RUINED

Hell, this is life.

"Fvck! This is the literal pleasure. Wooooh !!" I shouted as I swayed along with the loud play of the bar.

"Damn, Ayesha! We don’t have a driver again!" my friend Cassandra laughed at me as she accompanies my movements.

I just smiled in my mind as I saw her smiling.

I invite her here because I want her to breathe. I feel like I am the one who is having a hard time with her situation, very chaotic.

"Is there nothing ?! Let me find an instant driver later! AHAHA!" I shouted back.

"Yeah, driver above you!" she answered immediately and we both laughed.

This one also has a sore mouth, but that is the only thing that is bad for her. Because even I turned the world upside down, this one is very innocent when it comes to bad things. Tsk!

"You're a future fortune teller HAHAHA!" 

"Let's have another drink first!" she nursed me and dragged me to the bar counter.

"The strongest hard drink," Cassandra and I said to the bartender.

"It's been 2 years Ayesha, you still can't move on with your ex?" she broke the silence and then slammed the counter.

Move on?

How to do that?

Why is it that every time I tried, I still come back to the beginning?

"There are probably things in the world that we will never forget," I said with my bitter language and raw smile.

"He's stupid," my friend replied angrily then drank her wine.

We continued drinking until we both became wasted. This is what I want, to get drunk so I can forget even just for a while.

Because of the alcohol in my system I dare Cassandra to body shot with a stranger. I made her do it because I want her to know what she really feels.

Was it affection or love?

Little later I pushed Cassandra to go to the man I pointed out. I just smiled as I leaned back on the sofa and closed my eyes because of the dizziness.

*flashback*

"What are you two doing?" I asked Ivann, my boyfriend for 1 and a half year.

He texted me to come to his condo and then I found them hugging while sitting and watching tv. Wow!

My knees began to twitch but I tried to calm myself.

Let him talk Ayesha you might just be in a thinking wrong.

His eyes looked at me without emotion before looking at the person next to him who was hugging his waist.

"Hugging my girlfriend," he said in the matter of fact tone which made my heart pierced into pieces.

I clung to the door because my knee weakened then looked at them again. They are still holding each other like I'm not here in their sight.

"What the fvck is the meaning of this?" I could not believe it while holding back my tears that were about to fall.

Ivann let out a sigh before touching the face of the woman with him then glared at me. "Let's break up Ayesha, I'm in love with my best friend," he uttered and kissed her in front of me.

*reality*

I slowly opened my eyes as my tears fell down.

Why do I always remember that scene at my drunk state? It's been two fvcking years and I still couldn't move. Damn it!

I wiped away my tears and glanced at Cassandra's direction again. I frowned when I didn't see her.

Where the fvck is she?

When my eyes really could not see her I decided to stand up to look for her even though I was very drunk.

I was about to get out in the VIP room when I bumped into someone causing my imbalance. I was expecting to fall to the floor but that did not happen because of the hot arm wrapped around my waist. He quickly turned me back causing me to sink into his massive chest.

A man. With that thought I distance myself and glance at him.

I tried my best to stop my chin to drop, hell the man in front of me is a goddess for fvck’s sake. The three buttons of his polo shirt are open so I can see his chest slightly so I averted my eyes.

"Thanks," I said sparingly and then tried to walk away from him.

I don't have time for men. It's funny to think that my friend thinks I'm a playgirl even though the truth is I never interacted with any man again.

"I'll take you home.” It was the man's baritone voice.

He was going to pass me so I automatically stopped and looked at him in amazement. He looks familiar, where did I see him?

Even though many different lights hit his face, his gray eyes still did not pass me by. His nose was piercing and his lips were red. I swallowed and looked away as my mind began to move around him.

I am dangerous in his presence ..

"Her husband picked up your friend and told me to take you home," he explained to me.

I silently groaned when he told me that. Why the fvck did they left me with a stranger?

Is this how karma really works?

I looked at the man without emotion even though his presence caused me some nervousness. I faked a smile then composed myself.

"Thank you Mr. whoever you are. You can go home, I can take care of myself," I mumbled with a smile, trying hard not to offend him.

His jaw clenched and checked me from head to toe. "Are you planning to take a cab with that condition lady?" 

I fell silent and nodded in response.

I could see the quick resistance in his eyes before licking his lip. I was stunned a bit by his action.

Control, Ayesha, control.

"It's not safe, whether you like it or not you're coming with me lady," he uttered and grabbed my hand as we walked together.

I am not even safe with this delicious creature!

I just pulled one of my hands over my head as we continued walking out.

What madness is happening to me? After 2 years of being no effect on me by men no matter how handsome they are or muscled now I just want this again. 

This is not good.

He quickly put me in his car and immediately fitted the seatbelt before he turned to the driver's seat.

Yeah, this is really not good especially when I can smell the feminine scent in her car.

It's either he's taken or a playboy ..

My whole instinct shouting danger at his presence. Fvck it! I'm so drunk that I couldn't do anything.

"Address?" he simply asked.

"Samaniego Heights," I answered then leaned on the seat of his car.

My vision is spinning that's why I closed my eyes and played the scene I was trying to forget for over this years.

Why am I being like this?

He is the one who left but I am the one who tortures myself, he is the one who fooled but I am the one who never forget.

This shouldn't be like this.

I am Ayesha Samaniego and I should not fall just because of the man. My beauty is so beautiful and two years of squabbling is enough.

It's time to lift myself up. If he is happy now, alas! I should too. With that thought I opened my eyes and glanced at the guy I'm with.

He was driving seriously when his grip on the steering wheel suddenly tightened.

No wonder he got my attention. Who doesn't? he was very handsome and very elegant.

"Did someone already tell you that staring is rude?" he said and gaze at me.

I raised my brow and gave him a mocking smile. "Sorry but that's not in my vocabulary," I said while still checking him out.

He smirked before focusing on the road. "Then what's in your vocabulary?" he asked.

A playful smile appeared on my lips as I get near him. I could see his forehead furrowed back to me then on the road.

"Holding this is rude," I mumbled as I touched his crotch.

He automatically step the break. "Fvck!" he cursed and glared at me.

I shrugged before adjusting to sitting again. A victory smile plastered on my lips.

"Are you playing with me woman?" he asked in monotone.

I secretly smiled before looking at him and pretending to be innocent.

"What play are you talking about?" I asked playing innocent, I licked my lips as I tried to pout.

This is why I hate alcohol.

He clenched his jaw as his gray eyes darkened watching me.