Chapter 4: For keeps

My feet brought me to the second floor. I decided to sleep inside my mom's room. I can still smell her scent everywhere. I don't want to touch her things and everything she owns in the basement. I want to feel her as if she's just sleeping beside me. I know I can be comforted by the warmth of her bed if I will do it. Laying down here feels like she is still hugging me even if her physical presence is gone already.

I slowly got up and walk towards the window like I used to do when mom is still around. We used to appreciate the leaves slowly falling off the trees around the house. We even laughed at the sight of squirrels chasing each other for wallnuts that's scattered around the vicinity. All those simple things we're both happy about. It is a painful to know that my life will never be the same again without her.

My knees started to lose its strength that I can't help but to lean on the window pane. Instead of bringing back good, old memo