Chapter 4: Divorce

Killian’s POV

Divorce? I couldn’t understand.

I sighed and raked my hair in frustration when I caught my mind drifting off again instead of focusing on the paperwork that I had to finalize for the day.

My mind kept on going back to Astrid’s words. I couldn’t believe how she easily asked me for divorce.

Astrid has always been responsible and obedient as a Luna and as my right-hand man or commander in the military.

I couldn’t believe that she would easily file for divorce knowing that divorcing me would mean she would have to give up her Luna title and it would also make things awkward between us.

I leaned on my chair and shut my eyes as I felt my headache coming. She must be talking purely out of her emotions. Once she had calmed down and saw the whole situation with a clear head, she would realize that the divorce would be too much.

I was just late for her grandmother’s funeral and I have a reasonable excuse for that. If I really didn’t care, I wouldn’t have shifted to my wolf and raced to that place even though I knew I was already late.

For the part when I stopped her from being with her grandmother before she died, that wasn’t intentional.

I had no idea that she was actually telling the truth at that time. I thought she was making excuses. I really had no idea.

If she didn’t push Giselle off the stairs, she wouldn’t miss her chance to be with her grandmother.

What would she expect me to do after she tried to kill Giselle and endanger the life of my unborn child?

Again, this is entirely not my fault.

I agree that I have been busy lately and have neglected Astrid’s feelings, but it’s not an appropriate reason to suddenly decide on a divorce.

I jolted when someone suddenly entered my room without knocking, I thought it was Astrid, but it turned out as no other than my Beta.

I forgot Astrid is required to knock before entering, but Beta Ryder could enter my office whenever he wants.

“Are the papers signed already?” Beta Ryder asked me as he strolled loftily inside my office.

I glanced down at the papers that my mind had barely absorbed. Before I could give my answer, Beta Ryder spoke up.

“You’ve been out of yourself ever since Luna Astrid left. What happened between you two?” Beta Ryder asked curiously.

It’s been three days since Astrid had left, surprisingly he is only asking that question now.

“Astrid is filing for divorce,” I answered him straightforwardly.

His eyebrows shot up when he heard my answer. “Are you serious?” He asked me in disbelief.

“Do I look like I’m joking?” I glared at him.

His brows furrowed as he thought carefully. “Is this a good thing or a bad thing?”

My eyes narrowed at him upon hearing his question, but I couldn’t blame him for asking such a question.

Although Astrid and I were married for four years, we had never been intimate with each other. I have never even treated Astrid as my own mate, but when Giselle came back I already made her pregnant.

It is common for Beta Ryder to think this way.

“Of course, it is a bad thing,” I answered him. “She is our Pack Luna, we cannot lose her.”

When I met Astrid, I thought she was just a weak werewolf who wouldn’t be able to handle the role of a Luna.

Of all the powerful women I could be mated to like Giselle, I ended up with Astrid who is born omega.

I hated her because she was weak and didn’t match up to me. I hated her more because she manipulated my father and separated me from Giselle.

Eventually though when I saw what she was capable of, I finally learned to hate her less only because of the contributions she had to the Pack.

She is still a useful Luna to this Pack even though she is born omega.

“How about Giselle then?” He asked me as he plopped on my couch making himself comfortable like he was at home. “She’s still pregnant with your child and for sure she would also love to be the Pack’s Luna.”

“Giselle can’t be our Luna,” I replied.

If Giselle becomes the Luna, I’m sure she won’t be half as good as Astrid. Besides, our pack cannot afford to let go of a talent like Astrid.

All of this started because I got Giselle pregnant. If I hadn’t impregnated her, then maybe Astrid wouldn’t even have thought of divorce.

I will also have more reasons to make Astrid stay in our Pack.

What happened between me and Giselle was an accident. I was drunk. I don’t even remember how it happened on the night that Giselle came back.

I hated myself for being unable to control myself. The next thing I knew, Giselle was already pregnant. I couldn’t go back in time even if I wanted to, and I had to be responsible for my actions whether it was intentional or not.

In the end, the baby is innocent and it is still mine. It is my responsibility to take care of Giselle and my child.

“I will take care of her and our child since it’s my duty and the Pack needs an heir, but Astrid is the rightful Luna. I’m not divorcing her,” I added firmly after making a decision.

“Then since you have already figured that out, why don’t you just go and tell her that?” He suggested as if it was that easy.

“Astrid is still angry. She would only hate me more if she saw me and heard me say anything more.”

My downcast expression brightened up a bit after I thought of something.

“Trust me, once Astrid has calmed down, she would realize that the divorce is something she wouldn’t want. Astrid wouldn’t like to leave the Pack and turn into a rogue, does she? Who in their right mind would want that?” All my fears were washed away as I had that thought.

“What are you planning to do now?” Beta Ryder asks me, putting me deep in thought

“Buy me some flowers, lilies to be exact,” I ordered him.

“What?” Beta Ryder’s brows furrowed at my unexpected response.

“I shouldn’t just wait for Astrid to calm down, I should try to ease her anger too,” I replied.

Since my problem would be solved once Astrid had calmed down, it would be better if I did something to ease her anger. In that way, I would also be able to win her heart too.

Hearing my reason behind it, Beta Ryder did not ask more questions and left to get the flowers that I asked for.

What is a better gift you can use to win a woman’s heart than flowers? I’m sure once Astrid receives the flowers, she will rethink all that she said, and she will also think that I don’t only care about Giselle just like what she had thought.

A small smile stretched on my lips when I remembered the first time that I met Astrid.

It was a beautiful spring day. I was just taking a stroll in our packhouse’s garden when I saw her from afar speaking to the fishes swimming in the pond while feeding them.

It was the first time I saw someone in their right mind talking to a fish. She didn’t notice that I was watching her so she continued talking.

At that time, I had no plans of talking to her. I just saw her as a weird woman talking to creatures that she knew wouldn’t be able to understand her. I was about to leave when she suddenly fell off the pond’s bridge and dropped into the swimming fishes that she was feeding.

I didn’t think twice and jumped in to save her.

It was an unusual first encounter, so I could never forget it. At that time, many lilies were growing out of the pond.

Ever since then, I am always reminded of our first encounter whenever I see lilies.

I’m sure once she receives my gift, she will be reminded of that encounter too.