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34|The Sound Of Her Shame

Author: Val Sims
last update Last Updated: 2024-12-10 05:16:00
A stunned silence descended over the room following Liam's announcement. Seconds stretched into a minute and then two before he spoke again, "That's why I called you here today. So we can help Holly."

"When—" Willow stammered, but quickly shut her mouth, seemingly at a loss for words.

"Why? How?" Eden asked in a small voice.

Lois brought her up to speed on Holly's condition, as if she wasn't in the room or able to speak for herself. But at that moment, Holly honestly couldn't. The only thing she could do was to sit in silence and listen to the sound of her shame echoing all around her.

Two years ago, before she made prima, she promised everyone it was the last time she'd cut herself. Of course, she hadn't kept her promise, and her condition worsened somewhat after her fallout with Lola. But she'd hoped and prayed her parents and siblings would never find out—

"Is it true?" Clarke asked, breaking through her thoughts. "Is it true you've been self-harming?"

Holly could only nod,
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Hopefully Linda can help Holly. Holly wants to get her revenge with Lola. Karma Lola is coming for you. She needs to tell her family that Lola used her and intentionally ruin her dancing career by setting up the accident to mess up Holly’s knee on purpose to replace her as Juliet in the show.
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