Monika Pov's
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"Ryan's ex... His fi--first love," I stuttered, looking at the lady, widening my eyes. Anika whimpers, realising our mate is still in love with someone else.
"You didn't know about Jenny?" She asked.
"I... I didn't know Ryan's ex's name was Jenny." I replied. Tears rolled from my eyes.
"Five years ago, when we met for the first time and felt the mate bond, he told me he loved someone else in his life, but I didn't know he still loved her", I mumbled in a low tone and wiped my tears.
"I thought he might have moved on from her. That's why he asked me to marry him" I said and lowered my head as I didn't want her to see tears in my eyes.
"Monika" She called me lovingly and took my hand in her hands.
"No one can replace Jenny in his life, but that doesn't mean you can't create a space for yourself in his heart," she said with a light smile. I chuckled and shook my head.
"If he hasn't forgiven her in the past five years then it's impossible that he will ever love me. Moreover, he hates me." I said, wiping my tears and taking a deep breath to calm myself.
"If he hates you, then why did he marry you, or why did you agree to marry him?" She asked.
"For our daughter" I replied shortly. She sighed and shook his head.
"I thought he finally chose to move on" " she mumbled in a low tone, then looked at me.
"I just hope his ruthless behaviour doesn't break your heart. Try not to mess with him or make him angry" She warned me.
"He gets angry by seeing my face, and she is saying don't make him angry", I thought, remembering how Ryan's eyes always look at me.
"I don't know why I felt like marrying him was going to be the worst decision we ever made. He is going to ruin our life." Anika said anxiously, increasing my fear.
"I'm sorry... I shouldn't scare you like this" That sweet lady apologized.
"You don't need to apologise for making me realise my life is not going to be easy here," I mumbled in a low tone.
"But you have me. Whenever my son does something or hurts you, then you can come to me. I will scold him and make him realise his mistake"
"Your son?" I looked at her shockingly, then bowed my head when she nodded.
"I'm sorry... I didn't introduce myself properly to you"
"You don't need to say sorry. You're like my daughter." She said and kissed my forehead lovingly.
"To be honest, I didn't expect such kind behaviour from you after seeing how everyone was ignoring and hating me. Believe me, I never want to take anyone's place here." I said.
"I know... let me take you to your room, which Ryan prepared for you" she said and walked towards the lift. I followed her.
"You don't hate me?" I asked after a few seconds of silence.
"You have many people who hate you, Monika, and believe me, it won't be easy for you to survive here. In such a condition, there must be someone who will be on your side, and I want to be that person."
"Thank you so much", I said, truly grateful to have her.
"I also want to apologise for not coming in the car you sent for me"
"I didn't send any car for you" she replied and walked out of the elevator, which stopped on the fifth floor.
"But driver said Luna mother sent a car for me," I said, following her.
"What?" she stopped in her tracks and turned to look at me shockingly.
"You reject Luna mother's offer?" She asked to confirm. I gulped nervously and nodded.
"Ohh Monika... You shouldn't have done that... Remember, never upset Luna mother or go against her. She holds an important place in Ryan's life."
"Okay. I will keep that in mind" I said.
"You better not repeat this mistake" She warned me. I nodded and made a note that Luna mother is important in Ryan's life.
"May I know who she is?" I asked when Ryan's mom stopped outside a room.
"She is Jenny's mother," She replied.
"Jenny's mother?" I asked her shockingly. Realisation hit me like a wave. She nodded and passed me a tight smile.
"That's why you all call her Luna mother... Luna means Jenny" I concluded. It would be a lie if I said it didn't hurt me. It made me feel like I came into an unwanted place.
"It's not something new... we are unwanted in everyone's life, Monika," Anika said. I nodded, agreeing with her.
"You should rest," Ryan's mom said and opened the door of my room. I nodded and was about to walk inside when she stopped me.
"Monika"
"Yeah"
"Don't remove your bridal gown until Ryan's return" She said.
"huh?"
"It's a ritual of our pack. Bride doesn't remove their gown until Groom returns to the room and gives her a dress to wear after it," She explained. I gave her a look 'Are you kidding me?' because the gown I was wearing held half the weight of mine. How am I going to wait for that monster wearing this?
"Okay?" She asked when I didn't respond.
"Okay," I replied with a forced smile. She nodded and left. I sighed in exhaustion and went inside the room, locking the door behind me.
"Now I have to wait for him to change my gown", I groaned and sat on the bed, thinking how my life had taken a devastating turn.
"The person who rejected me in the worst way after taking my virginity forced me to marry me after knowing I was pregnant with his child" I laughed at my destiny and shook my head, then looked around. There was a fresh smell of paint, indicating it was a new room, not Ryan's bedroom.
"Arghh.. How long is he going to take? Doesn't he know there is some stupid ritual this pack follows and he has to return to this room?" I yelled in frustration after waiting for more than an hour for him.
"That's it... If I can't change the gown, then at least I could go outside and find him," I thought and walked outside to search for him.
"He is near us", Anika said, smelling his alluring and mouth-watering scent. I frowned, wondering if he was near us then why he didn't come into the room. I followed Anika's instructions and finally reached the room where his voice and smell were coming. I was about to knock on the door but stopped after hearing his words.
"I didn't marry her out of love but for my daughter. I will never love a girl like her." Ryan was speaking to someone. I took a deep breath to control my tears. I knew this truth from the start, but every time he says this, it hurts me. Maybe because there is a hope that one day he will love me.
"I love you, Ryan" I scrunched my eyebrow when I heard a girl's voice.
"Who is he with on our wedding night instead of us?" Anika growled in jealousy. I couldn't hold my curiosity and peek inside the room.
"What the" I groaned and took my steps back. Tears rolled from my eyes after seeing him kissing someone else. He is with someone else on the day when he should be with me. He is making out with someone else when it should be me in her place.
I walked back towards my room, hating this miserable life more, and I knew this was the only start. I'm going to die slowly with each and every second that I will spend with him. I wrote this in my destiny. After all, the girl who got rejected by everyone could never get love from a ruthless Alpha.
Monika Pov's . I wiped the unwanted tears which fell from my eyes without my permission. I had never cried in the past five years, but seeing him with someone else brought tears to my eyes. I don't understand why that ruthless cheater matters so much to me and why I always fall for the wrong person. I took a deep breath to calm myself, not wanting to cry for him and was about to open the door of my room when a maid came near me. "Do you want something?" She asked. I scrunched my eyebrow. "No... why?" "You're opening the door of my room so I thought you might need something" She said. "Your room?" I asked and looked at the door, then her. "But Ryan's mother assigned this room to me" I muttered. "You're mistaken, Luna... She must have assigned you that room," she pointed at the nearby room. "But", I clamped up and then looked at the doors of both rooms; they looked similar. "You are new here. That's why you might have got confused", she said and shrugged her shoulders. I nodde
Monika Pov's.I moved my hand and brushed Ryan's lips with my fingers. All my confidence vanished when he held my hand and took my finger between his lips. His one action reminded me of the first time, he kissed me and sucked my lips."Ahh," I hissed in pain when he bit my middle finger."You should not play with fire; it can burn your hand", he said and shoved my hand away. I didn't say anything and tried to cross him when he held my hand and pulled me back to the place where I was standing before. He leaned towards my face."Ryan" I called him. My heart was beating at a higher speed in anticipation of his next move."Next time, if you touch me without my permission, then you can't even imagine what I will do to you. This marriage is only for our daughter, not to fulfil your desires. So there is no need to act like a""who*e?" I asked, completing his sentence. He shook his head."Wife... There is no need to act like my wife." He said. I turned my head in another direction as his clo
Monika Pov's .I didn't reply to Ryan and bowed my head, unable to understand what I should say to him. Obviously, I can't say that I want him to check me out or get affected by me... Or..."touch me" Anika completed. I bite my lower lip and close my thighs, feeling a different sensation. I don't understand why he affects me like this..."Look at me when I'm talking" Ryan said and held my chin to make me look at his face. "Don't bite your lips" he grunted. I closed my eyes and cursed myself for acting like a stupid."You didn't answer me," He whispered."Oh God .. why does he need to sound so sexy?" I thought and opened my eyes."I wasn't imagining anything", I replied, but I doubt he heard me. He just nodded his head, looking at my lips instead of my face. "Is he also getting affected by our closeness?" Anika asked me as if I knew everything about Ryan. I gulped when his eyes moved down from my lips to my cleavage. "Ryan" He shook his head before I would've said anything."Don't
Monika Pov's .I was looking at Ryan, widening my eyes. "Why?" I grunted. He smirked and then pointed towards a dress kept on a couch."Get ready... Mother wants to meet you" Ryan said in a stern tone."You could have just shook my body or called my name to wake me up... What was the need to throw water?" I shouted and looked at the clock on the wall. I hardly slept for a few hours, and he woke me up in the worst manner. "Whatever... Get ready. I don't want to make Mother wait for you," he said."Fine" I removed the blanket and hopped out of bed."F*ck" he cursed under his breath."Now what I did" I asked, getting annoyed with his jerk behaviour. I scrunched my eyebrow when he didn't reply and kept looking at me. "He lost his mind", I thought and shrugged my shoulders, then picked the dress from the couch and went to the bathroom to take a bath and change. My eyes shot up when they went into the mirror."Ahh" I screamed, seeing my na*ed body. Now I get why Ryan was looking at me.
Monika Pov's .Ryan stood in front of me, glaring at my soul. I gulped and forced a smile on my face, pretending that I was not afraid of him."She is looking mesmerising" I heard another warrior complimenting me who was standing behind the warrior who complimented me before. Ryan clenched his jaw and held my arm."Didn't I tell you to change?" He hissed. I look at his hand then him."I'm not your slave... It's my body and my choice to wear anything I want" I snarled, trying to release my arm from his grip. My arm started hurting because of his tight hold."ohh, girl! You don't know how dangerous it is to mess up with me" he grinned and moved closer to me. I gulped and tried to take a step away from him, but it was like he already knew what would be my next step. He kept his hand on my waist, restraining me."She is your Alpha's mate, and you should keep this in mind before passing any compliment", he grunted, looking into my eyes, then turned to look at the warriors who complimented
Monika Pov's .Ryan held my chin and made me look at him. There was a mild smile on his lips which was like a warning."I asked you something" I gulped and shook my head before nodding."Huh?" I opened my mouth to tell the truth when Ryan's beta, Patrick, came towards us."What are you doing?" Patrick asked, seeing Ryan close to me as if I was not Ryan's mate but his side chick. Ryan rolled his eyes and parted away from me."Why do you think I'm answerable to you?" Ryan asked with a tight-lipped smile. Patrick glared at me before bowing his head."Luna's mother is calling you into her room for a talk before having lunch," he said. Ryan nodded and looked at my side. Before he could say something, Patrick interrupted him."She is calling you alone," Patrick grunted."I know," Ryan growled back, silencing him. Anika was having a hard time controlling herself here. I shook my head as everyone here was insulting an Alpha wolf without thinking of the consequences."Sorry Alpha" Patrick b
Author Pov's . Five Years Ago . "Tell me Red or blue?" Monika asked his best friend, Gabriel, while showing him two dresses. He chuckled and pointed at the red dress. "This one" "But Aaron's favourite colour is red... I will wear a red one," she pouted, looking at the red dress and then looking at Gabriel when he didn't respond. She frowned, noticing how anxious he was looking. "What happened?" She asked Gabriel who raised his head and looked at her. "Do you still love him?" He asked. "Still? I never stopped loving him, Gabriel... I love Aaron since I don't even know the meaning of love. He is my everything... I start my day with his thoughts and sleep after seeing his photo." She muttered with a mild smile and sat in front of Gabriel on a chair. "Aaron left this pack, but I didn't stop loving him. Yes, I tried to move on when I heard he found his fated mate but I failed. The moment I got to know Aaron rejected his mate, I again went crazy in his love." "You took care of h
Author Pov's .Flashback continues.Monika was looking at Aaron with teary eyes when Gabriel rushed towards her."Monika" He held her by the shoulder and helped her to get up."Aaron, she is Monika... I don't know if you remember or not but she is the one who took care of you when you were drowning in pain because of your mate." He said and then sighed when Aaron didn't say a word."I'm thinking of choosing her as my chosen mate", Gabriel announced, shocking everyone, including Monika. She looked at him, widening her eyes, and then a smile appeared on her face, knowing he did this only to save her from the hatred of pack members as she raised her voice against their Alpha and Luna. Also, Gabriel wanted to cool the environment."Why didn't you tell me, Aaron is coming with his mate?" Monika asked Gabriel through mindlink."I didn't want to hurt your feelings,""As if I'm happy right now" She scoffed and shook her head."She is the girl who loves your Alpha with everything, and soon s
Ryan Pov's.I smiled loving how freely Monika was laughing. It made my heart flutter. If possible, then I want this smile never to leave her face.I don't know why things went sour between us in the past or say I don't want to think about those memories again. I just want her to be happy."And for that, you have to give up on your plan of snatching her daughter from her," Wild scowled."You're still hanging over that topic. I dropped that plan last night, realising how horrible I'm turning day by day. Thankfully, her tears and care for me stopped me on time; otherwise, I wouldn't be able to look at myself in the mirror," I replied, looking at Monika, who started blushing after catching me staring at me. She turned towards me and raised her eyebrow as if asking me, 'why am I staring at her?' then bowed her head shyly."I'm amazed you look gorgeous at the age of thirty-five," I said, teasing her."Thank" She clamped up and then narrowed her eyes at me. "Were you admiring me or making f
Monika Pov's .My heartbeat rose when Ryan stood up and walked towards me. It would be a lie if I said his actions and expressionless face aren't scary. I don't want to have another fight with him."Ryan", I called him, but he shushed me."Stay quiet" I narrowed my eyes when he ordered me. I was about to say something to piss him off for ordering me like this, but his next step left me dumbstruck."Ryan," I gasped when he kneeled in front of me and held his ear. I looked at everyone present there; they all were shocked, just like me."I made you apologise because Welda is our elder, and I don't like it when someone talks back to her, and Gloria is like my younger sister whom I want to protect with everything. I didn't like how you behaved and called her," he muttered. I tightened my lips and nodded."I can understand, and that's why I apologised, and I would've done it even when you wouldn't have asked me to do it. It's just" I stopped and looked at Ryan, unsure whether I should shar
Author Pov's .Ryan raised his eyebrow at my action but didn't say anything in front of me. The girl sitting beside him passed me a smile."Hello, Monika," She greeted me, but I ignored her and took the toast in my plate and butter, then looked around for a knife to butter my toast."Here" that girl passed me the knife. My eyes went to Ryan, who gestured for me to take the knife. I rolled my eyes and snatched the knife from that girl's hand, startling her."Wow... Someone woke up on the wrong side of the bed," she muttered."At least I didn't wake up with someone else's husband," I scoffed, not able to hold myself anymore. I was fuming in anger after seeing her flirting with my man, Ryan, who was hearing our conversation. He started coughing while that girl was looking at me, widening my eyes."Ryan... Didn't you teach your wife how to behave?" Welda asked, gritting her teeth. "Monika," Ryan called me and glared at me. I ignored him and looked at Welda's side."Why are you saying an
Monika Pov's .(Back To Present).I was lying on my bed and biting my nails anxiously while thinking about Ryan and that girl who asked him to come into her bedroom. "I can't believe the guts of that girl... She flirts with Ryan in front of me." I groaned and then whined like a baby."More than her, I'm mad at myself. Why didn't I give her a good reply that time? I should've hit her on the face so that she would think a thousand times before roaming around my man," I muttered to Anika and then smirked, imagining hitting that girl."Anika" I called her when she didn't respond to me. She was awfully silent for the past hour. "Hmm," she hummed in response then yawned."What happened? You're silent for so long?" "Don't get me but please don't get too attached to Ryan," Anika mumbled."Why? What happened?" I asked surprisingly as this is the first time she is doubting Ryan and saying something like this about him."After how he broke our hearts so many times, I don't trust him anymore
Author Pov's . Monika was standing outside the house of her parents, battling with herself whether she should go inside or not. When Monika was fifteen, she left her father's pack and shifted to Aaron's father's pack to live with Aaron. She loved Aaron since she was five, unaware that her future held something disastrous for her. "No... I shouldn't go inside... I can't face them," she thought and turned to go. That's when her mother came outside and hugged her from behind, surprising Monika. "Mom" Tears welled up in Monika's eyes. She turned towards her mother and hugged her. "My doll" Her mother called her lovingly and caressed her hair. Aaron informed Monika's parents about everything that happened with Monika in the pack so that they wouldn't question her much but understand her. Monika broke the hug when her eyes went to her father. "Didn't I tell you that you can come here whenever you want?" He asked. Monika broke down into tears and ran towards her father to hug him. Tear
Author Pov's.Aana broke the hug and looked at Monika shockingly, not expecting her to accept the rejection when she and Anika both were in pain."I don't want any men in my life. Especially the one who doesn't even care for once before rejecting me" Monika snarled, answering Aana's unasked question. Aana sighed, knowing Monika was not wrong; anyone at her place would have done the same."Aah" Monika screamed in pain and lay down on the bed. Aana stayed beside her and held Monika's hand while caressing her hair with her other hand. She was there for Monika."Aana... our princess woke, and she needs you," Aaron mindlinked her. She looked at Monika who was still crying."Send her with Marry to Monika's room," Aana replied."You're with Monika?" he asked surprisingly."Yeah… Ryan rejected her," She muttered and looked at Monika with teary eyes. Monika was looking miserable. If anyone saw Monika then he or she would end up crying for her."Fuck.. Now, only this thing was left to make the
Author Pov's .Ryan was walking towards Aaron's mansion where he was staying. He chose to walk over running to calm himself. "I, Ryan Anderson, Alpha of Wild Pack, reject Monika Wilson as my fated mate" He rejected Monika and stopped when he felt Wild whimpering and yelling in pain. It took him time to stabilise and get hold of himself. After some time, he again continued his journey, ignoring Wild, knowing it would take him time to get over the pain of losing Monika.After reaching the mansion, he went directly to his room and started packing his stuff into a bag which he purchased in Aaron's pack after knowing he had to stay here. He packed all his stuff and came outside of his room to the hall. That's when he bumped into Aana, who was looking anxious."Please tell me you didn't reject Monika," Aana asked, feeling anxious, knowing Ryan is the only one who can heal the wounds of Monika given by Gabriel and others. Ryan frowned upon hearing her question."Why are you silent? Please
Author Pov's . "I'm done with everyone, Ryan, so it's better if you drop your drama of being sweet to me", Monika said and walked outside the lake after taking a bath. "Don't", she grumbled when she noticed Ryan was about to turn to answer her. "I don't fake, Monika. I do care for you" he said and cursed himself for being so stupid. He was about to turn and see her na*ed. "Stop it, Ryan... stop playing with my heart" she yelled in frustration. Ryan turned towards her shockingly, not expecting her to put an allegation on him. "Why? Why are you showing care when you clearly want to reject me? Stop pitying me." She shouted, remembering Gabriel's words. She thinks Ryan is also feeling bad for her like Gabriel was feeling before. "I don't pity you," he said, and tried to hold her hand, but she shoved his hand away. There was fear in her heart that Ryan would give her a shoulder to cry like Gabriel did and then reject her in the end. "Then why are you with me?" She asked. "I" he st
Author Pov's.Ryan took control from Wild and looked at Anika who was sleeping in his arms. Tears of guilt rolled from Ryan's eyes. He felt like he took advantage of her condition despite it being Anika who forced him. More than that he was feeling like he betrayed his Jenny. He wasn't prepared for this.Ryan made Anika lie down on the ground gently, making sure not to wake her up, unaware that Monika was awake. Just when he was about to stand up, Monika took control from Anika and opened her eyes, startling Ryan."I didn't know you were so excited to leave that you wouldn't even wait for me or Anika to wake up," she muttered and sat straight, then crawled in a ball, feeling uncomfortable. Ryan looked around and found her coat at a distance. He picked it up and then made her wear it from behind. Monika was feeling numb, unable to understand how to react or what to say and Ryan was feeling guilty and frustrated because of the situation in which they were."I wasn't leaving but wanted