[Carnelia] We return to the surface in a blink, taking our final forms and flashing to the surface as insubstantial beings of air and light. I say my farewells and promise to find him later tonight to continue our discussion.My mind is still swirling as I readjust to being solid again. Returning from my fourth form to my second still feels a bit disconcerting--I don’t think it will ever feel natural to me because it involves too much faith. But at least now I know that once I’ve gone insubstantial, I can go back to being me again and not have to worry about becoming one with the universe forever. Ona tried to assure me that it is in the nature of our kind to want to be substantial, to take up as much space as we can. The first of our kind found their solid forms here on this planet, the fourth being their more natural state because the world we inhabit demands it of us. But how can I trust the word of a drakaina who has never transformed into a more transient version of herself? I
[Carnelia] Primus. Red ribbons of blood stream from his neck as he rapidly descends from the dais, his white tunic fluttering around him like broken wings. "Shift, damn it!" I shout as I run forward, clawing my way through the crowd. "Primus!" Maybe it is because my heart is beating so rapidly that in comparison it seems like the world is slowing down around me as I continue to rush forward. Everyone seems to stop as I focus on my falling mate. These next few seconds are critical. If he hits bottom, Primus will not survive the fall--it is a great height and he is already injured. He will die, but his suffering at the hands of the Luxandrian queen will finally come to an end. If I catch him and keep him safe, he will live but also suffer--because I am already watching him suffer, and if he is also injured and weak, his suffering will likely be greater, because he will no longer have the strength or will to fight back. I can not watch him fall. I refuse to let him die. Even i
[Eleanora] Not again. Dear gods, not again. As Primus, my last chance mate, falls beneath me, my clutch begins to tear free. These eggs are only 2 months old--far too soon to be laid. But I know the signs. I feel the tell-tell sensation of them ripping away from me, the pressure to bear down and push them from my body greater than my need to hold onto them. Again my body fails me. Despite the Technician's assurances that any seed would be good enough to strengthen my clutch, again I feel their warmth slipping from me. The first time this happened, was when I watched my beloved husband suffer after the fall of his brother. We were able to extract a sample from him and using the tools we salvaged from our private facility, impregnate me again before anyone could be the wiser. But this is my fourth clutch. As it is now, my hold on the senior court is based solely on my ability to produce a royal heir to guide me into a new glory for Luxandra. They don't care which brother is the fat
[Carnelia] "Get your mother," I shout at Orion just before the guards silence me, taking away my breath and my words. Strong arms lift me, keeping my body from hitting the ground, as I pass out in their arms from lack of oxygen. When I wake, I am locked in a cold, stone room in a part of the castle that feels like a familiar nightmare. It does have some comforts, like cushions and a window, so I guess I should be grateful, although I'm sure these luxuries were only afforded to me so that if Queen Eleanora were asked to defend her acts before the High Council she could say in all honesty that I was "given the comfort and dignity required for my station." She seems to be the type who cares more about optics than she does about truth. It doesn't matter what is happening in reality as long as everything looks to be good and proper on the surface. There are bars on the windows to keep me from finding a way out, but none on the door. They don't need to. The door doesn't exist. This place
[Carnelia]There is a monster in the room. Something so dark and twisted and strange my brain cannot understand it. It walks on two legs, but the legs move unnaturally and make a weird whirling sound with every step. It has two arms, but they seem disproportionately short compared to the rest of the body. It has a hunched-over back but seems to be looking from up high.And when it speaks, it sounds like something from a nightmare of some place dead and hollow."Let's get her hooked up and into the tub," it said as soon as it saw me standing there, next to Primus' prone, injured form. The creature and its assisting soldiers do not care that my body is frozen in shock, mortified as I see what they have done to my poor husband's body. It doesn't try to help me understand before it starts the procedure. A guard is instructed to hold me down while another places this strange contraption of wires and tubes over my mouth. My eyes widen in pain as they continue to insert tubes with no warning
[Primus]My father never approved of my love of music. I was born to be a lord, not a bard.My mother had different ideas for her sons, thankfully, and allowed me my indulgence. Since Father was often away, dealing with diplomatic issues, I didn't have to worry about his thoughts on the matter. I could be whomever I wanted as long as he was away.But then one night he came home with a marriage proposal. My bride was to arrive in two months' time, he told me, and I was to become a proper lord before then. When the guards came and burned all of my music, broke my lute, and took away my books, I was resigned to my fate. I spent the next month miserable as I learned how to lead, fight, and be everything my father needed in his oldest son."Let your brother take the title," my mother would urge. "He is better suited to it and wants it more. Or let your sister and her husband have it. She already has two heirs who can pass along the family name. Let the crest of the House Majere lay on their
[Carnelia] To the casual outside observer, Emerald Cove is a raucous place that never sleeps--especially on a festival day when the streets are crowded with visitors. Lords and ladies, thieves and concubines, traverse side by side, enjoying the tastes and sights of a town taken over by debaucherous frivolity. On days like this, it is not unusual to find a man stripped of his dignity with a smile from ear to ear lying in a pool of his own shame. In other words, the people of Emerald Cove love a good party. Unfortunately, during the summer almost every day is a festival day. And for us poor individuals who live and work here every day, these days are absolute drudgery. Nobody works harder on a festival than a member of the Barmaster’s Guild. "Hey wench," a drunkard Lord something or the other, motions for me to come fill his tankard. I pretend not to hear him, not liking the tone of his voice nor the way he leers as he tries to catch my eye but instead finds his gaze falling on my
[Carnelia]Whether I meet this stranger in the room upstairs is not a choice. Guildmaster Jove made sure that point was quite clear before I even opened my mouth to argue.When I informed him that I did not "have a nice dress" because he "doesn't pay more than a shitty shilling" for my time, he produced something out of a dusty trunk that made my nose twitch and my eyes water.It was hideous.He didn't care what I thought about it, "damn thing cost me 50 pieces of gold."He probably got it off the back of a cart.It took three people to get me into the damn thing. I didn't know how he expected the gentleman to get the dress off of me until he showed me how easy it was to unhook the front."But how will I get back into it," I questioned as they pulled the corset strings tighter."You'll figure something out," he smirked. "You're a clever girl."Then one of the fancy girls, the type used to doing this kind of thing, came to me and began applying all sorts of cosmetics to my face. It fel