised in Yorkshire, a small town that offered nothing
Sebastian"You really fucking like her," Josh chuckles whilst watching me follow the girl that's walking away without a damned look back at the table we still sit at.She's leaving before discussing sleeping particulars, and for some reason, I find that not having her here at the table only makes me want to retire to the apartment we call our own for the next few days. "Don't know what the fuck you're talking about," I lie. Knowing full well this is more emotion than I've shown in three years or more years. "Seb, this is good... it's about fucking time.""Don't. Don't fucking say it, Josh.""I will. You've been living in this perpetual state of unknown for years now.""I have a wife," I tell him. Getting a look from the couple, particularly the woman at the next table over.I realise then how that must sound, and for a moment, I hate that I've made it seem like I want the girl who just left our table when I have a wife at home. But the reality is I don't have a wife at home. I haven
CassidyI presume Sebastian and Josh had decided to share the larger of the two rooms. Which is precisely as I intended, but that means I have to leave my room to go to the communal bathroom rather than having the pleasure of having everything I need in my room.Perhaps I should have been selfish and kept the larger room for myself. The bed was at least double the size of my small double at home, and the bathroom had a walk-in rain shower and a clawfoot tub that was calling to me.I freeze almost instantly as I leave the bedroom in my nightdress with my towel, makeup bag and clothing for the day. Josh is sitting on the sofa, a mug in one hand, facing me.It feels as if he's been waiting for me to wake, but that would be a ridiculous thought and far-fetched, considering we barely know one another."Good morning," he nods to me. Sipping the coffee as I stand stupefied on the spot, not knowing how to react or what to do. "Morning," I mumble back only when I find my voice and then go to
Sebastian "You set that up, didn't you?" I ask Josh almost as soon as the doors closed, and I appraise him sitting on the sofa with that smug look of triumph on his stupid face. "I didn't prevent it," he shrugs. "Josh..." "Seb?" He asks, standing from the sofa to follow along behind me as I enter our room with anguish that I didn't make a fucking move on the pretty brunette that's been plaguing my sleep all damn night. Pretty much every night since she stormed into my office actually. "You didn't sleep a wink, and you were hard all night," he points out, looking down at my crotch, making me blush so fucking hard that it should be illegal. This isn't a conversation we should be having. "Josh, that's inappropriate..." I state, grabbing boxers to dress, hating to think that he looked at me at all in that light because, in truth, I was hard all night. I need a fucking release, yet knowing that my body, god, fate, won't allow that. Yet even now, I choose to remember all th
"Will you leave me alone if I do the above?" "I'll kneel at your feet and praise you like the god you think you are, Seb." "Fine, I'll take her out for the morning. But I don't promise to kiss and fuck her." "You'll get there, now hurry up... Charlotte is visiting me," he grins, a sly look of excitement filtering on his face as he mentions our best friend. "Oh. Oh, now I get it. You need us gone to fuck," I sigh, shaking my head as we stare at one another whilst I button my shirt from bottom to top.He looks at me unashamed and nods, his head bobbing enthusiastically. "Not gonna make baby number two if we don't," he shrugs, moving away to make the bed. I watch, enthralled, as he sweeps through the room, making it presentable. And then he breaks out fake petals that he draped over the bed and floor and into the bathroom, where he deposits a candle that he ought not to burn here in a hotel suite. "Make sure they change the bed sheets when you're done," I throw over my shoulder a
Cassidy I'm not sure why I'm acting so ungrateful when all I want to do is walk around London, see every sight it has to offer and revel in being somewhere other than my flat or work. I've lived in the UK all my life, but we have never travelled to the capital. I was born and raised on a farm, covered in shit, mucking out the animals. I lived and breathed manure, livestock, and kill pens. It wasn't until Derek's death that I decided to leave Yorkshire and my parents. I always dreamed big and wanted out of the life I was born into, yet I never dared to chase my dreams. I still lack the courage; the only reason I find myself here is the need to run when I was drowning in uncertainty. I started a new life only because I couldn't face those that I left behind. And I haven't looked back once and haven't been home since. Not even around the holidays. Sebastian walks beside me as we walk through the streets of London from the hotel. It doesn't take long to find the notorious streets