Goof When Silvy told me she wanted to talk I was thrilled. I know most of the time when a woman wants to talk it isn’t a good thing, but in this case I know it is. Or I hope so. I believe this talk that she wants to have is Silvy finally opening up to me. She is finally going to let me passed her walls. Well, her final wall. I have moved into her house and sleeping in her bed every night. We are planning for our baby together. So I know I broke down several walls. There is just more to go and I believe it will be the toughest to break. This one is around her heart and it is holding in some serious hurt. I couldn’t wait to hear what she had to say. I just had to get through this horribly long weekend. Why were we waiting until the weekend was over. We were on Xavier watch so Tony and Gena could have a mini honeymoon. I’m not complaining. I had agreed to it when Silvy brought it up. Not that she my permission to have her new brother over for the weekend. But since I have moved in w
Silvy Telling Michael the truth wasn’t as hard as I thought it would be. He never gave me a look of judgement or pity. He just listened to everything I had to say. Well most of it. The rest is coming and I think that may be the hard part. When he did get mad it wasn’t at me it was at the shitty guys I was with. “ Babe, I have known you have walls up. I knew that the first time I met you. That didn’t make a difference to me. The closer we got the more I had hoped you would feel comfortable enough to share it with me. I feel privileged that you did. Thank you for that. I get the feeling you have more to say so I will keep quiet.” Goof said. I laughed “ You are right. Thank you for listening to the first part. And for being prepared to listen to the rest.” I said. “ I’ll listen to anything you want to tell me.” he said. I wanted to stop and just curl up on his lap the rest of the night. Hell for the rest of my life if he would let me. With all the things he has done for me and now th
Goof When Silvy said I had broken down her walls and wanted to give us being in a relationship a real try I was thrilled. No, I’m lying. I’m ecstatic. I’m ready to jump up and down shouting that Silvy was mine. I didn’t do any of that. Instead i gave Silvy one or two or five of the sweet kisses she loves so much. I don’t care how I kiss her. I just want to kiss her. It is one of my favorite things to do to her. Definitely the top five. And of all the places I like to kiss on Silvy, her lips are in the top two. What was just sweet kisses turned into a slow drawn out make out session. I haven’t made out since I was in my early teens. We kissed and groped each other. We talked and Silvy giggled then we would make out again. Silvy told me during one of our talks Silvy told me that I was only allowed to kiss her from now on. The look on her face when I told her she is the one woman I have kissed in years besides the kisses on the cheek I give the ol’e ladies. She did not believe me a
Silvy Goof has been acting a little odd since we got up this morning. But I’m not sure in what way. Almost like he is excited and nervous. It is weird to watch. We had breakfast together since it was Saturday and I had the day off. We talked about what we wanted to do today. I wanted to rest at home and Goof said we should go out for lunch. As much as I didn’t want to get off the couch I agreed. I said I wanted to give us a try as far as a relationship was concerned. So as tired as I am I’m going to go. If I told Goof I was tired he would agree to stay home. He would do anything I asked. He always did. But part of being in a relationship was making compromises and it is my turn to make a few. Besides it is just lunch out. It isn’t like he asked me to go to for a long walk, dancing, or major shopping. And he always doing taking me to some of the best food places. I know a few have been suggested by ol’e ladies or some of the brothers but the rest are all Goof’s ideas. I’m always hun
Goof I knew Silvy thought I was acting odd all day. I was. I suck at hiding things from her. Even good things. But she figured it real quick and forgave me. I think feeding her helped. After Xavier left to go with Erin to play with the other kids Pocket came over to us. “ I know this is your baby shower but I was wondering if you would you mind if I gave Xavier a gift?” she asked Silvy. “ Pocket, what are you up to?” Pocket explained that when she first met Xavier he said he wanted to join the hockey team at her rink but Gena couldn’t afford it. So Pocket got everything ready to get Xavier a scholarship so he could join the team. Silvy smiled “ They are going to love it. Yes, do it.” Silvy called Gena, Tony and Xavier over to her. Once they were with us “ Guys Sabine has something for you.” “ But it is your shower.” Tony said. “ I know but Sabine asked permission and I gave it.” Silvy said. Then Pocket proceed to explain what she heard and what she did. “ All you have to do is sho
Silvy I didn’t remember falling asleep, so I know I didn’t put myself to bed. Since I was in my room I knew it was Goof that had put me here. It was always Goof. How he can still pick my big ass up amazes me but I figured out a few months ago to stop arguing with him about carrying me. I lose every time. He told me once he likes holding me that's why he carries me. See why I lost the argument. I roll over to see Goof’s side of the bed to see it empty. I place my hand on it and feel it is cold. The question is did he take a nap with me, something he does once and a while or did I sleep alone. I turn back over and grab my phone from the night stand to see what time it is. Only two hours have passed since we left Speed’s house so I’m going to guess he never came to bed. If I take a short nap he will leave me to sleep alone. I thought back to the surprise shower Goof had a hand in. It is good to know he can’t keep a secret worth a shit. Not that he would ever lie to me. Renegades live
Goof After we had dinner, we ended up ordering pizza, and we sat on the couch and watched a tv show. Swamp people. Silvy’s pick. I remember the first time she turned it on. It was when I started staying at the house more often. Getting close to moving in. We were relaxing like we are doing now and she turned on the History channel. I didn’t say anything. I figured I would just play games on my phone while she watched her show. I peeked up from my phone a time or two and before I knew it I was wrapped up in the show with her. I have even found older episodes to watch so I can catch up. It is pretty cool for a history channel show. Some of the people on it have a similar accent as Lug Nut. He is from the area where the show is filmed. Or somewhere close to it. And the more I watch the more I can see Merigold, Speed, and Lug doing something like on the show. Alligator hunting, living off the land, and helping out neighbors. Yea, those three would definitely do that. Silvy has her b
Silvy It is my last week of work before I go on maternity leave. And tonight is my last evening shift. I get out of here before ten tonight and I am thrilled. I’m so tired of these nights in the ER. I swear that is when all the crazies come out. My boss told me when I come back from leave I get to go back to working in the ICU. I am beyond happy about that. I was not built for working in the ER. I have serious respect for the nurses that do but they can have it. The number of drug seekers seemed to have increased and it is really bothering me. I have two weeks until my due date and can’t move very fast. If things get violent there is no way I could get out of the way quickly. And we went from having one or two seekers a week to three and four. That is just my shift. There is no telling how many of the seekers the other shifts are getting. With the help of the club and Bradford, there are a few more safety measures in place. For hostile repeat offenders, we discretely take a photo
GoofThis is my first time coming to the cabin. Viper told us about it when he heard Silvy and I discussing our honeymoon. I have heard about it in passing but that is it. Apparently Raider bought the cabin shortly after he and Ave started the club as a getaway for the brothers. I have never been here until now but I have seen pictures over the years. What had started as a one room log cabin with just a wood stove and basic bare minimum bathroom and kitchen over the years has turned into a three bedroom two bathroom cabin. A full back porch with grill and fire pit has been added. The master bedroom has it own bathroom complete with a claw foot tub big enough for two, a shower with three shower heads and porcelain sink. The other two bedrooms share a connecting full bathroom. The kitchen had been redone in a way that would be any chef’s fantasy. Sub zero fridge and freezer combo, gas range with air fryer and griddle, and a stainless steel sink. Even though the cabin is on a beautiful
Silvy I’m looking around the back yard of the clubhouse. After Viper announced Goof and I a family everyone moved the chairs around, brought out some additional tables to transform the yard into a reception area. It was fascinating to watch. I was sitting in a chair next to Goof nursing Ant watching my new family have fun. They were talking, eating, laughing, chasing kids, and drinking. And yes, I’m still nursing Ant. Not as often and only for a few more months. Especially now that he is getting teeth. He has one that has just broken through his gums but I can still feel it on my nipple. Luckily he hasn’t bitten me yet. But you don’t want to hear about that. You want to hear about the reception and any juicy bits that happened after. After Ant is fed and burped he is happy sitting on my lap while Goof plays peek-a-boo with him. I get a tap on my shoulder. I look up and see Gena with her hands out for Ant. “ You two are needed on the dance floor.” she said. Before I can ask why I
Goof I just got to my place on the platform when Anna came out the back door. She is holding a babbling clapping Ant on her hip. When he saw me he started babbling louder, giggling and reached for me. “ You will go to your daddy soon. We have to get him married to your mommy first.” Anna said. I don’t know how much of what Anna said Ant understood but he got excited and giggled louder and waving his hands. I didn’t bother to stop the smile on my face watching my boy. Anna took her seat in the front row so Ant could see me and Silvy. Ant looked over Anna’s shoulder and began to babble to Pocket’ twins who thought Ant was the funniest thing they have ever seen. Ant always has those two laughing. I was paying attention to the kids when the door opened again and the music started to play. I knew I need to focus when Gena walks out first. We didn’t do flower girls or ring bearers because Silvy and I couldn’t settle on who to pick out of the club kids and we didn’t want it to look
Silvy I can’t believe this day is here. I never thought it was possible. Today I am marrying my best friend and father of my child. Yes, I am marrying Goof. I never let myself believe this could happen because I wanted to guard my heart. Boy was I ever wrong. The man of my dreams broke down my walls made me fall in love with him and claimed me as his. I’m at the clubhouse in Goof’s old room getting dressed. It is still his room technically. We can use it if we are late and don’t want to drive home. Or in the case of the other day a quickie while Ant was sleeping. Ant is six months old now. But I will tell you more about him in a few. I need to finish getting dressed. I had just got on the lingerie I bought special for tonight and needed to get my dress on. I have Gena, Anna and Lilly helping me get ready. Lilly is here more for support and to make sure no one bothers us. And she is helping with Ant. Lilly’s vision may be impaired but it doesn’t slow her down. So she can’t help wit
GoofSilvy said yes. I was getting my girl. Finally. I wrap my arms around my family careful not to squish Ant and hold them. Just for a minute. You are probably wondering why my brothers and sister are coming over to congratulate us. It is because asking her to marry me wasn’t the only surprise I have for Silvy. I let go of my family and stand up since I am still on my knees. I sat beside them on the bench and place my arm around Silvy’s shoulder. I see the ol’e ladies coming from behind Silvy with smiles on there faces. “ Babe, could you wrap Ant up and give him to someone.” I said. I told her someone because there is always a pair of arms waiting to hold any of the Reckless kids and Ant is no exception. Silvy looks confused but fixes Ant’s blanket. As soon as it is done Gretchen comes forward. “ It is my turn to hold the sweet boy.” she said taking Ant from Silvy. Merigold steps forward with a white tee-shirt box. I know my brother, prospects, Tony, Gena and Xavier are watching. J
GoofWhen Silvy held Ant she was looking at me. She said the words that made it possible for me to breath normally again. “ Daddy is home.” Some of the best words I have ever heard. Gena walked in with a bottle for Ant handing it to me. “Figured it was you turn.” Gena said then walked away. I had forgotten she was here until now. My entire being was focused on Silvy. I got up from the floor and got on the couch to sit next to Silvy. I was so close I could have sat on her lap but didn’t. Silvy carefully handed Ant over to me so I could feed him. As soon as he was in my arms I held him to my chest as tight as I could with out hurting him. “ Yeah buddy, daddy is home. And he is going to stay that way.” I told him. It felt so good to have him back in my arms. The only thing better would be if I had an arm around Silvy as well. How was I so stupid to let this go? Never again. When Ant started to fuss I knew it was time to give him his bottle. I pulled him from my chest and cradled him so
Goof When I heard Silvy’s voice coming the living room I felt two things. Thrilled that she was willing to talk to me and concern that I may have woken her up. I’ll make the sleep up to her I vow to myself. Even if I have to stay up with Ant for two days so Silvy I will do it. I will deal with that later. I need to talk to Silvy, beg and get her to take me back. Lilly was right when she said that Silvy didn’t need me. I needed her. I know there is a list of men as long as my arm that would love to take my place. They are just waiting for me to screw up. I can name five off the top of my head. Dez, Lilly’s drummer, for one and I’m sure Lilly would help them hook up. Casper has shown interest. Two doctors at the hospital and a male nurse. I’m sure if I looked into it there are more guys. Silvy having a baby with me will not be a problem for any guy that knows and wants Silvy. They would gladly step and to be a dad to Anthony. It is up to me to make sure that doesn’t happen. In place
Goof I’m at the club house in the afternoon relaxing with my brothers. I was having a beer, playing pool and catching up. It has been a day and a half since I left Silvy’s house. I have slept most of the time I was gone if I wasn’t working. Man, I needed it. I feel so much better and I’m not at risk of falling asleep at work. I was at the table talking with Rowdy waiting for my turn at the pool table when Lilly an Tank walked in. They made a bee line for me. Tank helped Lilly sit down before going to the bar to get them a drink. Once he had their drinks and was seated Lilly asked “ Goof, is Ant any better today?” “ What are you talking about?” I asked her. Did Silvy tell her that Ant has been crying for days? They are close friends. “ Oh, is it Silvy that is sick?” Tank asked. “ Huh?” I questioned. I have no clue what they are talking about. They look at each other then back to me. “ We saw Silvy with Ant at the emergency room yesterday so we thought one of them might be sick.” Lil
Goof Our Anthony is two months old now. He stays up more and is more alert. Silvy and I have settled in to a working routine. And we are happy. Or I was. I love my son and my girl Silvy. I love them with everything in me. But today I need a break. Ant cried all day yesterday. No matter what Silvy did she couldn’t get him to stop for more than ten minutes. I tried myself but nothing worked. We both took turns through the night rocking him, trying to get him to eat, patting his back, Silvy even gas Ant gas medicine to try to help. Nothing worked. We were both exhausted. Silvy stayed downstairs in the living room so I could get some rest. I could still hear Ant through the night even if when I covered my ears with a pillow.I was only able to get a couple hours of sleep. When I woke up this morning I could hear Ant’s muffled cries though the closed door. What was wrong with that kid? I got up and checked the time. I had to be at the club in an hour for church. Fuck. I went to the bathr