I'm tempted to run in the opposite direction if it wouldn't be so obvious. Emily stops right In front of me.
"Hey", she greets and I nod in response. "Hi. What are you doing here?". Her cousins walks away just as I finish my question. Emily sighs, smiling apologetically. I smile back, hating that she always has to apologize on his behalf when he's the obnoxious prick he's always been. "I had to sort out a few things here. How are you?" "Great. How have you been you know, coping?" "I mean, how else do you cope when you lose a person?", she asks with a sad smile. "I'm sorry", I reply shamefully. "It's fine. I'm done with my business here. Do you want to go for a walk? You look like you need it" I nod, because she's right, I do need it. For the next hour, Emily and I walk around the hospital premises. Not too far, so l can still get to Keila in time. We talk about her, her son before he died and her life after she lost him. She tells me how it's been difficult accepting that his death wasn't her fault and the mortality rate for his condition was very high. His chances of surviving was low from the very beginning. She asks me why l'm at the hospital and I tell her about Keila. I guess l've been looking for someone to talk to because I find it difficult to stop as I start talking about Keila, the bills, the job, and the time I certainly do not have to gather enough resources to save my daughter. "Audrey, that's a lot. What do you plan to do?" "Sell my organs", I reply seriously. Emily stops short, shocked at how serious I am. I already made up my mind though, so she cant change my mind. "That's not necessary. You don't have to go that far" "It's my daughter’s life so yes, I do have to go that far if I want to save her" Emily shakes her head frantically, handing me a card. "I watched my son die because I couldn't do anything to save him. We had money but money was never truly going to stop his death. I can’t sit back and have peace knowing that I could try to stop another mother from experiencing the pain of losing their child" I look at the card and back up at her. "Emily, what's the card for?", I ask curiously. She takes my free hand in hers. "That's my card. There's a job opening for a caretaker. Think about it and call me whenever you're ready" "What?..l", I want to tell her I cant take this but then I think about how I cant let n pride get in the way, not if there's even remotely a chance that I can save my daughter. "Thankyou", I say instead, with tears in my eyes. "Thankyou so much for this. It means a lot to me" "It's fine. It's the least I can do. Just promise me you'd think about it? The pay is really good. It might not cover all the bills but it'd go a long way" I smile gratefully at her, promising to think about the job. *************************** When I get home the next day, I find Louis seated on the sofa. "Hey baby", he greets with a sweet smile. "Hey", I greet back. "Didn't know you'd be home today" "Yeah. I dropped by the hospital earlier. Went to see Keila. Was surpised you weren't there" "Uhm, yeah". I hang my bag and drop my keys, then I go him. "I left the hospital. Katie and I spent some time with Keila before we went out for a bit" I sit beside him on the sofa. His arm immediately going around my waist as I lean into him. He kisses my hair. "Yeah? How'd it go?" "Well, we did some catching up. Talked a bit about Keila. And then she told me about a job opening at a bank her colleague told her about" "Are you going to take it?", he asks. "I'm thinking about it" "Well, it would be really nice if you take it. Keila needs all the help she can get at this moment" "Yeah", I reply quietly, lost in my thoughts. He's right, Keila needs all the help she can get. Now I have two opportunities to help my daughter. I can't take both jobs at once, since both are full time commitments but I can take the one that can provide the money quicker. I may not like the idea of getting help from a stranger over my best friend, but if it's for my daughter, I would do anything. "Yeah, you're right. Thank you', I say as I turn to kiss Louis. Later that evening, I call Emily to inform her of my decision. She seems relieved to hear I'm taking the job and she immediately gives me the address to come to the next day. I ask her if I need any special requirements or even my CV and she says | shouldn't worry about it. I'm worried but I don't let it bother me for long as I make plans to leave early the next day for my appointment. ******* I look at the address Emily gave me again for the fifth time, trying to make sure I'm at the right place. I am, but I still doubt it. The house, no, the mansion in front of me looks like a palace and as much as Emily looks like she comes from money, I don't think I'm at the right place. The palace in front of me is a living dream. I call Emily. "Hey Audrey. Are you here yet?" "Uhm, yeah, but I don't know if I'm at the right place. The mansio- uh, building looks kinda..." She laughs lightly. "I guess you're in the right place after all. I'll send someone down to come bring you in. Hold on". She cuts the call before I get a chance to ask any further questions. I'm about to call her back when the gate automatically opens and I stumble backwards, surprised. There's a man that looks strangely like a butler waiting for me a few steps away. Do people still use butlers? He walks up to me and meets me halfway. Upon closer inspection, I realize that he is in fact a butler. "Good day ma'am. I'm Salud. Allow me to lead you in" "Oh, thank you I guess", I answer, following him in. I take in the scenery, marveled by such exquisite grandeur. He opens the heavy oak doors that lead to the main building and I discover that it looks even grander inside. I'm awestruck as he leads me deeper in, taking in every carefully carved detail. "Wait here please", he says, walking away. I don't stop him, too lost in the paintings on the ceiling to take any note of anything else. I don't know how much time passes, but I hear a voice that vaguely sounds like Emily’s. It takes a lot of effort to pull myself out of my admiration enough to face her. She's smiling warmly at me, even if it looks like she's been trying to catch my attention for a while. That's not what makes my heart freeze though, it's the intimidating sight of Luther a few steps away from her, glaring at me. Shit.Emily walks past Luther and comes to stand in front of me. I on the other hand can't take my eyes away from Luther and his persistent glare."Hi", she says. "Welcome"I finally pull away from Luther's gaze to face her."What is he doing here?", I ask, aiming for a whisper, but end up talking loud enough for Luther's ears."About that. I forgot to mention that he's the one you'd be working for""What?", Luther and I exclaim at the same time."You can't be fucking serious. Her?", Luther queries, looking disgusted."What is that supposed to mean?", l ask, affronted. I don't want to work for him either but he's looking at me like a stain beneath his shoe."Emily, this isn't what you told me", he says to Emily, pointedly ignoring me and my question."No, what I told you was that I had someone that would be great for the job you wanted. Here she is""No", he says simply, walking away without a second glance. I immediately turn to Emily."Em-", I start but she cuts me off."Listen, I'm sorry
Yesterday, after getting the job with Luther, I had a long talk with Louis and Katie. I needed all the help I can get with taking care of Keila. My job contract states that I'm going to be a live-in caretaker, which means I have even less time with my daughter.I have only little leisure, grocery shopping every Tuesday, and then time off on weekends, I plan to utilize my weekends properly. Keila would be staying at the hospital for care and supervision for the next few months. Katie and Louis would visit her alternatively. It is a great way to allow them both time for other things, and also because Katie hates Louis guts.I already explained to Keila that I have to work to earn money for her stay at the hospital and that she would be seeing me a little less. She didn't like it, but she understood. She knows we've always been short on money and knows how much I have to work to take care of both of us. I hated making her sad but it was necessary.I start work today, and I hope to talk t
They’re lying, they have to be."Doctor, you have to check again. We need more time""We've been managing her condition since her birth, it's time to provide her a proper treatment and that has to be done as soon as possible", the doctor, Hawkins speaks, but I can't really hear him over the frantic pounding of my heart. He continues his speech but I can't hear anything. He must notice how lost I am because he calls out to me."Audrey? Are you listening to anything I'm saying?"I shake my head, trying to push away my spiraling thoughts."Yeah", my voice comes out scratchy. I clear my throat. "Yeah. I heard you. Can I see her?"He stares at me, pity evident on his face. He's been responsible for my daughter since she was a little baby with the kidney condition. He knows what a struggle it's been taking care of my self, Keila and all the medical bills, he knows how many jobs I've had to juggle just be able to afford the kind of care Keila needs to survive"Yes, you can see her. She shoul
I spend the night by Keila's side. She doesn't wake again, weakness taking its toll on her. My daughter has never truly been energetic, she hasn't had the chance since she was always sick, but she's a bright kid at heart and I know that if she wasn't always weighed down by her condition, she'd be a big ball of energy. I want that for her someday, I want to be able to see my baby play like other kids her age. I wantthat occasional sadness and yearning I sometimes see in her eyes to leave. I want a normal life for her . Which is why before dawn the next day, I wake, kiss her cheek and leave the hospital to search for jobs. I lost my last job a few weeks ago, they fired me because I wasn't always available which is bull because I dedicated all my time to that work. The actual reason I was fired was to clear a spot for the owners niece. Nepotism at it's finest. It's why I haven't been able to afford any bills at all. Not like the job paid anything reasonable, but it was better than nothi
When I get to Keila's room, I find about three nurses already fluttering around inside. they've got my view obstructed so I can't see Keila. But I hear herwhimpering."Whats going on?", I ask and one of the nurses turns to me"Oh good, you're here", she says, stepping out of my view of Keila who immediately notices me and stretches her hands towards me."Mommy, I missed you", she whines and I see that her cheeks are tear streaked, her eyes are wet with tears and her monitors are going haywire."Hey baby", I say, hugging her. She clamps her arms around me with a strength no five year old should be able to muster."Where were you? You weren't here when I woke""Yeah, I'm so sorry baby, I'm so sorry". I hug her tightly, scared of letting go. I cry with her, guilt and shame taking turns to overturn my heart. I can't believe I left her."You were sleeping so soundly honey, I didn't wanna wake you""Maybe say goodbye next time? Or at least warn her of your absence. She's been upset since s
Yesterday was a lesson and I don't plan to make the mistake of leaving the hospital again today without saying bye to Keila. Sure, it makes me stay till after dawn so I don't have to wake her from sleep. It definitely eats into my free time today but I don't plan to waste any chance I have to be with my daughter."Hey mommy", she greets the moment she wakes from her sleep. I was worried she'd sleep in till noon since she was stressed out yesterday."Hey sweetie. How do you feel?""Kinda tired, but better since you're here", she says, giving me the cheesiest smile ever."You little cornball", I tease, tickling her as much as is considered safe. That earns me some of her adorable giggles."Keila?" "Yeah?""Mommy has to go out today. Been waiting for you to wake up so I can say bye. I didn't want to leave like yesterday""Oh, okay", she agrees, even as her expression gets gloomy."I love you okay? Promise me you wont give the nurses a hard time""Okay, 'll try not to", she says, a mischi