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37: Hot Daydream

Author: Marywan
last update Last Updated: 2024-11-12 02:03:26

E L L E

I slammed the door behind me and headed straight for the kitchen. My mouth was parched and I needed a drink. I reached for the bottle of whiskey, poured myself a glass and downed it all in one gulp.

My eyes began watering, and before I could control myself, I was crying. I cried so hard, my whole body was shaking. The pain was unbearable, and I couldn't stop.

I felt sick, like my entire world was collapsing around me.

Why was this happening to me? Why did he have to come back and ruin my life again?

"Because, he's a fucking idiot," I said to myself, wiping the tears from my cheeks. "He's an idiot, and he doesn't deserve my tears!"

I was angry. Angry at myself for being so weak. Angry at him for believing his wife's lies. Angry at the whole world for being against me.

"I hate him! I hate him so much!"

I picked up the glass and threw it across the room, watching it shatter into pieces.

"Fuck!" I screamed, grabbing a fistful of my hair. "Fucking asshole!"

My chest was heaving,
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