Goof Two months to go before Silvy brings our baby into the world and I can’t wait. I feel our baby moving everyday. I have watch Silvy’s belly grow as our baby gets bigger. Soon I will have our baby in my arms watching them grow from the outside of Silvy. There is still so much to do before that happens. I have been moving my stuff into Silvy’s house little by little. I know Silvy has noticed but she hasn’t said anything about it yet. I’m living in her house and have been for a month. I have been waiting for Silvy to say something ever time I come home. Home. That is exactly what I feel when I walk through the front door. Silvy is my home and where I belong. Me staying in the house with her. Cooking and having meals together. Showering together. Sleeping with her in my arms every night. It all feels right. She hasn’t said a word. Silvy hasn’t told me to pack up and leave like I thought she would when she caught on to what I was doing. But she hasn’t. There is a big part of me that
Silvy I have been thinking hard since I talked with my dad just like he suggested I do. Hell, mine and Goof’s, whatever you want to call it, is all I have been thinking about. Every waking second I think about it. About us. When I wake up in Goof’s arms I think about us. When our baby moves I think about us. When he picks me up from work I think about us. When I saw Meathead lurking in the corners of the ER I thought about Goof. Why? Because he was the one who put Meathead on me for extra protection. While we are curled up on the couch, my head on his shoulder, his arm around me I am thinking about us. I think about how good it feels to wake up in Goof’s arms every morning and I would hate to lose that feeling. I think about us laughing over dinner while Goof tells me another story from the clubhouse. I don’t want the laughter to stop. I think about the way we seem to have to touch each other while we are cooking together. A hand brush here, a quick kiss there. I think about how m
Goof As soon as I stepped into the house I knew was different. It wasn’t the smell of food cooking. That was a norm if Silvy didn’t work a late shift. She liked to cook for us she told me when I told her it wasn’t necessary for her to cook that I would do it or we could order out. No, it was the energy in the house that changed. Not that it is ever been bad but there is a definite change. It feels a little lighter. Less stressed even. And it was coming from Silvy. I wondered what caused the change when I called out. I followed the sound of her voice to the kitchen to find her laying out all of my favorites on the table. There was only one other person who knew what I liked and that was Merigold because she made it every year on my birthday. Merigold does it for all the entire club. I know most of the prospects and single guys look forward to it. I know I did. It used to be my favorite day of the year. Until Silvy came along. Everyday with her is my favorite day. After I hugged and k
Silvy Today was special day. But not for me. For my dad. For Gena and Xavier too. They are becoming a family today. My dad is getting married. I still can’t believe it even though I’m standing in their bedroom at my dad’s house helping get Gena ready. I never thought this day would come. Not that there is anything wrong with my dad. There isn’t. He is wonderful. But dating and marriage were never a big deal for him. I learned as I got older it was because of me. He was focused on raising me. Then as I got older and moved on with my life he thought he was too old. I called bullshit on that several times. But there was nothing I could do about it, it was his life. Then Gena came along and all of that changed and I could be happier for them. I have gotten to know Gena since my dad introduced us. She is actually pretty cool. I will never see her a step mother. Our ages are too close. And I am beyond the age of needing a mother figure. Gena knows this and respects it. She has said she
Goof The music just started and everyone is looking at the back door in anticipation of seeing the bride. I’m no different from my seat in the front row but I’m not looking for the bride, I’m looking for my girl that I haven’t seen since early this morning. Silvy came over to her dad’s early to help set up for the wedding. I wanted to help but I had a few things to take care of at the dispensary this morning. Then I had to go to our house to get dressed and clean my kutte. I got to Tony’s a little early to help him and Xavier out but Silvy was up in the room helping Gena so I haven’t seen her yet. I can’t wait. I did have a rather interesting conversation with Xavier while Tony and Rivet were talking to Viper. I was standing near the alter looking around at the guests and the yard. I only know a few people like Matt because he is the D.J. Ratchet and Erin are here as well. That shocked me. Tony said it was Gena’s idea when she found out Matt had a daughter around Xavier’s age she i
Silvy After Viper announced us as a family it was time to party and have a good time. But not for me just yet. The first thing I need to do is use the bathroom. Again. The baby has been using my bladder as a trampoline for the last ten minutes. As much as I was enjoying the vows and what Viper did for Xavier I wanted him to hurry up so I didn’t pee myself. As Gena, dad and Xavier greeted guests I ran as fast as I could to the bathroom. Okay I lied. I didn’t run. I waddled as fast as I could. I waddle now. Goof thinks it is cute. I find it frustrating. But I know in the end it will be worth it. Every back ache, swollen foot craving and nausea will be worth it when I’m holding our baby in my arms. Yes, the baby is ours. I told Goof I’m not going to fight it and I meant it. Speaking of Goof he was waiting for me when I came out of the bathroom to make sure I got to the party alright. Always taking care of me that man. I don’t think there isn’t anything he wouldn’t do for me. I won’t a
Goof When Silvy told me she wanted to talk I was thrilled. I know most of the time when a woman wants to talk it isn’t a good thing, but in this case I know it is. Or I hope so. I believe this talk that she wants to have is Silvy finally opening up to me. She is finally going to let me passed her walls. Well, her final wall. I have moved into her house and sleeping in her bed every night. We are planning for our baby together. So I know I broke down several walls. There is just more to go and I believe it will be the toughest to break. This one is around her heart and it is holding in some serious hurt. I couldn’t wait to hear what she had to say. I just had to get through this horribly long weekend. Why were we waiting until the weekend was over. We were on Xavier watch so Tony and Gena could have a mini honeymoon. I’m not complaining. I had agreed to it when Silvy brought it up. Not that she my permission to have her new brother over for the weekend. But since I have moved in w
Silvy Telling Michael the truth wasn’t as hard as I thought it would be. He never gave me a look of judgement or pity. He just listened to everything I had to say. Well most of it. The rest is coming and I think that may be the hard part. When he did get mad it wasn’t at me it was at the shitty guys I was with. “ Babe, I have known you have walls up. I knew that the first time I met you. That didn’t make a difference to me. The closer we got the more I had hoped you would feel comfortable enough to share it with me. I feel privileged that you did. Thank you for that. I get the feeling you have more to say so I will keep quiet.” Goof said. I laughed “ You are right. Thank you for listening to the first part. And for being prepared to listen to the rest.” I said. “ I’ll listen to anything you want to tell me.” he said. I wanted to stop and just curl up on his lap the rest of the night. Hell for the rest of my life if he would let me. With all the things he has done for me and now th
GoofThis is my first time coming to the cabin. Viper told us about it when he heard Silvy and I discussing our honeymoon. I have heard about it in passing but that is it. Apparently Raider bought the cabin shortly after he and Ave started the club as a getaway for the brothers. I have never been here until now but I have seen pictures over the years. What had started as a one room log cabin with just a wood stove and basic bare minimum bathroom and kitchen over the years has turned into a three bedroom two bathroom cabin. A full back porch with grill and fire pit has been added. The master bedroom has it own bathroom complete with a claw foot tub big enough for two, a shower with three shower heads and porcelain sink. The other two bedrooms share a connecting full bathroom. The kitchen had been redone in a way that would be any chef’s fantasy. Sub zero fridge and freezer combo, gas range with air fryer and griddle, and a stainless steel sink. Even though the cabin is on a beautiful
Silvy I’m looking around the back yard of the clubhouse. After Viper announced Goof and I a family everyone moved the chairs around, brought out some additional tables to transform the yard into a reception area. It was fascinating to watch. I was sitting in a chair next to Goof nursing Ant watching my new family have fun. They were talking, eating, laughing, chasing kids, and drinking. And yes, I’m still nursing Ant. Not as often and only for a few more months. Especially now that he is getting teeth. He has one that has just broken through his gums but I can still feel it on my nipple. Luckily he hasn’t bitten me yet. But you don’t want to hear about that. You want to hear about the reception and any juicy bits that happened after. After Ant is fed and burped he is happy sitting on my lap while Goof plays peek-a-boo with him. I get a tap on my shoulder. I look up and see Gena with her hands out for Ant. “ You two are needed on the dance floor.” she said. Before I can ask why I
Goof I just got to my place on the platform when Anna came out the back door. She is holding a babbling clapping Ant on her hip. When he saw me he started babbling louder, giggling and reached for me. “ You will go to your daddy soon. We have to get him married to your mommy first.” Anna said. I don’t know how much of what Anna said Ant understood but he got excited and giggled louder and waving his hands. I didn’t bother to stop the smile on my face watching my boy. Anna took her seat in the front row so Ant could see me and Silvy. Ant looked over Anna’s shoulder and began to babble to Pocket’ twins who thought Ant was the funniest thing they have ever seen. Ant always has those two laughing. I was paying attention to the kids when the door opened again and the music started to play. I knew I need to focus when Gena walks out first. We didn’t do flower girls or ring bearers because Silvy and I couldn’t settle on who to pick out of the club kids and we didn’t want it to look
Silvy I can’t believe this day is here. I never thought it was possible. Today I am marrying my best friend and father of my child. Yes, I am marrying Goof. I never let myself believe this could happen because I wanted to guard my heart. Boy was I ever wrong. The man of my dreams broke down my walls made me fall in love with him and claimed me as his. I’m at the clubhouse in Goof’s old room getting dressed. It is still his room technically. We can use it if we are late and don’t want to drive home. Or in the case of the other day a quickie while Ant was sleeping. Ant is six months old now. But I will tell you more about him in a few. I need to finish getting dressed. I had just got on the lingerie I bought special for tonight and needed to get my dress on. I have Gena, Anna and Lilly helping me get ready. Lilly is here more for support and to make sure no one bothers us. And she is helping with Ant. Lilly’s vision may be impaired but it doesn’t slow her down. So she can’t help wit
GoofSilvy said yes. I was getting my girl. Finally. I wrap my arms around my family careful not to squish Ant and hold them. Just for a minute. You are probably wondering why my brothers and sister are coming over to congratulate us. It is because asking her to marry me wasn’t the only surprise I have for Silvy. I let go of my family and stand up since I am still on my knees. I sat beside them on the bench and place my arm around Silvy’s shoulder. I see the ol’e ladies coming from behind Silvy with smiles on there faces. “ Babe, could you wrap Ant up and give him to someone.” I said. I told her someone because there is always a pair of arms waiting to hold any of the Reckless kids and Ant is no exception. Silvy looks confused but fixes Ant’s blanket. As soon as it is done Gretchen comes forward. “ It is my turn to hold the sweet boy.” she said taking Ant from Silvy. Merigold steps forward with a white tee-shirt box. I know my brother, prospects, Tony, Gena and Xavier are watching. J
GoofWhen Silvy held Ant she was looking at me. She said the words that made it possible for me to breath normally again. “ Daddy is home.” Some of the best words I have ever heard. Gena walked in with a bottle for Ant handing it to me. “Figured it was you turn.” Gena said then walked away. I had forgotten she was here until now. My entire being was focused on Silvy. I got up from the floor and got on the couch to sit next to Silvy. I was so close I could have sat on her lap but didn’t. Silvy carefully handed Ant over to me so I could feed him. As soon as he was in my arms I held him to my chest as tight as I could with out hurting him. “ Yeah buddy, daddy is home. And he is going to stay that way.” I told him. It felt so good to have him back in my arms. The only thing better would be if I had an arm around Silvy as well. How was I so stupid to let this go? Never again. When Ant started to fuss I knew it was time to give him his bottle. I pulled him from my chest and cradled him so
Goof When I heard Silvy’s voice coming the living room I felt two things. Thrilled that she was willing to talk to me and concern that I may have woken her up. I’ll make the sleep up to her I vow to myself. Even if I have to stay up with Ant for two days so Silvy I will do it. I will deal with that later. I need to talk to Silvy, beg and get her to take me back. Lilly was right when she said that Silvy didn’t need me. I needed her. I know there is a list of men as long as my arm that would love to take my place. They are just waiting for me to screw up. I can name five off the top of my head. Dez, Lilly’s drummer, for one and I’m sure Lilly would help them hook up. Casper has shown interest. Two doctors at the hospital and a male nurse. I’m sure if I looked into it there are more guys. Silvy having a baby with me will not be a problem for any guy that knows and wants Silvy. They would gladly step and to be a dad to Anthony. It is up to me to make sure that doesn’t happen. In place
Goof I’m at the club house in the afternoon relaxing with my brothers. I was having a beer, playing pool and catching up. It has been a day and a half since I left Silvy’s house. I have slept most of the time I was gone if I wasn’t working. Man, I needed it. I feel so much better and I’m not at risk of falling asleep at work. I was at the table talking with Rowdy waiting for my turn at the pool table when Lilly an Tank walked in. They made a bee line for me. Tank helped Lilly sit down before going to the bar to get them a drink. Once he had their drinks and was seated Lilly asked “ Goof, is Ant any better today?” “ What are you talking about?” I asked her. Did Silvy tell her that Ant has been crying for days? They are close friends. “ Oh, is it Silvy that is sick?” Tank asked. “ Huh?” I questioned. I have no clue what they are talking about. They look at each other then back to me. “ We saw Silvy with Ant at the emergency room yesterday so we thought one of them might be sick.” Lil
Goof Our Anthony is two months old now. He stays up more and is more alert. Silvy and I have settled in to a working routine. And we are happy. Or I was. I love my son and my girl Silvy. I love them with everything in me. But today I need a break. Ant cried all day yesterday. No matter what Silvy did she couldn’t get him to stop for more than ten minutes. I tried myself but nothing worked. We both took turns through the night rocking him, trying to get him to eat, patting his back, Silvy even gas Ant gas medicine to try to help. Nothing worked. We were both exhausted. Silvy stayed downstairs in the living room so I could get some rest. I could still hear Ant through the night even if when I covered my ears with a pillow.I was only able to get a couple hours of sleep. When I woke up this morning I could hear Ant’s muffled cries though the closed door. What was wrong with that kid? I got up and checked the time. I had to be at the club in an hour for church. Fuck. I went to the bathr