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ROYALS OF RIDGEWOOD THAT'S THE HUMAN IN ME
STORM “I just got taken out on my first date dad. I loved it so much… and the only thing I wished to do right after is to come and talk to you about it. I know you are disappointed in me and mad about me getting tangled up with the boys… but I have never experienced anything like this in all my life.” I look up at the stars as I lie on the ground, the cold night breeze cooling my skin. “I have never felt like this … this feeling that bursts out my heart and makes me want to smile and giggle like a school girl any time either of them does something charming for me. today Dean was everything I had ever fantasized about when I went on my date. “I even fantasized about him being my boyfriend as he held my hand as we walked in and out of the restaurant. It's such a human way to think because we werewolves don’t brand ourselves with names like girlfriends and boyfriends, it's only claimed and mates. “But dad …. I wish they would ask me to be their girlfriend before we mated. And then te
ROYALS OF RIDGEWOOD OLD GHOSTS
STORM I am seated between Landon and Kyle; Dean is driving and Cole is on the shotgun. We have been driving for two hours now and I am beginning to feel cranky. Well, it could also be the heat. But I don’t say a word because for a drive that’s supposed to take over 25 hours, complaining when we are two hours in is a stretch. “how was your date?” Landon whispers in my ear and I turn slightly to look at him. Kyle fell asleep thirty minutes ago. “it was great, I enjoyed it,” I smile a little as I look at Dean who is talking silently with Cole in the front seat. “I wanted to be the first one to take you out you know?” he says as he rolls a strand of my hair on his finger giving it a soft tug. “oh yeah?” “yeah. I would have taken you to one of the best Chinese places in the whole of the state. The owner of the restaurant there is my friend. It would have been special,” he replies as he looks at me in that way of his that makes you feel like it's only the two of you in the world. “yo
ROYALS OF RIDGEWOOD GOD COMPLEX
STORM I am a perfect picture of a smile and ease on the outside but on the inside, I am panicking and cursing. “hey,” I plaster the fakest smile I can muster my voice high-pitched. She looks at me with her usual derision and then starts ogling at the guys not even trying to hide her obvious lust toward them. I will kick her teeth out and make her swallow them like pills. “what are you doing here?” I ask her, ignoring my obvious hate towards her. we never had a soft spot for each other to begin with. “I should ask you the same thing. last I heard you were in- “ “Okay, I think that’s enough catching up,” I start to push away the guys downstairs so that we can get the hell out and they all frown at me. I don’t have the effort nor the time to deal with all of this so I just smile at them and tell them to give me a second to talk to my friend. They agree but won't let me out of their sight. Once they are out of earshot I turn towards her angrily. “you have got the nerve,” I snarl.
ROYALS OF RIDGEWOOD I DON'T LIKE BOUNTY HUNTERS
KYLE I could hear them murmuring and then someone was shoved hard on a surface. I had to check what was taking so long so when I check to see why she was still not with me, I pause. My little stormy is holding the strange girl on the wall, in a position that has me frowning because I see the knife that the girl is pressing on her ribcage. My first instinct is to run toward her and tear the girl's head off, but I don’t because I hear the words that they exchange. And the girl is slowly lowering it and I pause again. Little Stormy is scary as fuck and the girl knows it as well because I can smell the fear that she feels even from here. she is scared of my little stormy and that alone makes me proud but…. Something is off. they are talking and threatening each other in ways that tell me this isn’t out of a normal setting. She is speaking about being places to be and killings to do, well, that’s as much as I can get because Storm sees me and then there is that look on her again. Li
ROYALS OF RIDGEWOOD STEER CLEAR OF A JEALOUS WEREWOLF
STORM The dinner turns out to be from hell. It's stiff and it's so clear to everyone that Kyle and I are not on the best terms. It comes to me as a shock that we might be having our first fight. I sigh as I look outside the window as we are driving to the place we all decided was the best fit for us and that is a cabin far from the road. I don’t know when we will be on the road again but I know that I am ready to sleep this day off and put it behind me, only I can't. “so you aren’t going to tell me how you know the hunter? You aren’t going to admit anything? Kyle asks me from where he is seated beside me and I roll my eyes but he can't see. “no, because I happened to have a life outside of you when we first met, remember? I don’t know what you want me to admit to. it's not like I am close with her or anything.” “guys,” Dean starts speaking from the driver's seat and Kyle shoots him a glare. “stay out of this, this is between me and her,” he warns and I roll my eyes now and he ca
ROYALS OF RIDGEWOOD REMEMBER WHO YOU BELONG TO
STORM “you have it all so wrong,” I start but he presses closer. “for someone hellbent on lying tonight, you are not so good at it.” “she wasn’t my anything!” he is being delusional. “I saw how she looked at you, how she desired you. I could scent her desire for you,” his nose flares in disgust and he bares his fangs at me and it finally clicks in place. He is very jealous of Viola and if what he is saying is somewhat true, that would be weird because Viola has nothing but hate for me. the feeling being mutual ofcourse. “then why are you all over my case when I clearly wasn’t aware of it?” I shout at him pushing him away but he doesn’t budge an inch. “because I saw how you both tried to act like it never happened, like your past was something we weren’t supposed to know. It disturbed my wolf, I didn't like it.” “I don't have the energy to deal with your jealousy right now,” I push him hard and manage to escape his reach. “you are insane! Other than ask me calmly you are here a
ROYALS OF RIDGEWOOD EMOTIONAL CONNECTIONS
LANDON The yelling and screaming have been going on for a while now. “do you think we should intervene?” Dean asks to pace as he looks at the closed door. “we should let them figure it out on their own,” Cole takes a sip of a drink as he sits on the chair, his leg above his knee. “he shouldn’t be giving her so much grief about it, she didn’t seem to know,” Dean argues and I sigh. “yeah, but we aren’t so rational about it as we would normally be. You know it, that’s why you want to be there right now,” I tell him and he shakes his head. “Kyle is just jealous.” “and you aren’t?” “I am, but shit!” Every baser nature about me is screaming for me to go to her, and tearing Kyle apart for trying to hide her from us when they were arguing. To protect her from him. I can see it in others as well; from how Cole is holding the glass a little too tightly and his knee keeps bouncing. Dean is more open about it and I can see how his fists are balled up at his sides. On the hand, I am clenc
ROYALS OF RIDGEWOOD MY BEAUTIFUL STORM, WITH SAD EYES
LANDON I can still remember the first time I saw her. I thought she had sad eyes and a mystery to her that I didn’t want to dive deep into because I would be lost in those sparkling blue eyes. I drink her in as she sits in front of me. As we sit in the tub, her eyes onto mine. She still has a mystery around her, and there is this foreboding look that is settled in her eyes. There is sadness too. I have watched her for a long time, and been with her for far too long to know when she is comfortable, happy, tired, sad, or unsettled. Right now, she is uncertain. She seems like she is battling something inside of her that she fears will consume her. Her internal battle seems to rival mine as I continue to let my memory filter in what I thought at first was my imagination, but as days have gone by, I realize they aren’t imaginations. I can now remember the time when I was with her at the beach when I was stuck in my wolf form. I can remember the conversations she had with me as I lay
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ROYALS OF RIDGEWOOD THE ROYALS OF RIDGEWOOD
STORM Landon and I have been on the road for a week now and right now, we are on our way back home. It's so early, and I am quiet in my seat as I look outside the window as he drives. My whole life changed when I met them, and I cannot take it back, every single of them. I don’t regret any of it. I have decided to go home knowing that there is always going to be darkness in me, it's there to stay, and the best part of it is, I have found boys who want to join in on my darkness. They have shared theirs and invited me into theirs. It's my time to let them in and invite them on in mine. For great love, you must go through the pain. To have all that you desire, you must sacrifice. Pain and love go hand in hand, for you cannot love if you don’t feel the pain of it, it goes together. You cannot know what you have until you have lost it all. And that’s what I realized during my break. I did what I had to do, even went away for a minute from my love to know how true that statement was.
ROYALS OF RIDGEWOOD YOU AND I, TILL THE DAY WE DIE
STORM The bar around ends up being a biker's bar, with several bikers packed at the front. I shouldn’t, it's rowdy, and if I am guessing, when they see me alone some will try to hit on me taking me for a fragile little thing that has ended up where she isn’t supposed to. Even before I let that thought to sink in, I am already opening the door, the little bell at the top of the door chiming, and the whole bar goes quiet, all eyes turning towards me. I pause, taking it all in and all the people in. Burly men, tattoos covering their skins heavily, leather jackets and studs on some, a few girls on their laps, and they all look mean and menacing. I proceed to walk towards the tabletop counter where a woman bartender is watching me. everyone is watching me and after I sit down, when they realize I am not going away, they resume their talking. “what will you have?” she asks as she wipes a glass with the towel. “something that will make sure I have a good time tonight,” I reply as I hol
ROYALS OF RIDGEWOOD FEMME FATALE ERA
STORMDemons - Hayley Kiyoko is blasting off my speakers as I speed past cars on the highway. Singing along as I beat the steering wheel, wind in my hair as I come from a kill that left me freshly rejuvenated.It should worry me a great deal that the only thing that’s making me feel alive again is killing, but that thought only makes me laugh.I mean, who am I to deny who I am? Maybe it was destined for me to finally embrace this dark side of me without painting it to be a burden, like a means to an end to my purpose.I have no purpose now, other than to feel me again and love me.That’s a good purpose, I didn’t think I was all about self-love and all, I think to myself as I look at my blood-caked nails.I need to find a place to sleep in tonight, perhaps eat human food, cook of course, and sleep. Then tomorrow I do the same thing, I have a long list of people to unalive.I find a motel and check in, and I thank the gods for the showerhead, which has a fairly decent water pressure.I
ROYALS OF RIDGEWOOD I WON'T MISS YOU
STORMI never thought it could happen, but it is.I am standing by my Impala, looking at Ridgewood one last time before I speed away and I feel like I am leaving my soul and heart behind.This could be one of the things I will ever regret doing. I can't seem to remember why I am doing this because it hurts so much, but it's all for the better.I wipe away the tear sliding down my cheek and get in my car, revving the engine and speeding away.Back on the road again, alone, leaving all that I have ever wanted behind.I open my compartment glove and I find my old burner phone. I flip it open and find the number I am looking for.“hey Stevie, I need a job.”“Long time Cherry, where are you?”I am heading north, can you find me something worth my while?”“anything for you, but aren’t you rusty? Rumour has it-““Are you sending me the coordinates to a good hunt or not? I didn’t take you for a gossip.”“All I am saying is, now you are not as incognito as before, be careful out there.”“I did
ROYALS OF RIDGEWOOD THE CEREMONY
KYLE It’s a rainy gloomy day. It must be matching with my moods and those around me as we all await our bride to walk up to us. The ceremony is being held outdoors, the planners had thought that the day would be sunny and warm, but the rain has started and hasn’t stopped since an hour ago. I don’t mind, as I know this is not exactly how I wanted us to do this so here we are. “why did she not choose the other location that was offered?” Dean asks me quietly as we stand at the front of the huge tent serving as our shelter. They still managed to pull it off with the lowers, it would look magical was it not for the bitterness and bad taste in my mouth about this day. “doesn't matter, we are not here to party, we are just a means to an end for her to leave us,” I respond to him. “Can we all stop doing this? It's already in motion so let's get this over with,” Landon mutters. None of us have been in good shape or moods since last week when she said that she wanted to leave and the o
ROYALS OF RIDGEWOOD THE ICE QUEEN
STORMI find myself at Magdaline’s new house's doorstep.I press the doorbell before I think myself out of this.“come in honey,” she opens the door and waves me in I can feel all the walls drop down and I whimper as she pulls me into an embrace.“I have messed up everything,” I cry as she holds me.She soothes me and takes me to the couch. There is a young girl in the house who has been helping her and she brings me some tea and then leaves.“you have been through so much baby,” she says ss he pushes hair off my face.“I'm so tired,” I whisper as I curl on the couch, head on her lap.“I know,” she validates me. I go ahead and tell her all that has happened and she cries with me, and I feel so sleepy.“I don’t know if they will ever forgive me, but I need to get away.”“There is only one way that you can go away and they remain here unaffected by your absence.”“I will do it, anything. I need to fix myself and maybe one day we will be together again,” I tell her meaning every word.“y
ROYALS OF RIDGEWOOD DO RIGHT BY US
STORM“so you have been feeling this? all of you?” I ask them and their grim faces tell me everything.“Baby, you shut us down every step we take to help you,” Kyle approaches me and I take a step back.“I don’t want your help,” I tell him and he looks like I have slapped him.I don’t mean to o this, but I don’t think I can stop.“you have been drowning and we have been here asking you how to help you and you have said no. I don’t know what to do, I don’t know how to save you,” Landon speaks to me gently.“I don’t want to be saved, no one can save me,” I say. I can feel tears scrolling down my face.“why are you doing this?” Dean asks, his voice hurt.I exhale, steeling myself. “because none of you understand.”“Help us then understand you, we love you so much, too much to let you be this way,” Kyle approaches me once again and I let him come close to me. “let us in, please.”I want to give in so much, but it's going to be the same. It's going to feel like it has been for a while now.
ROYALS OF RIDGEWOOD SO CLOSE YET SO FAR AWAY
STORMMy whole being is cold. My insides are wound tight. I am aware of things that are happening, I can feel everything and I wish I wasn’t.Because tonight is the night all my fears have come true. I have been wishing my life was different for weeks now and tonight, the universe has said yes to them.I just lost my babies, and I know it's all,y doing. It doesn’t matter what they all say or try to tell me, this is my doing. They felt my hesitation, my longing for a different life and they have left me.You know what's stupid, it’s the fact that every time I felt like I was a clown, not being true to the rest of them I would talk to them and confide my true feelings to them.They wouldn’t judge me, they were inside me and they knew what was going on. They had come to be my partners in this ridiculously high life, and now they are gone.To be honest, I feel betrayed. They were here, and now they are gone. It's my fault, and yet a part of me thought that they would never leave.I am so
ROYALS OF RIDGEWOOD ALONE IN THE NIGHT
DEANI feel the pain laced through our bond.We have never cried before, but I can feel us all crying. storm has gone quiet, save for the double breathing she is experiencing. Kyle stands up as I take her in my arms straight to the tub.She isn’t even opening her eyes, her face is on my neck, holding on tight. The whole penthouse is quiet as we prepare a bath for her and I start to take off her clothes.She doesn’t let me.“let me get you cleaned up,” I ask her and she shakes her head no.“I need to be alone right now,” she says and I look at the others who all feel like the last thing she needs is to be alone.“Okay,” I say and start getting outside. The boys are hesitant to get out but we finally let her have the space and once the door is locked behind us, I can hear the soft cries.“fuck,” Cole sits outside the door head in his hands.“what the fuck happened?” I ask Landon quietly as I start to realize what has just happened. Storm just miscarried.“We were talking, she had an up
