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ROYALS OF RIDGEWOOD KILLBIRD
STORMThey are carving my back open.I have been screaming in pain until I can't anymore. I have blacked out and drifted out of consciousness, seeking refuge in nothingness only to be met with more pain when I wake up again.“Please… stop, it's enough,” I am begging my own throat sounding foreign. I cough up blood and I can feel my back carving in itself as they continue to hack away at the tattoo.I have never known pain and cruelty like I do right now.“I don't enjoy doing this, child. But it's what I must do. They are my family, and you are a curse, I can't have a curse in m family.”“Please, stop. Please I am begging you.”“shut her up, I was more comfortable when she was just screaming,” Xaver talks and I blink, not seeing anything. My head is hung, my legs have given out, and my tied hands on the ceiling are the ones keeping me up.And then, an earthquake shakes the whole room, rattling me and I grit my teeth when my body is moved by the moment.“what's going on?” xaver asks an
Last Updated : 2023-05-14ROYALS OF RIDGEWOOD HOLD ON A LITTLE LONGER MY LOVE
COLEI start feeling the pains in my body like sharp needles.I fall on my knees as I hold the back of my neck I feel like someone is peeling off my skin.“what can we do?” Kyle asks me when he kneels before me.My brothers are all wearing worried faces because we know that she is being tortured. No one can do this to themselves. I just know that she is being held somewhere and someone is doing all these atrocities to her.“find her, do what you have to do,” I tell him and he claps on my shoulder, squeezing before running off to do what we came here to do.It feels like I am burning, but I force myself to stand up. she is going through all of this alone. I want to save her and kill the person doing this to her.“I have the explosions ready,” Landon and Dean meet me at the gate and I nod.I look at the huge mansion that’s fit to be a castle. My home. The place of horror now that I know that storm is being held in there somewhere.The men I talked to were more than willing to tell me al
Last Updated : 2023-05-15ROYALS OF RIDGEWOOD ALL YOU EVER DID WAS WRECK ME
STORMHe is screaming, the walls are caving in on us, but I do not care.I cannot make myself care for what is going to happen to me if I dare stay here any longer. Because I finally have him, if revenge is going to be the death of me, so be it. but I am not going to leave him, alive at that just so he can come after me again.That’s why as I hack away on his legs, it's to make sure he does have the legs to come to me. I know my projections, my nightmares and fears of this man I am killing are all coming out to play.He has been in my mind, he has invaded every part of my brain and turned it dark. He has stolen all the light and stuffed it out it all out.“I want you to know that I have been thinking about this ever since you killed my father in front of me,” I say as I tear his other limbs from his body. It’s a bloody gory mess. My mind is far gone, I can only do, relive all the horrors in my mind as they are playing.“you then went ahead and killed my mother in front of e again,” I
Last Updated : 2023-05-15ROYALS OF RIDGEWOOD TAKE A BREATHE, REMEMBER THE FIRE WE HAVE ,YOU AND I
KYLEI feel the ground rock underneath my feet and I run faster.Cole and Dean are at going through the entry that’s been created by the effects of the explosions.“Landon is in there,” Dean looks through the dark corridor in front of us.I nod and we all head in, not knowing what we are going to see.And that’s when I hear him screaming, it’s a painful wail, one I have never heard nor do I ever want to hear in my life.“Landon!” Cole runs towards the sound but I halt, my heart constricting. I already know what I am going to find. I know why he sounded like that.“Kyle, we can't separate, we need to move,” Dean sees me and stops as well.“I- I can't,” I shake my head as I run my hand over my chest.“Why, what's wrong?”“she- she is the reason why he has sounded like that,” I point towards where Landon is. “I can't- I ia m not prepared for what he is about to tell us.”“Kyle,” Dean pulls me in for a hug and I feel him trembling as well. We hug each other before he cups the back of my n
Last Updated : 2023-05-16ROYALS OF RIDGEWOOD I PROMISED YOU A FORVER OF DARKNESS, PAIN AND PLEASURE; YOU DONT GET TO WALK AWAY NOW
LANDON I am losing it. I had her, one second I was looking at her, going towards her and the next second, she was gone. Just like that. I hate her even more than I think I did. how dare she leave me like that? how dare she not move? How dare she disappear when I haven’t told her that I hate what she did to me and yet I still love her with all that I have in me? How dare she try to leave me this way, with all of this love and rage in me? “Can we think about the fact that she got away?” Kyle asks as he looks at the rubble like she is going to rise from them and walk toward us. I remember her saying that she would never leave. She kept me alive when I needed her most, yet she didn’t wait for me to save her. it is killing me, I am dying slowly. “How could she leave me?” “she found a way out,” Cole comes back, and there is something in his eyes I don’t want to see. Hope. “There is a crack enough to fit her body in there that connected outside. She found a way out.” “so she left
Last Updated : 2023-05-18ROYALS OF RIDGEWOOD YOU CAN'T BE A MUSE AND BE HAPPY TOO
STORMDust and smoke choke me as I crawl underneath the rubble that is about to crack me. I look at the metal that has stopped my near death, as I heave out, breathing in more dirt and I cough up as my eyes sting from it.A brick is trapping my left leg and I can't seem to move it. panic starts setting in, and I wonder if this was the smallest movement I was spared before my slow death approached. I move it, but it is of no use, the huge brick won't budge.“come on Storm, you have to move, this is your chance to survive.”Giving myself the needed motivation seems to help because I clench my jaw and pull my leg out, even as I feel like I am scraping the skin off it. I stifle the scream that wants to escape me. I can do it, just one more pull and I am free.I tug one more time and I have my leg free, but bloody. I can see the whites of my bone. So I was scrapping skin off it. I crawl out of the small space that’s starting to press in, biting my lip through the pain I feel all over my bo
Last Updated : 2023-05-19ROYALS OF RIDGEWOOD ALL ROADS THAT LEAD ME TO YOU ARE AS INTEGRAL TO ME AS ARTERIES
STORMIt’s the beeping sound that I notice at first. I hear a shushed conversation then a door locks. I open my eyes, and I already know that what happened, what I was hoping in all of my heart to be a dream, is not a dream at all.I am in a white room, and I know I am in the hospital. My leg is suspended in front of me, my hand is in a cast, and my other one is in bandages.I feel tears cascading down my face. I am alone. and I am in this incredibly powerful pain, but it's not physical. It's in my heart. I feel my body shaking as I try to stifle my sob but I can't.I miss them, oh god I miss them so much. I want to be with them, I wish they were here with me but I feel like they are miles away from me. I didn't know if I can live like this.The door opens and I don’t even bother hiding that I am crying or the deep sadness that’s etched on my face. a woman with white hair and a man get in the room and she immediately looks worried.“you are awake, honey what's wrong, you are crying,”
Last Updated : 2023-05-19ROYALS OF RIDGEWOOD NOBODY SAID IT WOULD LAST FOREVER, BUT THAT DIDN'T MEAN WE WOULDN'T TRY
DEANIt started slowly.First, it was the headaches and then it was followed by him feeling like his bones were breaking like he was transitioning without meaning to.And now he is barely awake.Cole has been suffering and we don’t know what to do. ever since last week, I can only assume she has been getting further and further away and that’s why Cole is getting ill.He is getting sick from being apart from her. we haven’t started feeling the effects, and we don’t know if we can feel the effects, but I am worried. We are always on the road, after we held a funeral for Xaver, we couldn’t leave his body lying like that.We laid him to rest with his friends, our fathers.That was yesterday. It was a grim day. we stood there silent, only in attendance as we looked at the gravestones of our fathers and we didn’t feel a damn thing.That’s when I started thinking that maybe we are monsters. That maybe after all they wanted us to be we dud become them, only with a touch of something more. We
Last Updated : 2023-05-20
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ROYALS OF RIDGEWOOD THE ROYALS OF RIDGEWOOD
STORM Landon and I have been on the road for a week now and right now, we are on our way back home. It's so early, and I am quiet in my seat as I look outside the window as he drives. My whole life changed when I met them, and I cannot take it back, every single of them. I don’t regret any of it. I have decided to go home knowing that there is always going to be darkness in me, it's there to stay, and the best part of it is, I have found boys who want to join in on my darkness. They have shared theirs and invited me into theirs. It's my time to let them in and invite them on in mine. For great love, you must go through the pain. To have all that you desire, you must sacrifice. Pain and love go hand in hand, for you cannot love if you don’t feel the pain of it, it goes together. You cannot know what you have until you have lost it all. And that’s what I realized during my break. I did what I had to do, even went away for a minute from my love to know how true that statement was.
ROYALS OF RIDGEWOOD YOU AND I, TILL THE DAY WE DIE
STORM The bar around ends up being a biker's bar, with several bikers packed at the front. I shouldn’t, it's rowdy, and if I am guessing, when they see me alone some will try to hit on me taking me for a fragile little thing that has ended up where she isn’t supposed to. Even before I let that thought to sink in, I am already opening the door, the little bell at the top of the door chiming, and the whole bar goes quiet, all eyes turning towards me. I pause, taking it all in and all the people in. Burly men, tattoos covering their skins heavily, leather jackets and studs on some, a few girls on their laps, and they all look mean and menacing. I proceed to walk towards the tabletop counter where a woman bartender is watching me. everyone is watching me and after I sit down, when they realize I am not going away, they resume their talking. “what will you have?” she asks as she wipes a glass with the towel. “something that will make sure I have a good time tonight,” I reply as I hol
ROYALS OF RIDGEWOOD FEMME FATALE ERA
STORMDemons - Hayley Kiyoko is blasting off my speakers as I speed past cars on the highway. Singing along as I beat the steering wheel, wind in my hair as I come from a kill that left me freshly rejuvenated.It should worry me a great deal that the only thing that’s making me feel alive again is killing, but that thought only makes me laugh.I mean, who am I to deny who I am? Maybe it was destined for me to finally embrace this dark side of me without painting it to be a burden, like a means to an end to my purpose.I have no purpose now, other than to feel me again and love me.That’s a good purpose, I didn’t think I was all about self-love and all, I think to myself as I look at my blood-caked nails.I need to find a place to sleep in tonight, perhaps eat human food, cook of course, and sleep. Then tomorrow I do the same thing, I have a long list of people to unalive.I find a motel and check in, and I thank the gods for the showerhead, which has a fairly decent water pressure.I
ROYALS OF RIDGEWOOD I WON'T MISS YOU
STORMI never thought it could happen, but it is.I am standing by my Impala, looking at Ridgewood one last time before I speed away and I feel like I am leaving my soul and heart behind.This could be one of the things I will ever regret doing. I can't seem to remember why I am doing this because it hurts so much, but it's all for the better.I wipe away the tear sliding down my cheek and get in my car, revving the engine and speeding away.Back on the road again, alone, leaving all that I have ever wanted behind.I open my compartment glove and I find my old burner phone. I flip it open and find the number I am looking for.“hey Stevie, I need a job.”“Long time Cherry, where are you?”I am heading north, can you find me something worth my while?”“anything for you, but aren’t you rusty? Rumour has it-““Are you sending me the coordinates to a good hunt or not? I didn’t take you for a gossip.”“All I am saying is, now you are not as incognito as before, be careful out there.”“I did
ROYALS OF RIDGEWOOD THE CEREMONY
KYLE It’s a rainy gloomy day. It must be matching with my moods and those around me as we all await our bride to walk up to us. The ceremony is being held outdoors, the planners had thought that the day would be sunny and warm, but the rain has started and hasn’t stopped since an hour ago. I don’t mind, as I know this is not exactly how I wanted us to do this so here we are. “why did she not choose the other location that was offered?” Dean asks me quietly as we stand at the front of the huge tent serving as our shelter. They still managed to pull it off with the lowers, it would look magical was it not for the bitterness and bad taste in my mouth about this day. “doesn't matter, we are not here to party, we are just a means to an end for her to leave us,” I respond to him. “Can we all stop doing this? It's already in motion so let's get this over with,” Landon mutters. None of us have been in good shape or moods since last week when she said that she wanted to leave and the o
ROYALS OF RIDGEWOOD THE ICE QUEEN
STORMI find myself at Magdaline’s new house's doorstep.I press the doorbell before I think myself out of this.“come in honey,” she opens the door and waves me in I can feel all the walls drop down and I whimper as she pulls me into an embrace.“I have messed up everything,” I cry as she holds me.She soothes me and takes me to the couch. There is a young girl in the house who has been helping her and she brings me some tea and then leaves.“you have been through so much baby,” she says ss he pushes hair off my face.“I'm so tired,” I whisper as I curl on the couch, head on her lap.“I know,” she validates me. I go ahead and tell her all that has happened and she cries with me, and I feel so sleepy.“I don’t know if they will ever forgive me, but I need to get away.”“There is only one way that you can go away and they remain here unaffected by your absence.”“I will do it, anything. I need to fix myself and maybe one day we will be together again,” I tell her meaning every word.“y
ROYALS OF RIDGEWOOD DO RIGHT BY US
STORM“so you have been feeling this? all of you?” I ask them and their grim faces tell me everything.“Baby, you shut us down every step we take to help you,” Kyle approaches me and I take a step back.“I don’t want your help,” I tell him and he looks like I have slapped him.I don’t mean to o this, but I don’t think I can stop.“you have been drowning and we have been here asking you how to help you and you have said no. I don’t know what to do, I don’t know how to save you,” Landon speaks to me gently.“I don’t want to be saved, no one can save me,” I say. I can feel tears scrolling down my face.“why are you doing this?” Dean asks, his voice hurt.I exhale, steeling myself. “because none of you understand.”“Help us then understand you, we love you so much, too much to let you be this way,” Kyle approaches me once again and I let him come close to me. “let us in, please.”I want to give in so much, but it's going to be the same. It's going to feel like it has been for a while now.
ROYALS OF RIDGEWOOD SO CLOSE YET SO FAR AWAY
STORMMy whole being is cold. My insides are wound tight. I am aware of things that are happening, I can feel everything and I wish I wasn’t.Because tonight is the night all my fears have come true. I have been wishing my life was different for weeks now and tonight, the universe has said yes to them.I just lost my babies, and I know it's all,y doing. It doesn’t matter what they all say or try to tell me, this is my doing. They felt my hesitation, my longing for a different life and they have left me.You know what's stupid, it’s the fact that every time I felt like I was a clown, not being true to the rest of them I would talk to them and confide my true feelings to them.They wouldn’t judge me, they were inside me and they knew what was going on. They had come to be my partners in this ridiculously high life, and now they are gone.To be honest, I feel betrayed. They were here, and now they are gone. It's my fault, and yet a part of me thought that they would never leave.I am so
ROYALS OF RIDGEWOOD ALONE IN THE NIGHT
DEANI feel the pain laced through our bond.We have never cried before, but I can feel us all crying. storm has gone quiet, save for the double breathing she is experiencing. Kyle stands up as I take her in my arms straight to the tub.She isn’t even opening her eyes, her face is on my neck, holding on tight. The whole penthouse is quiet as we prepare a bath for her and I start to take off her clothes.She doesn’t let me.“let me get you cleaned up,” I ask her and she shakes her head no.“I need to be alone right now,” she says and I look at the others who all feel like the last thing she needs is to be alone.“Okay,” I say and start getting outside. The boys are hesitant to get out but we finally let her have the space and once the door is locked behind us, I can hear the soft cries.“fuck,” Cole sits outside the door head in his hands.“what the fuck happened?” I ask Landon quietly as I start to realize what has just happened. Storm just miscarried.“We were talking, she had an up
