Emily walks past Luther and comes to stand in front of me. I on the other hand can't take my eyes away from Luther and his persistent glare.
"Hi", she says. "Welcome" I finally pull away from Luther's gaze to face her. "What is he doing here?", I ask, aiming for a whisper, but end up talking loud enough for Luther's ears. "About that. I forgot to mention that he's the one you'd be working for" "What?", Luther and I exclaim at the same time. "You can't be fucking serious. Her?", Luther queries, looking disgusted. "What is that supposed to mean?", l ask, affronted. I don't want to work for him either but he's looking at me like a stain beneath his shoe. "Emily, this isn't what you told me", he says to Emily, pointedly ignoring me and my question. "No, what I told you was that I had someone that would be great for the job you wanted. Here she is" "No", he says simply, walking away without a second glance. I immediately turn to Emily. "Em-", I start but she cuts me off. "Listen, I'm sorry for not telling you. I just didn't think it was necessary, and I didn't want to deter you from the job, I know how much you need it".She's using this against me, knowing how much I need money. "It would have been nice to get some warning at least. And besides, whats the use? He doesn't even want me" "Let me talk to him. Just stay here and don't worry about anything okay?" I nod reluctantly, torn between taking the job and risking my pride or simply walking away. Again, walking away isn't an option, not if I want Keila to be healthy again. She begins walking away, but stops halfway. "Another thing. One of the requirements for the job is not having a child. It's the only thing he could use against you so it's best if you don't mention Keila okay?" Again, she doesn't wait for my reply before she walks way. Lying to my boss on the very first day of the job. What a great way to start this work relationship. The butler, Salud comes out again and ushers me to a sitting area where I'm served some refreshments while I wait to hear that I should leave because Luther thinks I'm way too beneath him to work for him. Salud comes back in a few minutes. "Mr Chapman would like to see you in his office now ma'am" "Okay, lead the way", I say, fully prepared to deal with anything Luther has to say to me. We get to a long, dark and quiet hallway that has a huge door at the end. There are voices sipping out from under the door, and the closer we get, the clearer the voices become. "Emily. I don't want this" "No you don't, but you need it. I just know that she's right for this, trust me" Their conversation abruptly stops when Salud pushes open the door. I wonder if they suspect that I heard the tail end of it. Emily plasters on her warm smile as she sees me walk in. Luther goes for the glare. I ignore him. "You have the job", Emily says, thoroughly surprising me. Up until a minute ago, I was sure I was not going to be getting this job so obviously the news makes me happy. Of course Luther finds a way to ruin it when he opens his mouth. "Not yet, I still have to interview her", he says, his colorful glare still trained on my face. Emily rolls her eyes and touches my arm. "Don't worry, it's just a formality. The job is already yours", she assures me. "We'll see about that", Luther says, settling back down behind his desk. He gestures to the seat in front of him and I sit down while Emily stands beside her cousin. "Any past experiences as a caretaker?" "Uh, no. Except if you consider the time I took care of my grandmother" He eyes me and I can almost hear the 'are you serious’ as loud as if he'd spoken it. He doesn't say anything though, just turns to look at Emily and then back to me. "Criminal record?" "Jesus", Emily exclaims, groaning. "None", I answer and he nods. "Husband?" "No" "Other jobs?" "No" "What happened to your last job?" "Got fired" "Why?" "They were assholes", l answer plainly and he stops, staring at me, letting me know that he’s waiting for me to elaborate. "My boss fired me to make space for her niece. Nepotism if you ask me", I say, feeling the residual anger from being fired. Luther exhales, continuing with his questions. "Any kids?". This particular question makes me freeze, knowing I have to lie. "Uhm, no", I answer clearing my throat. I don't know if he noticed my hesitation, if he did, he ignores it, moving on. "Do you have any commitments that might eat into your time at this job?" Yes, there's Keila, but I can’t tell him that since I just told him I don't have a kid. I'll just have to work around it while trying to spend time with Keila as well. "No. I don't have any commitments". He nods, satisfied with my answer. "One last thing. Your CV", he says and its quiet for a few minutes until Emily, who looks like she’s been holding herself back from butting in finally speaks. "Aren't you just a ray of sunshine". She slightly bends over the desk. "You're hired", she says to me. "Emily. I can't hire her without her CV", Luther argues, which honestly doesn't faze Emily. "Yeah right", she says dismissively. "Come on, I'll give you a tour" She pulls me up from the chair towards the door. Luther looks angry, but he always does, so I can't exactly tell if he's actually angry this time. I shrug apologetically at him as Emily continues to pull me away, slamming the door shut behind us.Yesterday, after getting the job with Luther, I had a long talk with Louis and Katie. I needed all the help I can get with taking care of Keila. My job contract states that I'm going to be a live-in caretaker, which means I have even less time with my daughter.I have only little leisure, grocery shopping every Tuesday, and then time off on weekends, I plan to utilize my weekends properly. Keila would be staying at the hospital for care and supervision for the next few months. Katie and Louis would visit her alternatively. It is a great way to allow them both time for other things, and also because Katie hates Louis guts.I already explained to Keila that I have to work to earn money for her stay at the hospital and that she would be seeing me a little less. She didn't like it, but she understood. She knows we've always been short on money and knows how much I have to work to take care of both of us. I hated making her sad but it was necessary.I start work today, and I hope to talk t
They’re lying, they have to be."Doctor, you have to check again. We need more time""We've been managing her condition since her birth, it's time to provide her a proper treatment and that has to be done as soon as possible", the doctor, Hawkins speaks, but I can't really hear him over the frantic pounding of my heart. He continues his speech but I can't hear anything. He must notice how lost I am because he calls out to me."Audrey? Are you listening to anything I'm saying?"I shake my head, trying to push away my spiraling thoughts."Yeah", my voice comes out scratchy. I clear my throat. "Yeah. I heard you. Can I see her?"He stares at me, pity evident on his face. He's been responsible for my daughter since she was a little baby with the kidney condition. He knows what a struggle it's been taking care of my self, Keila and all the medical bills, he knows how many jobs I've had to juggle just be able to afford the kind of care Keila needs to survive"Yes, you can see her. She shoul
I spend the night by Keila's side. She doesn't wake again, weakness taking its toll on her. My daughter has never truly been energetic, she hasn't had the chance since she was always sick, but she's a bright kid at heart and I know that if she wasn't always weighed down by her condition, she'd be a big ball of energy. I want that for her someday, I want to be able to see my baby play like other kids her age. I wantthat occasional sadness and yearning I sometimes see in her eyes to leave. I want a normal life for her . Which is why before dawn the next day, I wake, kiss her cheek and leave the hospital to search for jobs. I lost my last job a few weeks ago, they fired me because I wasn't always available which is bull because I dedicated all my time to that work. The actual reason I was fired was to clear a spot for the owners niece. Nepotism at it's finest. It's why I haven't been able to afford any bills at all. Not like the job paid anything reasonable, but it was better than nothi
When I get to Keila's room, I find about three nurses already fluttering around inside. they've got my view obstructed so I can't see Keila. But I hear herwhimpering."Whats going on?", I ask and one of the nurses turns to me"Oh good, you're here", she says, stepping out of my view of Keila who immediately notices me and stretches her hands towards me."Mommy, I missed you", she whines and I see that her cheeks are tear streaked, her eyes are wet with tears and her monitors are going haywire."Hey baby", I say, hugging her. She clamps her arms around me with a strength no five year old should be able to muster."Where were you? You weren't here when I woke""Yeah, I'm so sorry baby, I'm so sorry". I hug her tightly, scared of letting go. I cry with her, guilt and shame taking turns to overturn my heart. I can't believe I left her."You were sleeping so soundly honey, I didn't wanna wake you""Maybe say goodbye next time? Or at least warn her of your absence. She's been upset since s
Yesterday was a lesson and I don't plan to make the mistake of leaving the hospital again today without saying bye to Keila. Sure, it makes me stay till after dawn so I don't have to wake her from sleep. It definitely eats into my free time today but I don't plan to waste any chance I have to be with my daughter."Hey mommy", she greets the moment she wakes from her sleep. I was worried she'd sleep in till noon since she was stressed out yesterday."Hey sweetie. How do you feel?""Kinda tired, but better since you're here", she says, giving me the cheesiest smile ever."You little cornball", I tease, tickling her as much as is considered safe. That earns me some of her adorable giggles."Keila?" "Yeah?""Mommy has to go out today. Been waiting for you to wake up so I can say bye. I didn't want to leave like yesterday""Oh, okay", she agrees, even as her expression gets gloomy."I love you okay? Promise me you wont give the nurses a hard time""Okay, 'll try not to", she says, a mischi
I'm tempted to run in the opposite direction if it wouldn't be so obvious. Emily stops right In front of me."Hey", she greets and I nod in response."Hi. What are you doing here?". Her cousins walks away just as I finish my question.Emily sighs, smiling apologetically. I smile back, hating that she always has to apologize on his behalf when he's the obnoxious prick he's always been."I had to sort out a few things here. How are you?""Great. How have you been you know, coping?""I mean, how else do you cope when you lose a person?", she asks with a sad smile."I'm sorry", I reply shamefully."It's fine. I'm done with my business here. Do you want to go for a walk? You look like you need it" I nod, because she's right, I do need it.For the next hour, Emily and I walk around the hospital premises. Not too far, so l can still get to Keila in time. We talk about her, her son before he died and her life after she lost him. She tells me how it's been difficult accepting that his death wa