Watching Ailee bring those two morons down was one of the best things I have ever seen. I wasn’t lying it was hot as fuck. I wanted to strip her down right here and show everyone she is mine. The way that fat ass looked at her pissed me off. I want to punch him but I let Ailee take the lead. Not without showing the asshat who she belonged to. Yes, I got possessive. I don’t care and Ailee didn’t seem to mind it. The way that Candy girl looked at me made me want to take a shower. I’m used to women eyeing me and before Ailee I didn’t mind one bit. Now though the only person I want eyes on me is Ailee. The way Candy talked to Ailee as if she were trash. Fuck no. Candy was just cheap arm candy. Ailee is the crown jewel of this place. It was like Candy didn’t have a functioning brain cell thinking she could make Ailee look bad. Candy even said I was a h
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Ace When I saw Ailee last night it had been the first time since she walked out of the clubhouse the day of the barbeque months ago. I know she has been back a few times since but that always made sure I’m not around when she is here. Most around here think I fucked up when I let Ailee walkout. And they are right. They also think I don’t want to fix what happened or even make amends with Ailee. That is where they are wrong. I want to fix my relationship with my little girl. I want her in my life. Desperately. I just don’t know-how. I have picked up the phone so many times I have lost track. I have written and deleted so many texts. But what I need to say shouldn’t be done through text. So I pull up her contact but I just can’t get myself to push the green button. What if she doesn’t answer? What if she tells me to go to hell? Then
Ailee I have been feeling increasingly tired since the gala a week ago. At first, I thought maybe I had overdone it and just needed a day of rest to bounce back. But that wasn’t the case. I also noticed black bags under my eyes. And all of my joints started to ache. Then I knew what it was. The chemo. It was making me sicker than before. My body was breaking down. The clock was ticking faster in my life. My six months had been shrunk down. I had maybe three or four left. There was still no donor to be found. I have long given up hope of Ace helping me. He doesn’t care or he would have reached out by now. I decided to keep it to myself and prepare. I need to make sure there is someone to take over the charities. I need to redo my will. And make funeral arrangements. I’m not going to make my family deal with it. They will be de
Lug Nut We were having church while the ol’e ladies were throwing a baby shower for Grethen. I told Ailee I would be over after I was done with the meeting and we would relax and watch movies. I noticed she has been extra tired lately so I wanted to have a quiet evening at home so she can rest. I know she has been doing her best to hide it from me but I noticed. I just didn’t call her out on it. I’m doing my best to pay attention to what Axle is saying. He brought up the idea of us branching out to security personnel. Offering ourselves up as bodyguards. He got the idea because the place Jace and Jax go to for hockey practice has had some vandalism issues. I’m listening, sort of. My gut is telling me something is wrong but I can’t place it. I’m sure if there was something wrong with Ailee someone would tell me. But we are in church and we aren’t allowed p
Ace I didn’t wait for permission when I chased after Lug heading to the hospital. I was going to see my daughter and no one was going to stop me. I followed them to the hospital and to the elevator. When we entered Ailee’s room I felt my heart stop beating. There was my little girl looking so small and sick laying in bed connected to tubes and wires to keep her alive. I have seen Merigold and Lilly like this before and it hurt. Don’t get me wrong. I hated seeing them like that. But this was my own flesh and blood. Seeing her like this is devastating. I feel my chest tighten and it is hard to breathe. I wanted to go to her and hold her in my arms and never let go. All those months were wasted because I couldn’t get my shit right. This isn’t how I should be meeting Ailee again. Cormac whispers something to her and she opens her eyes. Even
Lug Nut The door was cracked so I could hear everything Ace said to Ailee. I wanted to give them privacy but I also didn’t trust Acee one hundred percent yet. He would have to earn that back after what he did. Ailee would be here if he had gotten off his ass months ago. I listen to Ace tell Ailee that he was going to make her better. He said he was going to try to be a better father from here on out. But what got me is when he said he loved her. I looked around the corner of the door and saw Ailee looking at him. I don’t know what she said to him but he suddenly jumped up and hugged her. It looked like Ailee had forgiven him. That makes me smile. But not for Ace. I’m still pissed off at him for waiting this long. And for what. Even if he didn’t talk to her he should have gone ahead and donated his marrow so Ailee could survive to try to fix his fuck up. B
Ailee I spent the night in Lug’s arms just where I wanted to be. Although I would have preferred to be at home instead of in the hospital. But right now I have no control over my body. It has just given up. Not to mention my grandda wouldn’t allow me to go home right now. You are probably wondering why he is in control of what I do since I’m an adult. When I first got sick I gave my grandda power of attorney over my medical decisions if I got in this state and could make choices for myself. When I’m like this I don’t trust myself to think straight and make the right choices. I made my wishes known to him and our lawyer so they wouldn’t go overboard in trying to save me if there was no hope. I don’t want to be kept on life support just to prolong the inevitable. But from what I have gathered my end isn’t happening as soon as I thought. I have b
Lug Nut I watched Ailee being taken away and I felt a piece of my heartbreak. She was already weak and the doctors said she was just going to get worse. I stood at the door for a few minutes refusing to move. I felt a hand on my shoulder. I look over and see Cormac behind me. “ It's tough to watch her go. I know lad. But trust she is in good hands. Ailee will be in there a while. Why don't you take some time for yourself? Grab a shower and a bite. One of us will call you if anything changes.” he said. I know he is right and I should at least get a change of clothes and some coffee. There is something I need to do first. I reach into my pocket and pull out the item I hope to give Ailee soon. “ I will do that in a minute, sir. There is something I need to ask you first.” I told him. “ Go ahead,” Cormac says. I take a deep breath and layout my heart. “ Corma
Ace After I talked with Ailee and got set up with the doctors I went back to the clubhouse. I needed to prepare for tomorrow. I also needed some time to myself. Seeing my daughter brought back memories of my best friend, brother, and co-founder of the club. Raider, Merigold, and Viper's father. I have never admitted this to anyone but watching him lose his battle with cancer was hard for me to watch. Now watching my child fight the same fight brought back those memories as well as put in place new ones. No one should ever have to see their child like that. I’m still wanting to kick my own ass for not acting sooner. Even if Ailee wasn’t talking to me I could have made the donation, but no. I fucked up. And that is something I will never forgive myself for. And I shouldn’t. But in the end, my daughter forgave me. And I will work hard to make sure she never
Ailee It has been a little over two years since I walked into the Reckless Renegades clubhouse looking for my father. In my wildest dreams could I have thought of all the changes in my life that have happened since that day. I am cancer free. I have my da in my life. I have gained more family members than I know what to do with but wouldn’t trade for anything in this world. I have an incredible, sexy as hell husband. We have two wonderful kids and are talking about adding a third. The O’Sullivan family is going strong. Grandda married Anna in a small ceremony after Lug and I got back from our honeymoon. I haven’t seen him that happy in a long time. Recently he has started training Lug and me to take over. He says he wants to retire to spend time with Anna and his great grandkids while he is still young enough to enjoy them. The O’Sullivan trafficking organization is unfortunately going strong. I say unfortunately because that means sex trafficking is still going strong as well. The
Lug Nut Our trip to Ireland was incredible. It started on the private plane Cormac chartered for us. The plane was huge and we had it all to ourselves except for the pilot and stewardess. And she pretty much left us alone. I think she was a little frightened of Ailee so she stayed away as much as possible. Both the pilot and stewardess addressed her as queen so they knew who she was. The plane was so large each seat and there were only eight was the size of an oversized recliner. And you could lay them back to a twin size bed to take a nap if you wanted to. It had a small kitchen with a mini stove, microwave and mini fridge. The part I liked the most was the full bathroom and bedroom. The pilot told us it would take at least ten hours to get to Dublin so I knew I was going to use that time wisely. While Ailee was talking to the pilot I asked the stewardess to make some snacks and bring some bottles of water to the room for us. Turns out Cormac had hooked us up and had champagne, str
Ailee After we got to the reception the first thing we did was pose for pictures. I wanted a bunch with everyone. My ma loved taking pictures. She said it helped preserve memories. So we could look back and remember our times together. I thought it was silly but we had fun so I never said anything. After she was gone those pictures became more important so I carried on taking pictures. And this is just another day I want to be able to look back on. I want to remember my grandda smiling and laughing with the club and members of our group. I want to remember Katrina giggling and playing with her cousins. I want to remember the kids running around like maniacs on a sugar high. I want to look back and remember the look of pure love in Tank’s eyes as he dances with Lilly. All those memories are a once in a lifetime shot so I have two photographers for the reception capturing as much as possible. I was talking with Gretchen when the D.J came over the mic “ Ladies and gentlemen please w
Lug Nut I’m in place at the front of the church with my best man Axel and groomsmen Rowdy and Tank. I can’t stop myself from looking around and thinking about the phone call I got earlier. I can’t believe Ailee was worried I wouldn’t show. Wild horses couldn’t stop me from coming today. I will admit a small part of me was worried Ailee would show. I kept thinking she would figure out that she was marrying down while I was marrying up. The church was decorated tastefully. The pews had fall leaves and ribbons on the end. There was an archway that I was standing under covered in leaves and the ribbons were the club colors. I wouldn’t think they would go together but they did. It was sweet that Ailee tried to include part of my life in the ceremony. But I should have expected anything less from her. I look out at our guests and see Ailee’s side is packed and overflowing to the side for my family. There are even people standing around the back and side. Some are guests, some are guards
Ailee I can’t believe this day is finally here. I’m getting married to my Lug. I’m going to be Mrs. Travis O’Sullivan-LeBlanc. I can’t help but giggle to myself. Last night was rough. Lug and I spent our first night away from each other since the night I went into the hospital over eight months ago. Grandda didn’t have a problem with us living together but he did say that we should spend the night before the wedding apart. You know the whole the groom can’t see the bride before the wedding thing. I wasn’t a fan of the suggestion but Lug thought we should go with grandda’s wishes. So I sucked it up for one night. Lug went to the clubhouse and Katrina and I stayed at the condo. I tossed and turned all night, not used to sleeping alone. So I got Katrina and brought her into bed with me so I could sleep. I know you aren’t supposed to do that but I was very cautious. The ol’e ladies came over early this morning to help me gather everything I needed to go to the church. Anna was meeting us
Lug Nut In two weeks I’m marrying the love of my life and I can’t wait. Part of me wishes we had just eloped and got it over with. I’m so ready to have Ailee carry my last name. But I know this ceremony is important to her and her family. And the wedding plans haven’t been that big of a deal. The wedding planned took care of most everything. I was worried what planning this wedding would do to Ailee. I didn’t want her stressing out. Or turning into a bridezilla horror story. But I should have had more faith in my girl. She was never going to turn into a bitch. But I’ll fill you in on the wedding when it gets here. Today is another important day. More for Ailee than me. I’m at the club with Katrina. Ailee is at the doctor for her six month check up. I wanted to go with her but Cormac, Callen and Finn were going. Anna and I agreed to stay with Katrina. I was at the house waiting for Ailee but I was going crazy just sitting there. I know Anna wasn’t doing much better. So when Merigold
Ailee Three weeks have passed since wee Katrina came into our lives. It has taken some adjusting and juggling schedules but we have made it work. With tons of help of course. We now have an extra bodyguard when we leave the house. Thanks to grandda, Mitch’s sole job is to protect Katrina when we go out. We are mafia. We have many enemies. Especially when we shut down a trafficking ring. So we are always careful. Lucky so far I haven’t been called on to the ice queen. I dread coming back to Katrina after doing that. I know Lug would take care of her while I come back to myself. I just don’t want her to see me like that. Not for a while at least. I won’t be able to keep it from her forever. But until she is much older I want to shield it from her. More changes is that Lug and I have had to be careful about making out wherever we want. We still kiss and hug in front of Katrina. She loves it. She giggles every time Lug kisses me and makes kisses faces so we have to give her kisses too
Lug Nut Ailee and Anna sat on the floor playing with Katrina. Cormac and I were sitting on the couch talking about what room we were going to change into a nursery. “ Anna, do you think it is too late to find a dress for Katrina for the wedding? Something that matches the flower girls.” Ailee asked. It was sweet that Ailee was trying to include Katrina. We could have dressed her up and had someone hold Katrina during the ceremony but that wasn’t enough for Ailee. She was trying to include as many family members as possible. She had Jace and Jax as mini ushers to be helped by Finn and Callen. Ford is too young to help out. Kadance, Kassidy and Alana as flower girls. Bastian is the ring bearer. Merigold, Lilly, Speed and Gretchen are bridesmaids. She has most of the club included in one way or another. Ailee hasn’t said it outright but I know she is doing most of it for me. She wants the wedding to be equal parts for both of us. I personally don’t care as long as at the end of the day
Ailee After breakfast we all went to the living room to chat. More Like Lug and I were talking grandda and Anna were focused on playing with Katrina. I was watching Katrina not that I would ever be worried about her with grandda. He helped raise me into the woman I am today so I know Katrina is in good hands. I’m also paying attention to the way Anna and grandda are behaving with each other. The easy Anna was snuggled up against Cormac’s side. Her head on his shoulder as they played with Katrina. The sweet smiles grandda keeps giving Anna. I know I saw something when I woke up in the cleanroom months ago but they avoided the question. Everything got busy after that and since I didn’t see them together I have forgotten what I had seen. But not anymore. I want answers this time. And I’m going to get them. “ Are you finally going to tell me what is going on with you two? Or do I need to investigate myself?” I asked. It is clear they are interested in each other. I think it is wond